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LYRICS
now im goin insane
now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain
now im goin insane 
now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain

feel like i burn through competition 
cant deal with none of your bullshit i need a minute
i feel like im bleeding out someone call the medic
i found an easy out tryna get invested
and now im goin insane feel like im losin my brain
stuck in the dark too long i cant find my way
struggle with this shit everyday thats why i have migraines
you told me the thought counts
but all its doing is giving me headaches

oooouu its givin me migraines
ooouuu think i need a advil
ooouuu i can never act chill
better watch what you say about me

bury my thoughts away 
anything except for thinkin bout yesterday
you dont wanna feel my pain 
and i can barely feel my face
right now its all too real
why'd you have to teach me a lesson that i never wanted to learn
it gets worse
headaches everyday i cant tell you how bad it hurts
thought i was lost before now there is no tellin
if ill ever be the same
i just wanna see the breath come out your face
people told me to forgive you sooner
now im sittin here lookin like a loser 
im sorry if i end up seeing you sooner on the other side

Spotify

headaches*

2.8.21

prod https://soundcloud.com/silokilledthis
w/ https://soundcloud.com/memwald https://soundcloud.com/atn2k https://soundcloud.com/1polarity https://soundcloud.com/okstarkie https://soundcloud.com/thelunacy

Lyrics:
[Hook]
i dont like to brag
but ive been doing great
i dont need anything from you ill be okay either way
promise me that you wouldn't miss me whenever im not around
cus i just want to make you smile i pray i dont let you down

i know that im not perfect but i always try my best
really hope that i deserve good things happening again

im so thankful for the people that i get to call my friends
i can't say it enough but i swear that im in your debt

[My Verse]
i appreciate the things you always say and do
i can't imagine the person id be if i never met you
i count my blessings everyday and i cant thank you enough
ill never take it for granted im grateful for all your love

[Memory]
Taking you for granted
Trust me that's something I'll never do
I don't know why I expected you to play me like a fool

Not like all these other girls, tryna rip my heart apart
You just wanted all my love from the very start

Yet im a rabbit in a snowstorm
A needle in a haystack
Trying to be different but all it do is make me sad
Just playing the anti hero
Cos ill never be ur hero
Guess im just stuck as a zero
Not even reaching subzero 

[Hook]

[Atone]
It's like I stepped into a new land
Forget about my problems and forget about my old friends

I'm here to have a good time
Got nothing else on my mind
And we've been going up
I'm talking bout my friends and I

Four bands, on me

One for all my bros,
And I got one for Mr. Tony

I keep a lot to myself
I don't tell nobody else
Except for my best friends, cus they deserve to know me

[Polarity]
Lately I've been lowkey cus I'm not much of a boaster
But shit's been getting crazy turn my life into a poster 
(Fuck!)

I turn this shit upside down
Now I can't figure it out
Things feel okay in the moment
But know I still have my doubts

Always have and always will
I'm under pressure don't lose chill
And when the cops come calling in
Just know we both don't pay our bills

And every single second I'm alone just know there's time to kill
So you can come back home whenever there's a house up on these hills

[OKSTARKIE]
thank you for the all love
drownin in the water, but you helped me above
ma i know that i dont say it enough
glad that you were here, i hope they put you above

aye
cuz if they put you below
id b sittin in a rut, id put my nose to the blow
aye (bruh) aye 
ima just stick to the dope
i been asking for help, im going door to door

[Lunacy]
Pick me up when I'm down, I'm never going out
Talk me off the ledge, I ain't ever giving up
I would never be alone since I got you by my side
On your shoulder I can cry, hope the feeling never dies

You're the type to never judge tell you all my secrets
I was drowning in depression but you saved me from the deep end
Deepen our connection I was always in my head
Yea you saved me from the demons that keep me in bed

[Hook]

Fin

grateful w/ memory, atone, polarity, OKSTARKIE, lunacy (silo)

☆

prod and mix by @traxee 

BEATSCAPE: https://youtu.be/jIFm2VkaaQ8 

Get the elevator on the wrong floor I didnt press it right
Office job is kinda lame still stuck in the past
I wanna try a different way
Pet projects and cases that they throw away
Trash it and go back to grey

safe in the dark town
oddly unironic
and at least i can walk unafraid
if i believe things will be alright
Pillows on my bed
shove em all to the ground
and tryna feel less alone
by turning on the tv
open your diary
what did u write about me
ink lit up from the screen
the brightest show and tell
yea

Little glow in the dark
Ceiling with the stick on stars
its like the world is ours
when its not really at all
See how its all gonna play out
Still Trying not to fade out
Stick with me on the days
That aren’t easy at all

i confuse myself, help
i could use some self help
never know what to do
So I must be selfish too
leave it all on the line
trust itll all end up fine
leave it all on the line
Its why i look to you

and then I'm back to the real world
and i'm working 9 to 7s
wasting my freakin life
without learning any lessons 
realitys so numbing
Step one and then come through
I think i'll feel better if we talk 
in circles like we do

i got u using my slang
the words we say are the same
makes me believe in something
i used to think was insane

Ima watch it all unfurl
They make it seem so easy to fall
but i know i'd get picked up
even if it takes a while

Off the elevator on the wrong floor i didnt press it right
Office job is kinda lame but its not gonna last
i wanna try a different way
feeling out the phases
they say
go away 
always make it out okay

ultrabeat sound of my 18 (p. traxee)

prod. by myself

i spilled my guts all over the floor
im throwing up what id hold in before
swear we expired now we gotta throw it all out
every well i try to wish in i just fall down

im stuck here tryna pick up pieces of what's left of the truth
dont try to tell me that you think my life was better with you
turn of the tv i cant stand to see your face or ill lose it
ill let it consume me

