produced by @bloodsekai

i just rewatched ReLIFE and omg i love it so much i had to make a song about it 

lyrics:

im a stupid loser neet
from my problems i fleet
why the fuck did she end it?
shes the one i wish id be

ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
ouuooughh
ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
x2

ill restart my life!!
never forget about my times
ill restart my life!!
those memories will never diee
ill restart my life!!
i cant wait to do it
because i am a nuisance

im so glad rio asked me to ReLIFE
but im so sad that you had to fucking die
x2

im a stupid loser neet
from my problems i fleet
why the fuck did she end it?
shes the one i wish id be
x2

ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
ouuooughh
ooouuooouuugghhhhhh
x2

ill restart my life!!
never forget about my times
ill restart my life!!
those memories will never diee
ill restart my life!!
i cant wait to do it
because i am a nuisance

I'll restart my life!! || ReLIFE (p. bloodsekai)

prod. owleeng msg to delete

people in the city have no clue whats going on
so they listen to whats on the radio they dont have a clue
whats wrong whats right there wars we fight because were js a tool

to the government the man thats in charge
so do what your told or be put behind bars
im doing all i can with song i wrote
but i dont stand a chance im at the edge of the rope

people in the city
have no clue whats going on
people in the city
have no clue whats going on

City People

Made this track in like 2 days, but I'm quite chuffed with how it all turned out. Committed a cardinal incelcore sin and used open tuning instead of power chords, but I hope you guys like it anyway! Even drew some custom Sir. Offline art for this one, thought it suited the occasion.
GO LISTEN ON SPOTIFY!!!! IT PAYS ME!!!!: https://open.spotify.com/track/4Sx0E8zy0YSqoI1lPBdNkB?si=25b6e33fc8a1464e

Lyrics: 
Verse 1:
I quite like to think I bury every little thing
These songs might be the only way that I can let them out securely
I feel safer knowing no-one knows me better than I do
So you can spill your heart to me, but don’t expect for me to do the same for you

Chorus:
I’m feeling fine, I know you won’t believe me, so I
count all the times, you think you truly knew me and I
just wanna cry, you’re all just fakers to me, if you knew
how I am, you’d run until your soles stick to the ground

Verse 2:
Everybody knows me, either love me or they hate
I built up quite the reputation, and they know the whole charade
Cause I am loud, dumb and obnoxious, and completely off the rails
But I’m quite an anxious person, I regret the way I used to be…

Middle 8:
The time that I tried to best exposit my mind 
Would leave me in state of rot and horrid mental decline
So I swore to myself that I would target the signs
and make sure that it never happened a 2nd time…
*record scratch*
W-w-wait, what was I saying?

Chorus (extended):
I’m feeling fine, I know you won’t believe me, so I
count all the times, you think you truly knew me and I
just wanna cry, you’re all just fakers to me, if you knew
how I am, you’d run until your soles stick to the ground

I’m feeling sound, It’s not your fault I’m like this it’s just
so hard to ground, myself enough to face that I can
be who I am. But am I now the me that I would 
play to the crowds? I might just be the fakest one around.

You Don't Know Anything About Me

produced by me

lyrics :

ill slit my throat
when your not home
youll tell my folks
its all your fault
x2

i wish that you would just..
read between the lines
i dont know why
your not seeing the signs
cause i hate your guts
and i hate my life
october 31st is when i will die

you said you wanna go
trick or treat with me
but you just want to trick
cause you dont want a treat..
youll get me fucking jumped
on the night of halloween
and when im on my deathbed
ill wonder why your mean

ill slit my throat
when your not home
youll tell my folks
its all your fault
x2

i wish that you would just..
read between the lines
i dont know why
your not seeing the signs
cause i hate your guts
and i hate my life
october 31st is when i will die

october 31st

instrumental: @bloodsekai
vocalists: @bloodsekai + @vedbend + @yukisasayaki

halloween inspired song from last month, please enjoy to your desire. (sorry for the lack of uploads, i've been making too much music and not finishing any of it...)

