Collabed on this beat with @gaia-zambon-778002978

Lyrics:
so i never wanna leave my bed, i stay lost up in my head
please do not disturb me you could wake me when im fuckin dead
guess im giving up thats why you always gettin left on read
dont talk to me dont hit me up im busy tryna get my bread

dont take my pulse cause i flatlined
i know youll leave just like last time
put on a show like its halftime
like im a poet but i cant rhyme

you never heard a flow so slow, guess ive given up completely but im vibin on the low, i dont got no energy for nothin keep your fuckin hoe, she be slidin in my DMs im depressed but she dont know

said she thought its just persona
said she thought it was an act
said she thought that id be happy cause im piling up these racks
said she plays all of my songs
said she listens to my tracks
said she wanna save me now before im never coming back

Shedontknow

shedontknow (prod. Gaia & HKFiftyOne)

prod @taurs and @jolst

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy babe they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

is this true love 
gonna throw up
if u repeat that phrase
those 3 words make me go numb 
need to get up
been laying here all month
and this weight it holds me down
but the weed help me get up 

and thats ur man, is it?
hes kinda handsome,
well compared to me ur a muhfuckin damsel
think I got 2 greedy follow bread like im Hansel 
I fuckin hate this place and ur friends I cant stand
i can’t stand em 
x2

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy lil bitch they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

dead weight (taurs x jolst)

Lyrics:
im so sorry that i dont know what to say
and you know i do my best to try and be there every day
im fucking piece of shit and thats all that ill really say
cause im too proud to admit that i will never be okay

i never thought itd come to this i always thought we'd be just fine
i never thought youd think of leaving cause you said youre always mine
but i dont blame you im a fuck up and i have no fucking spine
im not a man im just a boy i know youre sick of how i whine

i always thought id be okay to be right there for someone else
but im too fucked in the brain to show you how i really felt
i know it hurt when i was absent and made you feel by yourself
i try my hardest but i know it aint enough to even help

cause i fuck up every day
and i dont know what to say
only when i feel too much, but then it goes away
and i really hate the way
that im probably all the same
even worse than all people that you ran from anyway

fuck
what do i do
im pushing everyone away but i could never say i thought itd be you

we're fucked
all because of me
i wanna be just what you need but i got issues in my head you cant see

"so why dont you tell me?"
never learned how to speak
im trying to believe
we'll be okay after this mess

Sorry

sorry

Orchestrator

Cycle Repeated

Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＦＵＣＫＥＤ　ＩＮ　ＴＨＥ　ＨＥＡＤ
Ｉ＇Ｍ　Ａ　ＨＥＡＴＨＥＮ

//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
@tothegood

follow 9TAILS

guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

just something laying around

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay

no i'm not fine
don't tell me that it's better this way
i miss your hair, when it falls on my face
you're the right one, shoulda let you in though
i'm in a cycle, flowin like the wind blow
but you missed it now you're all up in my business
hit the right lane now you switched up doin cocaine hung over
she still rockin chokers but my shawty rockin boulders 
ya you don't know her

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay

now i got a gun to my head
i don't really give a fuck 
cause i feel so cold
i got time on my hands 
no blood on my knife
but i feel so cold
and i came thru in a fast pace 
all eyes in the hallway
with a past tense demon 
i feel his teeth sink into my veins
but i feel like i'm a nothing
suffer the name, so stuffy
tell me i'm facing something

my baby so goth got lipstick on my blunt
and now she left me i'm like wtf
i'm so toxic, you could catch me at the mall in hot topic

no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
just a little bit closer to the vein
that'll be okay
no we're not the same
but i'll watch you in the rain
yah you rid me from the pain
a little bit closer to the vein
i'll be okay

don't enter pt. 2 (prod. pretty boy ron)

prod. Anxiety Attacks! x cFee! x Bruce Leen
guitar/mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!
IG: www.instagram.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS/
Twitter: twitter.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS

LYRICS:
I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry bout the shit I did
I lose my mind just tryna sleep at night
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive,
thinking maybe one day you'll be mine
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive...

it's alright, it's alright, it's alright, yeah
it's only right I spend some time by your side, yeah
you're feeling helpless & you're in denial
I'm feeling selfish when I'm suicidal
you're feeling helpless & you're in denial
I'm feeling selfish when I'm suicidal
you know I'll be there if you need me, 
I'll be here as long as I'm breathing
heaven down to hell when you're leaving, 
holding onto hope, & I'm thinking ya...

