when i see him with you it makes my stomach sick 
knowing you use to touch me with those fingertips 
i remember you getting tatted on your wrist 
you held hand and told me "baby we can get through this"

Verse 1

i get sick off walking down the same road again 
use to hold my hand baby you was my bestfriend
now im sitting on this cold floor
i don't know where i am 
i don't know what to aim for 
i walk past café where we use to eat a lot
take the left round the corner because my heart still in shock

when i see him with you it makes my stomach sick 
knowing you use to touch me with those fingertips 
i remember you getting tatted on your wrist 
you held hand and told me "baby we can get through this" x2

viens

rings on my arm, in the ink, and it stings
i remember when u pushed that needle in my skin
can u do it deeper? i wanna feel the pain
I want the ink to stain, and i want this tat to stay

whats the point of holding on if u wont change?
whats the point of bringing light to the bad days?
whats the point of losing sleep on what u might say?
im just doin lines of ket until my mind fades
whats the point of lying, saying that im okay?
and it pains that u will only ever see me as someone thats in ur way

when i see him with you it makes my stomach sick 
knowing you use to touch me with those fingertips 
i remember you getting tatted on your wrist 
you held hand and told me "baby we can get through this" x2

fingertips w/ betweentheviensandi (jolst x me)

shoutout @juzo for the cover art :) give him a follow pls

lyrics:

AUTUMN

(rest my arms)
(where they cannot ever be harmed)
(cold to the touch)

there's certain days where i haven't been better!
but when the sun goes down
i know tomorrow will be bitter
i've lost my head; when the clock struck ten
the blade came crashing down & now i'm back where i had started
could give a fuck if i'm dramatic,
the reward could be prestine
if i take the pills they offer me
my dreams could be serene
but i never wanted that; figmentated lies
to put on a public act, for their brainwashed minds

EPITOME

every day i wake up just to do the same shit over and over again
it gets hard to even stand up when i don’t know who i am
i thought you were a friend
but where were you in the end
i see it’s all just pretend
now my wounds they won’t even mend
th-th-th-they won’t mend
nothing feels real 
am i fucking ghost
cant take time to heal
so i’ll put the knife up to my throat
just to see if i’m alive
and if i’m not than what am i?

spotify :)

my wounds won’t mend w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

sorry our chapter closed you guys, hope you found better

Lyrics:

hope my friends fall out
i can't imagine finding out they noticed
i'll fight this shit alone
a pain i fear could make me fucking fold

man i hope my friends fall out
i can't imagine finding out they noticed
i'll fight this shit alone
a pain i fear could make me fucking fold
she told me god my hands are cold

hope my friends fall out 
i can't imagine finding out they noticed
i'll fight this shit alone
a pain i fear could make me fucking fold

man i hope my friends fall out
i can't imagine finding out they noticed
i'll fight this shit alone
a pain i fear could make me fucking fold
she told me god my hands are cold
she told me god your hands are cold
can we intertwine our fingers
let our feelings linger 
woah woah oh oh
woah woah woah oh oh

-

man i hope my friends fall out 
i can't imagine finding out they notice
i'll fight this shit alone
a pain i fear could make me fucking fold
she told me god my hands are cold

matt & sam (drewisdead)

feelings 4 u (prod. swaine x eric godlow)

LYRICS:

I'm too fucked up to be in public
Anxious at the function, got this feeling in my stomach
I see people dancing drunk, in a few hours they'll be fucking
But I'll go home alone and fall asleep; remember nothing
Baby, waking up is such a chore
I'm always high or else I'm bored
I gotta pick myself up off the floor
One day I'll see the world (and I'll see)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

I don't wanna talk, I wanna end it, no discussion
Give me everything I wanted, I'll return it like it's nothing
Make it back tomorrow night and go to heaven in the morning
The devil's in the book, but I'm too good at telling stories
So I wake up, say a little prayer for all the dead ones
Take one, and stay the fuck away from all the fake love
Guess I'll make it through somehow
Tell me, darling, how soon is now?

