Song A Week 2019

Originals

A Collection of Lovely Collaborations with Lovely People from Lovely Places - in order of release date - Most Recent at the Top!

Thank You to all Collaborators for sharing their heart and their art with me. :) <3

SoundCollaboratory

Song A Week

The Groove Version is a selection of contributions making space for the grooviest elements to shine, full bass track, special pre-verse, awesome rap, and some mimi-swag!

<3

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A Quintuplet of Versions of the same song for this years Holiday Multi-Collab, each accentuating different aspects of the beautifully wonderful creative elements that were sent in!

Thank You so very much to everyone who contributed (and to everyone who was invited but not able to participate this time - probably because of my extremely late notice hahah), Your creativity astounds me and fills me with such a sense of excitement, hope, and purpose! Working on this song has become quite an emotional journey for me, I am grateful to You all for sharing this special feeling with me, and so honoured to have You on this song together, may we reminisce about it forever ^-^

Thank You Thank You!

Please do feel free to share which version(s) You like the most! 

Credits:

Emma: Cover Art, Class ( emmascottdesign.co )
Kaelem: Vocals, Lyrics, Beats, Raps, Style ( https://open.spotify.com/artist/20TQtVMXjC5YgHvhgYtMQM?si=gd0rUn3rTJyiHm-zaw92xw )
Anthème: Vocals, Guitars, Ambiences, Percussions, Magic ( @antheme_chat )
Frank: Keys, Vocals, Lyrics, Character ( @francois-john-cormier )
Amber: Vocals, Soulfulness ( @amber-nielsen )
Cole: Bass, Richness ( @cole-mclean-72791805 )
Taryn: Vocals, Flute, Whimsy ( @taryn-e-1 )
Mimi: Vocals, Swag ( https://www.instagram.com/harbhajunkie/ )
Tove: Vocals, Warmth
B: Memories, Wisdom

Love to You all <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Lyrics:

The calendar is running out of pages
The twilight of an age is all but faded
While December burns on its final ember
I still remember

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Should we keep with old traditions
Should we make our own additions
We could go
We could stay
Home is never far away
It's okay either way

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
(bumblin' through fresh snow-cial daze)
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
(bindin' tear-fall star-streaked haze)
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Holla - days
All the - ways
To a - maze
Drive ya - crazy

Dove Year (The Groove Version)

The Gang's All Here Version is all the contributions playing together in their near entirety. A big and joyous collective of creative colours from across the globe, the more the merrier!

<3

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A Quintuplet of Versions of the same song for this years Holiday Multi-Collab, each accentuating different aspects of the beautifully wonderful creative elements that were sent in!

Thank You so very much to everyone who contributed (and to everyone who was invited but not able to participate this time - probably because of my extremely late notice hahah), Your creativity astounds me and fills me with such a sense of excitement, hope, and purpose! Working on this song has become quite an emotional journey for me, I am grateful to You all for sharing this special feeling with me, and so honoured to have You on this song together, may we reminisce about it forever ^-^

Thank You Thank You!

Please do feel free to share which version(s) You like the most! 

Credits:

Emma: Cover Art, Class ( emmascottdesign.co )
Kaelem: Vocals, Lyrics, Beats, Raps, Style ( https://open.spotify.com/artist/20TQtVMXjC5YgHvhgYtMQM?si=gd0rUn3rTJyiHm-zaw92xw )
Anthème: Vocals, Guitars, Ambiences, Percussions, Magic ( @antheme_chat )
Frank: Keys, Vocals, Lyrics, Character ( @francois-john-cormier )
Amber: Vocals, Soulfulness ( @amber-nielsen )
Cole: Bass, Richness ( @cole-mclean-72791805 )
Taryn: Vocals, Flute, Whimsy ( @taryn-e-1 )
Mimi: Vocals, Swag ( https://www.instagram.com/harbhajunkie/ )
Tove: Vocals, Warmth
B: Memories, Wisdom

Love to You all <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Lyrics:

The calendar is running out of pages
The twilight of an age is all but faded
While December burns on its final ember
I still remember

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Should we keep with old traditions
Should we make our own additions
We could go
We could stay
Home is never far away
It's okay either way

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
(bumblin' through fresh snow-cial daze)
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
(bindin' tear-fall star-streaked haze)
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Holla - days
All the - ways
To a - maze
Drive ya - crazy

Dove Year (The Gang's All Here Version)

The Gave Up The Ghost Version is one that I've taken out the original tracks (the ghost tracks of my vocals, guitar, and drums). This means that, since everyone recorded their parts to the ghost tracks without having any idea what anyone else would be recording, this is essentially a blindfolded version consisting of only parts that couldn't see each other. The inverted version of the original track, All Friends, No Sketch.

