i was picking something off the vine 
working with what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret it
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling 
i been tryna chase this feeling
all this time and space that its stealing
my life its like if i let you inside 
know it meant the most that you were in it
i was picking something off the vine 
working what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret 
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling

Grapevine (prod. sorrow bringer)

Gold coins change and doubloons

The act of sampling ... and that's when i understood

(prod sorrow bringer)
@sorrow_bringer

its a nightmare no its not a fairytale
im an alien 
im not american
and im not ur fucking experiment
for you to discard
when the times up and youre sick of listening
its embarassing
you dont care a bit
grab my face and i scratch claw and tear at it
till i rip it off
i never liked it much when i was wearing it 
i know that they staring
i dont care a bit
and i know that i love to my own detriment 
can we just talk about something else instead
and every time i think about u i just drop dead
and now im just standing there holding my head
i dont wanna miss out if im not there
i dont wanna leave the house when your haunt it
i dont wanna leave the house when u ----
its a nightmare no its not a fairytale
im an alien 
not american
and im not ur fucking experiment
for you to discard
when the times up and youre sick of listening
its embarassing
you dont care a bit
grab my face and i scratch claw and tear at it
till i rip it off
i never liked it much when i was wearing it

drop dead

i dont wanna hesitate
wanna go with what i feel
and i look at both my hands
just to make sure im still here
and i check my pulse heartbeat
just to make sure i can hear it 
and i find the closest mirror
just to make sure im still real 
so i force myself outside
and i crawl out from my cave 
and i hear whoosh of tires
and i feel wind on my face
and i zone out for a sec
cause i was thinkin of you
i was in this nice daydream
it was only just us two
and everything was so good 
and we lived a simple life
in a little house in the woods
with the birds and butterflies

cautious and delicate 
only if its right
only if its right
let me know if

if you wanna hang sometime
on the roof of your old house
we can sit and watch the sky
n find pictures in the clouds 
when im bored i think about
how wed sit and talk for hours
but it doesnt feel that long
wasnt even keeping count 
and we held our bodies close
and you said that i was warm
and i think about it sometimes
and how i want it more
and everything is so good
and everything feels just right
like ill wake up from this dream
and its only just one night

cautious and delicate

I've been meeting myself every day
Now I'm seeing all these new shapes
I've been finding all these loose tapes
Building up a whole story to say
Build a little world and escape
We can take our time in a new game
New shape
Filled a little bit out of the outline
I don't have much stuff to say
Woke up in a new place less grey 
With a new face and a new name
Yeah but I'm so not two-faced
Tremor made me feel goosebumps
I've been playing waiting room games

And I still remember how I felt then
It's still in me
If you see something else, well, what does it mean?
I don't need any help anymore
I'm not- not incomplete
Colors are still in me
Happy and interweaved
But you say it 
I don't think that it's much different when I'm not sad
I don't miss it, it's my own bad
I don't miss it, it's my own bad
I don't miss

u sleep in an antique shop
and i keep losing my thoughts staring at the walls
you put one of your records on 
and i thought it was so cool that we get along
it is a really cool record collection
you told me it was pretty expensive 
not to brag or to sound impressive
but just like, it was really extensive

top floor window

guitar and drums done by noah walker @mr_innervue

Stranger.demo (2021 version)

9tails-melissa

[Intro]
I been—

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (I just wanna feel alive)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine
I won't find another human like you in my life, yeah (In my life)

[Verse 1]
Catching photos, where'd the time go? (Where'd it go?)
Facebook memories from the last snow (Last snow)
Strive for times where I won't answer to employers (No employers)
Work and music keep me busy, I don't know her (I don't know her)
Baby, get to know me, I wish we'd get closer (Get closer)
Gain connection then start breaking down the borders (Breaking down the borders)
Way back, way, way back (Way back)
I forgot the loving and I never got it back (Never got it back)
Playlist, crybaby face tat
Knew that you were something special
When you told me that it slap (R.I.P.)
I keep tasting shit when I breathe (Tasting shit)
Pull it nice with the bong, need it to be clean
Gold ring on my nose, gold ring on my finger (Ring on my finger)
Ballin' up in the Northface, loud hit the coat and it linger (Linger)
She said she wouldn't call me a singer
But all my shit fucking slaps
Baby, call me whatever
Fuck the neutron, I gotta blast

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (Ooh)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side (Ayy, woah)
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine (Yeah, yeah, ayy)
I won’t find another human like you in my life, yeah

[Verse 2]
What would you call me (What would you call me?)
Smoking on palm tree (Palm tree)
Hair look like shiitake (Mushroom)
Bars icy like hockey

[Open Verse]

9TAILS - connect (prod. yusei)

Anything But Subtle

Timeout

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just happy to be here

The act of sampling ... and that's when i understood

Softheart