Name: Lovene by Steve Huff
Duration: 6 min 11 s
Description: String orchestra with solo violin, dedicated to my mother Lovene (she went by Lovene, her first name was Margaret).

Written by Thaís and Luís Bonito.
Recorded and produced at PRO SOUL Studios

A Million Love Songs

A million love songs were already written
About the lack of love that I feel
Coming from you

A million nights were already wasted
Thinking 'bout the lack of that lightness in my heart

I thought, I thought that you would be faithful
That would be my savior

Chorus
Baby, you are, baby, you are
Every time I sleep at night I dream of you
Everything I think about and do is for you
I loved you as a child, I loved you as a baby
I love you right now, love you forever, baby

A million songs
Were already written
About my reputation that I ruined for you
A million nights
I showed up just wasted
Lost and scared, confused and high
Crushed and abused

I thought that you would be faithful
That you would be my savior

Chorus

A Million Love Songs

"In From the Cold" is a soundtrack composed by Steve Huff for a true crime podcast.

In From the Cold

A string quintet in memory of my mother, who passed away on Jan. 29, 2023.

For Mom

LA ERMITAÑA by THAIS CRISTINE
Written by Thaís Cristine Erb, Juan Eduardo Galera, Felipe Augusto da Silva
Recorded and Produced at Mu.Sick Studios in Bern, Switzerland - 2023

Artist Commentary: “La Ermitaña” is really important to me because it symbolizes a positive, empowering return to music and songwriting after a long hiatus. 
I’d been writing mostly poems or scattered pieces of art that didn’t necessarily fit into any category for a long time before getting to the studio, and then Mu.Sick Studios helped me connect everything feel together and bring clarity to the emotions I’d been trying to express for so long. 
I feel like the song ended up sounding much lighter in comparison to the initial very heavy feelings that inspired it, but I take that as a positive thing: maybe there is something beautiful, and even lighthearted about the things that cause you a significant amount of pain. This song positively surprised me.
I think La Ermitaña can resonate with people who might look into the spiritual side of things for comfort and psychological clarity. I think this song benefits from just being felt, instead of rationalized or even understood.
I’d love to hear your take on this song, what does the hermit figure mean to you? I’m no longer ashamed of being the hermit, I’ve embraced it!

La Ermitaña

Artist Commentary: The story of Beijing, as a song, started out - unsurprisingly - in Beijing, China!
I wanted to vent about the paradoxical experience of feeling lonely in such an extraordinary city such as Beijing - ultimately, where I still felt, perhaps understandably, like a foreigner. 
I had the honor of having UK-based producer Darren Martyn listen to my venting, so he could turn it into powerful, cinematic music.
Beijing, however, only saw the light of the day once I was actually not in Beijing at all, which motivated me to rewrite parts of the song from a more distanced perspective. 
I feel very proud of the fact that this song reflects how someone that sometimes can be somewhat sad and introspective can actually be really strong. This song helps me connect to that part of me that feels powerful, and I hope it can help whoever listens to it feel the same way. Thank you so much for listening! I can’t explain how much I truly appreciate it. 

BEIJING
Standing here
Laying my heart out on the mic
Singing to empty crowds
Don’t wanna be here
Foreign words
No one can understand
Am I just a toy for fate?
The death card chasing me

Pre chorus
I act, try to avoid the wreck
There’s irony in these moments
My luck, it broke me

Chorus
Stone-cold roads
When you got no one to hold
Chasing the dream and the gold
Lost in Beijing
City lights
Beautiful in the night
Without love don’t feel right
Lost in Beijing

Working hard
And they steal bills from my jar
An industry that's so harsh
Through music, I’ll fix things
The future came
Took all my hopes away
Got no song to heal the pain
Ran with the Hierophant

Pre chorus
Chorus

Bridge
The bars, and places I called home
All went away when you said so

Chorus
Leaving Beijing...

released January 7, 2024
Darren Martyn, Thais Cristine, Juan Eduardo Galera, Simon Bosshart, Ilia Frey, Mu.Sick Studios

Beijing

Sorrow - Thaís Cristine
Lyrics by Thaís Cristine Erb
Instruments and Production by Eduardo Galera
Recorded at Mu.Sick Studios (2024)

Artist Commentary: “Sorrow” is a song I feel deeply connected to and proud of. Its musicality reflects a subtle integration of my Brazilian roots, and the lyrics come from a place of real emotional honesty - something I value in everything I create. This song was born from a moment of deep internal conflict: the sorrow I experienced in response to a situation I deemed unfair and saddening. I struggled with putting my feelings into words. But ironically, that very silence is what led to this song. Once I recognized what I couldn’t express, the music helped me find the words. I believe Sorrow will resonate with people who think deeply, feel intensely, and often carry unspoken pain that others might not validate. If this song brings you a sense of recognition, comfort, or emotional solidarity, then I’ve fulfilled one of my greatest hopes as an artist.

