SKS songs

Painting by Francisco de Goya

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oh mother night, made whole of me
 come restlessly endlessly in the sea
from the bottom out, give away to rising tides
that follow endlessly

gather wood beneath, and follow under 
Goetia
where all the angels sink
& where the demons breed

climb on aboard our ship, entity from the sea
something takes ahold of her, then takes ahold in me
and something takes ahold in her
then takes ahold of me

& the spirits will guide us all towards the new land

gather around the fire, kids
and cheer out for the elder god
gather around the fire, dogs
and bow down to the elder god
fly above the fire, birds
and sing out for the elder god
gather around the fire, kids
and cheer out for the elder god
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Goetia

"Roller Coaster Girl"  is one of the first songs I wrote.  It went through different stages and evolutions before finally landing on this version.  I began writing it when I was 16 years old.

When I was 16 years old, I was in love with a girl.  Her name was Stephanie Dixon.  She loved me very much too.  Stephanie Dixon was a drug addict... There's a lot to the story, but that's the gist of it.  It tore our relationship apart.  I don't know if you've been in love with a drug addict before, but It's horrible.  
Somedays she would be very loving to me... Other days, she would be very cruel.  I tried my best to save her... To help her, but anything I did, I was the enemy.

I remember one time she asked me, "Would you be happy if you only had me... And nothing else?"...

I replied that I had to have my guitar.   She said, "I could live with you and only you and nothing else!!!"

In my head I thought...   "Your drugs... your drugs..."

Stephanie Dixon died of a drug overdose at 34 years old.  Probably about 2 years before she died, I told her on facebook about this song... Roller Coaster Girl, that was really influenced by our relationship, and about her.  I didn't tell her about the pain she put me through and how I wrote the song out of sadness and anger for her drug abuse.

She came on Soundcloud.  She liked Roller Coaster Girl

https://soundcloud.com/stephanie-dixon-384559187

And that was her only Soundcloud like, before she passed away.  Strange...  How life happens...

It's so strange.
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marijuana, Appalachian trail,
tell me lies and I'll tell you until
it doesn't make sense, doesn't have to
if you love me then I'll love you

Roller Coaster Girl

Music video 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bto1rsqXaqk



feral hogs
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what goes outside
what comes through the night
I was human once
now I’m a feral hog

I quit my day job
I quit the human shit
I’ve had enough hustle life
I snort my way through it

what tramples the night
oinking outside
hear the hooves in the street
is there bacon at their feet?

frozen outside
into a deadly fright
seeing their tusks long
dripping blood and skin

stand there glistening
looking for a fight

hey all you wild hogs!
I GOT MY SHOTGUN!!!

you piggies! I got my shotgun!

you come into my town
you hump on my flowers!?
you hunt my women down?!

now you’re all gonna learn
inside a pigs sty
you’re still not like me
no you’re not like me
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https://www.eldoradonews.com/news/2019/mar/03/coming-feral-hog-apocalypse/

Feral Hogs

Nodus Tollens

Music video:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tchp-KhBEaw
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Gentle Breeze (Gettin' Rowdy)
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Mmm 

oh!  what a beautiful day

Is all this gentle breeze for me?

I love the little way the gentle breeze feels on my body

And it makes me kinda rowdy…  blush

Makes me feel horny

RAWWWWW!!!!
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Get Rowdy rowdy rawr!!…!!

GET ROWDY!!! GET ROWDY!! 

  WHAT?!
 ROWDY ROWDY RWAR!!!!

  WHY?!!
GET GROWDY GROWDY GRAWR!!!!

IT’S a riot it’s a riot!!! it’s a riot riot riot!!

It’s a RIGHT, it’s a RIGHT, 
it’s a RIGHT, RIGHT, RIGHT!!!!!

GET ROWDY ROWDY GROWDY RARRRR!!!!

It’s alright!!  It’s alright!!!

IT’S A RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT!!!!!

RAARRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!

Gettin' Rowdy (Gentle Breeze)

radiation burns off my hair,
bad mojo heavy in the sun,
where god doesn’t care,

red meat, blood in surplus, so serious 
your heart chose me

Punished for the one I love, buried in the setting sun,
Trust, punished for the one that I love

Bad Mojo

keep it up, poets
burning from within, laughing at my skin
little shutter girl, 
graveyard shift
six feet underground, laughing in my skin

take me with you
after glow
red light district, when I grow

little angel, in my heart
wild flowers blow,
leave me a promise, 
take me slow

hidden by the dark, nothing in my head, graveyard shift

once more the wolf is dead & left at my door
little shutter girl, take it slow

devil on the prowl, laughing at my skin
circle underground

Grave Shift

That's my friend, that's the one I love
I'll never see them again
Out of mind, and in time, fear seeps through
it's a funny thing, spirits fallen down the avenue,
lost my friends, lost the one I love

Shadows play with my mind, it's a funny thing
if I close my eyes long enough then I'm one of them
I could be like them any time

where the story is, I'm alone at the avenue's end
I hear the music from the streets and it's inviting

