OLD RAIN IS ICE COLD

Have fun listening to your lonely night!
Good Night Sweet Dream...
Thank U~~Tot.

Lonely Night

20ans

Music & Piano: Debra Buesking
Jan Schonander invited me to participate in his Four Seasons for Piano project with "summer" as my assigned season.  Since I am no Vivaldi I reached back to the Tin-Pan Alley "Good Old-Summertime" (1902) for inspiration.  Not really an arrangement per se, but rather a quote.

Summer Interrupted

;-Une Voix Dans Le Ciel-;

From the Incantabar EP
I've always so loved Uwe's work. @wust
It was a great pleasure to be able to team up and release this EP together. This is the final track from that project.
https://belialpelegrim.bandcamp.com/album/incantabar-ep

Incantabar

Available on Bandcamp

Coronilla | INCANTABAR |  WÜST & Belial Pelegrim

Full album: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aIQWBoXYL0Y&list=PLBP9mmNR3Nmk-nGYZ-KD3rwCYzSHNg1me

POGRUZHENIJE

Featured on the album 'Welcome to Dystopia Land" https://on.soundcloud.com/vX696

From Dusk Till Dawn

I don’t feel like me…
I don’t even know who that is anymore.

Woke up staring at a stranger’s face,
My reflection don’t know my name.
Every scar, every sleepless night,
Took a piece of me I’ll never find.
They say I’ve changed, like it’s a crime,
But I killed who I was just to survive.
Don’t tell me I’m fine, don’t call it growth,
I buried that version, I dug the hole.

And I don’t recognize my hands,
These are not the dreams I planned.
Every smile feels like a chore,
I don’t feel like myself anymore.

I don’t feel like myself anymore,
Every step feels strange on this floor.
I’ve been rearranged, torn apart,
Built new walls around my heart.
I don’t feel like myself anymore,
And maybe that’s what hurt is for.
I’m alive, but I’m not who I was before,
I don’t feel like myself anymore.

People say, “I miss the old you,”
No shit — that version wouldn’t have made it through.
You want her back, but she’s long gone,
Burned her down just to carry on.
Strength ain’t free, it’s got a cost,
And the price was everything I lost.
I’m still here, but not the same,
A body with a different name.

And I don’t recognize my hands,
These are not the dreams I planned.
Every smile feels like a chore,
I don’t feel like myself anymore.

I don’t feel like myself anymore,
Every step feels strange on this floor.
I’ve been rearranged, torn apart,
Built new walls around my heart.
I don’t feel like myself anymore,
And maybe that’s what hurt is for.
I’m alive, but I’m not who I was before,
I don’t feel like myself anymore.

Don’t tell me to “move on.”
Don’t tell me “it’s just life.”
I’ve been bleeding in silence,
While you handed me knives.
If I seem unrecognizable,
It’s because I chose to live,
I had to kill the old me…
So this one could exist.

I don’t feel like myself anymore,
Every step feels strange on this floor.
I’ve been rearranged, torn apart,
Built new walls around my heart.
I don’t feel like myself anymore,
And maybe that’s what hurt is for.
I’m alive, but I’m not who I was before,
I don’t feel like myself anymore.

I don’t feel like me…
I don’t feel like me…
Anymore.

I Don't Feel Like Me

Blow the Door Down is Willa’s declaration that she’s done waiting. The track opens like a fuse—low hums, eerie silence, then a bassline that detonates. She doesn’t knock. She doesn’t ask. She enters.

The verses feel like surveillance footage from a luxury heist: slow, deliberate, and dangerous. Her voice is calm, but the lyrics cut deep—every line a blueprint for disruption. The production is sharp and cinematic: distorted synths, metallic percussion, and a beat that feels like footsteps approaching.

The hook doesn’t beg for attention—it demands it. It’s not about revenge. It’s about arrival. Willa’s not trying to be heard. She’s making sure there’s no choice.

This track isn’t a flex. It’s a breach. A warning. A timestamp.

Blow the Door Down / Club Single

Dress For The Weather

I start this new album with better sound by means of one of my more beloved and evolved songs ever, a structured piece with progressing parts.

LETRA   /   TRANSLATED LYRICS:

BIEN, MAL (LLUVIA VIEJA)    /   WELL, BADLY (OLD RAIN)

Sí, no, ¿por qué no?   /   Yes, no, why not? 
estoy pensando que esto no es lo mejor.   /   I am thinkinkg this is not the best.
Bien, mal, ¿tú qué tal?   /   Well, badly, what about you?
de repente me he puesto a pensar.   /   Suddenly I have started to think.

