It’s so tough, 
	in the anxious mind, 
	to find that balance,

	That no one understands, 
	all that you have, 
	Our experience.

	It’s a loneliness, 
	but we all share it.
	It’s exactly what brings us together.

	It’s so tough, 
	in the anxious mind, 
	to find that balance.



I’m on a path, of aftermath, 
to find that balance, 
as always, profoundly aware, 
Intentionally.

As an artist, 
creative and expressive actions
to clear my mind, first, 
and then, my soul, after.

Unfortunately, life has decided to
turn into a big project.
Depression will sink us,
like all the plumbings gone bad, yeah.

I’m worried ‘bout everything,
! can’t stop the panic.
You’re right, if that sounds like:
“That’s an anxiety attack, yeah!”

On the mind, spiraling, victim to
intrusive thoughts,
gripping you, like a demon,
grasping, hard, at your throat.

Realize, it’s ongoing,
the little things, will add up.
De-rail your Train of Thought;
Re-fresh your mind, or suffer.

Depression, or stresses, and messes, and
keeping track is honestly hard…
…everything I forget is
‘cause this insomnia.

It feels hard starting over,
with all this shit all going on…
…it’s not the end of the world,
but, this shit just sucks!

Yeah, we are still young,
but, we are old enough, 
invested life energy into
some specific stuff,

’n’ not some small bit, but a 
decent-sized chunk.
However, there’s still story left to write,
despite all the bad stuff.

We’re in a similar boat,
You, Me, and Us.
The lyrics will let it all out, so: 
Show the world all your stuff.

Just find out your outlet,
‘been for you, so clutch,
and grow your life’s work out,
just paint it to life.

A canvas while camping.
Resonating profoundly.
Pain is apparent to show
how deeply you love.

Life is more lonely,
than I thought it ever would be;
A neat little paradox
we share, so come join us.

Honestly, you need the dark,
to understand: the best things
in life… are actually 
quite hard to come by.

Conscious artistry
is just a start,
Let’s just enjoy the moment 
…and so the music starts.



	It’s so tough, 
	in the anxious mind, 
	to find that balance,

	That no one understands, 
	all that you have, 
	Our experience.

	It’s a loneliness, 
	but we all share it.
	It’s exactly what brings us together.

	It’s so tough, 
	in the anxious mind, 
	to find that balance.



Enjoy the moment 
…before the music stops.

It's So Tough

It's gonna be a long road,
to get where I'm goin',
I'm gonna take it slow,
I'm gonna savor the moments, 

and when I grow old,
it's gonna be the only
thing that I will know, 
so I will make sure to hold them:

Close to the heart.
Inside of inside mind.
Felt in the body.
Transcendent through time.

Conscious awareness,
of living this life.
Monstrous challenges,
are by what we are defined, 
so take it slow, 
and make the right choices.

Rushing too fast and
details might not be noticed.
In fact, you know,
taking the high road,
pushes you further.

As the journey unfolds,
it is not the goal
that provides all of the worth;
Each and every step
are where the lessons are learned.

Like water, adapt.
Just ebb, and will/we'll/wield flow.
Elevate your spirit,
down, from Heaven below.

'cuz things aren't always
what they seem to show,
dig deeper inside,
and outwardly you'll grow.

Dont be afraid,
to feel love, and emote.
You're rare,
Just. let. go.

I cannot deny
Myself, anymore.
Do not decide,
just go on, and go forth.

It's a long, long road,
take my sweet time,
step far into unknowns,
make my real life:
This is how my story goes.

It's gonna be a long road,
to get where I'm goin',
I'm gonna take it slow,
I'm gonna savor the moments, 

and when I grow old,
it's gonna be the only
thing that I will know, 
so I will make sure to hold them:

Memories,
of you and me,
Picking wildflowers down by the creek...

It's the last thing we did,
in the past, 
when we were happy,
so I'll be sure to remember that,
after the fact.

Picking Wildflowers Down By The Creek

We don't let a little rain stop us.
The path before us, into unknown.
Hope, drives the soul more than objects.
Go through the forest, and we will follow.

Misty mountains fill the air all around us,
a fresh breath, next steps, onward go
over the bridge, to the left, and down yonder,
into cerulean waters, glacial flow.


Take the plunge, yeah
The waters cold, but not our souls.


Take the plunge, yeah
Mind over body, and reap the rewards.