--- lyrics: ---

i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

was it always this difficult to think?
what's different now, is it me or the mirror?
i imagine the greys and blacks within
turned me into a freak, a monster that just cries and weeps

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now

(i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

+ layered with vedbends part)

i try to run away
i couldn't move at any pace
as tears fall down my face
my teeth are falling out
i guess i'll drown inside my doubts
i always cry and pout 

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

carve out my eyeballs treat me like a pumpkin
rip my guts out baby i feel nothing
u wanna put me on display i guess thats something
i'm a puppet baby put me on your strings
ur always in my head like the axe in my skull
but u always want me dead i'm so fucking tired
baby pass the pliers
i'll dismember my body n ill put it onto wires

empty syringe, my room swaps places
eyes move around, i'm too stimulated
look in the mirror, my heart starts racing
don't recognize my face, i'm a monster now
i spent several days
talking to myself
when'd i get this way?
how do i get out of this dream?

when do i wake up? (ft. vedbend & yuki)

REUPLOAD FOR ARCHIVAL PURPOSES, i dont know what happened to yuki if someone knows please tell me thank you.
og link: https://soundcloud.com/yukisasayaki/am-i-enough 
og release date: 3/10/2025 
og description:
prod @bloodsekai

i dont think i can believe a single word that u say
n it hurts me so much with every passing day
yea its all for ur love
yea its all for a hug
i jus wanna hear u say
that im enough
x2

im nauseous
i got a sickening feeling in my bones
ill be honest
the power that i hold
is out of my control
give me ur hand to hold
ill reach further into ur soul
i thought that ud want it but do uuuu?
i wrote u a sonnet toooo
i thought that ud want it but do uuuu?
i wrote u a sonnet toooo

i dont think i can believe a single word that u say
n it hurts me so much with every passing day
yea its all for ur love
yea its all for a hug
i jus wanna hear u say
that im enough

yuki - am i enough?

https://open.spotify.com/album/7GyNh8QaHhZ2DohWW93nor?si=O-WwjX3cTFaKbsYIgGkrQg

follow ig @nnijika

grey skies, rainy day
my thoughts disarray 
i tried to talk today
but i suck face to face

shes nobody to me
but i still scare my words away
tell me why i cant just speak
its all embarrissing 

grey skies, rainy day
my thoughts disarray 
i tried to talk today
but i suck face to face

shes nobody to me
even then id still freeze
i missed out on developing
will socializing even make me feel complete

i tried to talk today 
had so much things to say
fear just gets in my way
at this age i know im not okay

i cant please everyone like a hero 
id rather stay silent just like a weirdo
my input is valueless zero
wish i could sing my thoughts away like mio

i tried to talk today (prod bloodsekai)

A COLLAB WITH @thisisallthereis

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2dbFZsbiI61WuUcHJohM5R?si=b8235b9bd5e34634

This one is for the To Catch a Predator comp album, which has been in the works for a while. It has been done for over a month now and I've been very excited to release it as I was able to work with the LEGENDARY thisisallthereis which is just incredible. I hope you guys enjoy! 

P.S On a real note though, if i got a job opportunity at BlackRock I'd probably take it.

Lyrics:
(Verse 1) (Skerit)
I wanna own your house and
I wanna own your assets
You’ll never see me, I’m in the shadows
I’m owning the companies
I wanna be the master
I wanna be the boogeyman
Don’t be afraid
We’re not here to hurt you
We wanna save you, save you
(Pre-Chorus)
I wanna work for blackrock
And I want to be in charge of everything
I wanna own the country
I wanna be the king! 

I just feel so powerless with the way things are right now
I’m just a harmless, charmless guy who could never do no wrong!
…right?

