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w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

yeah
who u trying to act for
ripped all my hair at the back door
two bodys laying down on the ground floor
theres no reason for you to be an asshole
who u trying to act for
ripped all my hair at the back door
two bodys laying down on the ground floor
theres no reason for you to be an asshole

im at the worst of it now
dont tell me you where around
dont tell em you gave me anything
im sat with the worst of it
im tired of it hurting me
but its awfully perfect
ur the angel of death to me
and im honestly worthless

setting fire to everything
i feel like a furnace 
and now youre getting mad at me
i feel i deserve it
see the wings on your spine
both serenading my eyes
now ur not here in this life
ive got a reason to die 

please dont look back
im stillwaiting
hiding behind 
my only saviour

please dont look back
im stillwaiting
hiding behind 
my only saviour


load of bs shouting distroted


im tired of it hurting me
but its awfully perfect
ur the angel of death to me
and im honestly worthless

setting fire to everything
i feel like a furnace 
and now youre getting mad at me
i feel i deserve it

songs shit

angel

prod by icantsleeplol
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lyrics:
i wonder where u are
hoping that you're not far
are u among the stars?
or somewhere in my heart
i guess i will never know
its time for me to grow
its time for me to show
how much ive really grown

ima take my skin
then rip it off
then hang it up
all up on my wall
then go to asleep
without a thought
so when i wake
its the first thing i saw
im not that guy you once you knew
im just as sad
but nothing new
im just as grey
but in a different hue
im not the same that you once knew

i had to let u go
even if i didnt want too,
no
u pushed me away
u pushed me aside
then called it a mistake

you dont know how bad i just want?
my life back
oh give my life back. (x4)

i feel like ive been running around in circles 
in circles
in circles
i need to leave this place ive made myself many years ago
many years ago



give my life back

prod by stezzyxl and xav0id 
goodbye 

lyrics:
i need some space
i need a breather 
u wanna break?
i cant believe her
u wanna go?
it dosent make any sense
u were my home
and now u made a mess

take a second to relax 
take a second just for me
i dont
feel alright when i dont fit ur degree
u can
talk all u want
acting like ill never see
all u want
all u want
it wont bother me
take a second to relax 
take a second just for me
i dont
feel alright when nothing feels as what i seems
u can
laugh all u want
acting like ill never see
all u want
all u want
it wont bother me

im 1 step closer to rewind time
and i pray to god just to clear my mind
and i stood up straight, and i left behind
the only girl that caught my eyes

i saw myself
within ur eyes
oh my my
oh my my

xav0id -
take me too
the place u stay
oh i want you
to call my name 
take me too
the place u stay
oh i want you
to call my name 

xav0id -
the love I have for u
its why I need you gone
it'll never be the same
you've become my bane
im sorry for the pain
but this is what u've made
 
Just forget about me
its better that I'm gone
i still wish this didn't end
must I let u go
i can't get over u
heartache's all that remains

our final goodbye w/ xav0id

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

It’s all about you 
Love it’s all about you
I hold my head in my hands 
Babe it’s what I’m bound to
Thinking of you
I can’t stop I’ve tried to
I’d let you do most anything, you felt you had to
Treat me however you wanted
Lay down my body, on mountains of rubbish
I broke my arm for you to hold it
Gave you a gun, point it right at your target

Oh it wasn’t worth it all
Watch it fade to black 
I could give my life to you, and still you’d want it back
When there’s nothing left to offer I could split in half
Give you the other part of me, the one I’ve never had

You can devour me, leave me with holes
Eat all my flaws away, rip from bones
Take what you want, just to leave me alone
If it’ll make you love me 

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

God, I’m restless 
You could take it easy now 
You’ve taken people that I love and you’ve left me with nowt 
So you can take the credit when I go to your house
This is not a joke
Please do not test me now

