This track is my take on loneliness and being alone/isolated. It symbolizes my way of being alone. Something almost like a virus or an intrusion. For me it is exactly that. Always that same feeling that is bothersome and annoying but that which can also be calming and expressive in some way. It is either a way of life or something you cannot control. But then you have to step out of your loneliness and not feel alone, which you can either like and want to get out of or it can disturb you and make you feel even worse.

Credits: 
Me :3

Alone

003

prod by @losthakid
engineered by los and I

lyrics:

coming soon

lucky. (prod. losthakid)

hai guys >^w^< back w a new song, finally doing vocals again :3 had a lot of fun doing the mixing on my vocals i think they sound rly good

my links: https://linktr.ee/averi_popstar

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/averi1/phantom


Toke up in da phantom 
I b feelin handsome
Yall r spittin wack barz XP
im still writin anthemz >w<
im still smokin big doinkz
yall b chiefin roaches
my gas keep me buggin 
causin a commotion

x2

im always high run a fever
i try but i cannot reach her ;-;
feel like a doll w no featurez
peel back da worth w procedurez
feelingz leakin thru da speakerz
lookin back on dayz, i was sittin on da bleacherz
i dont want no messy shit, i jus wanna keeper <3
she said we shuld slow downbut she lookin kinda eager

now im cookin w some sauce, ya ^w^
preforming in different cuntries
at the border cross now
trueys on my dick
n ill stomp u out with the ricks >:3K
Ill leave u blak n blu
ill hit u like a ton of brickz

i dont fuckin know what 2 do w myself
this feelingz messing w my head QmQ
i know that ur bad 4 my health
but i would rather end up dead x.x

Toke up in da phantom 
I b feelin handsome
Yall r spittin wack barz XP
im still writin anthemz >w<
im still smokin big doinkz
yall b chiefin roaches
my gas keep me buggin 
causin a commotion

x2

!phantom

!phantom (prod. Xani)

;|~ there's still time to grow ~|;
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dedicated to you
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Lyrics:

I’ve been sitting here for hours waiting for a text
But I know that you’ve been busy, got no time for me yet
We talk for minutes, maybe seconds if i’m lucky enough
Bet i’d do anything to hear you, if that’s not too much

You've been making me feel so important,
Thinking about every night and every morning
I won’t admit it but you’re someone i want to myself,
By myself, I don’t know if i can make it

So stuck to your side, do you mind?
Can I take some of your time?
Just a call, or a text, even a voicemail is fine

Don’t act like you can replace me, (You can't replace me)
Just say you won’t hate me (Don't say you h ate me)
If I say how I feel, don’t betray me (Don't betray me)

I’d die for you
I- I’d fucking die for you (I'd die for you)
Take away your pain,
Baby you know I desire you

Checking on your status,
Wanna know why this is happening
Tell me what you wanna be,
tired of the games that you are playing

Convince me you’re fading, (Convince me, you're fading)
The way that you ghost (The way that you ghost)
I cared for you when you (I care so much for you)
Needed me most (When you needed me most)

What’s the goal that you’re trying to reach?
Every heartbreak has a lesson to teach
I’d be so honored to be hurt by you, (Hurt by you)
I wanna be next you
I just wanna be next to you

(Next to you)
Keep me right by you,
You’re so hard to lie to
Cuz you can get me through
The shit i  don’t want to (Stay)
Stay with me tonight,
Everything is alright,
No questions asked,
No, i won’t ask you why

But you’re not mine, baby
And that’s alright
I don’t care who you love,
Just wanna see you smile

Any quantity of pain,
I’m the only one to blame,
Without you, nothing’s the same,
I don’t really care about the fame,
I’m just a spark onto a flame

(Just a spark, just a spark onto a flame)
(Any quantity of pain, I'm the one to blame)
(Just a spark, just a spark onto a flame)
I don't really care about the fame

STATUS [@Loveyoubetrayed x @itschrismarek]

prod. + written by: thms.
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Cause ive been gunned down
Im left right where
The unknowns
They carry my weight 

and those sun stoned
(your) brown eyes emptying me
It’s a place we don’t want to be