I don't know what the fuck to call it
I'm always in withdrawal, I'm like a fucking alcoholic
But with you it's something special, I can tell that's why I lost it
I don't wanna talk, honestly, wish I went to college
Cuz I'm sick of all the run-around
You hate my guts, I hate this town
I hate the things I write about
Cuz soon we'll all be dead (but fuck it maybe)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

ONE DAY

this song means something to me, i hope you can find solace in it too ♡

prod michael harrison
inspo: @newportmotel

lyrics:
you told me every feeling in a couple words
i didn't really smile but i guess it doesn't hurt 
it's really starting to feel like i'm just at my worst
no matter how i try no i'll never find my worth
'cause i remember 13 
was a kid who was hurtin' bad 
15, finally thought everything was good at last
16, in a blink i'm turning 17
i realize that i'm still the same 
but someday 

i'll find a way out of this old house
i'll look left and right and north and south i'll find
something to let me sleep at night
'cause nothing i do ever feels so right

and that time you told me everything would be fine 
while i was dying barely breathing every time that i cried 
the next day i woke up in a hospital bed 

i never saw you again

it kills me now 
every time i think what i should have said
i end up thinking 'bout the things that it could have been 
but your indifference was something that you could not pretend 
so why do i even care?
'cause someday 

i'll find a way out of this old house
i'll look left and right and north and south i'll find
something to let me sleep at night
'cause nothing i do ever feels so right


i'll find a way out of this old house
i'll look left and right and north and south i'll find
something to help me sleep at night
'cause nothing i do ever feels so right

find

5 AM feat. fijimar (prod. dercept x ayoley x jacob lincoln)

i'll be found w/ Tameron (ushanka boy)

Fuck intursted at the start 

(9tails)
you said you hate me 
you mean it but i couldnt be late
i needed it to hurt me 
to break me, to beat me 
i need it to scar
fucked all the lowkey
my squad all sapranos we only move highkey
fuck all the ones who dont like me
my crew ten toes, thats both feet
yeah i dont even got a plan
so how the fuck are you to stand against me
faced in heat of the moment 
bitch you a rat, a rodent
oh man the flow is to potent
you a seed to me in the soil bitch
if you hit this verse you would soil it
shittin on, you cant soil bitch
say my name 3 times and i might just
fucking pop in a smoke 
you get fried, by a semi pro 
looking mothafucker though
not my choice to take your throne, i got to
not my choice to blow you up, i had to
gimme the placement
ask anyone ive been distant
hope they catch on that they fucked up the vision
hope they catch on and realize i dont miss them
my squad all sapranos we only move highkey
fuck all the ones who dont like me
my crew ten toes, thats both feet
yeah i dont even got a plan
so how the fuck are you to stand against me

(sensei)
yeah bitch you a rat and a rotent
i smoke that gas and its tastin like potent
me and lil graeham we be fuckin on moments
im finna smear on his face like some lotion
im gonna swim in this ocean
im gonna eat on his ass with devotion
yonah be lickin my butthole
im like god damn, he be licking, on oh shit
gross shit, eat on his ass, im the culprit
Deceitful go suck on my dick
im like god damn boy you a gay boy
im finna hit on his ass like its playboy
eat on my balls then lick me like jboy 
fuckin on that hoe all on discord
fuckin on that hoe all on discord
im gonna kill fin
im gonna kill fin
im gonna pop me like 25 pills
killin intrusted, you know thats for real
1 song is like 50 thousand bills
rizz on his mommy, i did that for real
i hit her ass up, and i ball like shaquille 
you know what im on, you know whats the deal

9TAILS - grr (feat sensei) (prod SYBYR)

If You Know You Know

[hook]
I sit here counting up
hopin to forget you
but i just wont hit you up
cuz that's a bad move
cuz i can't stand all these cuts
don't leave me down in the dust
you'll break me down just because

[verse]
and I know, it's too late to talk
walk slow hope the rain never stops
got your hands on my chest
go and break my damn neck
hmu for a feature gonna cost you a check

forget u

lullabyboy - forget u (prod. irby & loopy)

@trevor.lav on instagram
superhero green bape

5 AM feat. fijimar (prod. dercept x ayoley x jacob lincoln)

T Lav ✰