Summit

there's times where i feel very very bad about myself and scared that i can't be myself around others, so i wrote a song about it.

there are times where i wish that i could go to the beach
hear the waves, feel the sand, take in the breeze
cuz i like staying home but i love the sun, i wanna go out and have some fun
maybe bring my ukulele, i know that it sounds crazy cuz that instrument is overdone

but at the same time, i don't wanna go outside because dysphoria is killin me
i don't wanna be around other people, if they don't wanna be around me
if all these other people could just leave me be, we could live in perfect harmony
but i'm getting anxious thoughts, and i want them to stop, about everyone harming me

so i will stay inside (i will stay inside)
i will stay inside (but i might still try)
i will stay inside (i'll find a place to hide)
i will stay inside, i will stay inside.

there are times where i wish i could just be me
be myself, no one else, i just wanna be free
maybe wear some comfy clothes and just stay inside because i feel like i need to hide
cuz there's a whole lot of people in this scary world who really want me to die

but at the same time, i don't wanna go outside because dysphoria is killin me
i don't wanna be around other people, if they don't wanna be around me
if all these other people could just leave me be, we could live in perfect harmony
but i'm getting anxious thoughts, and i want them to stop, about everyone harming  me

so i will stay inside (i will stay inside)
i will stay inside (but i might still try)
i will stay inside (i'll find a place to hide)
i will stay inside, i will stay inside.

so i will stay inside (i will stay inside)
i will stay inside (but i might still try)
i will stay inside (i'll find a place to hide)
i will stay inside, i will stay inside. 

so i will stay inside (i will stay inside)
i will stay inside (but i might still try)
i will stay inside (i'll find a place to hide)
i will stay inside, i will stay inside.

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beach! [prod. kazuyo]

[prod. nbmusic]
mix & mastered by https://soundcloud.com/nbmusic098

used to (feat. Squiblers)

[prod. TheSkyBeats]
mix & mastered by @nbmusic098

beautiful narcissist

intro to my ep, "internet"
https://soundcloud.com/squiblers/sets/internet

disconnecting (intro)

pizza - remix (feat. naku)

joshua lanuarii and i have been through a lot of shit in our lives, but we're still here together. this is us looking back on our past and remembering all the shit we've been through together. we truly hope you enjoy.

it never stays the same [p. stxrmiix]

i just got here but i'm already gone (plxce)

meant to release this ages ago but uh, here's a remake of one of my really old songs. thanks for 1k, i have something really big planned to celebrate, but thank you for getting me to this point. i didn't expect to live past april of 2019, but here i am in september of 2020 living out one of my childhood dreams, being a musician. thanks for everything, i love you all so much.

i don't wanna talk to people if all they do is fight.

social media sucks [2020]

conversations [p. kazuyo]

tw / suicidal thoughts n shit from anxiety
follow my main @squiblers

i don't take care of myself (freddiexo)

the clouds looked pretty today
vaf ++ rf ++ @digitalbunkercc
more music: @fisherdog