اندال

Help Me

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

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solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-downers-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

free download

Downers (feat. guccihighwaters)

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-better-me-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
production/mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

Better Me (feat. guccihighwaters)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-when-it-runs-up-lyrics

produced by @guccihighwaters and softheart
guitar by @cisco-kid-music

When It Runs Up (feat. guccihighwaters)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OkrzFmxBHVM

prod lee

i know when i write this you won't like it yeah i'm sad
wishin you would smile when your hearts under attack
yeah i'm breathin really heavy baby please don't turn your back
i be talkin out our problems while you miss your mom and dad

you miss em bad too, tell me when i ask you
love your authenticity you're pretty but you're sad too
and you know i'll always love you even if i don't have to
baby you're my everything i'm sorry for my bad mood

baby girl i trust you more than i can put in words
i'd be happy to help you if you would tell me when it hurts
you be cryin every night its not depression its a curse
you're the girl that i've been fightn for but you think you're the worst

it's like every time i look into your eyes i swear
nothin in the world could ever compare
no,

when i fell for you i dove
finally i'm happy honestly i lost hope

do you feel your heart sink when you think of my face
does it help you fall asleep or does it keep you awake
do you see me in your dreams, do i haunt you in your sleep
do you wish that i was someone else you wanted me to be

i can't take it all the pressure on my back
wishin i was different we both blame it on my past
i can't even act right, i don't ever sleep
wishin i was everything you wanted me to be

no i can't take this i've been breakin
you stay on my mind
half the time i write about you
i don't wanna try

it's like every time i look into your eyes i swear
nothin in the world could ever compare
no,

when i fell for you i dove
finally i'm happy honestly i lost hope

i can't even take it all i ever do is stress out
feelin like i'm light its like i never put the pen down
and murder every line every time i'm a threat bro
killin every track like i got a fuckin deathnote

pretty sad (prod. lee)

Lyrics:
im a fuckin peice of shit, why you always gotta bitch
let me sleep in if i wanna, get the fuck up off my dick
know my mind is really sick cause i like it when you kick
-in me down cause i deserve it when i cant learn a new trick

im a dog, im a ghost, im the one you hate the most
im that toxic drink youre pouring raise me up propose a toast
this ones for all of the loosers, the forgotten, diagnosed
cause im one of you but im the king i really hate to boast

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of

i recorded all my verses, but im still dead like some hearses
and im trapped inside my body i feel like i need some nurses
i feel like i need some surgery, for all the shit thats hurting me
but im a ghost im never seen, i know that yall aint heard of me

write down in chalk, all the shit that i lost
while i run out the clock, just before it gets washed
know the year has been hard, got you down in the dark
cause the future is stark, that you 'bout to embark

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of
x2

i been living with the pain, yeah
but i know ill be okay, yeah
if you march right to your grave, yeah
nothing will ever be the same, without you

graves

prod. pink

lyrics:
Let's pretend that I'm alright
I'm anxious little psychopathic fuck
can't sleep at night
all alone the thoughts they've grown
and I ain't putting up no fight
can't conduce the fucking truth up out your mouth but that's alright
~
can't control but my mind grip
gotta let it go the thoughts they flow
ain't gotta fucking trip
lifes a puzzle, mind is muddled
clear it up, I kiss your lips
grip your hips
biting on your neck until you fucking drip

like a puddle, we cuddle until the sundown
ride my shuttle rebuttal, we smoke and comedown
I'm so faded, I'm crossed
intoxicated I'm lost
inebriated what cost?
I'm feeling run down

been stuck in head sometimes
don't leave me for dead, i'm blind
in due time i will find
that, it don't matter what you wanna do
just put you're all into
focus you're mind and I swear you will get it
don't stress the small, stand up tall pay attention
sure you fall, but will you get up? redemption