Lyrics:

Sorrow:

How come when I try to say all the pretty words
It feels like nothing like myself, no, this isn’t me
How come I’ve said everything but it’s not enough
The words ain’t channeling much, no
It’s flawed their energy

Of love and remorse
I feel love, I feel regret too
I’m not in love, but I have loved you
I have no lied, I haven’t lied to you

Oh, I feel dishonest when I’m not lying 
Because I mistrust myself all the time
That’s what you did, love
Oh, feel inconvenient when I reach out
But they’re my feelings, they should be let out
Need to honor them too, oh

How come, the years have passed but the sorrow won’t
I’m feeling stupid, I’m feeling quite low, you told me to move on
How come I have a secret you’re like a god, oh
Seems like my spirit needs the real one, now that you’ve replaced him

Não soube amar, meu amor
Não quis me amar e me deixou
Por que cantar sobre a dor? 
Não posso falar, por isso canto 

Oh, I feel dishonest when I’m not lying 
Because I mistrust myself all the time
That’s what you did, love
Oh, feel inconvenient when I reach out
But they’re my feelings, they should be let out
Need to honor them too, oh

Closure, I sought revenge for closure
I thought revenge was closure
Maybe revenge was closure, closure
Closure, I sought revenge for closure
I thought revenge was closure
Maybe revenge was closure, closure
You hurt me with my sword

Sorrow

This is a rehearsal recording made in October 2024. The German is schlecht and I definitely make some musical goofs (my teacher can be heard helping me count on a long-held note) but Heldentenor rep sits in my sweet spot now.

Rehearsal of Siegmund's "Wintersturme" from Walkure

String orchestra with solo violin, dedicated to my mother Lovene (she went by Lovene, her first name was Margaret).

Lovene

Listen to the original edit of my song Beijing, without the DistroKid edit.

Credits: Darren Martyn, Thais Cristine, Juan Eduardo Galera, Simon Bosshart, Ilia Frey, Mu.Sick Studios

Beijing (Alternative Mix)

Perspective

(First Verse)
No, I don’t want you to die
Yes, you heard me 
Said nasty things
I sent you bad energy 
Yes, you heard me
Yes, I said it

(Second Verse)
But I don’t want your demise 
Though, yes, it feels like I was killed
You had to choose between you and me
And yeah, you didn’t choose me

(Pre-Chorus)
‘Cause anyone else’s perspective
You’d rather reject it 
Just in case it don’t serve your needs 
Anyone else’s depression
Bad feelings, complexes
They don’t matter
To you I don’t exist

(Chorus)
‘Cause you chose yourself
Yeah, I was wrong
You did have loyalty 
You always chose yourself
Damn, was I wrong
You’ve always been loyal to your needs 

(Third Verse)
No, I don’t want you to die
Though I said it, 8 swords ‘round me  
You can’t believe the nice girl was mean
Found your wound, then poured some salt in it

(Pre-Chorus)

(Chorus)

(Bridge)
And now there’s no Christmas
There’s no real love
There’s no, no magic for me

And now there’s no sister 
No dad, no mom
No happy birthday to me 

And now there’s no true love
Blue skies, blue shirts 
No prince, no apologies 

And now there’s no Yvoire
There’s no blue house
There’s no, no castle for me

(Outro)

Healing from you
Will bring me peace, will bring me peace
Gotta be loyal to myself now 
Closure’s in me, closure’s in me

Credits
Vocals: Thaís Cristine Erb
Lyrics: Thaís Cristine Erb
Melody: Thaís Cristine Erb, Eduardo Galera
Instrumentals & Production: Eduardo Galera, Ilia Frey
Mixing & Mastering: Ilia Frey
Co-Producer: Thaís Cristine Erb
Studio: Mu.Sick Studios (Bern, Switzerland)
Cover Art: Thaís Cristine Erb
Photography: David Erb
Release Date: 10.28.25

Lovene

Steve Huff

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