intro (prod.jpxfrd) (remastered)

take the blame again, but haven’t settled
another game of u playin w my mental
i wld prolly die, if i went ahead n kept ya
threw me to the side, how could u treat me like a rental?

how’d i even get this far?
takin shots to my heart, it was doomed from the start
u haven’t changed at all
u want to watch me fall apart
i explained it all
u say u listen but u never did

i can c the sunrise, haven’t ate, haven’t slept
thought u were the one, ye i truly thought ur heaven sent 
hurt me to the core n i hate u for the things u did
feel my stomach turnin, throwin up, i’m so sick
i wish,, ye i wish i never met u
so quick, moving on, don’t think he can help u
i, i kno i could do better
i’m js tryna figure y it’s hard to forget ya

i feel so sick
u moved on quick
won’t let u win
look what u did

take the blame again, but haven’t settled
another game of u playin w my mental
i wld prolly die, if i went ahead n kept ya
threw me to the side, how could u treat me like a rental?

how’d i even get this far?
takin shots to my heart, it was doomed from the start
u haven’t changed at all
u want to watch me fall apart
i explained it all
u say u listen but u never did

rental (trauma)

p.s im not spanish so excuse me if the lyrics sound dumb 😭

you can fall on me when i stand tall
this summer wasted are you there fall?
its all energy its all mental
you kept me warm my candle

aku tak rasa sangat yea im getting baked
baby its july yea
bila going date
kita berdua sama 
intertwined by fate
yea let me know let me know
if its not too late

you kept me warm through the winter
im thankful for that 
for all the time that you given
so can i see you this summer
please you don't need a reason
we're just two teenage hearts
who gives a fk what they're thinking

por el momento aquí
podemos a querer
eres a mi la cura
te quiero sin porqué
en tus ojos me pierdo
como el sol en el mar
si esto es un sueño
no quiero despertar

i don't think i've ever felt like this before
can you tell me what it is that im feeling now
im a little confused but i don't wanna let go
if this was forever then you can take my soul

if its not too late id like to know
how are you doing
i hope you're fine today
and for the reasons that i'll keep to myself
im wishing you the best and all take care of yourself

stand tall (me)

I think I will try my best to be kind today and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/4UMATmyGZ7motTjHbkiHcV?si=yZTT8S5DQymEJDItc2cLQA

every track produced, mixed, mastered, written, and procrastinated over by me
a song about someone i no longer recognize

this is a letter that i'll never send
tears shed and shed, with this i hope it ends
my hope is gone now, you're too far lost
but i know that you will probably hear this song

as a little boy, you were my entire world
but as the world kept going on,

i saw you change and change
oh why, oh why?
maybe you were like this the entire time

i thought i could be myself around you
turns out i was oh so wrong
you're so hateful and oh so bitter
but i guess i'll be the model son

cause that's all that i am
that's all i'll ever be
i tried so hard for so long
but you never looked at me

so i'll fly
like a flower in a windy garden
far away from you
'cause i need that space to breathe

just know that you'll never see me again

this is a letter that i'll never send
tears shed and shed, with this i hope it ends
my hope is gone now, you're too far lost
but i know, but i know

as a little boy, you were my entire world
but as that world kept going on,

i saw you change and change
oh why, oh why?
maybe you were like this the entire time

i thought (oh, i thought)
turns out i was oh so wrong
you're so hateful and bitter
but i guess i'll be the model son

cause that's all that i am
that's all i'll ever be
i tried so hard for so long
but you never looked at me

i will fly
like a flower in a windy garden
far away from you
'cause i need that space to breathe

just know that you'll never see me-

like a flower

(prod by @t2kazu & @1sunsuu)

lyrics
@me
baby you were the reason
I don't need another cause
to fall inlove
I seen you with another guy now
you seem so much better
it makes my heart break
even faster

baby I know I'm no longer needed
your flirting so much over text
it makes me so damn jealous
knowing were falling apart
and theres no hope between us
even if we try so hard
my heart cannot take it
its as if I'm dying
so can't you leave me alone
to think about what I done

@t2kazu
this ain’t love, it’s a battlefield,
even my blood don’t know how i feel.
she said “forever,” but she ain’t real,
so i pop one just to keep still.
Baby why can’t you look at me in the eyes
Yea you done hurt me so many times
Yea she left me scars I got marks 
I got no tears to shed I’m alone in this park
Yea I’m alone in this park
Yea you just left me in the dark 
(Yea you left you left me in the dark, I don’t know what to do, yea left me in the dark)

pops don’t call, i don’t call back,
guess we both learned love don’t last.
bro got smoke, can’t take it back,
whole fam cold, i just adapt.

