@mental
prod. @yashio20k + @rewind214

[mental]
you hate me and you love me 
but to me it's the same thing 
i only ever numb it 
i wish that i could change things 
i'm bleeding and i'm blushing 
cause everything is breaking 
i'm trying not to cut me 
i'm disgusting and nothing is okay

i wonder if i fucked it up or not 
i wonder if i can ignore these thoughts 
i wonder if there's any point getting up
i wonder if love really feels like it's love
you know me better than everyone
it's been three days since i've seen the sun
i'm running but what am i running from
i'm crumbling one kiss and i'll turn to dust

i'll never go back again
i'll never go back i'll never go back
i'll never go back again
i'll never go back i'll never go back

okay - mental

Instrumental by @yashio20k

I guess that you’re sick of me
You’ve been acting differently
If I’m being honest
You were all I ever wanted
I know that you don’t think of me
I remember you so vividly
An Aphrodite incarnate
But I didn’t mind your sharpness

Oh my tongue’s no good
And my mind ain’t too
Can’t convince you
So what am I to do
I’m in love with you
But your love’s untrue
No matter how long I pursue
The truth won’t be less cruel

It’s so hard for me to open up
You took me in, and dropped me off like you don’t give a fuck
Ah, ah... what a way to mess me up
I think about you every day
You've probably already forgot

But it’s cool though
This ain’t nothing new, no
Chew me up and spit me out
Make me feel like a fool, oh
I’m not someone you should worry about
I know that you don’t, there is no doubt
Nobody wants me around
But I guess it doesn’t matter now

I could scream and I could shout
I’ve lost all I’ve ever found
But I won’t make the faintest sound
’Cause it’ll get drowned out...

aphrodite (yashio)

prod me + @yashio20k <3

@coldspades
i knew this day would come, but not today
i'm looking out my window, got me feeling some way
can we start again, baby is it too late?
this feeling in my chest i just can’t explain

when the wind blows through your hair
baby do you think of me at all?
i just can’t tell if you care
i just wanna give you my all

right there
if you need me i can be right there
i can't forget your face or your hair
does it matter to you if i stare?

but you probably have someone
someone that makes you smile
and i know that isn’t me
but baby can you stay for a while?

pop a pill just to feel alright
baby without you i just don't feel right
can you stay with me? stay tonight
cause i don't wanna have to say goodbye

coldspades - when the wind blows (me + yashio)

how many times (yashio + adrien)

i hate this song

lyrics:

i dont wanna stall
but if u made me recognize im gonna end that call
im not trying to beat you, im just tryna get along
you knew that i was hurt but u didnt care at all

yea u made me fall apart, yea i cldnt control you
didnt have to switch up, im js getting to know you
yea u broke my heart i wrapped it up yea js for you
made me view this shit from different angles im on you

and i cant ever change the feelings that i have for u
didnt know that i already loved u before yea
please dont let this be my next mistake i cant fall ya
baby dont be scared yea imma make it work out ya
2x

i dont wanna stall
but if u made me recognize im gonna end that call
im not trying to beat you, im just tryna get along
you knew that i was hurt but u didnt care at all

yea u made me fall apart, yea i cldnt control you
didnt have to switch up, im js getting to know you
yea u broke my heart i wrapped it up yea js for you
made me view this shit from different angles im on you

spotify

intertwined (yashio)

[00:00] w/ @1_august
[01:18] solo
[02:15] solo
[03:15] solo
[03:46] w/ @1000apr
[04:46] solo
[05:21] w/ @neohnq
[06:11] w/ @nocksoracal
[07:02] w/ @yashio20k
[07:57] solo

the best goodbye i could ask for @april1k @august @neohn @oracal @yashio

happy birthday to me

go show some luv to the prods! 

Yukiko: https://soundcloud.com/shikaiii/tracks
Bonka: https://t.me/headache112

maybe im not made for this

 𓂃˖˳·˖ ִֶָ ⋆★⋆ ִֶָ˖·˳˖𓂃 ִֶָ

(pre-chorus)

I hate making music
it probably hates me back around
steady standing still here
while everybody finds their sound
its the-
worst ending I could possibly have
just end it now
end it now before it gets worse!

(chorus)

yeah, I think I lost it
im stuck here thinking of the past tense
nothing ever makes sense
I don't feel right I wanna die
everyday I wanna die!
I cant do this anymore everything makes me wanna cry!
yeah I wanna give up
I feel like im lost and alone
and I cant talk a lot
I wanna be on my own!
youre not my friend
why do I always fail in the end?
just watch the numbers rise
is that all I ever really meant?

(post-chorus)

ive had enough, its the worst that Ive ever been!
im not so gifted, just a mess living inside their head
I sleep next to maggots
gotta forget it
punch down my head in
I don't know where im headed!

(bridge)
?

