HOPE I DIE

pleading with him, bleeding within

* https://youtu.be/-0Sa8gvw1TU?si=tczMIyuMM-Br7Rnf *

(produced by me)

spirit comes to us through neurosis - you will be okay

- love chanel

pleading with him

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DzXEM2beb8g

You can ask me how I'm doing, I'll say fine.
Even though the pain is killing me inside.
You can Ask me how I'm feeling, I'm alright.
You want the truth then you can look me in the eyes.

You can ask me how I've been I'll say okay,
I never gave a fuck about my feelings anyways
You can ask me hows its been I'll say, it's great
I never wanted your sympathy in the first place.

And I know I really mean that in the worst way.
I'd share my side by I don't think you'd ever see it.
I turn my back on everybody even me.
I'd say I'm sorry but I don't know what It'd would mean.

Black Nails, Black Sheep
I was never meant to be
I'm in the dark, but I can see.
This world was never meant for me
 
Should I stay or should I go,
I've been walkin down this road.
As of lately I've been homesick 
but I'm still so sick of home.  

I'm feelin just like a ghost 
I'm nobody, I'm alone
Got no body, Just a soul
My backs been been on these ropes.

My hearts been getting cold.
My skins been getting numb
My minds been getting dull
I see what I've become.

Black Nails, Black Sheep, 
I was never meant to be
I'm in the dark, but I can see
This world was never meant for me

Music Video

Black Sheep (Prod. ʎpoqou & combination lock) [Music Video in Description]

https://velvetqueen.bandcamp.com/track/insomnia-ft-omenxiii
ft. https://soundcloud.com/omenxiii
prod. https://soundcloud.com/oilcolor
prod. https://soundcloud.com/000garrett
fan art by https://www.instagram.com/hungry__boyz/

[lyrics]
♥velvet♥
I don’t wanna sleep cuz thats wen I can’t breathe
I aint givin up I’m on the brink of somethin
I could feel it in my skin this is who I’m supposed to be
This is all that I can be

I dont wanna sleep cuz thats wen I can’t breathe
Thats wen all these demons start comin after me
I’m trapped in a nightmare and I can’t get out
Someone wake me up so I could figure this out 

I dont wanna dream cuz they always get broke
I flex on the streets but I’m rly fuckin broke
I dont care about money I dont care about these hoes
Got a lot of frauds stay hittin up my phone
Stop hittin up my phone...

Stop clawin at my bones
See me doin good ya now they wanna call 
See me doin good they hopin that i fall

♥omen♥
Yeah I know how that goes,
They just hopin that I fall,
But I'm floatin like a ghost,
Sippin Rossi on the rocks

Drinkin water when I gotta, Otherwise I'm sippin wine,
I don't care about your friends because they ain't no friends of mine.

Remember that time when nobody fucked with me,
now everybody really tryna fuck with me,
Tryna get in the game when I got the key,
Still locked inside with my misery,

Company for the lonely,
Comin up with my own team,
I hate the world but I love you,
I hate myself but I need you.

I know I know how you feel when you can't see me.
I feel the same,

I feel the same.

Insomnia ft. OmenXIII (prod. Garrett & Oilcolor)

prod killedmyself
vocals recorded at bridge east studios

and if i make it through the week 
you’re still fucking dead to me 
i know its been some time 
but i wish to never speak 
its haunting in my brain 
but i think I’m fine now 
im ok 
its like i always said before 
I’m going on and through the pain 
playing back the sounds 
of cutting myself down 
ill rooted matter 
on tarnished ground 
but don’t worry 
I’m leaving now 
give us all the break we need 
from a fucking piece of shit like me 

and ill always be nothing 
but that doesn’t bother me 
feeling sorry isn’t helping 
but feeling sad gives me relief

ill stay away for life

the mother fucking suns coming up 
picturing it all again
laptops burning my lap 
and my face feels hot from the glass
looking for the words too fast
this needs to last
keep pushing for too much 
don’t let the things i think be said
too busy trynna make things seem not rushed

never ready
stalling too much 
keeping up the pace
can’t trust 
somethin bout the things we touch 
as if we mean it
but have never seen it
believe me
and make this easy 
but either way 
I’m throwing in 
the rest of this
what ever you said it is
nothingness

still stay fucking up
never letting things go 
I’m always fucked up

i got a tight grip 
on the things i should let slip
my head is full of hate 
but my hearts in a better place

picturing it all again (prod ʎpoqou)

FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER

everything is boring (prod. frander)

my friend @barrenwaste

thank you all for listening

[lyrics]
i write all these songs about you 
and i know you dont give a shit
on my knees i pray again
take these words and comprehend 
the fucked up ways you would not intend 
i thought to myself 
i was wrong again 
too fucking scared to know 
 i let it grow 
the curiosity 
of always coming close 
i shouldve known
that id be stuck in the same hole
that i dug myself into
smell like smoke
just leave now please
till we say what we really think
we say goodbyes and slowly sink
born to be
nothing more
i tell myself
as i ignore
and it doesnt matter what they say
unless you're dead
just fucking play 
and can we please turn back time
so i can find new peace of mind

ǝɔɐld ǝɥʇ ɥʇᴉʍ ǝuop ǝʌ,noʎ ʇɐɥʍ ǝʌol (ft. Barren)

lay my soul 2 rest (prod. Mxrio)

Vanete:
https://soundcloud.com/vanetee

Sinister:
https://soundcloud.com/blackheartsinister

Vanete & Sinister - Young and Stupid (Prod. sketchmyname) *rare*

Prod. Sylumgone
Mixed - Sylumgone
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ayo i luv u

Erase.57 (feat. Graveyardkid)

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