this is mesmerizing. I love the way you're processing the vocal even before the different vocal section.

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

@strivemusicau
@shizukesaaa
@autumndropsdead
@torvamia

(strivesad)
Caught in a cage with this endless pain
caught up to my age now I’m getting paid
Depression stays high and now the feelings changed
pour another bottle all apon my grave

you’ve been building roads
I’m building settlements

I keep craving another fucking serotonin hit
let’s flip the script

I don’t need no alliby
come with me and stay the night
Fighting for my life I think I’m doing fine

Ripped clothes now I’m going home
got these problems cause I feel alone
keep me in my zone

(shizu)
beamer swerving 
cuz i deserve the worst shit
bet she gon hit me up w/ 'love u but this isnt working'
might fuck around my blade till i negate the serotonin
now watch the liquid dripping red off slitted wrists, still frozen
find another guy and leave me dying w/ no notice
no i was never that man but fans in my dms saying im chosen
it gets hard to speak every want when everyone is seeing you choking
when words go wasting the space of audio waves to leaving me broken"

(autie)
my conscious is ever so heavy
i've been so cautious ever since you left
i've been holding myself down, with this self doubt
but nevertheless
i swear that i'll know when you need me
you know i'm right there when you're hearing that ringing
i'm patient a bit, but waiting's a bitch
i wish i could split and fuck up my breathing
but if there's anyone out there like me
smite like a god do and make me undying
bottle my goods for a world that is dying
plenish a helt that is tattered with lies
'cause i see through them every single minute
proof is in my dome, that's why i'm livid
tell me that you love him 'till i'm finished
i repel and let them be forgiven

(torva)
smoke until my chest hurts, til my lungs burn
think ill die soon, think ill go first
now my head hurts, never heard worse
if i lose you, need a gold hearse

never fuck it up, bitch i run it up
i go fucking crazy
til i do enough
keep my tommy tucked, never losing love
think i need some help
fore' i lose my trust

Cage w/ strivesad, shizukesa, autumndropsdead & torvamia [+ Tied For Silver x flesh]

produced by raspo

lyrics:

im so done you made me feel like im a ghost
i feel out of place and still have no one to call my home
if im a creep then your a weirdo
ill never ask for help, your the same as me

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i can try
but i wont
be alive
for very long
i could cry
oh could you
if i died 
would you

lost

with @greenwood2000 <3

(greenwood)
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that i
counted steps on the way home
dream of you in the dayglow
do whatever you say so
fell asleep in the same clothes
from the first night, what you do to me
everything, just partially
i could stay but i could leave yeah
i could change and i could be
something you want but like shit it was never that easy yeah
i’m only starting to drop and you’re thinking of leaving yeah
its cool ok its fine but i just need it yeah
and i don’t even have the words man you just gotta feel it
sick of being me here in secret
sick of saying things i don’t feel yet
stake it all and i reject yeah
take a lot til i see less
the textures so faded, like lotus i’m dead weight
quit smoking cause i hate it
just the last year i’ve been chasing
beautiful is it painless?
all the feelings i’ve wasted
only thing that feels safe is cold feet i’ve been wa

only thing that feels safe is cold feet i’ve been waiting
literal, i got metal inside of my bones now
keep me inside of my home now
i don’t think that you know how
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that i
counted steps on the way home
dream of you in the dayglow
do whatever you say so
fell asleep in the same clothes
from the first night, what you do to me
everything, just partially
i could stay but i could leave yeah
i could change and i could be

(speedlmt)
i thought it would get easier
let her lie and now i cant even bare seeing her
but now im leaving you
cause i aint tryna get hurt again
ik your lying cause i asked your friends

so what do you see in me
burn holes in your black tee
burn holes in my white tee
thought you were just like me, yeah
you said its my fault you're jaded
now im sitting in my room getting faded

