I want a life for me that I can choose 🗣️

Brother what plug ins are you using to perfect these beats

(prod. Chill Sebs)

now you see I have a problem
but my mind tells me lies its so hard now, hate me
used to bake in the night, don't forget me
its so sad, but i cry and it breaks me

why is everything so blacked out
I cant even feel my heart, when you're gone now
soul partner, in the night, how did I allow
you to leave me all alone in my sorrows
I'm blinded baby

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

I'm drowning in our memories
echoes of your touch
sleeping here at night
while you're out having fun
connected like the stars and moon in the night
you're the only one who I love, that's right

baby you're my soul partner, everything
I see when I dream
phone calls, and videos, sent from you to me
every little text I get from you makes me think 
of the little things, you do and how much they mean to me

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

comfort

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

prod me

𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘯𝘰 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘹𝘦𝘥.
𝘢 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘎𝘐𝘝𝘌𝘕 𝘛𝘖 𝘔𝘌.
𝘖𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘵.
𝘞𝘏𝘖 𝘌𝘓𝘚𝘌 𝘊𝘖𝘜𝘓𝘋 𝘏𝘈𝘝𝘌 𝘋𝘖𝘕𝘌 𝘐𝘛
𝘈𝘕𝘋 𝘊𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘛𝘏𝘐𝘚 𝘍𝘈𝘙!
𝘞𝘖𝘜𝘓𝘋 𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘠 𝘏𝘈𝘝𝘌 𝘒𝘌𝘗𝘛 𝘎𝘖𝘐𝘕𝘎?
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥. 𝘐𝘴 𝘮𝘦.

I BUILT THIS KINGDOM FROM THE GROUND UP
DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU WHERE'D YOU COME FROM
I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU YOU SHOULD RUN
RUN, RUN, RUN
THOUGHT THINGS WERE DIFFERENT
BUT I GUESS THAT I WAS WRONG
YEAH ICON
THE WAY I MOVE IS DIFFERENT
WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE?
PROLLY BEST YOU MOVE DON'T GET STEPPED ON
TALK ABOUT THE PAST
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WE CAN DO THAT

why you beggin for a ft like a dog with no leash?
why you beggin for attention like my ex?
your a leech
yeah, latch onto me
yeah, the fuck do you need?

I DON'T NEED OLD MUSIC
WAY TOO GOOD REDO IT
I DON'T NEED NO NEW FRIENDS
IM CUTTING TIES DONT GIVE A SHIT
YEAH, LATCH ONTO ME
YEAH, THE FUCK DO YOU NEED?
I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU YOU SHOULD RUN
RUN, RUN, RUN

walk slowly, why you talkin whatchu say?
you don't know me, so pathetic in my way yeah
old news, its a little sad nobody even know you
oh ohh, oh ohh
i guess you feel important
waste my time ill just ignore it
the day still passes by and i dont fuck with the lies

I DONT (x4)

took out time for this
im busy locked and focused
looks like im back it took some time for you to notice
and i repeat myself because god your like the slowest

WALK SLOWLY
YOU DONT KNOW ME

leech

quiet nights, no end in sight
memories playing in my mind
i’m lost inside, no wrong or right
just shadows that you left behind

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

you keep holdin’ on
to the man i used to be
like i’m trapped in your memory
but i’m changin’, can’t you see?
you cross your arms
like you’re guarding what’s left of me
but i’m tryin’ to break free
from the ghost you wanna keep

i see you walk in
to the garden to me
you start to argue
why you tryna make me leave
I light a cigarette
just to try and help me breathe
you say i’m distant
but you never really see

all this silence
is the loudest part of me
until im quiet
so i hear this moment bleed
you cross your arms
like you're guarding what's left of me
like you're guarding what's left of me

walked into the garden
everything’s dead now
isn’t it crazy what a call does
i just keep my head down 
just gotta keep crawling, all in 
hit rock bottom
and my friends dont answer
so why would i call em?

walked into the garden 
everything’s on fire
you told me that you “loved me”
what a fucking liar 
my arms are fully burnt out
from treading all this water
i guess i never learnt
how to fix this flat tire 

it says you got a new man now
my friends saw you both in town 
could’ve at least waited 
till i finally got the 
courage to end it
but im cold product
so i jumped in and drowned
these waves wont let me down 
and in a few years when 
you find me on facebook 
and see i fucking did it
i’d love to see your face love

garden w/ sendflowrs (jolst, irby)

lyrics ⬇️

out my face wit all that negative talk cuz i dont want it
u would fold if you had felt like this for even just a minute
oh i promise you that
i wish that you would just admit it
i know that its been bad but i blame you cuz ur acidic
ion even understand why u always steady trippin on me i feel the shame
cuz somehow you got rid of me
and its alright
Cuz ima see the better me in the next life

your talkin bout my timeline i think ima cry
i dont wanna fear all things i love in life
it dont just appear when ur sleeping over night
nah nah gotta work for it a lot
and i wish that i could tell u that im finna stop soon but im not
cuz i dont think that you understand all i have to lose
its a lot

run it up cuz i fear im at the ending of my life
i dont know whats coming next but i know i cant rewind
i cant show that im upset if i do then u gon cry
i know that i been real blessed but i still been feelin blind

buncha random shi-
(LEMME GO)

try to make em proud but everything i do i dont
u never know what im finna do alone
every single thing i know u do not condone
i would try to fix it but its really jus too broke
every single bone every single choke
every single throw of a punch that i dont
maybe itll mean one day that ill get exposed
maybe if i did then i would grow

mama i been feelin low
can u can u please let me leave home
yea i dont wanna be here
let me just show you one more tear
maybe i just wanna be alone
maybe i dont wanna hear ur tone
maybe i dont wanna call u back 
cuz even if i did i know that you wont atone
i dont wanna check my phone

every single bone (josiah3)