I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry bout the shit I did
I lose my mind just tryna sleep at night
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive,
thinking maybe one day you'll be mine
So take my hand or take my life
Baby I'm the Heart & you're the Knife
I've been out of reach & out of sight
but if there's one thing keeping me alive...

listen on Spotify<3

The Heart & The Knife

First single off of "          " I hope you all enjoy it <3
@tothegood


Lyrics-

I can’t keep thinking you’re all that
Living my life just to get past
Trapped in this moment, till I grasp
Hold of reality at last
I’m feeding my ego it’s last meal
Scratching my eyes till I can’t feel
Trapped in this moment till I grasp
I can’t keep thinking you’re all that

Verse- 
Tab out
Log in
Everyone wants to be like him
Tab in
Log out
Open your eyes till they fall out
Let the wind knock at my window
No one can hear when they’re shut closed
Curtains are down and the lights low
I can smell bleach in the air though

Chorus-

I can’t keep thinking you’re all that
Living my life just to get past
Trapped in this moment, till I grasp
Hold of reality at last
I’m feeding my ego it’s last meal
Scratching my eyes till I can’t feel
Trapped in this moment till I grasp
I can’t keep thinking you’re all that

other platforms

I Can't Keep Thinking You're All That (Prod. Tothegood)

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool 

let go of the feelings that you felt right here
ask me how i feel i'll say i'm feeling like shit
open up my eyes, see you in disguise
just tell me you're here

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool

it's been a minute and all the tension is killing me
i been driving for hours 
yeah fuck a meal or a shower 
I just been waiting to see you 
dressed in hot pink 
but this time the colors 
will fade into nothing
quit saying that you don't remember 
crying on my sweater 
i tried to make it better 
you just pulled over 
said that me and you can never be together
tears so soft like a feather
wait, the darkest heart cannot be harmed
we've had enough time to depart
you have my heart dont leave it broken here

she say that's its personal and I dont wanna know
texting other guys on your cellular phone
delete all our pics still gottem in the cloud
stay up all alone while i'm smoking on some loud 
wake up all alone and now i'm thinking about you 
feelin kinda sick i ain't even got the flu 
what the fuck i gotta do to get thru to you
drive all thru the night just to crash inside your pool

crash inside ur pool (prod. pretty boy ron x van beats)

(prod. by discent)

It'll all end in the Dark..

Lyrics:

I still hate my life!
No, I’m not alright!
No, it won’t be fine!

If this takes my life,
These pills and flashing lights!
It’ll all be fine!

Cause you were So beautiful!
Like something made of miracles!
Take the breath right out of both my lungs!!
Ripped to pieces; what we were both known to be..

If it hurts then let it end your life!
Let it end tonight!
Let it end tonight!!

If it hurts then let it suck you dry!
Destroy your life! 
Destroy your life!!

I’ve been going crazy
going through some problems
Nothing helps me anymore I can’t solve them
You were all the reason I could find to face them
Now that you’re dead the xannies make me faceless..


Beat me,
Tear me down to pieces,
I’m not worth it!

Let me drown in my own blood 
Until I’m livid!

I can see them Watching, watch me close the curtains!

Say goodbye to all the shit that made me worth shit!


If you say that this is only for the better..
Why the fuck do I feel worse than I have ever?!

If you wanna know how I’ve been,
I’m still BREATHING!!
It’s the ONLY Way To know MY HEART’S Still BEATING!!!

I still hate my life!
No, I’m not alright!
No, it won’t be fine!

If this takes my life,
These pills and flashing lights!
It’ll all be fine!

Cause you were So beautiful!
Like something made of miracles!
Take the breath right out of both my lungs!!
Ripped to pieces; what we were both known to be..

If it hurts then let it end your life!
Let it end tonight!
Let it end tonight!!

If it hurts then let it suck you dry!
Destroy your life! 
Destroy your life!!

I'M STILL BREATHING! (prod. by discent)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-shhh-rockband-lyrics

prod and mix by me

crash inside ur pool (prod. pretty boy ron x van beats)

steadysuffer