Let's pretend that I'm alright
I'm anxious little psychopathic fuck
can't sleep at night
all alone the thoughts they've grown
and I ain't putting up no fight
can't conduce the fucking truth up out your mouth but that's alright
~
can't control but my mind grip
gotta let it go the thoughts they flow
ain't gotta fucking trip
lifes a puzzle, mind is muddled
clear it up, I kiss your lips
grip your hips
biting on your neck until you fucking drip

like a puddle, we cuddle until the sundown
ride my shuttle rebuttal, we smoke and comedown
I'm so faded, I'm crossed
intoxicated I'm lost
inebriated what cost?
I'm feeling run down

PanicAttack! [prod. pink]

Imma go and leave the house again i got my backbone
Watch the ground shatter glass when i walk up on
People only call me when there something always wrong
I see distant memories creepin when i pass by
Hope its the last time
Stay connected like its land line
Watch my footing cause im surrounded by land mines
Never gonna trip cause im allways on stand by
I got ice up on my wrist you know this shit took time

Pills in my system only reason I would fall
Error in my coding so i always reinstall
They always try to stop me but im breaking threw these walls
Still hopin for that call

every night
baby i used to see u bout like every night
now im like
are we alright
damn
i just hold my head and dig my feet into the sand
man i miss my home land
u look like an angel in this candle light ya
the news had said that storm out west been heading over here
we sit in front this fire waiting for it to appear
while my eyes roll back into me as shes thumbing thru my hair
exhausting all my energy into the summer air
i swear i had this in me way before i was aware
sheath this field when im in public cause i hate when people stare
this aura seeping out of me whenever im feeling scared
black clovers
covering my books
im tainted
i levelled before i was ready now its rage i shoulda waited
rippin thru my mind i separate from what i hated
i live in constant fear of my projection in my basement

Everyday thinkful to god that i made it 22 
I be mixin all my pills and with my liquor to
She be fuckin good im keepin all the answers inside the coop
She tell me that’s she wasted i tell her im am to
Markings on her body 
She levitate the room
In my mind i tell her that ill see her soon
I be writing scriptures in these pages
Witth you know i keep it weighted 
Hated
Only show me love when your jaded
New beginnings but im feeling outdated 
Comin home to see nobody waited
Oblivious is stated

Standby ft sewerperson (Prod. APT.102)

stare at all the pictures on the wall
crack that whippet then I fall
fade to bliss then stand up tall
might take another trip out to the mall
blow that cash on Saint Laurent
spark that joint then lay dormant like
wake up from my slumber
then I stumble out the door
each day it blends it never it ends, I stopped keeping that score
my ego pleading nose is bleeding I just need some more
that glass I'm gonna pour till my body hit the floor
~
I don't really know how to get back
I just lose control and I go mad
present is the only thing that matters that don't mean to get so fucked up you cannot see the shatters in the glass
time is moving fast
your actions in the present shape your future fuck the past
I write out on computers all these letters just to last
now just take a look at me I'm rapping so damn fast

Woah
I know
I cannot fuck with 9-5
this music shit best fly up high
in that space ship
20,000 miles in the sky
lets just face it 
I don't really wanna fucking  try
light that blunt, hit yes I'm thinking that I'm going blind
in this maze bitch and you gotta find that golden line
find your place quick, just before you run out of your time

just rewind that
and you'll find that
every fucking second wasted of your time man
every single kiss and every single touch man
it's all temporary.
back in February
had a thought about just running from this sanctuary
had that knife against my jugular
thought about it, kinda hurts
ultimately I don't know what stopped me but I'm glad I'm cursed

I don't really know how to get back
I just lose control and I go mad
present is the only thing that matters that don't mean to get so fucked up you cannot see the shatters in the glass
time is moving fast
your actions in the present shape your future fuck the past
I write out on computers all these letters just to last
now just take a look at me I'm rapping so damn fast

fuck that shit I gotta hit slow
ya'll be missing every note
I be on another time frame
flip the fucking beat onto it's toes
when I'm feeling blue I know
pink can help me write some more flame

lost inside my mental and I know
I've been losing all control
and these flows just help to numb pain
yes i'm sure you know just how it goes 
gotta fill the void in full
and Ignore all of the time waste

Losing Control II [prod. pink]

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just happy to be here