after

after ft. Chloe Brawn (prod. 33roaa x dazegxd x mon)

liquidfear_chapter252

Discovery

Guitar is done by @saturnnnnnnnn
Everything else is by me

if i could reverse time i would prevent u from coming back (with saturnn)

verse 1:
could you please excuse me
I’ve been failing brain to mouth
I’ll probably die in this stall

from choking on some
backwash thought that’s spinning
round my throat again
erode again

chorus:
I hope I’ll stay forgotten

verse 2:
don’t look closely
all my whites are yellow now
I wear my heart on my teeth

lips pressed tightly
these foam filled walls
are muffling my speech
I’ve been talking in my sleep

stall (demo)

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/bike1/hellish
@enderjack @yewmii
<3
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he's got nothing nice to say so he keeps it to himself
another nice day he spent all by himself
a tricky situation time will never tell
he's steady with his patience locked inside a cell

she said it was so and so so I thought
disdain at the thought I'm choking up
these days I don't know what's going on or what I'm on

press rewind
pick a time
baby time will never tell
think I'm fine
think I'm lying
think I'm running around
press rewind
pick a time
baby time will never tell
think I'm fine
think I'm lying
think I'm running around
press rewind
pick a time
baby time will never tell
think I'm fine
think I'm lying
think I'm running around
press rewind
pick a time
baby time will never tell
think I'm fine
think I'm lying
think I'm running around

i've been fine for a minute now
checking on myself
i still wish you'd never called
i just wanna wish you well
can we call a draw
i've been feelin this too long
said you want it while
i've been dealing all alone
you're calling me telling me that everything's wrong
can't help you now I never could
you tell me to be safe I push it all away
you left me here misunderstood

press rewind
pick a time
baby time will never tell
think I'm fine
think I'm lying
think I'm running around
press rewind
pick a time
baby time will never tell
think I'm fine
think I'm lying
think I'm running around
press rewind
pick a time
baby time will never tell
think I'm fine
think I'm lying
think I'm running around
press rewind
pick a time
baby time will never tell
think I'm fine
think I'm lying
think I'm running around
checking on myself

HELLISH

[LYRICS]
The race is just starting
First to soul search for eden’s garden
I was taking detours cross the continent, cross the pond and
Led myself by the hand into darkness, it was my heart I misunderstood
A kid delved too far in
Sex positive larping, I didn’t want to be a target
I didn’t get what I wanted
Wrong tree barking but regardless
I clocked what I long shoulda saw
That the paradise I sought was right back where I started

Woke up in a cold sweat
Just a little boy asking are we nearly home yet
All the lights are off, can't see a future through the black night
Someone flipped a switch, I must be dreaming still
Last night I told you I loved you and believed myself
Oh shit
I was feeling like there’s something wrong, like I was broken
Now I see a figure walking round in the blacklight
Jumping out the door and I flee the cell
Last night I told you I loved you and believed

Long trek on the old road
Documented on a gopro
That’s the fall off, boy I hit the bottom slow
Time was waiting, waiting since long ago so
Do you wanna?
Can’t believe that I don’t have a problem
I was busting my ass off I couldn’t turn the gas off
Was looking for you all along
I was coping too hard it was wrote in the stars
The first time that we met in a chapel
I was finding myself you supplied me with help
And to Newton descended the apple
And just coz I don’t feel like you
Doesn’t mean I don’t feel like you
Doesn’t mean that my feelings aren’t true
That’s a lie that I see right through
And it was all for an answer
In the best way I got more than I asked for
Real talk, I might never love who I am but
That dunt really matter if you do

Woke up in a cold sweat
Just a little boy asking are we nearly home yet
All the lights are off, can't see a future through the black night
Someone flipped a switch, I must be dreaming still
Last night I told you I loved you and believed myself
Oh shit
I was feeling like there’s something wrong, like I was broken
Now I see a figure walking round in the blacklight
Jumping out the door and I flee the cell
Last night I told you I loved you and believed

Th13teen - believed myself

expathmia's cover of The Last of Us (Main Theme)
samples are from The Last of Us Part II

expathmia - The Last Of Us (interlude)

the invadervie rant but chopped to be unlistenable but somewhat decipherable

njdevilsfan2004 - do we really need anyone else?

jish! - city stroll 1989

lyrics written and recorded by josetta, dylan longworth, & silkscarf (aka phoebe andromeda)
guitars and extra instrumentation provided by silkscarf & josetta
produced and mixed by jish!
mastered by silkscarf

[LYRICS]

[josetta]

starting to think you’re not serious
i put in all this goddamn effort, just to get paid back with dust
this shits been making me furious
i guess you can tell it’s been getting quite hard to adjust

we haven’t spoken in a month
thought that i’d get a response by now
you’ve been testing my patience, losing all of my trust
i’m still wondering why and how

you never called me back
call me back
please call me back sometime
you never called me back
there’s so much to unpack
please don’t lose track of our time

[dylan longworth]

starting to think that i’m delirious
for two weeks, i felt weak, you did it again
why are you acting so mysterious?
i’d speak, but hell we aren’t better as friends
labels bring security, you exhibit no maturity
lying sorrow full of scurities
there’s no future that’s got you and me

bomb me with your love, plead to call me up
said i wouldn’t, but i swear you called my bluff
watched you give me up, how am i not enough?
not a ghost but i watched you turn to dust
eternal cycle, wont make it out
i’ll sleep for hours, my heads too loud
i miss notification sounds
just call me back i’m breaking down

[silkscarf]

i can’t escape you
i can’t move on
choked on our dream
swore i could feel you
inside the walls
do you still feel me?

[josetta]

you never called me back
call me back
please call me back sometime
you never called me back
there’s so much to unpack
please don’t lose track of our time

don’t know why you can’t let me go
i was lovebombed, you took control
disappeared then you went ghost
“if you need a thing just let me know”
never thought i’d fall down this low
finally reaping what i sow
i don’t know what i’m supposed to do
now that i gave my life away to you

josetta, dylan longworth, silkscarf, & jish! - call me back (demo)

online music community (following (most) members)

njdevilsfan2004 - do we really need anyone else?

to be determined.