// track 5 - i see my future in your eyes
produced by vai5000
VA by 瀬戸ユトギ

空が晴れるのを待ちながらそこに立っていると
初めて君の笑顔を見た
寒さに震える手で君に手を伸ばした

your reflection 
still stains my skin
your hands on mine
trace where you've been

あなたが私の名前を口にしたとき、私はあなたの口の形を知った。

(in your eyes- hold my hands
in your eyes)
hold my hands
in your eyes
hold my hands
I see my- 
all i am - all i am -all i am
in your eyes
(you're all I know)

cause i'm still learning to (grow)
cause i'm still holding your (hope)

grasping through the stagnant air
to make sure that you're still there
pull the edges of your shirt
making sure that you'll turn
and when I can see your face
your eyes tell me it's okay
your eyes tell me i'll be safe
your eyes tell me
it's okay

hold me
stay for me please
hold my arms
know my warmth

(in your eyes)
(in your eyes)
(in your eyes)
(I see my-)

All over - all over - all over again
All that i- all that i - all that i am now
All over - all over - all over again
All that i - all that i - all that i wanted
All over - all over - all over again
All that i- all that i - all that i am now
All over - all over - all over again
All that i - all that i - all that i wanted
hold my hands
in your eyes
hold my hands
I see my- 
all i am - all i am -all i am
(with your kiss)

cause I need you love you
(hold) onto my hands
give me
all I wanted I
have all I need
(cause I need you love you)
(cause I need you love you)

私はもう何も気にしなかった、
あなたの瞳に映る私の未来

i see my future in your eyes

// track 4 - i can only exist in the context of you
produced by me
VA: Yutogi Seto

Lyrics:

あなたの唇から言葉が漏れるのを待っていた

and you'll come back again
forget about it all
exist inside of you
exist inside of 
you

何度も何度も、動作が痛くなるまで。
私は無になりたくなかったのに、あなたは私の意味を与えてくれた、

I can't let go
I'd break myself
twist into my lungs
your voice
shape me - more 
take me - more 
make me - who I am
trace into my palms my meaning
make me ask if you still need me

I was never what you want
break my bones and mold me
stained with tears you hold me
you could never know me but I need you
to need me too

cause over and over and all again
you etch my skin we share meaning
cause what am I without all the things you meant
I only exist in your stead
callused hands outline my chest
waiting for my smile again
over again and again I'm nothing 
words won't escape from my lips

I tried holding in-
lie bout stains on my skin
movements hurt as you say the words that match marks left on me
I can't exist
with your hands in my ribs
but I'd die if you let me go

so let go 
I won't 
hold on
please wait for-

あなたの指が、私の体になぞった輪郭を型どった。
私の肌は、私たちが共有した思い出で染まった。

私たちの感情は、まだ残っているすべての痛みに刻まれた

I want to tell you where I've been 
I want your hands on top my skin
please just say that it's all alright you will not lie not for me
not again all again
I've made a mistake
I know I'll forget 
all my regrets
they'll happen again

do you see my palms
can you count the marks
can you still find yours 
find yours
we'll love again 
and we'll forget 
but scars don't heal
marks reveal where we've been

I'll laugh it off
you'll talk some more
cradle my corpse in your hands
that you used on me
I'll bleed
just me
just me
I'll wait for it to end 
you'll start again
always again

nothing remains of me

どうか離さないで、
私はあなたの中でしか存在できないのだから。

alem

i can only exist in the context of you

// track 3 - southward
produced by vai5000
additional vocals by elliebell (@1ellie)

And I can’t remember what my last words were
Let me say it
Let me say it
Let me say it
Again
cause I'm stuck here once again looking southwards
Let me say it
Let me say it
Let me say it
A-
I still see your smile when I turn
replaying moments I can't relive
Hoping that you’ll see them too
Say it again say it again
Say the words that we wrote

said words I can't seem to recall
All the nothings that were said
When we
Stayed up so late just talking
your smile through my phones glow
I'd try and hold your body
A thousand lights say
You loved me
and I'd look again old texts that I read
our memories stuck in my palm

@elliebell
Faster, faster
Ended up wordless, tattered
Leg-locked patterns
Touches hands its our disaster

(in my head)
We;d go all in
elysian eyes
My skin is thin
Black out at the siren
Head still spin
Eyes go blank when you hold my chin

Faster, faster
Ended up wordless, tattered
Leg-locked patterns
Touches hands its our disaster