El tiempo esparcido entre mis amigos   /   Time scattered among my friends
 es el más valioso cuando estoy contigo.   /   is the most valuable one when I am with you
Los ratos vividos estando contigo   /   Moments lived being with you
 son reconfortantes cuando estoy perdido.   /   are comforting when I feel lost. 
Tengo que buscarlos entre mis amigos,   /   I must search for them among my friends
tengo que encontrarlos, pero ya se han ido todos.   /   I must find them, but they are all gone already.

Fumando   /   Smoking 
tras los cristales   /   behind the windows
mojados de lluvia vieja.   /   wet with old rain
Recuerdos   /   Memories
 que me llevan flotando   /   carry me floating
 a estar con ella.   /   to be with her

Tengo que buscarlos entre mis amigos.   /   I must search for them among my friends

Tú, yo, ¿qué sé yo?   /   You, me, what do I know?
está lloviendo pero tengo calor.   /   It is raining but I feel hot
Qué, quién, ¡mírame!   /   What, who, look at me !
soy todavía quien empezaste a querer.   /   I am still who you started do love

Soy todavía quien empezaste a querer.  /   I am still who you started do love

ER13PB01 ©1995 E-RUIZZO – ®2013 FRANCÉS RECORDS ;)

Image: "Prickle prick cactus", photo by Ruizzoidman

Bien, mal (Lluvia vieja)

Turtle

My Super Favorite Weathered Hearts Sing My Beat!!!! This is My Great Honor!!!
Weathered Hearts(https://soundcloud.com/weatheredhearts)
My recommendation Song(https://soundcloud.com/weatheredhearts/sad)
and Our another Song(https://soundcloud.com/tot-beat/042a-091001-0032wav)

Words and all Vocals-Weathered Hearts
Music and other works-Weathered Hearts and Tot.
Art work-Mimi

How(Lyric)

Well the Rain told the Water
that “I want to play, 
I wanna see the world
in a different way”

The Water said
with a little frown, 
“It sounds like you got
your head in the clouds”

“Why can’t I-
take a little bucket
and carve myself out?!”

“Calm down you’re
just not thinking
very clearly now.”

Then the Rain says,

“You don’t know me now.
You don’t know me now
at all.”

and the Rain says,

“You don’t know me now.
You don’t know me now
at all.”

So the Water
splashed and whirled
and waved,

“Maybe it’s best you go on your way”
Spat the rain out to the stones
“Maybe one day you’ll come home…”

So the rain soaked down into the ground
and stopped in a hard cold place

Then the Sun came around
and saw the Rain
broken into a million pieces

He said,
“Come with me,”
and pulled her to the sky
and sprinkled her back down
around for miles

Then soaked her up again

Over and over and over 
and over and over again

and the Rain says,

“Do you know me now?
Do you know me now
at all?

Even though I travel far
I still come on home to you

Over and over and over 
and over and over again

Do you know me now?
I’m soaked right up again

Over and over and over 
and over and over again”

HOW - with Weathered Hearts

Glen Carbon


I grew up in a little town
There was no king or crown
I was just a young boy
A small town in rural Illinois

Chorus:
Not much claim to fame
Glen Carbon was it’s name

Between Edwardsville 
and Collinsville
The ‘villes were where people went
Returned without the money they spent

Verse 2:
There were no signs or wines
The carbon came from mines
So many years ago
You had to drive so slow

A speed trap they would say
Many tickets given each day
That is life as I knew it
I’m not trying to misconstrue it

I used to play in Judy creek
It was a fun place to sneak

Verse 3:
Colonel Samuel Judy 
began this place
He wasn’t moody
He was quite an ace

From a military land grant
He planted many a plant
It was the land of Goshen
Full of active motion

To St. Louis it was close
You could go there for shows

References:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glen_Carbon,_Illinois
http://www.glen-carbon.il.us/
https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=Glen+Carbon&docid=608021319467928281&mid=A3CDB144CCB2E4FC0669A3CDB144CCB2E4FC0669&view=detail&FORM=VIRE


But St. Louis was where big things happened
Sometimes more than what they bargained



Unused lyrical ideas:

It was a mining village
With a creek and hillage

Glen Carbon

Head in the clouds but it's ice cold / Paploviante 2021
Vocals: Omar from www.Ghosthack.de
Paploviante Music, Bass, Mix, Artwork and Mastering
Lyrics:
Catch me looking up when I feel down
Heart ice cold music too loud 
Said you was wanting something real now
You know that my heart is yours to steal now
Feet are on the edge
Messing with my head
Need something true instead
And I'll be just fine on my own
Head in the clouds but it's ice cold
Feet on the ground where the night go
Say no lies if you say so
Really don't know what you don't know
Head in the clouds but it's ice cold
Feet on the ground where the night go
Saying no lies if you say so
Really don't know what you don't know

Head In The Clouds But It's Ice Cold - Paploviante

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