It must be funny walking round and everybody hates me
And I can’t shake that feeling, it’s how you made me
Is that amusing?
Is that your humour?
I find you stupid
I find you’re useless 
And when I see you
Oh if I ever do
And you compare me
To those infront of you
I’ll make it easy
Oh I’ll decide for you
When you can tell me 
What I was supposed to do

fermented

dead pc.flp

i hoped you'd wait for me (feat. gloomybaby)

prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:
all my pain
was not in vain
cause now i’m free
i used to think i needed you
i never did and that’s the truth 

u tried to break me down 
then break my mind
and tried to find a way inside 
broken glass and funiture
my clock
will strike at night
i trusted and let u in
now scars cover all my skin
i trusted you
i trusted you 
i trust
trust
trust
trust
u tried to break me down
then break my mind
and tried to find a way inside 
broken glass and funiture
my clock
will strike at night
i trusted and let u in
now scars cover all my skin
i trusted you
i trusted you 
i trusted you
i trusted you again

i told myself i wouldn’t go back
and now my heart is laced with a prozac
and i pop them everyday like a late snack
then i close my eyes, then its all black
“man u looking a little pale” bro i know that
“do u even give a fuck?” bro i don’t man
should i even care?
should i even care?
i dont know

prozac

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @noahmadethiss & @horoshavibes
Mixing, additional vocals & guitars by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by @melmige

LYRICS
(sewerperson)
All alone on this Summer night
Look for me in these velvet skies
Pray for me while I walk this fire
Anything just to see you smile
November came and our Summer had died
Leaving us with nowhere to hide
When everyone dropped dead like flies
I had no choice but to make you mine

When we fade away where do the feelings get dropped
'Cause I got boxes of these things like home videos
I'm away like half the year
She doesn't miss me though
All while I'm thinking about her touch
It makes me miserable

(Carlby)
Somehow I'll find a way to reach you
Drag you through the screen
This time I'll tell you everything
How much you really mean to me
And all I am today
Because the bleakest weather is better in your company
Although you're long gone now
I hold tight to your memories
Like home videos
Just know I'll never forget these

I still stare at old photos
Wonder where does the time go
How can I get it back

(Horosha & Carlby)
The past is dead and yet I still I feel it
A shadow sliding over concealing
Anything in the present that would bring me joy
And still I miss the pain

I knew our time was short
But your summer eyes
They captured me by force
A willing prisoner
Even with a painful ending you made every moment shine like gold

Listen on Spotify!

Home Videos w/ sewerperson (Prod. noah thomas)

something a lil sleep token/ brakencey/ sinxi/ deadfishy inspired
obviously


i hear a little whisper between silence on the phone
you say you really miss me, god i hope you really dont
the feelings shattered across somewhere, between the ash and gold
i feel a bit uncomfortable, pretend i really dont

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction


im sure youve heard this song before in every genre
always ranting about something and nobodys bothered
i could try be clever write a double entendre
just for you to listen and not read the lyrics
or maybe i’ll produce something spend ages working on it

-------------just to be compared to every artist that you know ----------------             
                     ===================================
or maybe it’s your fault for listening to everyone and nobody at all
i guess i could be wrong
i guess ill never know
everything’s generic so im reaping what they sow

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence

prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:

my stomach keeps on turning 
i cannot stop this burning
sensation in my body
its concerning, it’s concerning 
the rain just keeps on pouring
and thunder keeps on roaring
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 

loosing my mind in the dead of the night
wishing ur face would get out of my sight
can’t even cry, so i put up a fight
broken again, but i say im alright 
run from the truth just to sit in the lie
couldn’t face facts so i let myself hide
played all the games and i still don’t know why
chasing a ghost that won’t hear my cries
love was a cage and i wanted to fly
clipped my own wings just to stay in ur life
gave u my soul and u left it to die
said that u cared while u twisted the knife
stuck in the dark with no tears to cry
light dosent shine where there’s no will to try 
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose

our final goodbye w/ xav0id

Stezzyxl