sAdrave

i create noises and put them inside of this container

all sprig songs

produced written and recorded by me.
im alone and unwell. im trying to hypnotize myself into eating 3 meals a day.

lyrics: 

i dont want to 
leave you hurting...
i dont wanna leave 
but this shits just not working

u can hate me 
if you really wanna think that im bad

i dont think like that 
but if it works
then go ahead

you can keep on searching
even when you say that im the one
its so concerning

everything we’ve known 
is destroyed 
now my rooms so drab
i don’t think im the soul 
that you want
sleeping in your bed


im so broken
u cant fix me
i cant fix you
you cant stitch me up

u say im worth it
u cant convince me
i think im worthless
my mind trips me up

we were choking on our words too much
but i finally spit it out
u said baby i will wait for you
to rid yourself of all your doubts

we’ll see about that 
come a few years when im back on track
come a few years when i get my stacks right
come a few years and you wont look back
at me (x2)


i dont want to 
leave you hurting...
i dont wanna leave 
but this shits just not working

u can hate me 
if you really wanna think that im bad

i dont think like that 
but if it works
then go ahead

you can keep on searching
even when you say that im the one
its so concerning

everything we’ve known 
is destroyed 
now my rooms so drab
i don’t think im the soul 
that you want
sleeping in your bed

go ahead

@emorave @45avast 
https://sptfy.com/6hFY

i've got used to it 
nothing helps us breathe
playin hide and seek
still in search of me 
u just wanna cut me into small pieces
nosebleed hittin tho u know u cant miss it 
u just wanna cut me into small pieces
nosebleed hittin tho u know u cant miss it 
did you find what you were always looking for
if i go numb im gonna see you at my doors
my circle closed 
so many things youd want exposed
it doesnt matter im still loosin all my hope
is it the best of you
forever chasin things youll never have
you make me feelin blue
crashed my soul and said thats all for now

i cant handle it no more
i cant stand it anymore
i cant stay here anymore
feel the panic reach my core
i tried to leave they wont let me
feel my breath getting heavy
i think im not ready
i need you to set me free
just let me be
grinding my teeth
i-i lost my lead
digging holes so deep
im so dissociated
cant think and i cant save it
stuck in my head i hate it
stuck in my bed life wasted

spotify !

hide & seek +emorave (avast)

it took me 20+ versions to get this

produced/mixed/written by me
cover art edited by @venusrose4u

🠟 lyrics 🠟

conceal my heart
cant trust another soul
to pull me out 
i think i need to find

how to 
make this my own
create a home
without a hand to hold 


i swear this is my final plea
to find a love whose fine with me
these wounds create a 
timeless piece
of
whats inside this mind that keeps me

painfully awake at night 
in this 
drab and empty room of white
in this 
hole devoid of love and light
that i
dug myself into despite your

passionately held advice
telling 
me to find a fucking vice
that
doesn’t have to do with knives 
or 
sacrificing sections of me

ohh i was too late
but i see it now
can i fix my ways?
before i bleed out

conceal my heart
cant trust another soul
to pull me out 
i think i need to find

how to 
make this my own
create a home
without a hand to hold

plea

drums by @oldyungtoadsage, remaining production, mels / vox / mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying 

Pain
Abbreviated
I burn what i grow
Till its all the same to me

All these fucking games
that they play are lame to me

please talk real
all these bitches fucking sound the same to me...


ill cut you out if you suppress me

all the blood means = growth
++more stress please

i just wanna get these words of my chest please 

step out
from depression 
like i bested it

its my craft 
i invest in it

my hearts not pure
you tested it,
so u know

i strike down
what's best in me

i cut down and rebuild 
what's left of me
on my own 

shawty keep on texting me
u can try 
but u wont see the rest of me

no no no 

my swag so heavenly 
i don't take no pills 
match my energy 
no, u wont

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying

impure

- featuring [@daybat aka spiral]  | (second verse)
- produced by [@mothshonor aka ami4evr]
- additional production, effects and mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ first half : @sprigtek ]

Hanging on for something 
u believed that i had

But my hands are closed noww..

you took my heart from me

i didn’t have what u wanted

still u took a part that i need

you’ll never give it back, be honest

i don’t even want you to now

i dont want you to
noowww...

[ verse 2 ]

mind goes static 

i control the mix like magic

bad shit happens
when ur passive

part of me knows that im trash 
thats why u like to laugh me off

please im begging u to stop

hold my blade two inches off

hesitate to let it drop



all those times you said im worthless

all those times you said that im worth it

i just wanna find my purpose 

acting like
you never said
those things at all?

always hurting 
wishing i could fucking 
clear my mind

clear it of you
and leave your face a couple miles behind

[ verse 3 / outro : @daybat /spiral ]

you wanted more from me
but i can’t see the light like i used to 
will you give me something i’m used to
something that hurts
show me my worth
none of my thoughts look so pretty on paper
my body’s a prison and i can’t escape her
trapped in myself
i’ll envy someone else
i’m not your friend i don’t like you
search the mirror until i find you

passive >|< + spiral

all production, vocals, mixing and mastering by me!
I've gotten a lot better at mixing in the last 9 months :)
Also, I will be performing this soon at an event called 
"Make America Scene Again" in NYC, at a venue called The Meadows
Thank you for listening!