Avenue's End

The Nuclear Age

sun animals
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sweet sunshine,
don't turn your light on me
come with us animals 
in the skies we play
we prey on the cold night
we play in the jungle light
and if you’re one of us
we wouldn’t have to fight

we live by the burning lake
been drinking in the rays
I wish I could save the world
or make it my new fireplace

I’m a sun king, 
an animal in heat
breeding by a fiery light
burning up the street

hey sweet sunshine,
turn your light on me
an animal you wanted and,
an animal I’ll be

come out sunlight
make them bleed
you wanted fire and
burning in the streets

hey sunshine
you remember me
I’m still your animal and
the fire in your sheets

yes you’re my sun queen
and when it finally rains
you’ll see fireballs and
burning in the streets

Sun Animals

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YaH3m-yQbFk

surfer girl dreams
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hello surfer girl, it’s a good thing comin’
where have you been? 
in the southern wind
back again?
it’s a good thing comin’

hey surfer girl, where have you been?
it’s a cool thing comin’ in the summer wind
and it’s a sweet dream that’s happenin’
well it’s a good thing comin’

hey surfer girl, how have you been?
it’s a good thing comin’ when it’s happenin’
and it’s a southern wind blowing through
your sweet dream

hey surfer girl, where have you been?
it’s a clear dive down to the water within
your sweet dream that you’re swimmin’ in
feels good again

hey surfer girl, where have you been?
it’s a slow burn down to the fire within
your sweet spells that you’re chantin’ in
feel real again

hey surfer girl, how have you been?
it’s a good thing blowin’ in the summer wind
and those sweet smells that you’re breathing in…
it’s a good thing comin’

hey surfer girl, where have you been?
it’s a deep sleep now that you’re sinking 
into your sweet dreams that you’re swimming in
 feel good again

hey surfer girl,  how have you been?
it’s a deep sleep now that you’re sinking 
into your sweet truth that you’re swimming in 
feel good

hey surfer girl, where you have been?
it’s a good thing blowin’ in the southern wind, 
and those sweet smells that you’re breathing in…
it’s a good thing comin’ ...

Surfer Girl Dreams

Summoning

"A pilgrimage is a journey, often into an unknown or foreign place, where a person goes in search of new or expanded meaning about the self, others, nature, or a higher good, through the experience. It can lead to a personal transformation, after which the pilgrim returns to their daily life."

the artwork is by the American painter Esao Andrews

Pilgrimage

Bellatrix Jungle

Metanoia: (psychology), the process of experiencing a psychotic "breakdown" and subsequent, positive psychological re-building or "healing"

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oh sweet friend
you wanna know the truth
I’m so tired of the world 
and all the news
the places people go
they’re crazy in their heads
it’s everywhere,
and I’m just too confused

I’ll swim until I’m sane
until I’m far away
I’ll bleed into the ocean
I’ll melt into the sky
I’ll bleed into the earth
and then I’ll be gone
at peace

oh don’t ask why
I really wanna live
I really wanna die
I’ll crawl into the ocean
I’ll bleed into the sky
until I’m far away
I’ll swim until I’m sane
I’ll find another way
that no one ever sees
where no one ever goes
and it’s all light

Metanoia

Starbear

Vincent van Gogh passed away July 29th, 1890,
“Vincent’s Letter” was released July 29th, 2020

I figured there’s no better time than 130 years later…

When I was very young, I had dreams about his paintings. 
 His paintings inspired a deep love in me for art at an early age, and I wanted to be a painter like him

 Music won me over, but I remember being about 10 or so - when I first started playing music a lot - and I promised this self-portrait painting of Van Gogh that I’d write a song (or several) for him that a lot of people would hear.  Yea I made a verbal promise to a painting.  
It wasn’t the first or last time...  I was a weird kid.

The funny thing is?  This isn't even Van Gogh, as I much later found out.  It's "Dr. Gatchet", who was a physician who was treating Van Gogh.  Vincent painted him, and they actually look a lot alike!  But I made the promise to this painting, so here it is
   I hope you enjoy it
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Vincent’s Letter
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home, it’s a little loud
a love breaks me down every day
a little more, she comes & slips away
my love hurts me now
a little more every day
love simply breaks me down, 
a little more every day
I’m hearing you crying inside,
 why don’t you look outside and find yourself?
I’m trying every day, a little more in every way

my heart, my hands are sleepy
my foot is stomping on the paint
a little love, colors break my heart
a little more every day, 
a little love, comes in breaks my heart
a little more every day
a little love, cousin, breaks my heart
a little more every day

my home, will you break me down?
a little more every day
our love, cousin, breaks me too
a little more every day…
a little home, my!…
crazies out of the sky!
it’s a yellow one!
I’m wondering why?
I got my heart beating still
mixed together with the colors that spill
I got my heart cousin
a little more every day
heavens harps, cousin, come to break me down
a little more every day

Vincent's Letter

This is the story of my first “eclipse”, experienced alone in the wilderness of Oregon in August, 2017. It’s a long story, but the story behind this song.

