featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

Scatterbrain

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



Listen on Spotify!

Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

stream on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kj0DH_Yzdj4

album otw !! :D

vocals by @supachefm & @guardin
production by @youlooktired & @remghost
mixed and master by @polearm

way too long w/ guardin (prod. youlooktired x remghost)

Sunray, the thunderstorm

daydreams (savedmessage)

@guccihighwaters
thank you to everyone that's been supporting this page so far
you guys are the best forreal <3

[softheart]
break me tell me i'm nothing please 
send me on my way please 
barely i'm not there [x2]
yeah
take me and all you did was break me i've been telling lies
since i been alive
don't bury me with anything cant take it when i die
im just watching time
take me with the tides
on the other side
i just want you to tell me i'm alright
i just want you to tell me i'm all
i just want you to tell me i'm alright
and it don't matter if you're lying at all
im lost in the waves lied tossed it away i know
baby i know
and well have enough never
well be wanting for forever
on the other side
theres always something better

[guccihighwaters]
break me like i’m nothing to you 
is it a question like how’d i even lose you
you never ask me if i’m okay 
love is not a one way it’s got two lanes 
and i crash and I burn the damage 
and i crash and I burn the damage 
it’s my own fault yeah i watched it happen

see you on the other side (feat. guccihighwaters)

There's A Monster Inside Of Me

Outside Lately (theydontknowme)

Running In Circles

Support Venus: https://www.youtube.com/c/venusboy

_____________________________________________________
Lyrics:
missing all the late nights snuggled tight
Had one glimpse upon that face, I know the feelings right
I cannot forget the taste of your tongue
I'm so drunken in love
I think I might know the meaning now
~ (ohhhh)
can't you just feel it now
it's been a year since you apeared a head above the crowd
you're something special
you are simply picture perfect
and I'm sure your embrace will be worth it
to fight through all the sleepless nights
and I remember last december you entered my life
you brought me hope again
and filled me from within
brought love to my life, shine bright girl
~
and I think every single night
I apprciate ya
sorry if i'm distant
you and music are my mediators
so I thought I'd put together a few songs so I can just show
how much I really love you, come together and we just soak
~
In the sunlight
love shine so bright
I'm outta words right now
you're my partner in crime
you're my world, lie down
with you're on my chest
calm my nerves right down
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
In the sunlight
love shine so bright
I'm outta words right now
you're my partner in crime
you're my world, lie down
with you're on my chest
calm my nerves right down
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)

5 AM [prod. venus]

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just happy to be here

Sunray, the thunderstorm

Softheart