Absolutely Beautiful! <3

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A Quintuplet of Versions of the same song for this years Holiday Multi-Collab, each accentuating different aspects of the beautifully wonderful creative elements that were sent in!

Thank You so very much to everyone who contributed (and to everyone who was invited but not able to participate this time - probably because of my extremely late notice hahah), Your creativity astounds me and fills me with such a sense of excitement, hope, and purpose! Working on this song has become quite an emotional journey for me, I am grateful to You all for sharing this special feeling with me, and so honoured to have You on this song together, may we reminisce about it forever ^-^

Thank You Thank You!

Please do feel free to share which version(s) You like the most! 

Credits:

Emma: Cover Art, Class ( emmascottdesign.co )
Kaelem: Vocals, Lyrics, Beats, Raps, Style ( https://open.spotify.com/artist/20TQtVMXjC5YgHvhgYtMQM?si=gd0rUn3rTJyiHm-zaw92xw )
Anthème: Vocals, Guitars, Ambiences, Percussions, Magic ( @antheme_chat )
Frank: Keys, Vocals, Lyrics, Character ( @francois-john-cormier )
Amber: Vocals, Soulfulness ( @amber-nielsen )
Cole: Bass, Richness ( @cole-mclean-72791805 )
Taryn: Vocals, Flute, Whimsy ( @taryn-e-1 )
Mimi: Vocals, Swag ( https://www.instagram.com/harbhajunkie/ )
Tove: Vocals, Warmth
B: Memories, Wisdom

Love to You all <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Lyrics:

The calendar is running out of pages
The twilight of an age is all but faded
While December burns on its final ember
I still remember

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Should we keep with old traditions
Should we make our own additions
We could go
We could stay
Home is never far away
It's okay either way

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
(bumblin' through fresh snow-cial daze)
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
(bindin' tear-fall star-streaked haze)
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Holla - days
All the - ways
To a - maze
Drive ya - crazy

Dove Year (The Gave Up The Ghost Version)

The Mood Version is a selection of contributions focusing on acoustic sounds and a sparse, laid back vibe, allowing more space for some of the softer sounds and subtleties to be heard.

<3

~~~~~~~~~

A Quintuplet of Versions of the same song for this years Holiday Multi-Collab, each accentuating different aspects of the beautifully wonderful creative elements that were sent in!

Thank You so very much to everyone who contributed (and to everyone who was invited but not able to participate this time - probably because of my extremely late notice hahah), Your creativity astounds me and fills me with such a sense of excitement, hope, and purpose! Working on this song has become quite an emotional journey for me, I am grateful to You all for sharing this special feeling with me, and so honoured to have You on this song together, may we reminisce about it forever ^-^

Thank You Thank You!

Please do feel free to share which version(s) You like the most! 

Credits:

Emma: Cover Art, Class ( emmascottdesign.co )
Kaelem: Vocals, Lyrics, Beats, Raps, Style ( https://open.spotify.com/artist/20TQtVMXjC5YgHvhgYtMQM?si=gd0rUn3rTJyiHm-zaw92xw )
Anthème: Vocals, Guitars, Ambiences, Percussions, Magic ( @antheme_chat )
Frank: Keys, Vocals, Lyrics, Character ( @francois-john-cormier )
Amber: Vocals, Soulfulness ( @amber-nielsen )
Cole: Bass, Richness ( @cole-mclean-72791805 )
Taryn: Vocals, Flute, Whimsy ( @taryn-e-1 )
Mimi: Vocals, Swag ( https://www.instagram.com/harbhajunkie/ )
Tove: Vocals, Warmth
B: Memories, Wisdom

Love to You all <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Lyrics:

The calendar is running out of pages
The twilight of an age is all but faded
While December burns on its final ember
I still remember

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Should we keep with old traditions
Should we make our own additions
We could go
We could stay
Home is never far away
It's okay either way

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
(bumblin' through fresh snow-cial daze)
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
(bindin' tear-fall star-streaked haze)
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Holla - days
All the - ways
To a - maze
Drive ya - crazy

Dove Year (The Mood Version)

The Distilled Version is select pieces of all contributions to create something that gives every contributor at least some space to shine without too much overcrowding.

<3

~~~~~~~~~

A Quintuplet of Versions of the same song for this years Holiday Multi-Collab, each accentuating different aspects of the beautifully wonderful creative elements that were sent in!