(speedlmt and greenwood)
used to call you on the way home just before dark
now its pitch black like way, way, way before that
used to know you like i know me so its too bad
thought i could say that

catatonic w/ greenwood

new lil piano ballad w my goat @greenwood2002
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
if i told you what it felt like to me
you’d be scared too
cause in the matter of a past light, for me
this is brand new
paint the ashes on the sunrise
cause i can’t stand to watch the moonlight hitting you
i’m in trouble but i’m alright, i think
long as i got you

if it’s sudden i’m sorry
my words aren’t working quite yet
it’s been a while since
i’ve felt, nothing less
than a miracle both of us met 
in the depths of it all

i probably needed a warning
but life only gives one chance, i know
you’re scared, i get it, i’m sorry
maybe it would be best if i took you home

cause if i told you what it felt like to me
you’d be scared too
and i don’t care about a past light, i think
i just want you
paint the ashes on the sunrise
cause i can’t stand to watch the moonlight hitting you
i’m in trouble but i’m alright, i think
long as i got you

long as i got you

long as i got you [greenwood]

apple n spotify <3

lyrics
rn im so fucked up hope i make it to my bed
its one of those rare moments where i come to accept rest
n i pray u can accept me for who i really am
n ill show u all the thoughts n all the scars inside my head

but sipping this ciroc make me feel better
n im fucked up rn so i cant call u im sorry
im bottle deep im just throwing up in this party
i wish u were here so u could calm me
she wanna kno how to kill me i been tryna find out too
n when u stabbed my back was my last memory of u
n  i wanna die rn dont worry bout me
dont worry bout me girl im so sorry

new mistrust from the misuse
after everything im just still confused
i do drugs when i miss u
but i wont let it become an issue
but when im not high my thoughts try to kill me
when i sing u a song hope u forgive me
black tar on my lungs no healing
i dont need love no but it wont kill me
oh but it wont kill me
im writing this song rn n im sad as fuck im hoping u feel me
i still got pain from all my battles scars need u to heal me
im self destructive in my inner thoughts so i conceal me
n i see faces on the drive home
hit me on the iphone
girl just know i love u
im tryna right my wrongs
everything i do is for u dont leave me all alone
i can feel the pressure cracking down on my bones

but sipping this ciroc make me feel better
n im fucked up rn so i cant call u im sorry
im bottle deep im just throwing up in this party
i wish u were here so u could calm me
she wanna kno how to kill me i been tryna find out too
n when u stabbed my back was my last memory of u
n  i wanna die rn dont worry bout me
dont worry bout me girl im so sorry

ciroc [prod. branwen]

she does what you never did
you don't know how hard it is
to wake up alone
if it's over it's funny it still makes you cold
when you know

that you couldn't step away
in hopes that a memory
of something you need, would ignite from the first thing
that i thought was real but it's not

and i said i'd wait for you
in silence and in solitude
if it can't get better
there's darkness ahead
but it's safer together
i'm gone

shake at the thought of you
i still think a lot of you
of things that you said
feel at home with the worst things i keep for myself

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
so i don't trust a fucking thing
the nicest face could do the same
i think about it everyday
i wish i never let you in

make it quick i'm still here waiting
lost my mind way back in Salem 
all at once you've only been all i want

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
wait for the day that your body decays
just to hear that they love you
cause they never will

Snow Cabin

lyrics

a long time ago there was hope in my eyes
but now i just see whats in front of me
n if im not awake can u open my eyes?
n try to make me wake up manually

and those boys on ur phone seem nice
but do they make you songs whenever they see u cry?
i swear on my life that im trying
just wait for july
theyll be lining up to hear me outside
theyll be lining up to hear me outside

stop talking if this bottles my last drink i wanna make it count
i seem to think better when theres no one around
all i need is a smoke and the sun down
then i can make you proud
kid dont want fame he wants the riches
his wife and not the bitches
drunken swashbuckler im singing to the fishes
n i know when i die no one will listen but the mrs.
like woah
i traded all my friends for some peace of mind
i cant go outside tonight im busy making rhymes
but u dont need to worry baby girl im fine
its just one of those nights

