your appetite is not easy on me

pillow pit

love song 4 the ghost i see in my room sometimes 

original beat by killedmyself (chopped and pitched)
additional violin by my good friend Mohini 

its not somethin else
its exactly whats the most obvious
its so easy to tell
and im no good at hiding it
its rly not that hard to figure out
the obsessions not mutual 
i know u like me but not as much
i wanna be what you think about
i cant help but fall in one sided love 

and im stuck in it  
i get so dumb in it 
there might be something
to make me feel more whole 
somehow 
your touch that feels like home 
but then u cast me off and i end up more alone
strung up
im just a puppet
u can make me dance 
im happy to perform 
in ur bed
im nestled up and warm
hoping 
the night can last more long 

ive been numbed up i dont feel it 
i dont feel the touch im too hollow
can u help me get more human 
maybe some emotions to borrow 
i think im the worlds best escapist 
back then i just didnt wanna exist
so i buried my head in the sand
look at all the time i wasted

. . . . .

when im in your arms it felt so warm like home

scary games with the lights off

sometimes idk why i say such fucked up stuff in my songs, i'm really sorry if i give a bad impression with it. i try to work on it but i always end up making stuff when im at my lowest and it's this weird thing where i don't want to hide what i want to say, but i also dont want to say anything thats too dark, idk i just want to say i hope everyone does good in life and makes it out of whatever rut their in (if you're in one that is)

i really don't want to make things worse, add to negative feelings or give bad ideas to anyone thats struggling. i really dont want anyone to get that impression. i really wish the best for people

sometimes when shit gets really bad, i just sit down and make music. its a good distraction and i try and turn the feelings or what im going through into something positive, if i miss the mark on it then i try again.

ghost inside the screen (prod. ocurie + xtasane)

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Case

fuck i didnt produce this im finding the producer my bad lollll

Silent Hold

Anything But Subtle

Timeout

Put My Things Down

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just happy to be here

when im in your arms it felt so warm like home

Softheart