Thank You so very much to everyone who contributed (and to everyone who was invited but not able to participate this time - probably because of my extremely late notice hahah), Your creativity astounds me and fills me with such a sense of excitement, hope, and purpose! Working on this song has become quite an emotional journey for me, I am grateful to You all for sharing this special feeling with me, and so honoured to have You on this song together, may we reminisce about it forever ^-^

Thank You Thank You!

Please do feel free to share which version(s) You like the most! 

Credits:

Emma: Cover Art, Class ( emmascottdesign.co )
Kaelem: Vocals, Lyrics, Beats, Raps, Style ( https://open.spotify.com/artist/20TQtVMXjC5YgHvhgYtMQM?si=gd0rUn3rTJyiHm-zaw92xw )
Anthème: Vocals, Guitars, Ambiences, Percussions, Magic ( @antheme_chat )
Frank: Keys, Vocals, Lyrics, Character ( @francois-john-cormier )
Amber: Vocals, Soulfulness ( @amber-nielsen )
Cole: Bass, Richness ( @cole-mclean-72791805 )
Taryn: Vocals, Flute, Whimsy ( @taryn-e-1 )
Mimi: Vocals, Swag ( https://www.instagram.com/harbhajunkie/ )
Tove: Vocals, Warmth
B: Memories, Wisdom

Love to You all <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Lyrics:

The calendar is running out of pages
The twilight of an age is all but faded
While December burns on its final ember
I still remember

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Should we keep with old traditions
Should we make our own additions
We could go
We could stay
Home is never far away
It's okay either way

For all the ways the Holidays amaze me
(bumblin' through fresh snow-cial daze)
Honestly, they still kinda drive me crazy
(bindin' tear-fall star-streaked haze)
But oh what bliss it is
to spend it all right here
Reminiscing at the end of year with You

Holla - days
All the - ways
To a - maze
Drive ya - crazy

Dove Year (The Distilled Version)

Cover designed by Cecilia Balvidares instagram.com/nyctophiliacmb

Lyrics:

I kinda like the idea of you and me together
but I like to runaway.
So don't get used to the thought of forever
because I'm not used to stay.

Don't be so glad you met me
'cause you don't know nothing yet.
All the love you were searching
will turn into regret.

'Cause I'm not one for the endgame,
I'm not the one you want by your side.
But I like the way we're pretending
we know exactly what's on our minds.

I kinda like the idea of you and me together
but I like to runaway.
So don't get used to the thought of forever
because I'm not used to stay.

Don't think the way I look into your eyes
means something more.
Because I just try to figure out
the perfect time to go.

'Cause I'm not one for the endgame,
I'm not the one you were trying to find.
But something started a fire
and I'm scared to lose my mind...

I kinda like the idea of you and me together
but I like to runaway.
So don't get used to the thought of forever
because I'm not used to stay.

How did I end up like this?
It was just a kiss, it was just a kiss.
How did I end up like this?
It was just a kiss, it was just a kiss.
How did I end up like this?
I'm not used to miss, I'm not used to miss.
But I miss you and I don't know what to do.

I kinda like the idea of you and me together
but I like to runaway.
So don't get used to the thought of forever
because I'm not used to stay.

Runaway

Lyrics:

Black coffee in the morning, sitting on your desk
next to the papers signed with your name.
Black suits and meetings, the smoke of cigarettes
blurring your silhouette.

I could spend hours and days
looking at the wrinkles on your face.
I wanna get lost today
in the way that you say my name.

God knows all the sins you hide
behind your angel smile, let me find out.
Let me find out, let me find out.
Are you asking me to think twice?
I thought I saw a spark in your eyes.
Let me start a fire, let me start a fire.
Let me start a fire...

A rush of adrenaline the minute you touch my hand,
a spark turns into a flame.
Your skin is my worst enemy.
You got me wondering all the time
what's underneath your black tie.

Can't reconcile in my head
what I should do and what I wanna say.
It might be too late to look back,
let me close the door and cover our tracks.