So I'll reach 
And i'll find my peace
wont stop the lack of poise and

I'll walk my road
I wont stay for long
There's simply things we cant escape

Like how ive been
And your dismiss
An' emptiness

Is all there is
But I'll remiss 
And there's a cliff

So don’t fall
Its my turn

You don’t get 
to feel hopeless 
out of rope 

Yeah 
You got me strung 
And this is what you get

But why am I paying prices?
for what you did
I caused none of this 

This is what you get
This is what you get
But why am I paying prices

For what you did
I caused none of this
And the price I've paid is priceless

Yeah every bliss
Was it worth it?
Cause im left to my devices

For what you did
I caused none of this  


So break line
I don't know to deal with this
Why hit mine
You're crossed up in 
unrequited facetimes, 
and forgiveness
Lets face time
You've gone ghost 

and I don't mind 
When you walk the talk 
that im given

But it's my life
And im not one to 
go wasting this
im wasting it

I bet you thought that this was nothing
all the roads that lead to you
But my convivence to you is something 

And the echoes of you two are so numbing
Could you could be forthcoming
Fallacies got your fever rushing

Oh for me
I'll believe
What you make me see


This is what you get
This is what you get
But why am I paying prices

For what you did
I caused none of this
And the price I've paid is priceless

Yeah every bliss
Was it worth it?
Cause im left to my devices

For what you did
I caused none of this  
 
//do you enjoy what I think lately?
//pyromanic thoughts and endless loops
//inside daydreams
//oh but maybe, baby

//I threw a token in a wishing well
//yeah I was wishing well
//and baby
//I know you heard me

So break line
I don't know to deal with this
Why hit mine
You're crossed up in 
unrequited facetimes, 
and forgiveness
Lets face time
You've gone ghost 

and I don't mind 
When you walk the talk 
that im given

But it's my life
And im not one to 
go wasting this
god ive wasted it

prices

recorded dec 1st 2023
I took agency over my life and self a month later
I took back my control, I escaped.

today is just another day (demo)

[the hive of death spits out the first venom]


(Chorus)

Okay I'm locked in, reloaded
The hive of death is controlling
The fabric of all my motion
I've got to hide these emotions
I'm talking lay out the plan
Not gonna catch me remorsing
(Hypnotized)
I've got that heart full of hate and
I'm the reason I'm morphing

(Verse #1)

I can't seem to catch a break, refuelled by all these endorphins'
I'll break the chain and let it through, like a sinewave proportion
I'm talking, fuck all your friends
I don't care bout the end, I've just been working on my craft
I'll blow them away again

(Pre-Chorus)

I was so broken off the sertraline,
I couldn't hide it so I had to make that fucking scene,
I broke down held on to nothing but my cardamine,
Messily Manufacturing my craft it went too fucking deep, yeah

(Chorus #2)

Cos I was hiding and broken, my mental health had me choking
I couldn't appreciate sound overgrowth had me lurking
so when it's all said and done I hope that I'm a better person,
but I won't be, no I won't be anymore.

(Outro)

So sick of these anxieties,
They're always pushing me back but
theres no hill too steep

gotta branch out my reality,
cos lately consciousness just ain't been on the scene
Am I really who I say I am
Am I really who I claim to be

Fuck it all just let it go,
I was tryna make it out as more, but
I can't find myself so I'm gon reach the end
Hope these Endorphins make me feel again,
Hope these Endorphins make me feel again
I really, I really can't waste another weekend
In this, In this fucking state

avidrecords.ca

endorphins

merry christmas
i learned how to play guitar again! 

tranquil afternoon
im gonna find a way out soon
the thought of you turns grey
with every turning page

seeped in black and white
i take your words and close my eyes
does it hurt when i start to cry?
it always lives in the back of my mind


walking beside me
show me the right way
im scared of the future
tell me im okay

i dont wanna cry with the lights off
i just wanna finish what im working on
i dont know myself and i dont know why but
i dont want to die

endorphins

heavnsnt