(verse)

but fuck that shit i dont even really care anymore
ill blow the candles out myself
they dont understand, ill be fine
and no im not alright
it doesnt matter anyways
cause theres ppl singing the same shit
i dont do this for the fame

in need of help
but theres nobody near
but its fine
ill be fine
cause ill take it one step at a time
its like what they said
cause im living in a fantasy
i dont care 'bout myself
ill die right next to my last symphony

(chorus)

yeah, I think I lost it
im stuck here thinking of the past tense
nothing ever makes sense
I don't feel right I wanna die
everyday I wanna die!
I cant do this anymore everything makes me wanna cry!
yeah I wanna give up
I feel like im lost and alone
and I cant talk a lot
I wanna be on my own!
youre not my friend
why do I always fail in the end?
just watch the numbers rise
is that all I ever meant?

my last symphony (+yukik0 +bonka)

prod yashio
deleted cuz i dnt really like sowwy

ran away (yashio)

https://discord.gg/bQSDGWQ22A
[00:00] w/ @pyu
[01:34] solo
[02:34] w/ @user-987135015
[03:13] solo
[03:55] solo
[04:35] w/ @star607
[05:31] w/ @spaceboyry
[06:27] w/ @flojy
[07:23] w/ @neohnq @yashio20k
[08:01] solo

it'll be lonely, won't it?

it'll be lonely, won't it? @flojy @meta @neohn @sd23 @spaceboy @star607 @yashio

@moz-103259352
@yashio20k

I just want to say, if it weren't for moz, I probably wouldn't be releasing any music. Luv u man<3

(Don’t push me away
Could you please listen to the things I have to say?
We stopped seeing eye to eye
I still couldn’t say goodbye
Tell me that I matter, baby, even if you have to lie)

You’ve been stuck inside my brain,
I’m not sure whether that’s alright
You drive me insane,
Guess I’m chasing down the wrong highs
Need you here with me,
I don’t care if this is all a lie
If heaven has a fee,
Then for you I would pay the price

But you wouldn’t do the same,
I know, and that’s fine
Even if you don’t change,
I’ll follow, stay by your side
Just look at me the same,
Could forever stare at your eyes
No matter the pain,
I’ll pretend that it feels right

I could spend forever looking into your eyes,
I could live forever if it is by your side
So don’t push me away
I don’t know if I could handle that 
Please stay
For you I would go to hell and back

I thought we had things figured out
Trusted each other and pushed our doubts
Pushed them to the side,
But seeing eye to eye,
It wasn’t nearly as easy as we had in mind

if u read these lol ur awesome ^_^

don't push me away (moz + yashio)

i dont wanna go back
to the past now
whatever we had but
i know we wont last
i dont wanna hold back
its the end now
i know that u miss but
i know we wont last

i know that u miss what we had
coz i do too
everytime we talked in the night
what we used to do
i dont know that u recall
when ur feeling down id give a call
i see ur moving on in life
and u seem like ur doing fine
everytime u post a story
i still get the butterflies
gotta act like i feel nothing
but it hurts to see u smile
even though its for the better
i cant ever call u mine

i dont wanna go back (prod. runawway)

prod @prodbynox + @yashio20k

all rights go to their respective owners

bladee - rain check [nox rework]

prod.
@yuikase
love u always - @rewind214 @heroz2299

notes:
we r so back. n sad.

//

[shiro]
yh im always a mess
life is a test that im always gon miss
people never got my back n im out for revenge
feel like u mistake my kindness for a bag
n im js lookin for someone to connect w/
it isnt bout the net worth
shi dont feel the same when they dont care bout ur health first
now im all alone, collectin dust in the basement
this wasnt suppose to happen in the first place

feel like i got chains holdin me back
was it all planned for me to be last 
i wont forget all the times that we had
so lets restart like its a game, n all i had is one life left
i think that an apology is overdue
is it really hard to say that its true
that u played me like a game, n that ur love wasnt really you
was it js an act all along?
or am i wrong for being so lost
about love
about everything that i once knew
when i was with u

(i think that an apology is overdue
is it really hard to say that its true
that u played me like a game, n that ur love wasnt really you)

[hook]

"we live to learn and forget, u kno dat?
so hard to go on, but
even though ur gone, i still love u
keep that"

//

no game no life『asagao』

tg - t.me/yotocaponeee
prod - junoru x yashio
mix - yotocapone
lyrics -
Я поменяю timeline, чтобы увидеть тебя.
Твои нежные руки и пустые глаза.
Я поменяю timeline, меняю порт и хоста.
Да, я меняю всё вокруг в надежде найти тебя.

Моё сердце бьётся 150 bpm.
Можешь плакать по ночам, ведя себя как эмо.
Напиши мне письмо, я написал ей поэму.
Я найду тебя в сетях, я поменяю систему.

Малыш, приди ко мне, предложу тебе чай.
Ты заменишь мне боль, заменишь мою печаль.
Тебя увижу во сне, я не замечал.
Но ты была одной из тех, кто меня понимал.

Я поменяю timeline, чтобы увидеть тебя.
Твои нежные руки и пустые глаза.
Я поменяю timeline, меняю порт и хоста.
Да, я меняю всё вокруг в надежде найти тебя.

timeline (junoru x yashio) #diaryplugg

@2uppent
disc: rukia
dm insta/disc for business/inquiries

ִֶָ 𓂃˖˳·˖ ִֶָ ⋆★⋆  ִֶָ˖·˳˖𓂃 ִֶָ

🐇

Discord: vexumm

@lunacystar
@pastmemory
@yuru-dream
@4ftermath

i love you lunacy

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#tryinguntilidie

@pastmemory
@1straycats
dc: 1xene
email: xenedoesstuff@gmail.com
Might drop a song or two lolz but am studying for my exams til 15 dec

what i thought would be...forever..

@1straycats

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