God knows all the sins you hide
behind your angel smile, let me find out.
Let me find out, let me find out.
Are you asking me to think twice?
I thought I saw a spark in your eyes.
Let me start a fire, let me start a fire.
Let me start a fire...

Black coffee in the morning, it's cold tonight
next to the ashes of our desire.
Someone's on the door knocking,
we burned down some rules...
Who will walk out first... me or you?

Black Coffee In The Morning

Lyrics:

I'm taking my time and taking a chance,
all I want is to hold your hand.
It's been a while and things have changed,
except for the smile shining on your face.

Let's go outside, "hey, how you've been?"
I thought by now I'd never see you again.
It's been a while and things have changed,
except for my heart screaming out your name.

When the clock strikes 12 don't fade away.
I'll draw your fingers touching my skin
like the whole world is depending on it.
When the clock strikes 12 just say my name.

Am I taking a breath or am I taking your hand?
You always make me feel like I'm flying away.
It's been a while but I know what you'll say,
it's on the tip of my tongue, it's in the back of my head.

Let's go outside, "hey, how you've been?"
I thought by now I'd never see you again.
It's been a while and things have changed,
except for my heart screaming out your name.

I'm drawing your hand, it's all I wanna take
and piece by piece, we'll fall into place.
I'm just a puzzle signed with your name
and you're the missing piece that could never fit.
It's been a while but I couldn't change,
still I fall in your eyes like an open gate...

Green Sugar

I didn't have time to write something this week, so this is a song I wrote during one of my many existential crisis regarding my songwriting. Also, there was a storm outside while I was recording this so you might hear the sound of my window crying for help.

Lyrics:

Push me 'till I fall, I don't need this.
Kick me when I'm down, I don't need this.
Tell me that you love me, I don't need this.
Or that you're bored of me, I don't need this.

Pointing out my flaws, I don't need this.
'Cause I already know and it's a long list.
Your little white lies, I don't need them.
They only come from your mouth and I can see it.

But if you tell me something from your heart, I'll believe it.
But if you expect me to be someone I'm not, I'll just leave it
right here... I don't need this.

I could be better, I don't need this.
I think I like the way I am feeling.
Don't rain on my parade, I don't need it.
I can put myself down better than you will.

Take me out like trash, I don't need this.
I didn't like it anyway, you can keep it.
I don't need all the emptys "you're good at it"
'cause honestly I already know I am.

I Don't Need This

Lyrics:

Open up my eyes to this new life
and I wait for a signal to step outside.
And who I was is waving goodbye
and now there's this empty space to fill up.

But I'm happy here 'cause no one told me how to feel.
But it's quiet here like they're waiting for something to steal.

It's a strange feeling, standing in this new place.
Everything's familiar except my face.
It's a perfect healing, standing in this strange place.
Everything's familiar except myself.

I'm taking back my side in these trying times
and if I learn to stick together, I will rise.
'Cause who I was will come back
and all of these bruises will keep me intact.

But I am confused, 'cause no one taught me how to lose.
And I can blame it all on you but you can blame it on me too.

It's a strange feeling, standing in this new place.
Everything's familiar except my face.
It's a perfect healing, standing in this strange place.
Everything's familiar except myself.

But I'm happy here 'cause no one taught me how to feel.
But I'm happy here 'cause no one told me how to feel.

It's a strange feeling, standing in this new place.
Everything's familiar except my face.
It's a perfect healing, standing in this strange place.
Everything's familiar except myself.

But I'm happy here 'cause no one told me how to feel.
But I'm happy here 'cause no one told me how to feel.

Familiar

lyrics:

sit back and tell me where you've been,
all those little stupid things
you wouldn't tell nobody but me,
when the sun comes out it all disappears.
tell me why your guard is low
and all the things she didn't know
'cause you runaway too soon
and now it's just us in this room.

let's lay down under the moon
'cause she knows about loneliness too
and no one knows better than you
how beautiful is to love the way you do.

sit back and let it all begin,
all these little stupid things
I already know them by heart
they keep me company in the dark.
tell me why you're under her spell
and all the things I know so well
'cause I'm the shoulder you cried on
every time you thought she was gone.

let's lay down under the moon
'cause she knows about loneliness too
and no one knows better than you
how beautiful is to hurt the way I do.

let's lay down under the moon
'cause she knows about loneliness too
and no one knows better than you
how beautiful is to hurt, how beautiful is to burn,
how beautiful is to love the way I do.

stupid things

so, the theme for this week was "stay between the lines". for me, this is what it means.
when I say I lock myself up in my room to write my songs, I really mean it. almost nobody in this house listened to my songs. and I'm 80% sure one person in particular is not very supportive about this. so this song is for that person. I love her and I'm thankful for everything she gave me, but living the life she expects me to live, staying between the lines she created for me, that's exhausting. 

basically I wrote a song about what I've been feeling for several years. wow.

