a mental image
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a conclusion <3

lyrics:

dissociation, im disconnected
no sensation, i feel rejected
the situation, never expected
communication, its all neglected

now i dont know what to do
you make it so hard to choose
im tripping over my own shoe
when you talk to me i refuse to respond at all

ill just sit here on my own
(yeah ill never leave this place)
even if i want to go
("who am i even anyway?")
if i cant tell who i am anymore
i dont know how long i can this for

all my memories
are passing before me
its getting hard to see
when my visions so blurry

yeah im feeling insane
yeah im feeling in pain
yeah i feel it in my brain
living in this rain

waiting for all this to end
so done with this reality bend
tell me what i need to comprehend
please catch me before i descend

dissociation, im disconnected
no sensation, i feel rejected
the situation, never expected
communication, its all neglected

-where am i?-
-who am i?-
-you're you-

im staring at a piece of what i used to be
im waiting for something to give me relief
but its not gonna change anything if i cant even think

reach for the sky
-im reaching as high as i can-
"ill be alright"
-when i go back to where i began-
feel like ill die if it dont get time to heal

-is this all even real-

is this all even real
i cant tell
is this all even real

dissociation (me)

a mental image
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@hartfxlt @m2monroe

lyrics:

again, im losing you
and im sorry for what i do
im just trying to make it through

(to a place where i could erase it all)

racing, i feel my heart racing
all my thoughts are chasing
another way to face them
im gazing at my reflection
without a sense of direction
theres no point of inflection
follows false affection
so nothing will ever change

ive seen enough
ive seen enough

(there’s no way to wind it back, though I try
remember what u said, I look dead, it’s alright
heart pound out my chest see your eyes
for you put it all on the line)
bet on fate just waiting here
the uncertainty is the only thing that’s clear
I’ll wait for your hand another year
don’t you turn from me 
when you know I need you here

don’t tell me it’s wasted
starry skies what I see your face in
cut ties why would you erase it 
your eyes got my heart racing

still i feel this way
its something i cant change
was all of this a stage
cause i cant tell
im staring back
at this void in my head
this choice is life or death

so my heart keeps racing

again im losing you
im losing you

heart racing

heart racing w/ hartfxlt (me + monroe)

a mental image
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@m2monroe @clay0127

lyrics:

yeah i got it
you dont really want to be honest
take our trust every time you thought it
is this the end for us?

tell me now is this alright
standing right here by your side
i dont know why i still try
should have known i cant heal my wounds from you

waiting, im hating that you're not changing
im breaking whats left thats blaming and shaming my frame of mind
my frame of mind

im tired of trading everything
just to stay here decaying
its the same thing
ill leave it all behind
leave it all behind

leave it all behind
keep you on my mind
i feel the love
that i lost out on
im cold as ice

baby im so sick of waiting
for our time
when that loves just right
when that loves just right
honey i dont wanna waste
it on goodbyes
i wanna call you mine
i wanna call you mine
write out all the pain
that i cant hide
two stars in the sky
our fates intertwined
dont wanna make you a promise
cause id never wanna lie
i think i need a new perspective
or new frame of mind

uh no i dont wanna go
and leave you all alone
you said write me a song
i cant believe you didnt know
that everything ive written's
just a letter never spoke
had a hard time just admitting
now im shouting from the soul
take my hand and keep me close
i wish that we met sooner
because i think you make me whole
wrong place right time
right person false hope
i wonder why the gods
treat me like im just a joke

painting the pain with tears thats raining
unchanging fate that breaks this heart of mine
breaks this heart of mine
breaks this heart of mine
(now im still)

still im searching
and my head is burning
i just wonder if its the same for you
is it the same for you?

cause im tired of trading everything
just to stay here decaying
its the same thing
ill leave it all behind

waiting, im hating that you're not changing
im breaking whats left thats blaming and shaming my frame of mind
my frame of mind

frame of mind

frame of mind w/ clay (me + monroe)

a mental image
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lyrics:

im still waking up
i see the sky looking up
ill never have enough
is this real or not

i dont want to go back
to my reality
i wont ever last
without my actuality

i just hope this reverie
i hope its more than make-believe
you mean so much more to me
but now you're drifting out of reach
i wont ever feel at peace
your words they echo without cease
you're more than just a reverie
you're more than just a reverie

pointing silhouette it turns its back
it turns its back on me
is this all just a dream
oh, oh
is this all just a dream
oh, oh,
is this all just a dream

im still holding on
i wont ever let go
feelings take hold
is this all towards no end
am i condemned to just pretend
i cant let go
not again

i cant handle this
ill find a way to fix it
if not this might be it
so i just hope now

i just hope this reverie
i hope its more than make-believe
you mean so much more to me
but now you're drifting out of reach
i wont ever feel at peace
your words they echo without cease
you're more than just a reverie
you're more than just a reverie

reverie

reverie (me)

a mental image
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lyrics:

theres nothing else that i could do
my head's been forcing me to choose

obsession
it holds me till i cant repress it
now im losing all expression
everything is gone now
i dont want
anything else now
fall apart
nothing matters now
look at me
sitting frozen
i wont think
about nothing else
cant you see
im obsessed

obsession
it holds me till i cant repress it
now im losing all expression

compulsive
i cant help it
too impulsive
there's no respite

obsession
it holds me till i cant repress it
now im losing all expression
everything is gone now
i dont want
anything else now
fall apart
nothing matters now
look at me
sitting frozen
i wont think
about nothing else
cant you see
im obsessed

obsession

obsession (me)

a mental image
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<3

respite (me)

a mental image
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@yuikase

lyrics:

i know this time
ill think it through
when my head lies
ill think of you
thats what i'll do

sometimes i cant control it
lying down, losing focus
i cant exist without you here

when i lose control
all i do is stay cold
a heart of stone 
attempts to break the mold

im so
alone
in my own
empty throne
so i go
to the only place i know
to my empty throne

blown away what i know
push it all away
bringing this to a close
i dont care what you say
theres no other way to handle this
just leave me alone, dont bother it

cant get my mind off now
spiral until i can figure out how
i could do without 
without this crown

when i lose control
all i do is stay cold
a heart of stone 
attempts to break the mold

im so
alone
in my own
empty throne
so i go
to the only place i know
to my empty throne

empty throne

empty throne (me + asagao)

a mental image
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@rewind214

lyrics:

I can see us failing
I can’t do this
Now we’re falling
Color is fading
This masquerade that we’re in
It won’t last us till the end

I’m tired
Of blaming
Myself for
You not staying
And I don’t know
As I’m chasing my wish
Are you something that I can even get

this masquerade

this masquerade (me + rewind)

@staywithmenow (prod)
@xternalz2 (archive/throwaways)
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