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hi @dead4cf 

ft. my vocals at like, 5 AM

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4cf - jade [sj remix]

@basssea
aka the clouds are baiting us!

lyrics: 

i hate the taste of sand

but when i need to kill some time

i might as well


you said you felt brand new

like no one ever left you

a tough bargain to sell


and all the fish people i’ve met 

they all seem to lose their heads

at exactly ten pm


you said i seem upset

but i won’t go to bed

while i’m losing my head


go get it all

let them talk 
make them follow you

be it all

they’ll all love you one day


who would’ve thought 

that it would me

 who wouldn’t be there 

be there when you need me when you need me 

you wanted me to go but 

you never told me so 

i just wish i would know 

what’s going on in your head 

cos i wanted to wanted to know

why i couldn’t find you 

and i couldn’t show my own feelings to you 

and all i ever wanted to do was try

but all you’d ever do is cry 

how can i, how can i help you?  
go get it all

let them talk 
make them follow you

be it all

they’ll all love you one day


don’t take this the wrong way

but i can’t look at you sideways

don’t take this the wrong way


don’t take this the wrong way

but i can’t look at you sideways

don’t take this the wrong way

fishhooks (feat. bassea)

sticks(austyn with a y)

THROWAWAY SONG

prod michael warren
mixed & mastered by me
cover art by me and big gart <3
a song abt coping

you say you want someone new
but to say you're wanted is a stretch (at the least)
now i'm stuck up in this tower with no food
and i've got no fucking purpose left

tell me i'm an asshole, take another sip
i'll write another sad song if i get a grip
got a bottle on my lip and a burden on my breath (yeah)
gimme just a bit baby, i'll have nothing left (yeah)
call me an asshole, i'll only fall faster
handgun heartache, shotgun pastor
vodka on my tongue and burden on my breath (yeah)
hope you had fun baby, i have nothing left (yeah)
i have nothing left
(yuh-huh)
(yuh-huh)
(nothing left)

yeah i got another chain, baby
fell out of my brakes
so the next time that i rev up
i'll be seeing how long it takes
just to crash into a wa-a-all
together we stand and together we fall
yeah i got another chain, baby
fell out of my brakes
so the next time that i rev up
i'll be seeing how long it takes
just to crash into (the) wa-a-all
together we stand and together we fall
together we topple, head over heels
for the chance of being told that our scars will never heal
and divided we conquer all of our demons
just to meet some new ones on our way to fucking healing
(say)
(say)
(ok)

tell me i'm an asshole, take another sip
i'll write another sad song if i get a grip
got a bottle on my lip and a burden on my breath (yeah)
gimme just a bit baby, i'll have nothing left (yeah)
call me an asshole, i'll only fall faster
handgun heartache, shotgun pastor
vodka on my tongue and burden on my breath (yeah)
hope you had fun baby, i have nothing left (yeah)
i have nothing left
(oh)
(oh)
(and i have nothing left anymore)

tower (michael warren)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/freaky5/dejection
pee pee poo poo

Dejection

bite

Second single for my upcoming project, "Proceed With Caution"
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/lace1/entangled

entangled (yungspoiler)

underscores - heck cover

Bystander

I didn’t fix a thing last night
Didn’t say it right in time
Still got dirt under my nails
Still lying when I say I’m fine

I walked it home on tired legs
Past empty bottles, broken plans
Every mirror looked away
Every truth stayed in my hands

I kept my head down, counted steps
Let the worst of it pass
If there’s a line between falling and faith
I’m standing right on that crack

Still breathing
Still here
Still breathing

That’s all I know
That’s enough

Morning hit me soft and slow
Like it didn’t want to ask
The city took its makeup off
Left the bruises where they land

I don’t feel clean, I don’t feel saved
Just less afraid of what I am
If mercy comes in small amounts
I’ll take it like a man

No crowds, no lights, no closing prayer
No hands in the air
Just one more step, one more breath
One more reason to stay

Still breathing
Still here
Still breathing

That’s all I know
That’s enough

Maybe that’s the whole damn truth
No grand escape, no proof
You don’t win, you don’t glow
You just don’t disappear

Still breathing
Still here
Still breathing

No applause
No fear

If this is all I carry home
I’ll carry it
I’ll carry it

Still Breathing

produced by michael harrison
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W2wP9uL6oYY

lyrics:
I've been trying my hardest I cant fall asleep
All these winter nights feel like the talk is cheap
Candlelight will warm us while our voices weep
With windows frozen shut it traps me in my keep

Baby how you feeling I know I've been stuck inside
Tryna navigate the deep recessions of my mind
I can feel my body parts get spewed along my side
Swear I do this every time I untie my bind

Dig my grave let it rot my skin
When I fall right down and I break my seams 
and I
Try to hide it deep inside the gin
And I
Always tell myself its just a dream

Drive all night till the gas says empty
I can stay but you gotta let me
One more time but I know its petty
Feel my touch swear its almost something deadly

I've been trying my hardest I cant fall asleep
All these winter nights feel like the talk is cheap
Candlelight will warm us while our voices weep
With windows frozen shut it traps me in my keep

Baby how you feeling I know I've been stuck inside
Tryna navigate the deep recessions of my mind
I can feel my body parts get spewed along my side
Swear I do this every time I untie my bind

Dig my grave let it rot my skin
When I fall right down and I break my seams 
and I
Try to hide it deep inside the gin
And I
Always tell myself its just a dream

Dejection

Freaky