I recorded this a few days ago after I finished the lyrics, I was expecting to record it again later but I woke up with a sore throat, niiiiiiiiice. it's kinda messy, I'm sorry. 

now yes, LYRICS:

I'm tired of caging myself down
between these four walls just to make a sound.
and I can't help but letting you down,
I know that I'm trying but I'm not what you want.

and it's ok, I'm getting used to the sense of regret,
I'm not living the life you created for myself.

I'm singing with my eyes open,
singing with my heart broken
for all the things I believed in.
Singing with my hands steady,
singing for when I'm ready
to give this all away...
I'm singing for nobody.

nothing's enough when we're on the run,
and I'm left behind, is that what you want?
I bend but I can't break when you're around,
and I'm always trying but I'm not what I want.

and I know that I should know better than this
but I'm not living the life you created for myself.

I'm singing with my eyes open,
singing with my heart broken
for all the things I believed in.
Singing with my hands steady,
singing for when I'm ready
to give this all away...
I'm singing for nobody.

and you know that I'm trying, but it's not enough.
I'll always be left here in the dark.
the words that I'm saying are prisioners in my mouth.
I'm singing for nobody...

singing for nobody (demo)

(I should've been doing homework, but this song got in the way and I just couldn't resist)

photo by Ayelen Molina ig: @ a.m.molina

lyrics:

this is who you are, this is who I am
and the things we say, the things we do
will never change.
this is the bottom line, the promised land
but the things we were hoping to find
won't be there

'cause I know you more than I know myself
and I know the things you said that day
will fade away.
and you know me more than I'd like to admit
'cause I gave you a piece of my heart that you
shouldn't be handling.

this is what I got, nothing else.
I gave you everything I could find
to make you stay.
but it's not enough, I can tell.
you can say it out loud, you can let me down
I'm used to it

'cause I know you more than I know myself
and I know the things you said that day
will fade away.
and you know me more than I'd like to admit
'cause I gave you a piece of my heart that you
shouldn't be handling.

and I switch between the good
and the bad days.
still chasing a long shot
until it takes me away...

'cause I know you more than I know myself
and I know the things you said that day
will fade away.
and you know me more than I'd like to admit
'cause I gave you a piece of my heart that you
shouldn't be handling.

long shot

photo by Ayelen Molina (ig: @ a.m.molina)
(yes, it's the same window from the past week. it's a lovely window, please don't judge me)

lyrics:

lipstick on your neck,
whisky on your breath.
there’s nothing worse than the
blind heart on my chest.
I’ve said it to myself
a million times before you get to the bed
but if I can’t convince myself
how do you expect to convince anybody else?

but I’d be here
even if I’m wasting my time.
and I’d believe
even the worst of your lies.

the smell (I KINDA SAID "SMILE"? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO ARGENTINIAN, PAULA.) on your shirt,
these blue pills that “you don’t own”
the smile on your face,
the pieces of my heart that it breaks.
I’ve said it to myself
a million times before you close the door
that you won’t come back again
‘cause this is just a house, not a home.

but I’d be here
even if I’m wasting my time.
and I’d believe
even the worst of your lies.

I go back again to the things that I know
back when I was sure I was your world.
till the alarm goes off and I'm violently thrown
out of this dream and the show must go on.
oh what a way to put this heart to die.
oh what a way to suddenly fall apart...