I drove to Oregon alone to see the great American total solar eclipse of 2017. In Oregon, there is a famous national park called Crater Lake.  This is the deepest lake in America.   In the middle of Crater Lake is Wizard Island. This lake was formed when a huge volcano blew its top a long time ago.  My plan was to see Wizard Island, get a hotel room, and see the eclipse the next day.

There have been numerous stories of strange occurrences around this area from multiple people over the course of centuries.

The time was around 7 pm when driving up Crater Lake Mountain to see Wizard Island… I wasn’t sure where I was going, or how to get down from the mountain. Finally, I saw Wizard Island just as the sun started to set. I remember there was this misty haze in front of the Island. I could barely see it. I got the chills and a weird feeling... It was very eerie.

I tried to find my way down from the mountain in my car, but it was too late, I was lost, and it was too dangerous. There are areas where you can drive off a ledge and fall a long way. No fun. I had to pull over in the wilderness and spend the night in my car…

Hours passed, and I fell asleep.

What happened next is the strangest thing I’ve experienced in my life. I woke up, it was still night. My phone wasn’t working, my car wouldn’t start or turn on any lights. I didn’t know what time it was. It was disturbing to me they were both "dead", and I was panicked. Then I noticed the area around my car was alternating in brightness, like truck lights... But that wasn't it. I got out of my car to check it out.

But the sky was weird. The moon was weird. It was all weird. The moon was alternating between being clearly visible… And being pitch black. Like it was “blinking”. It would take 5 seconds to get black, then about 5 seconds to get bright again. The stars were barely visible. I stared in disbelief for maybe 30 seconds, it kept happening.  The air around me had a feeling of electric charge to it.   I started hearing a lot more animals, and they seemed to surround me. They were in the bushes and trees, everywhere. It got more troubling quickly when I could discern soft human voices. I couldn't see animals or people. 
I wasn't on any drugs, I was saving my drugs for the following day and the journey home.

Time seemed too slow. I backed up to my car, got in, and locked the doors. I remember a feeling of utter disbelief in my senses. Without any idea what to do, I climbed in the backseat and lied down. I thought any second I could die.

The next thing I remembered, I woke up. It was about 6:30 am. My car worked. My phone worked. And this was the morning of August 21st, 2017… The first day of the total solar eclipse which many of us would see later that day.  

But what I saw was something else.

Something very weird happened to me up there on that mountain that night, and it’s haunted me. I know several people will think "Manufactured lies!" Several others will think "Cool story bro...", well think what you want...

Later that morning when getting breakfast, still shook-up, I asked 2 waitresses if they heard of anything strange last night around Crater Lake. One said "no", the other said, "There's always something strange happening".

I remember one time a girl asked me why my music is so dark...
I’ve seen some sights.

Try to check out Crater Lake, Oregon, if you've never seen it.
Don't get lost.

- John

Crater Lake Eclipse

For the 31st Solar Kama Sutra song I decided to challenge myself a bit and do something in 7/4 time.  I tried remembering a band I heard do that and thought, "Isn't Pink Floyd's "Money" in 7/4 time?"  I remembered hearing it and thinking it was...

...  Turns out it is!  So for that reason I thought of Pink Floyd, and tried to do a Pink Floydish sound.    It's also a nod to Radiohead's "Pyramid Song".  I tried to capture the same feeling that song gives me, but with Solar Kama Sutra this time. 
(by the way, Solar Kama Sutra has always been just one person.  It's just the name for what I call the music)

Since Radiohead already used "Pyramid" which is well-known since ancient Egypt to be the coolest shape, I had to go with something else.  "Sphere Song" and "Cube Song" ?...  Well...  Those song titles just aren't gonna work....   Maybe "Dodecahedron Song"?....  Hmm... That actually sounds pretty catchy...  Feel free to use it!  

 My vocals are used more heavily on this track than it seems.  Throughout the track I tried to make my vocals sound like guitars and other instruments

  And definitely hats off to Pink Floyd for making a hit song in a 7/4 time signature.   How many times has that been done before?!

And of course, hats off to Stonehenge.  The ultimate inspiration for this track

lastly, much respect & love for all of you who have dropped by once again

- John

Stonehenge Song

Released when the clock hit 12 a.m. midnight January 1st, 2021

I welcome this new year with a HOWWWLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!

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I knew it this time & I’m on the run
I hear a shooting gun, a rifle shot and I blow apart
if you aim it at our heart then it’s gonna be a new start
vengeance, when we bare our teeth a little more
anymore it’ll be, more it’ll be in a moonlit mirror, madness laughs with me
I have a drink and a song & I fuck it in a song
in a war time dream madness runs along
Irish heat call a million dead next to me
when iron heels call me, crush me in the street
moon animals gotta move your feet
poor in my head, it’s war in your head or you’re dead on the street
I feel you next to me, I am a moon animal, I feel you changing in my toes up my toes
feel it in my soul in my soul, oh sweet moonshine shine your light on me!!!!
I am a moon animal I feel it feel it in my soul
aaaaaaahwwwwwoooooooooooo!!!!
moon amore one more spin in the moon I am once again
in howling night I’ll ride that music to the sky
and end where I began