@vai5000
check again check again for me
Sd cards holding 
our lows and highs
your goodbyes
my last smile 
that I gave you
if i told you i'd come back would you be there when I land
would you take me back
start all again

And I can’t remember what my last words were
Let me say it
Let me say it
Let me say it
Again
cause I'm stuck here once again looking southwards
Let me say it
Let me say it
Let me say it
A-
I still see your smile when I turn
replaying moments I can't relive
Hoping that you’ll see them too
Say it again say it again
Say the words that we wrote

southward +elliebell

// track 2 - learning to grow
produced by vai5000 + @disphing
additional vocals by @disphing
VA by 瀬戸ユトギ

太陽の光を肌で感じた
まるで生まれ変わったかのように。

And I tried to stand
My legs shaking under
the weight of all I can’t seem to grasp
take a moment let me trip again
reaching out to you- to your hand
Will it still - it still - hurt when I wake up?
can't let go just yet I'll try again

I could feel sun rays on skin as I kept myself running
trip and fall be reborn when
I get up
legs shaking get up
learning to-
learning to love someone that I still don't know
look into mirrors and I don't see myself
kept running kept tripping footsteps on asphalt
All I knew learning to-
Can’t let go
Let go
I’ll stand for you
Can't let go of you just yet I'm still learning to love
when I fall over again will you pick me up

アスファルトを引きずりながら走り続けた
明日も痛いのだろうか？その瞬間はどうでもよかった。
ただ、君に届きたかった、抱きしめたかった、それだけだった

私はまだ成長する方法を学んでいるのだと気づいた。

reaching out as im falling
catch me on the downswing
dont fight it
dont fight it
dont fight it
you hold me
you know me
you save me

revealing myself slow
your patience lets me know
its worth it
its worth it
its worth it
ill try for you
ill change for you
ill wait for you

learning to grow +disphing

// track 1 - foresight
produced by me
VA by 瀬戸ユトギ
artwork by shakep_p


私は真新しい壁で覆われた家を見ていた。
私はまたあなたの顔の秒に夢中になる。
あなたが微笑むには2秒かかる。目を閉じるのを思い出すのに5秒かかる。

And again
hold my breath i'll try
help me through this life
I'll try again

胸に感じる。
1.. 2...3...4...5..6..

I want to see your face again
I want the moments that I missed
can't we just do it all over
I miss your smile
I’ll try
i'll try all again
hold your hands in mine
just stay here with me
we have all the time we need

重さを、真剣に。

foresight

// track 6 - fragments
produced by vai5000
additional vocals by  瀬戸ユトギ  
art by おきしどーる

(Organic sound -)
And I know it won't last
Everything comes to pass
Memories I have, will I forget
I feel it break away from me
I can't breathe

[Verse 2]
Hold me close to you
Tell me what to do
Save me from myself
Help me feel loved
And I'll try it again
Do it over again
Tripping on myself I can't help
Why am I such a mess?
Was it words that I said
I'm still stuck in my head
Can't say what I meant

[Verse 3]
Am I not enough
Am I what you want
Watch me break again
A thousand fragments
Start it over, let's try again?

[Verse 4]
Picking up the parts
One by one I'll
Try remake my heart
I'll try so hard
Tore me apart to love me
Is what's left still enough

[Outro]
I'll heal the cuts left on my hands
I'll take some time, I'll learn to stand
Collecting pieces of me
I'll make myself come whole again
(Synthetized from fragmentation)

[Yutogi Seto]
僕じゃダメ
きみの望み
また壊れてしまう
心も
もう一度始めようか
拾い集め
バラバラの心
つなぎ
強くなるよ
傷つけ愛して
残るは
傷跡癒していく
時間をかけて立ち上がる
バラバラの僕を
ひとつへと戻すから
(ひとつへと戻すから)
(ひとつへと戻すから)

fragments  +瀬戸ユトギ

// track 9 - falling up
produced by vai5000 + clwdy (@clwdytunes) + stephie (@stephiemusic)
VA by 瀬戸ユトギ


君の名前がこだまするもう存在しない言葉がまだ耳に届く。
君の一部は今もここに時が過ぎてもなお

tried so hard - falling up 
through the space in
my heart I'll fall again 
hard to hold-
I won't forget the look you gave me
letting go of my hands as you fly
if I wait I'll see you some day
you'll come back- falling
up I can't touch the ground
I can't be pulled down
watch me try again and again
will you watch as I 
fumble on my own footsteps