'cause I'd be here
even if I'm wasting my time.
and I'd believe
even the worst of your lies.

secondhand lover

Lyrics: written by Paula Varela & Los Sketches (@lossketches)
Music: written by Paula Varela & Los Sketches. Performed by Los Sketches.
Vocals: Paula Varela & Los Sketches. 
Every process that turned my crappy demo into a real song and I’ll be forever thankful for it: Los Sketches.
The one who have absolutely no idea about how to properly make a credits list: Paula Varela.
Artwork: Cecilia Balvidares.
If I didn't make myself clear enough: follow @lossketches

This is probably the happiest I’ve ever been with a song. I can’t believe I wrote this alone in my room and someone made THIS. I can’t thank Stevie enough, he made me feel like a superstar for once in my life (the kind of superstar that writes songs sitting her bed, records it on the phone and STILL can make a great song out of it). Working on this song was the most exciting thing I’ve done since I started writing songs: it’s amazing how I wrote about something that caused me so much pain over these past few months and then, like a magic trick, Stevie turned it into the most beautiful thing I’ve ever heard. I loved every minute of this experience, and I loved being able to share this with one of the most amazing people I’ve met this year. Take a good listen guys because I’m sure you’ll be hearing us together again very soon 😊
Stevie, you’ve made a girl from the other side of your world SO HAPPY. Thank you <3

Lyrics:

Maybe it’s true
maybe I should’ve seen what I had in you.
I guess I knew
that you would be better off without me next to you.

So maybe it’s good 
that you’ve changed and I no longer recognize you.
I still see you…
in my dreams you’re dressed as a nightmare and I run from you.

You gave me a kiss with those open eyes
and I wanted to trust but your love turned to dust.
Don’t give me a reason why,
don’t make me waste my time.
Just give me a decent goodbye.
Now you’re someone new…
and I no longer recognize you.

I see it too,
nothing will fit in my heart, now it’s shaped like you
in shades of blue.
Your footprints are littering the blueprints of my room.

Don’t say it’s for good
‘cause I’ve seen it all before I saw you.
It’s a cheap excuse,
my heart knows the pain of falling for you.

We kissed down the street, too late at night
and we knew from the start we would fall apart.
There’s no reason why
but we just wasted our time
without a decent goodbye.
Now you’re someone new…
and I no longer recognize you.


My heart now is shaped like you
in shades of blue.
My heart now is shaped like you...

So maybe it’s good
that you’ve changed and I no longer recognize you.

Shaped Like You (feat. Los Sketches)

Once again, thanks to my dear friends:
Josema for the title of this song.
Cecilia for the artwork <3

Lyrics:
I'm wearing your coat like a fortress
in the night
cause I know there's a goodbye hidden
in plain sight.
I wrote this story way too fast
upon a kiss that wasn't meant to last.
But now you're smiling and I'm the one
who bites the dust.

So, what if I told you I could change your mind?
What if I told you I saved the best for last?
All these moments are intertwined
but can we take it? what if I said I know how to face it?

It's a dangerous feeling coming down the rabbit hole,
caught up in the utopia of feeling nothing at all.

You're calling me a cab, you said you had a great time
though your body aches for the weight of a lie.
I won't be mad, what doesn't kill me it sure can try
one last time.
I'm walking down the hallway, all the lights are out
and I can hear your indecision crying out loud.
So now I'm smiling and you're about to bite the dust.

What if I told you I could change your mind?
What if I told you I saved the best for last?
All these moments are intertwined,
can you take it? You should know there's no way to erase it.

It's a dangerous feeling coming down the rabbit hole,
caught up in the utopia of feeling nothing at all.

I wrote this story way too fast
upon a kiss that wasn't meant to last.
But now it's gone and we're about to bite the dust.

The Utopia of Feeling

Thanks @j-t_r for letting me use his unused song ideas again! I used a couple of them for this one <3
(there was a big storm outside at the moment of recording, so you might hear some thunder over there)
Artwork by Cecilia Balvidares.

Lyrics:

Welcome to the only place I’ll let you get away with it.
I kissed you right and I fell straight to the rabbit hole, I hold my breath.
Tell me something I’d regret, do everything to make me quit.
But you’d do nothing, and it’s ok cause darling, I would do the same.

But that was then and this is now,
our drugs are useless now…
We were fools, we were blind,
distance is pointless now.

So if I fell once
nothing can keep me from falling twice.
So if I fell once
nothing can keep me from falling twice now…

Your eyes welcome me like I’m standing at heaven’s gates.
You bite your lip and I’m taken back in time, like it’s yesterday.
Tell me anything, help me remember the rules of this game.
But you say nothing and it’s ok, cause darling I remember your name

But that was then and this is now,
our drugs are useless now…
We were fools, we were blind,
distance is pointless now.

