shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

What did yours say?

lyrics ⬇️ <3

(me)
cold heart
long arms you can reach
restart although I don’t wanna repeat
it’s hard for you to see
you can hardly even believe 
but I been going through it
so you have been deceived 

there’s high waters where I’m coming from
no way out I need someone to come and cover him
don’t bleed out
no high hopes I’m always suffering 
so astound
yea this time I don’t need a single thing from your mouth

but they’re never proud and I been alone
you’re never around to see
i don’t like my town I don’t like my crowd
but I’m not allowed to leave
somebody please help me
I’ll give you my love and peace
I’ll listen to wind hit trees
theres no way that I can sleep

and just like the rain all my tears have been pouring
she used to just make me feel so damn important 
inside
i trusted ur love but u sold me some lies
keep holding my hand while we wait for the time to tick
trying to cross but u burning my bridge
self medicate ima roll up a spliff
so unaware of the shit that you did 
to me
and honestly it’s getting hard
but trying my best is what tore us apart
and each time i talk you dont care what i say
i think it’s my fault im the one with the blame
and im sorryyyyy
i’m sorrryyy i knew where this would go
(me)
put the lights out tell everybody to leave
when the price down I always spend all my money
i try to hide out
but everybody come an find me
like what’s to cry abt
Like baby look at what’s all wrong with me

(greenwood)
'u up?' at 3 but i black out at 2
lately it's more than 'im not in the mood'
know that i wish that i wanted it too

i fill this cup like im probably dead in a year by myself
it's entirely on what i said
but i hate that you lied to me, fuck

solid states turn to disarray
at the edge, do you feel the same?
off the ket i've been up for days
you're the best, baby never change

i saw your face on the way down
cover yourself as it fades out
i'd be ashamed if you stay now
cover yourself, would you stay out?

and i fuck it up like a prodigy
on my own shit, i just wish that you'd talk to me
i feel at home with my place as a prodical
i take these pills, im ok when i'm off of them

never this way, it just fits so improbable 
hear what you said in the dark in the hospital
black in my skin i feel bad when i'm falling in
ask what had changed, i break down
fucking all of it

this town is a burden w/ halfhearted & Greenwood (slashy)

Entropy
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Entropy
You could look in my eyes and just tell that I'm gone
Entropy
It's the state of my mind after packing the bong
My room is always a mess, Piling stress
Can't say I'm trying my best
Chaos is on the horizon
Fight like I'm Tyson
God this life sucks like a Dyson
Always fall back into my stupid ways
Thought it would stop but this shits not a phase
All my mistakes I have them on replay
Up in my mind until I fade away
To nothing
Now I have nothing
Oh don't I know myself, not anymore
Tired of bluffing
I play pretend when I walk out the door
Act like I'm something
Waking up sober and cold on the floor
Clutching to nothing

Entropy
You could look in my eyes and just tell that I'm gone
Entropy
It's the state of my mind after packing the bong
Entropy
The easiest path is most often the wrong
Entropy
The choices you make will come back and haunt

I collect addictions
Like a trophy on the wall
Static in the air
I can barely breathe at all
In this generation we truly have it all
Overstimulation, we're in constant withdrawal
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Produced & mixed by John Wehmeyer & Weepings
Written by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Eternal September | 2023

Entropy

sometimes i just walk around the house to move a little

bevwalk (prod. vinogradov)

00111010 00101000 interlude (prod. killedmyself)

[Intro]
4ever young
I hate Shinigami

[Chorus]
I wanna fly to the sky right now
Dissipate to the grave right now
Just thought I would have known it all by now
Put the barrel in my mouth right now
Right now, I'm up
I'm down, can't feel
My body, can't hear
A sound, right now
Right now, I'm up
I'm down, I'm too
Far gone, please hold
Me down

[Verse 1]
I don't think that you noticed
I'm so distant, out of focus
Paint a picture with my ignorance
Feel the spectrum with dissonance
Dissolution, destruction
I am a product of corruption
In due time, I'll find you
Until then, I'll remind you
Of a place you've seen, buried in your dreams
Haven't visited in years, why does it mean so much to me?

9TAILS - right now (ft. shinigami)

Strings and Time

Nocturnal

Worth It, Still Worthless

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just happy to be here

What did yours say?

Softheart