そして私は飛んだ。空を駆け抜け、風に抱かれながら、まるであの頃の君のように

(tried so hard - falling up 
through the space in
my-)

over, over 
and I'll try get up
memories of you still in my heart
again, again 
I'm still falling up
as I try to reach you
I loved all of you
every single thing 
I know all of the scars and 
memories
traced into my mind 
I won't let go
you'll stay with me 
in your echo


何度でもこの瞬間に生き続ける。
ほんの一瞬、君がもういないことを理解した。
けれど、それは怖くはなかった。
だって、君は私と同じ空を見ることはなくても、それで も確かに君のかけらはここに残っている。

I can't bear the weight
echo things you've said
watch you take my hands
for the first time
and I'll say it back
please don't leave my hand
please I'll try again
I'll relive it

over and over and over again
over and over and over again now
over and over and over again
over and over and over again
over and over and over again
over and over and over again now
over and over and over again
over and over and over again

それは私を愛している。何度でも何度でも、

falling up +clwdy, stephie

// track 7 - hollow
produced by vai5000
additional vocals by @nujioh
VA by 瀬戸ユトギ
artwork by shinnkei_

今日は太陽が暖かく感じる。
ステンドグラスでできたような顔をして。
まばたきの瞬間を待っている
太陽が目に入る
私はブラインドを覆った
でもまだ君の全てが見えるようだ

watch the time pass as we dance
wish the clock would stay with frozen hands
every time I see your face
I can't help but tear up-
you promised to be here but you're far away
dancing with the ghosts inside of me
your memories
it's all I breathe
every part of me
is just-

and it all comes back again
and I'll relive all of it
every footstep that we made
our hands your face

and I'll try again I'll reach the sunrise
reaching out for stars above
will you hold my hand and tell me it's alright
everything you said will stay in my mind
and when it's all gone I'll stand by your side
echoes of your touch breeze through the air
cause even though you're gone you won't see me cry
I'll hold on to your warmth, we'll meet again

all the time we couldn't have
I'll make sure to pay it back
felt my heart- you said you loved me 
why can't I hold on to that
feel your hands around my body
every time I'm forced to go
cause even though you still love me
I can't say it back to you


胸に感じる。
1.. 2...3..

i'll be your shoulder to cry on
is that the hill you should die on?
who else could i rely on
just please reason with me my god
my cups empty without you
doubt that you see it
please do not leave me
why you gotta be so uptight
what you do when i'm out of your sights?
you told
you told me
told me everything's gonna be
okay
tell me what you said
but you know
i'm dejected
whats your message
i can't help it
i'm just circling around for you
felt rejected
how you carry all my fault

1.. 2..3...4... 5... 6... 7..
ひたすら待つ

hollow +nujioh

// track 8 - echoes
produced by @saephbass (saeph) + vai5000
VA by 瀬戸ユトギ

何度も何度も私は試したことを、雨粒の中に君の影を見て、言葉の端々に君の残響を聞いた。
手を伸ばせば、雲の向こうに君がいるような気がして、その手を握り締めたくて、顔を寄せて君が約束した言葉を信じたくて。

i'll wait for you
I always will
i'll wait for you

running as fast as my legs can take me
I'll reach out for you out for you 
grab my hands love me
I can't see
watch as the world just takes me back
you're all I had
grass on bare feet as I try 
reach out to your past
to your hands where are you

空に浮かびながら時間のすべてが一瞬に解けるこの場所で、私は何度もここにいた。

そしてまたここに来る。

echoes +saeph

produced by @clwdytunes !! shoutout buddy pal clwdy
art by at_tetom_ctr


And I can't let go of what I had
Every part of me is still intact - act

Cutting off friends I'm done acting like I need them
I'm beneath it - it's worth nothing
I got you on my line acting like we be friends
I don't know you can you cut it out - cut it off
I don't know - I don't know who you are now
I'll change my face I'll block your name - name - name - name
(all a-)

I still have all of me I'm still complete
Let you inside of my head - let you see
I can't just forget all that you told me
Let you go I - can breathe - e -e
-
I'm beneath it - it's worth nothing
-
I don't know you can you cut it out

And I can't let go of what I had
Every part of me is still intact - act
And I can't let go of what I had
Every part of me is still intact - act

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