So if I fell once
nothing can keep me from falling twice.
So if I fell once
nothing can keep me from falling twice now.

(Straight to the rabbit hole, I hold my breath)
(Taken back in time, like it’s yesterday)

So if I fell once
nothing can keep me from falling twice.
So if I fell once
nothing can keep me from falling twice now

Sydney

Artwork by @ nyctophiliacmb
My dog felt like joining in SEVERAL TIMES during the recording. Enjoy :)

Lyrics:

Wild sea, it's been killing me
to stand by your side and not telling you to be free.
White noise, it gets through your voice
and tells me to let go. And you gotta know
loving you is all I've ever known.

And I go from one drink to another
hoping you would stop me but you don't even bother.
So I'm walking back home with the sea to my left and the sun on my face,
feeling so alive and so dead.

And I'll remember you
when every scar in my heart starts to ache.
And I'll remember you
when every kiss I give turns into a mistake.
I'll remember you
cause every word I write is signed with your name.
And I'll remember you
cause every inch of my skin will try to forget.

Wild sea, it's been coming at me.
I cried so many tears now the tide is made of me.
Your voice, it gets through the noise,
wish I could shut it out but you gotta know
I'm about to leave and this time is for sure.

And I go from one drink to another
hoping you would stop me but you don't even bother.
So I'm walking back home with the sea to my left and the sun on my face,
feeling so alive and so dead.

And I'll remember you
when every scar in my heart starts to ache.
And I'll remember you
when every kiss I give turns into a mistake.
I'll remember you
cause every word I write is signed with your name.
And I'll remember you
cause every inch of my skin will try to forget.

And I go from one drink to another
just because we can't go back to each other.
So I'm walking back home and it's in my blood, this is the end.
Feeling so alive and so dead...

And I'll remember you
when every scar in my heart starts to ache.
And I'll remember you
when every kiss I give turns into a mistake.
I'll remember you
cause every word I write is signed with your name.
And I'll remember you
cause every inch of my skin will try to forget.

(awkward laugh because she just couldn't shut up)

Wild Sea

Artwork: @ nyctophiliacmb

Lyrics:

Sitting in your car, thinking we got lost
and I'm afraid of your phone
cause it keeps ringing all the time
and I know that's your cue to be gone.
And I laugh because all these streetlights 
are new for you.
Well, I thank them for driving me to you.

But don't ask me what love looks like, 
I don't know anymore.
Should I feel like bursting at the seams or
tossed to the floor?
Cause God knows, looking at your eyes
makes me feel both.
But don't ask me what love looks like,
I'll know it when you're gone.

Sitting in the backseat of your car,
maybe we took it too far.
But you got in my head, like a song
you're stuck on my brain.
And I know I want your body again
but what else can I do?
I thought I was in control,
but I must've given it back to you.

So don't ask me what love looks like, 
I don't know anymore.
Should I feel like bursting at the seams or
tossed to the floor?
Cause God knows, looking at your eyes
makes me feel both.
But don't ask me what love looks like,
I'll know it when you're gone.

(I'll know it when you're gone)

Try to fall asleep, counting 1 2 3
until we disappear
into the smoke of your cigarette in a dream
just to keep you near.
And this is madness, I get up and I scream
because I can't win.
I've been fighting against myself 
since I let you in.

So don't ask me what love looks like, 
I don't know anymore.
Should I feel like bursting at the seams or
tossed to the floor?
Cause God knows, looking at your eyes
makes me feel both.
But don't ask me what love looks like,
I'll know it when you're gone.

Don't Ask Me

26. the girl with bad karma.
My first EP "the demos" is out now! https://open.spotify.com/album/5HW6gAvQ3LcAqM16ynT1yx?si=EwKDGTw6TQmxxmFxjCrqcQ

(This Silence Is So) Loud:
https://open.spotify.com/track/2dZMZ9pWzo1bmAosxO5WWa?si=mCZc_-GhSJaC8VkQ8jeURA

Like a Kid: https://open.spotify.com/track/3P9DWi9yh66lLQKUoOZgD8?si=HqxH3FICRZuGbyGu6_ijUw

Shaped Like You feat @lossketches :
https://open.spotify.com/track/5ypE55qUIeLFh1ZYX7AbE9?si=TGMWJpTrQmWOF_ppLXF_lQ

Currently writing a song every week on www.songaweek.org