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
ill drift off thinking how we were in love last august

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

it's too late i cant sleep anymore
sun in the sky as it bleeds in the door
said i would change like every day but im the same as before
dont wanna stay ill take a break from always getting ignored

i just took off with no GPS
after i drive out your life you wont have nothing left
leading 2 lives always caught up when they intersect
do what i do to survive and breathe another breath

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
ill drift off thinking how we were in love last august

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

my throat is closing up
i cant get what i want
said you wanted forever but it wasnt what u thought
now its hard for me to talk
was i never what you wanted
im looking back ur tearing up
about the fact that we are done

i try to tell myself that somehow theres another way
that somehow i misread the text you sent the other day
i swear to god now theres nothing to your promise
i know you gave up it's what i get for being honest

it's too late i cant sleep anymore
sun in the sky as it bleeds in the door
said i would change like every day but im the same as before
dont wanna stay ill take a break from always getting ignored

i just took off with no GPS
after i drive out your life you wont have nothing left
leading 2 lives always caught up when they intersect
do what i do to survive and breathe another breath

throwing up

EPISODE 3/5!!!!!!!!
featuring the frakin GOAT @t1gerstar!!!!
everything produced by me
inspired by tsubi club and internet girl

purple shampoo! (feat. tigerstar)

everything by me

ima come back better than before
i try my best to restore
you wanted less but i wanted more
i sided with the bitch who hurt my core
fuck it i don't want her anymore
got me feeling things i cant describe 
in my head; i keep inside
now i just want you to die
got me feeling like im insane
plant evil thoughts inside my brain
you dragged me through the rain
i'll put the pain inside your head
i don't want your love anymore
throw out my heart onto the floor
dagger blade cutting out my sores
i don't love you anymore

i bleed blue but my blood red i'll stay that way 
faith fades along with the passing days
they try to stop me they always hate
i walk the path inside a broken brain

far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust

stream

restore

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STARPOWER! July 20

Hey!
What unleashed this side of you?
You're not usually speaking
'Bout what you think I should do,
I should choose

Hey!
Whatchu think about all this change?
Haven't let go of me all day
What were you gonna tell me?
That you're scared to say

All my faith is almost gone
'Cus when I think about what I want
I'm sorry but I don't know
I have no response!
And then it's May, we graduate
You always say
You'll do anything to go where I will go
I hope it's worth the wait

When in doubt, I'll be your cheerleader
But I doubt that you'll even need a clutch
To be there when I won't
Yeah, you'll be fine okay!

Things were good so why'd you go away?
Have to let you know
I don't count on anyone to say this stuff
But you say things the best in every way

I'ma get stuck in this time
By taking pics of us left and right
And nothing's gonna last forever
But with you, it might

Coming clean I need to lay it out
and tell the story so far
There's not much I can do to fix it
Before things fall apart
You think I would've learned a lesson
Beyond the past that we shared
It's not fair, it's not fair

All I need, like vapor
Like I breathe you
And I'm cleared and I'm charged
Addictive energy I'm trying not to need
But it's hard
Still convincing myself that I need to go home
'Cus I've burnt out on my own

So I try to get some sleep
But I don't have you to hold
And when I cry I don't want you to see
Tears on my pillow
And I have too many ways to say
How I feel alone
I'll sleep on the left side tonight
But it still feels cold

When you switch up you got me down
Down, down
When you switch up got me

Oh, what's the point of being anything?
Other than with you head to feet
I don't care what I need I just want you
I'll wear your jersey with the nine
I'll write you a lullaby
Remember me by your side, what it was like

I wish it was simple, but it's not
I'll keep missing the way it was
'Till the end, don't pause
'Till the end, don't
Maybe we should skip to when
We're together again and move on
'Till we're in the same spot
(If and when)
I wish I was with you, but I'm not
I'll keep missing the way it was
'Till the end, don't pause
'Till the end, don't
Maybe we should skip to when
We're together again and move on
'Till we're in the same spot
If and when it comes

if and when

Instrumentality

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prod @blackwinterwells + @notlieu
notes://
hope u guys like dis song
i think the lyrics r cool
my fav song ive made 
prolly gone flopski but im simply bossed up !!
cover art is ma yard
lyrics :)
so much bullshit 
i cant stand it
i been crazy lately
i been going manic
ask me how do it 
baby idk i manage
wastin all my time n 
im wastin all the bandwidth

im sick !
n im overstimulated
neurons in my brain 
filled with information
she do cheap drugs
n cheap vacations
i do fake friends 
cant hold conversations 

i try hard to sleep at night
n i try so hard to make things right
n i struggle everyday just to close my eyes
i been shaking 
i been nervous
think im sleep deprived 

endorphins 
man u look so gorgeous
n u try so hard to ignore it
n u say u hate me
adore it
then the next u know
its the morning

im way to tired for dis
yeah i been way to tired 4 shit
n i try my hardest just to make things click
but it never works out so i think 

im sick !
n im overstimulated
neurons in my brain 
filled with information
she do cheap drugs
n cheap vacations
i do fake friends 
cant hold conversations

sick (p. blackwinterwells + lieu)

produced by me @scrufff

featuring @kurtains

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS

yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBjPukjdAuU&lc=UgxuPLViMGAigkaehDJ4AaABAg&feature=em-comments

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3EnY5StFgZV9pUUuFp4nP4?si=e3NmvgUWRxW1ao3o_bAvpA

@kurtains

produced by me

pic by me