Take the plunge, yeah
Over and over like, times before.


Take the plunge, yeah
Finding positive light shining bright through the dark.


Letting souls flow like water,
change in time with the weather,
patient luck is rewarded,
with memories that are greater,


Anticipated, breaths bated, 
fantastic, more than expected,
the promised land, not a painting,
this paradise, is worth saving.

Coloured azure waters are freshly melted for summer,
They match the dark, where theres a glow where galaxies are created.

A spectacle, just off the road, never heard, but always told,
Hanging out, in its own world, lay eyes upon and this night ain't over 

Take the plunge, yeah
Mind over body, and reap the rewards.

Take the plunge, yeah
Over and over like, times before.

Take the plunge, yeah
Finding positive light shining bright through the dark.

Take The Plunge

Strumming my strings,
Sitting under the greens,
Alive,
All along the oak woodlands,

Hear the rustling leaves,
Softly touced by the breeze,
Side by side,
Singing songs of love, yeah

All the birds soaring free,
Up, and over, and all around me
The quiet humming of bees just buzzing,
Oh, its Is such a wonderful thing!

Being, here, just being,
Alive,
in the shadow of the mountain, singing
in a hidden valley, brimming with surprises, 
it fills my heart, when you're with me


So pack before you go
back up north to home,
its a long and winding road
that lies before us.

The highway corridor
is lined with blooms and more;
Colder days are over,
heat's abundant.


The great plains drain into a meadow grove,
Frogs, singing and swimming in the stream with the toads,
Little mice running 'cross flowered fields, to home,
Hawks, owls, carrion, circling above.

In the shadow of the mountains, the morning light awakens life.
When the sun sets cross horizons, it'll set the faces on fire.
This Natural ampitheater setting surrounds us,
Happiness is seeing the light dance around our love.

So pack before you go
back up north to home,
its a long and winding road
that lies before us.

The highway corridor
is lined with blooms and more;
Colder days are over,
heat's abundant.

Pack Before You Go

I'm singing songs of times gone by,
A life of longing, for your cry.
By the water, the willows weep,
the roots run far along the deep.

I'm singing songs of lives gone by,
of times of love, that made us cry.
And by the water, we both weep,
We know, Treasures lost, are ours to keep.


The morning fog across the lake,
Your warmth surrounds as I awake.
The days emergence starts intense(in tents), 
The sun has risen up again. 

The crags above, dance in silhouettes,
The pillars of light, piercing through darkness,
The ridge lined with trees, of ever green,
As far as our eyes are keen to see.


I'm singing songs of times gone by,
A life of longing, for your cry.
By the water, the willows weep,
the roots run far along the deep.

I'm singing songs of lives gone by,
of times of love, that made us cry.
And by the water, we both weep,
We know, Treasures lost, are ours to keep.


Basecamp, is the summit that were living on,
if only for the moment, a day, a second, and then we leave.
The journey, the destination, they will both bring
our timelines, together, for one more thing.


From the highest of mountains,
to the fertile river valleys below,
side by side, at the base of Lassen.
Sharing time with you, I'll share with the world,
because I'm making this music for you, girl.

I'm singing songs of times gone by,
A life of longing, for your cry.
By the water, the willows weep,
the roots run far along the deep.

I'm singing songs of lives gone by,
of times of love, that made us cry.
And by the water, we both weep,
We know, Treasures lost, are ours to keep.

Weeping Willows

They say a traveler can no longer 
be happy in just one place.

They've either left, or found, a piece 
of their heart in more than one place.

They can call somewhere home,
but it doesn't exist to them anymore.

It's gone from a place, to a state of 
mind, pay it no more.


I feel like I'm floating on the top of the world,
Realize the moment now is all that we got,
Objects in motion watching over the sky,
Can’t stop, Won’t stop, and I won’t even try!

I'm flying so high, just floating light on wings.
In time I've seen the sights that have rendered from my dreams.
Around the world, or in just one place, it's the same thing:
The universal ways, of life, of one people, of one being.

Where did he go?
What does he know?
Havent you found him?
He’s been looking outward from the top of the world.

Life moves fast,
Timesmoveslow,
It's all around him,
He's been making up thoughts as though nothing's impossible.

Sorted among,
All of us strong,
Chains have not bound him,
He’s been bringing people to the top of the world.