(Chorus)
MI6, the FBI with
Oracle, Open AI
Palantir, the KGB 
I work with them
They work for me

My interest never rested
when it’s vested in investing
In these megacorporations
The conglomerates that want you to be poor

(Verse 2) (thisisallthereis)
You're feeling helpless
But it's all worthless
I have no feelings
Under the surface
You think I'm evil
I think I'm selfless
Extracting wealth by any means
You wonder how I sleep at night
I own your house and what's inside
There is no you, there's only I
It makes no difference if you die
(Pre-Chorus)
I wanna work for blackrock
And I want to control everything you see
I feed off of destruction
I can sell anything
Time is always best spent in investing in investment
So I guess that there's no question
And that this is the job for me
I wanna work for blackrock blackrock x9
(Chorus)
MI6, the FBI with
Oracle, Open AI
Palantir, the KGB 
I work with them
They work for me
My interest never rested
when it’s vested in investing
In these megacorporations
The conglomerates that want you to be poor

I Wanna Work for BlackRock (ft. thisisallthereis)

cuttin on my wris

i thought about it everyday

cover of ur outta my league by wujek
inspired by yuki/requiem

probably my truest form of expression in any of my songs, poured my heart out

lyrics:
anyone can see that you're out of my league
i wish that i could be a perfect man for thee
the way you tie up your hair
the way that you don't care
your lips, they look so soft
in my room, i rot
i wish you stared at me the way you stared at him
i think i'm going crazy, the lights are dim
the way you tie up your hair
the way that you don't care
your lips, they look so soft
in my room, i rot

[words]

anyone can see that you're out of my league
i wish that i could be a perfect man for thee
the way you tie up your hair
the way that you don't care
your lips, they look so soft
in my room, i rot
i wish you stared at me the way you stared at him
i think i'm going crazy, the lights are dim
the way you tie up your hair
the way that you don't care
your lips, they look so soft
in my room, i rot

[more words]

anyone can see that you're out of my league
i wish that i could be a perfect man for thee
the way you tie up your hair
the way that you don't care
your lips, they look so soft
in my room, i rot
i wish you stared at me the way you stared at him
i think i'm going crazy, the lights are dim
the way you tie up your hair
the way that you don't care
your lips, they look so soft
in my room, i rot

outta my league

my last song <3 thanku everyone for listening

prod me

i know its all my fault
i cant scream any louder
i dont have any power
im worthless im a coward

i jus want it to end
i jus rlly miss my friends
but im stuck inside this hell
becus theres bonds i cannot mend

i know its all my fault
i cant scream any louder
i dont have any power
im worthless im a coward

jus kill me
im waitin for my exit outta here
do u hear me
i dont wanna live another year

i know its all my fault
i cant scream any louder
i dont have any power
im worthless im a coward

i know it's all my fault

prod me :D

lyrics :

i live inside my own world of make believe
kids screaming in their cradles, profanities
ive seen the world through eyes covered in ink and bleach
i crossed out the ones who heard my cries and watched me wheap

i love everything
fires spreading all around my room
its all so bright 
its hard to breathe
but thats alright 
x2

i live inside my own world of make believe
kids screaming in their cradles, profanities
ive seen the world through eyes covered in ink and bleach
i crossed out the ones who heard my cries and watched me wheap

cradles  (cover)

my pride hurts me c.c

prod bloodsekai

u showed me love
u showed me trust
for you there's nun
you'd always run

you know i cared
needed u there
u see my fear
i know my end is near

its all so clear
dont know why were still here
ghost me i'll b fine
im not worth ur precious time
erase my line
thought u were mine
leave me behind
i really tried
i really tried
i really tried

you'd always run

prod bloodsekai

bottles thrown around my room
haven't felt outside in two
days go by since i got u
my sad summer remains true

my phone girl makes me feel sane
love u loving me this way
miss u bad like all day
text me tell me its ok

u hold my mind together my sanity's all yours
text me tell me u love me no tears will have to pour
times with u are so fun i dont feel like a bore
when ur close i always forget im insecure

my phone girl makes me feel sane
love u loving me this way
miss u bad like all day
text me tell me its ok

summer with u

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