🠟 lyrics 🠟

too hot
too cold
turn it off
i just needed a break

still want
to give you hope
to show you 
that
it was all for your sake


where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

 
just know that 
i will always
watch
and i carry that weight 

it gave me chills when u said
that for u 
its too late 

i’ve always wondered
on the other-side
of deaths gate

will we cross over to a better life?
and be saved...

or is it
just this

a world on the cusp of melting

catching 
the tail end
nothing is helping 

each day repeating
the world just keeps selling 

poison and sweets to
delay the rebellion

and we fall for it
cuz were made to be
part of all of it
so we can think were free

well i want more than this
and so do many more
but we can only guess
what else the world will have left
when its
all done and over

you're too cold

-
where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

is it just this

is it just this?

guitar by @gl0wrm, drums split, all other production and mixing by me

cover art also by me

lyrics

[ intro / chorus : @sprigtek]

i think i turned 
bad
i
said
it wouldn’t take long
thats
why 
you’re turning your back
i 
knew
you’d be gone

do i get inside your head
too 
much
will you regret 
me
this once?

kept up by these 
thoughts 
that 
i cant outrun

[ verse 1 : @sprigtek ]

almost dead
but u breathe your light into me

i fight what i feel
when it gets to me

i send awful chills
down your spine
when i say
i’m the downhill descent
in your life

tell me what
are you trying to get from me?

looking close
as u wait for the death of me

u should know, 
if u stay you’ll get sick with me
then get sick of me

[ verse 2 : @gl0wrm ]

wish I felt nothing
watch it fall away
I say something
Im waiting for the day
u dont notice
and idc at all
I can’t show this
At all 
I wish I felt nothing
watch it fall away
I say something
Im waiting for the day
that u dont notice
and idc at all
I can’t show this

cover up my eyes
when im with u a part of dies
I see u from far away
I got nothing I even wanna say
u dont notice shit
fall back and breath thru it
I see u from far away
I got nothing I even wanna say

[ outro / chorus : @sprigtek ]

i think i turned 
bad
i
said
it wouldn’t take long
thats
why 
you’re turning your back
i 
knew
you’d be gone

do i get inside your head
too 
much
will you regret 
me
once?

i see something u dont wanna know...

[ end ]

downhill + gl0wrm

ft @ons13 in the middle of the track <3

main production, chorus and outro, mix/master by me
additional production by @2sleepymayne

what u need + ons13

vocals, mix + master, and half of the production by me
other half of production by @rainphase1

14th of February at 4pm EST

This is a teaser track for the acoustic guitar EP I'm currently in the process of finishing <3
Ive been practicing guitar for the past couple months, so everything on the EP will be played or sung by me.

I’m Sorry But I Need To Leave For My Sake
A case of right heart in the wrong place
And in the wrong time
You’re the only reason that I tried to stay
In a place
Where I wouldn’t find rest or light
Just didn’t feel right
Now I’m learning, how to say with my chest
Things I should have said
Or found, on the first day
I didn’t look ahead,
Or expect to reject this place
I promise

In Retrospect
You gave it your all
I gave it my best until the last text I sent
Now we’re trying to mend
Our wounds
Although they are different
I learned a new type of gentleness
From you, in a different sense
I learned a new type of gentleness
From you

This Time
I’m running towards, not from
I can bend my knees
And stand what I’ve done
I’ll dull my teeth so my bites don’t hurt
In my search for home, I’ll arrive unsure
Hoping, wishing, someone cares to
Mend my wings and lock my stare
This time if somebody sees me,
Hopefully, I won’t leave them bleeding

I’m Sorry But I Need To Leave For My Sake
A case of right heart in the wrong place
And in the wrong time
You’re the only reason that I tried to stay
In a place
Where I wouldn’t find rest or light
Just didn’t feel right
Now I’m learning, how to say with my chest
Things I should have said
Or found, on the first day
I didn’t look ahead,
Or expect to reject this place
I promise

im an orchid

This song is really meaningful to me and marks my move from NYC to Denver
Produced by me and @youshowedmewhatloveis 
thank you for the guitar!!

lyrics

[@sprigtek]

There was Peace before…
Can we go back
our world is waning, 
I’ve been feeling trapped
With these memories
Breakfast and tea
Movies we watched
And the way you held me
Everyones leaving
How can one last?
Its awfully uncommon
Given my past

Cranberry oatmeal
Watching you read
Books that I gave you
and books you gave me

Friends you had shown me
Ones ill forget
Biding my time in a half empty bed

In a Forest of trees without leaves
at a corner where we used to meet
at a flower shop, flipping a coin,
at the airport, missing the point.

[@youshowedmewhatloveis]

am i wasting my breath?
it starts to feel like it i guess 
let the words spill out my chest
i wish we could lie here instead
(ooohhh)
it wont be long and u know 
i claw at my skin and it shows 
(just) a break in my step not a fall
though not far from the ground below

i scratched my arms ceaselessly
u blame it on my compulsivity 
but then say something sweet 
and everything disappears around me

[both @sprigtek and @youshowedmewhatloveis]
so ill take some time 
with you to watch the world spin around 
while we still can

end

missing the point + gosha

credits are in every song description, mostly self produced <3