Where time moves fast,
Lifemovesslow,
Its all around it’s
time, we take a stand, and go to make all things possible! 

They say a traveler can no longer 
be happy in just one place.

They've either left, or found, a piece 
of their heart in more than one place.

They can call somewhere home,
but it doesn't exist to them anymore.

It's gone from a place, to a state of 
mind, pay it no more.

Traveller

One more drop,
It’s a wonder full thing.

Two step, rock,
Gotta sway, like the trees.

For, each other, let the riddim just ride,
I’m alive, when
You’re keeping time, with me.

One more drop,
It’s a wonder full thing.

Two step, rock,
Gotta sway, like the trees.

For, each other, let the riddim just ride,
I’m alive, when
You’re keeping time, with me.

I’ve got this feeling;
I can’t contain it’
There’s no explanation
or decision I’m making.
Just passionate love,
emotion, able creation,
fleeting sensations of lust
from the rush that were chasing

planes higher, than the one
that we are currently on,
the pain and pleasure mechanism
just keeps us in line.
We were made by stardust,
in its image, we must align,
Ourselves to the now,
and that means, only: I and I.


One more drop 
It's a wonder full thing

Two step rock
Got us sway like the trees

For each other let the riddim just ride
I'm alive when
You're keeping time with me


One more drop 
It's a wonder full thing

Two step rock
Got us sway like the trees

For each other let the riddim just ride
I'm alive when
You're keeping time with me

Keeping Time (One Drop Two Step)

Don’t be afraid of a little
confrontation.
Face your fears
with no resignation.

It’s not nearly as bad
as your mind has made it.
Don’t be afraid, when its time to
face the music.


I’m a nice guy, but I won’t stay finished last.
Not trading my life to pay for systemic crimes.
My origin story may have been heroic past,
but I’m just starting my true villain arc at last.
  
Natural selection, game theory, statistical projection,
random chance, profitability, lucky stars,
factual evidence based reading, egotistical reflections,
having had incredibly shitty fucking starts...


Letting it stew,
Boiling over until
It consumes…

Don’t let it brew,
A festering ferment
sours your soul.

But maybe things are not quite as they seem,
Fate has something in store for me,
These illusions of fear 
and screaming hatred seething…
no choices are making decisions 
before me, no more, 
I’m ripping things, 
not right at the seams,
fake masks don’t let me see,
disillusions of fear, 
my voice has fallen of dear ears,
so I’m making decisions, 
and now, I’m hurting no more.


Don’t be afraid of a little
confrontation.
Face your fears
with no resignation.

It’s not nearly as bad
as your mind has made it.
Don’t be afraid, when its time to
face the music.


I know, instincts will take me home,
from the top of the world,
to the edge of the earth.

It doesn't matter,
Where
I
Go.
Make your everlasting
Change
Wherever life takes you.

Don't wait,
until the end of days,
on a canvas or page:
just paint, to the edge of the frame.

So take one
of your temptations
and make creations
Forsake revelations
and pay back your maker

Before I leave you here,
I’ll teach one last thing: Stars
in the sky, they may align, but
luck is what you bring.

So look at constellations
As perspective points in time
If luck is what you bring:
Then I made sure I brought mine! 

Passing/passion here,
overcome to find your greatness,
watch it will be clear,
heave by the spoonful,

it washes it down,
take your medicine,
before you drown,
The End is here.


Don’t be afraid of a little
confrontation.
Face your fears
with no resignation.

It’s not nearly as bad
as your mind has made it.
Don’t be afraid, when its time to
face the music.

Confrontation (Face the Music)

I know I’m not alone,
There’s some body out there who shares the
Dark thoughts running rampant through my skull.


Welcome to the end of the road
You know what sickens me?
This impossible curve
that we be living in.

Meet the unstoppable force,
here to demolish it,
taking no prisoners,
just hear me, watch it burn.

And Meanwhile a lion eats the gazelle on the Serengeti,
because sometimes, the king just has to eat.
Is there a point living in a big pack like that
when its your turn you just end up meat?

When altruism is there taken advantage of by scammers,
it incentivizes being such a selfish bad person.
When casinos, and cryptos, and brokers, and bankers are all
playin’ the same Game: public money takeover, and were just the bait!


I know I’m not alone,
There’s some body out there who shares the
Dark thoughts running rampant through my skull.