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy

lyrics:

my stomach keeps on turning 
i cannot stop this burning
sensation in my body
its concerning, it’s concerning 
the rain just keeps on pouring
and thunder keeps on roaring
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 

loosing my mind in the dead of the night
wishing ur face would get out of my sight
can’t even cry, so i put up a fight
broken again, but i say im alright 
run from the truth just to sit in the lie
couldn’t face facts so i let myself hide
played all the games and i still don’t know why
chasing a ghost that won’t hear my cries
love was a cage and i wanted to fly
clipped my own wings just to stay in ur life
gave u my soul and u left it to die
said that u cared while u twisted the knife
stuck in the dark with no tears to cry
light dosent shine where there’s no will to try 
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose

produced by me (dawsin)
written by me (dawsin)
everything by me (dawsin) :o

lyrics:
just a figment
of my
imagination
of me

RID OF ME
RID OF ME
MY OTHER PERSONALITY
HE'S NOT A FRIEND TO ME
HATE MYSELF
FAMILY STILL SCARED OF ME
.45 TO MY TEMPLE
I'M READY TO GET
RID OF ME

don't want no one
but I left these flowers 
here for you
baebaebaebae
babe it's true
baebaebaebae
that I wanna blow my head out
so I feel like a drop out
(in life)
so you'll walk in my room and ask me why I did this
ain't been the same, since I regained my pulse

let me leave
let me leave
let me leave 
this horrible dream

I might've said that "I was fine"
but-
ahaa
it's quite the opposite
i-
I don't even know how to feel anymore

remember the first time I said "hey"?
well this the last time I say "bye"
you're so fake
anxiety got me covering my arms in stripes
(our journey together, ends here.)

I'm disappointed in my self
cause 
I still have the ring on
I still haven't taken it off
AND I BET YOU THINK THATS IT'S PITIFUL
BUT I MISS YOUR EARFULS
I MISS WHEN WE TALKED ALOT
AND NOW ITS ALL GONE-

bipolarity

[Intro]
I lie awake at night, staring at the ceiling
Every memory of her hits like fire I can’t feel leaving
Her laughter echoes in my mind, her touch still haunts my hands
I keep turning over every word, every look, every plan
I see her in the shadows, I hear her in the rain
I whisper to the silence — will she feel this same pain?
Every heartbeat screams the question I can’t shake away
I ask myself, in the quiet…

[Verse 1]
Does she miss me every day, like I miss her tonight?
Does she feel the empty space where I used to hold her tight?
I replay every moment, every word I let slip by
I’d give it all to hear her say my name and not just goodbye

[Pre-Chorus]
’Cause every second without her is a storm inside my chest
I can’t escape the thought that maybe I’m not her best

[Chorus]
I ask myself — does she miss me every day?
Does she think of me the way I do in every way?
I’d cross the world, break every rule, just to hear her say
She’s thinking of me — feels my love, and she stays
I ask myself — does she miss me every day?
Or did I lose her heart while I was finding my own way?

[Verse 2]
I see her in the sunlight, in every shadowed street
I hear her in the music, in every heartbeat’s beat
I wonder if she’s lonely, if she cries a little too
Or if she’s moved on without me, leaving love untrue

[Pre-Chorus]
Every memory is a dagger, every thought a flame
I need to know she feels me too — or nothing is the same

[Chorus]
I ask myself — does she miss me every day?
Does she think of me the way I do in every way?
I’d cross the world, break every rule, just to hear her say
She’s thinking of me — feels my love, and she stays
I ask myself — does she miss me every day?
Or did I lose her heart while I was finding my own way?

[Bridge]
If she does, I’ll run to her, I’ll break every wall
If she feels me too, I’ll risk it all
No more hiding, no more waiting, no more fears
I’ll hold her closer, wipe away her tears

[Final Chorus]
I ask myself — does she miss me every day?
Does she think of me the way I do in every way?
I’d cross the world, break every rule, just to hear her say
She’s thinking of me — feels my love, and she stays
I ask myself — does she miss me every day?
’Cause I’m not letting go, I’m finding my way

[Outro]
I see her in the stars, her light guiding me home
Every whisper of her name reminds me I’m not alone
If she feels me in the wind, if she dreams of me tonight
I’ll chase her through the shadows, bring her back to the light
Every heartbeat, every breath, I’ll spend just proving it’s true
I’ll hold her close forever, tell her I still choose
I ask myself… I ask myself…
Does she miss me every day?
And I hope… I hope…
She knows I never went away

Does She Miss Me Everyday

The storm swallowed the night.

Cicadas buzzed, and somewhere in the dark, wolves began to howl, distant at first, then closer.

Ookami knelt in an empty field, clutching the weight of memories she could never let go.

From the shadows, two wolves emerged.

The White Wolf stepped forward, its fur glowing beneath the moonlight. Cherry blossoms rose where it walked, gentle, fragile traces of hope.

“Hold on,” it whispered. “You can still fight.”

Then came the Black Wolf, eyes burning red. With each step, spider lilies bloomed, beautiful and cruel.

“Give in,” it thundered. “Let the darkness consume you.”

Her scream tore through the storm, not just of pain, but a plea for help.

Hear me cry.

The wolves circled her as the night trembled.

And in the silence that followed, one question lingered in the wind:

Did the White Wolf save her, or did the Black Wolf win? 🌑🐺🌸

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