and those boys on ur phone seem nice
but do they make you songs whenever they see u cry?
i swear on my life that im trying
just wait for july
theyll be lining up to hear me outside
theyll be lining up to hear me outside

drunken sailors shanty (jacob vallen)

im losing count what number single but its on the @fleshgolem album nonetheless

lyrics

my life is a ticking time bomb
u play the right song
and all of the wires will spark

life’s short then why it feel long?
i’m tryna right wrongs
while surrounded in dark

love myself
i’ve been tryna get to that place
no words said
i would never come out of that place
i don’t know what to say anymore
a thousand notes on my phone that’s jus stored

i wanna get to sleep on time
i been heavyheaded got a lotta stress on my mind
medicating just sleep at all
plenty ppl fall
but i can’t just lose what i used to die for

i don’t check the safety
just vibin lately
the pressure tryna take me
won’t let it change me 
suffer more suffer less, it’s all the same 
had no choice still a voice yelling change

she said can u lov me for the moment
but it don’t mean as much so y’s it so important 
u see thru my lens shit distorted 
why u want me to against the grain again and again
its jus pain, its jus pain, uh its jus pain its jus pain
￼

against the grain

against the grain (flesh x ertu)

produced: tiedforsilver
feat: greenwood 
artwork: my amazing gf <3

lyrics:

( i would give anything to walk by your side again, alone my hands are trembling and i would make the sun drown)

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

(greenwood)

keep you safe, i don't know if i can manage
i whip it fast, sip it slow, its fucking static
guess you were right, never more than just an addict
i compensate, i overdo it fucking manic

all of that in my life though
i just really wanna go home
call you drunk from your friends phone
straight passing out at the dial tone
i don't what this life's worth
guess i don't see what you see (don't know what you mean)
nothing ever came easy when i'm face down in the deep

compensate i never get it right
run it different in my head like just the other night
see the mist and all the people on the other side
i know you're there and i don't even have to wonder

(epitome)

i do not have the time, nor a good alibi 
to explain why, how nothings been going right
i could roll the dice, but that would waste the time
of you and i, no need to try to chance it now

this loneliness as left a frown
on my face, it’s dragging me down
to the ground, now underneath where i can’t even hear a sound

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

i would make the sun drown w/ greenwood (tiedforsilver)

We can never restart…

Check out notcursed she’s amazing <3

Lyrics:

AutumnIsEnding (Lovell)
I said if you won’t say it then I’ll save you the way
I really think we need space I’ll go back to my place 
You can tell my mom that we’re okay 
In truth we’ll never speak again and I can do it til we’re like that 
You know how much you meant to her 
But you’re both crying as your bags packed 
And oh the impact you leave as you turn for the front door 
And take your ass back home 

We can never restart you’ve already gone 
The bags all packed in the back of the cab 
And you’re not looking back 
And my mom wants to catch you up 
But you’re not slowing down and now 
I gotta pick up all of the pieces 
Of my own heart as well as my moms 
Cus she loved for what and you gave us up
Due to stress related reasons 

AutumnIsEnding (madison)
You know how much she adored you 
She treat you like a daughter too 
The downfall of falling in love too soon
And you let your true colours show 
And it wasn’t a pretty sight 
It’s awful uncalled for 
I fell out of love with your pretty eyes 
Goodbye goodbye goodbye 
I hope you find the right one in time 

Notcursed 
I'm sorry that i made a mess of this 
I thought i’d be back
To pick up the pieces i left in your home
Didn’t want it to end like that
But you’re hard to let go of
And i wish i did it better than this 
I know it’s not a lot for you to ask
I regret all my choices 
And now when i look back
I see i hurt more people that that
I thought i was better than this

catatonic w/ greenwood

speedlmt

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