If there’s one thing you can do to control your fate,
it’s being proactive, because waiting is waste,
and time is the one thing keep all of us sane,
it keeps on moving and moving so use it to gain all your your gains


If you believe it you can achieve it.
That’s the saying for all things, to make them real.

If you believe it you can achieve it.
That’s the saying for good things, but it works for evil…

But I’m not evil.
I’m not evil.


Distract with bread and circuses,
distract from slaves and murderers.
They say: Let Them Eat Cake
We say: we want their heads on stakes.

Direct attacks on persons,
who definitely deserve it.
We are the warlords
they claim they’re fighting wars over.


 
I know I’m not alone,
There’s some body out there who shares the
Dark thoughts running rampant through my skull.


Don’t bite the hand that feeds.
Just chop the goddamn fucking arm off.
Burn it to all to the ground.

I Know I'm Not Alone

A special HEAVY version of our song Maelstrom!

I’m draining down in circles
Round and round the flow goes
Down to drown in sorrows
I’m flailing now, I’m hurting

It’s raining down in puddles
My mind’s been torn asunder
High above, go under
I’ve fallen down, I’m hurting

My thoughts finish
As my body sits in perish
Time is no object
Just send a message

As the thoughts begin to move
Jostle for place, for one last proof
That life was real, and not some spoof
I may be gone, carry on through.

My thoughts linger
As my body's wishing farewell
I will not object
Just send a message

As I got so close to you
Lost in space, like you’re my last news
That life was real, I found the truth
I may be gone, carry on through

I’m draining down in circles
Round and round the flow goes
Down to drown in sorrows
I’m flailing now, I’m hurting

It’s raining down in puddles
My mind’s been torn asunder
High above, go under
I’ve fallen down, I’m hurting

I’m hurting.

The high tide is nigh
The sun’s kissing horizons
One last time
In the fading light

The right time is now
Loved ones kissing over and over
Just one last time
Before the fading light

Round and round
This life we’ve found
This love around
We’ll take it down
Into the ground
Vibrate the sound
Through time from now
To the end of it all

I’m draining down in circles
Round and round this maelstrom
Down to drown in sorrows
I’m flailing now, I’m hurting

It’s raining down in puddles
My mind’s been torn asunder
High above, go under
I’ve fallen down, I’m hurting

[Icarus Blues II Callback]
If you ever feel like, flying,  (If you ever feel like flying)
be sure to spread your wings, go higher  (be sure to spread your wings go higher)
and let the feelings swell, inside ya (let the feelings swell, inside ya )
until you never wanna let it go (let it go)

Come and let me take you, flying (Sometimes watching you try)
 high on mountain air, inspired (is exactly where their HEAVEN is)
 insides burnin like wild fire (cuz something’s making you fly)
 and I never wanna let you go (and it’s a physically impossible greatness)

Maelstrom [Melodic Death Metal Reggae Version]

Neurodivergence,
Nuances urges,
Knew once they merged with,
New ones emerging...

Consuming, fixation,
Exhuming, gestation,
Hyperactive, emotion,
Obsessive, compulsion,
Regressive, suggestion, 
Degeneration, in action/inaction.

Sensitivities? 
Subjected, overbearing, and loaded,
symphonic, discordant.

Executive dysfunction, 
Attention? 
Deficient, Disordered.

Experiences?
Unorthodox, 
Spectrum unheard of.

Expressions? 
Unlike the regular.

Gifted, 
but not special.

Time tethered to tired.
Moods change, chained with the weather.

Feeling is harder,
Being is weirder.

Feeling is hotter,
Being is wetter.

Feeling is fire,
Being is water.

Feeling is ether,
Being is odder.

Accepting this difference is
Creating the strength
to manage all of your collective
Mind, to find blissful states.

The voices among us,
in this music portrayed,
the white noise, cutting through the blackness 
'til the end of my days

Like tinnitus, inside us,
the sounds of my mind 
are never quiet, anymore...
unless I'm making music 
in nature. 
And so,
I'm going back, to the Earth, 
To the Way, I was before,
Society taught me how, to Hate,
Myself, and more.

So, I'm done,
playing these games,
I'm on the run,
from myself, and everyone,
and from nothing,
because, that's all there ever was.

N.D. Freestyle

Philosophical penmanship of love language lyricism, naturally flowing cascades of heavy roots reggae rock riddims

It's So Tough

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