heart too heavy, mind too dark,
she left scars, they left marks.
ain’t no tears left in this park,
so i light one up and restart.

hope with kazu (kazu + 1sunsuu)

Oct 2025 pt.2:
1. Symelz n me
2. Me
3. Me
4. Me
5. Me 
6. Neuroticdidthat, 1plugsoon, sleepyyfr n me
7. aris (MY GOATTT) n me
8. Spaceboyry n me

Oct 2025 pt.2 w/ @symelz, @sleepyyfr, @itsneurotic, @1plugsoon, @arisisdeadinside, @spaceboyry

Vivencias

produced by strscream

lyrics-
@peiflowy
way to tired of this shit now,
wanna roll up,
I ain't really believe in love,
shit like sora (ai),
got no ice in my cup now,
sippin soda,
gotta ease the fucking pain,
so I pour up.

way to tired of this shit now,
wanna roll up,
I ain't really believe in love,
shit like sora (ai),
got no ice in my cup now,
sippin soda,
gotta ease the fucking pain,
so I pour up.

@boomy_4
Drinking till I black out
Wondering where you at now
Talking to myself
As you’re screaming in the background
Tired of all the fights yeah I know were not alright
Tears falling down almost every single night 

You said you’d be always be by my side
These drugs inside they’re messing with my mind
shown you love but all you’ve got are lies
The memories gone they’re burning by the fire

@peiflowy
way to tired of this shit now,
wanna roll up,
I ain't really believe in love,
shit like sora (ai),
got no ice in my cup now,
sippin soda,
gotta ease the fucking pain,
so I pour up,
I'm really outta clues,
I thought it was me and you,
you came to fuck the mood,
I'm thinking what to do,
I swear that I've been here before,
Do not climb these ropes,
guess it's time to let things go...


rollin up (@strscream)

produced with love by me,,
ft @ritsuzuki, @iowgen, @556renzo
hi everbodyy i just want to say thank you so much for listening to my stuff. ive been struggling with so much recently and right now making these silly little songs is really the only thing keeping me together. it honestly just warms my heart to see even just a few people enjoy something that i care about. such a heartthrob, i know. but ily all sm. thank you<3

(@4aia >_<)
i should work on myself n stop hurting myself
but ur inside my headd!!!!!
inside my obsessionn
n ull never hear me.. but ur the reason i wake up
dc if it breaks me
my only fixation

i just need u to need me the same way that i need u
if only i could go back and tell u the things that i meant to
ik i gotta move on,
n try to believe in something new but,
i hate it all..
i hate that its not with u :/

(@556renzo)
i cant do this anymore, girl im on the edge
i cant live without ya bae, i don't understand
cuts up on my body, i really can't forget
really can't forget about uu

ur living in my mind, i want uu
n i cant do sumn bout itt
wish that we had never crossed (ooh)
im better off wandering without u

(@iowgen)
whats the point in it?
running down a losing game
crying all alone inside of our place again
countdown on my life
hoping that ill die in peace
fallen out of touch
with nothing left to save

dont u wonder too?
would the outcome change with us?
cover my wounds inside
hoping u could feel better
whats been done has all been left x3

(@ritsuzuki)
i know its hard to see the tears on my shirt
gotta heal your heart
baby i know that it hurts
and oh,
nihilism, what else is there to gain?
and i cant think a lot i think that im dying again

i tried to end my life
it still feels like im alive
ure living in my head
i cant take this pain anymore
i was there til the end
u were never my friend
staring at numbers, is that all i ever really meant?

(@4aia)
i should work on myself n stop hurting myself
but ur inside my headd!!!!!
inside my obsessionn
n ull never hear me.. but ur the reason i wake up
dc if it breaks me
my only fixation

i just need u to need me the same way that i need u
if only i could go back and tell u the things that i meant to
ik i gotta move on,
n try to believe in something new but,
i hate it all..
i hate that its not with u :/

all these cuts on my body r crying for u
tearing myself to pieces... maybe ull care..
no i dont wanna feel this way</3

been stayin awake every night
i keep on waiting... maybe u might call me.. 
ik im the problem
im sry, 
i cant keep trying :(
ii dont wanna live this way

fixation w/ ritsu, iowgen, renzo

Another Shape is about loving someone enough to let go. It is not about the feeling ending, it is about it changing. For anyone who had to walk away while still caring, this one is for you.

Another Shape

See You Next Tuesday

#cmo
#silenthill
#aftermath
shoutout to mirza adam