Track 3 - "Learning to Love Myself"
aka; A moment of reflection, let it be my last

Produced by Serena Liars
Vocals by JAYOVSN
Started March 23rd, 2025 - Finished April 2nd, 2025
140bpm Fmaj

Lyrics:

Crystal markings on my chest
Hold my hands as I repent
Lift my arms while I grow again
When I die, please let me rest

Ooh, but I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
Please God, let me roam
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't
Will you love me as you-

are x10000000000000000000

Hard to let go
Looking at the x's, o's,
No longer at home

Thinking 'bout past mistakes and
I wonder the most
If all of the wrongs been lingered

Feeling the pain in my sides
I guess this is my part of my life
Looking at the skies above
Now I'm just wondering why? (Ooh, but I don't wanna)

Go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
Please God, let me roam
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't
Will you love me as you-

(Ooh, but I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
Please God, let me roam
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't wanna 
when there's eyes on the road
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go 
I don't
Will you love me as you-)

also listen to bevels song that dropped today 
https://soundcloud.com/b3v3l/youll-see-exactly-what-i-mean/s-fQ2zbLri6XI?si=f57ba0252d7a481ea569802c4989b841&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Learning to Love Myself (with JAYOVSN)

prod me

theres some snakes up in that grass
go and test ur luck promise u wont last
yea they always tryna bite me - stalk my past
tryna fight me like id let u walk that path
talk behind my back but i hear it back
came a long way from crying in my drafts
came a long way i had to detach
yea u prob think u know me its a fucking mask

im where its at but they dont know
wish i could tell them but i stay low
bitch u never knew me u knew my fucking clones
i went offline i got in my zone
they all say they fw me but i still feel alone
wish i could tell them but i stay low
bitch u never knew me u knew my fucking clones
i went offline i got in my zone

i dont believe shit
my idols arent real they only tweet shit
dont talk to me sweet it dont mean shit
get up off yo ass Stop subtweeting 🖕
whine about somebody then delete it by the evening
would u rather live or die for ur demons ?
u want a reaction ok. heres a reason
i dont owe a damn thing to u boy u leechin
i said my piece i go on ghost mode 

but they dont know
wish i could tell them but i stay low
bitch u never knew me u knew my fucking clones
i went offline i got in my zone
they all say they fw me but i still feel alone
wish i could tell them but i stay low
bitch u never knew me u knew my fucking clones
i went offline i got in my zone
they all say they fw me but i still feel alone

Test.Ur.Luck

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/65gWW5syaM2h3Zb1LfYoYP?si=YIWNap8uSDiuc4yx0F49dg

artwork by me, @camdenn and @aellzis
s//o @trustt and @hiisero for big inspo

lyrics:
i sacrificed every moment to be, just like you
and ive been way too dishonest to seem, just like you
i know i wont last long but i want to change
watch how the meaning gets lost, when i say ''okay''

(pre-drop)
oh, but i know, its true
i could never be like you
well i fell for you
biting more than i can chew
but i know, its true
i can never be like you
what a shattered view
tell me we wont split in 2

its been far too long
and fat too late
i like to stay alone
its okay, its okay
if more hours pass
imma go insane
just wanna fade away, its okay, its okay

cuz ive been acting too toxic
ive been way too annoying
tell me now its the time i say goodbye
ive been begging for something
in the end i got nothing
walk away with the fact i couldve died

how to become somebody else

break my heart then go
its out of my control (go on now)
so spread your wings and fly (my angel)
you're my angel (bye my angel)

don't leave me all alone (my halo)
teach me how to fly (with you)
but you're so far out of reach (ill miss you)
my angel, my angel

we went too high up to breathe
said id love you endlessly
with the fog its hard to see
were you really fine with me

angel

feel

@prod-rioxion

i feel like majima
eyepatch on my face
like a pirate on the island
y'all stuck on the bay

ask me did i win the race
are you dumb
it’s okay 
i still dunno what i can say x2

who am i to tell you what to do
i just lost myself and i can’t get it back now
who are you to talk when your mans got sat down
yall still on the floor it’s the air that we stand on

i’m w bro i'm w kiryu
all these other motherfuckers they ain’t even close to you
i’m like majima bitch i’m everywhere
fuck the crowd i’m a breaker
ik u wanna stare

b i'm in the shed i feel like laker
thought he was my bro but he as fake as the others
he can’t take shit he can only take cover
fuckin' up my thoughts we were fine in the summer

how can you act like that
ik that you give a fuck drop the act
howd you let it get so bad
youre unrecognisable i want you back

js act like i never gave a fuck
i don't really anyways i'll give you want you want
n i'm slurring all my words i'm feeling like a drunk
me and buddy might get mad, put you in a trunk

i've been sorry but we're past that
when you tried to fuck me over can't look past that
you can't realise yourself you were off track
what you do is what you get, no more takebacks

you bitches inconisderate
telling me to switch i could not even consider it
don't you touch my face stg i said i'm over it
take it at my pace, if you rush i swear i'm leaving it

how come you only put in effort when we're losing it
now i'm dumping mid song i swear i'm losing it
two years fuck its plenty to get over it
tell me really please do you find me pathetic

FUCK ME you're pathetic
you can never blame yourself youre fake synthetic 
you were lying all along you thought i read it
now you know i am really that oblivious

Majima (Rioxion)

Now this is truly just digicore
😭😭😭😭😹😹😹🐱😸
prod @lyn_u
@lyn_u @trustt

fakeFriends +trustt [bonus]

i dont think im gonna finish this so i guess ill post it here
pitched it up because i dont like it at normal speed

red letter diary - save my face [unreleased demo]

fun song for fun times
original https://soundcloud.com/lyn_u/deathwish
produced by me

lyrics:
im longing for the end, i dont wanna breathe ur air
and if i have to make a sacrifice dont sit & stare

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight

u kept ur friends and stayed the same i wonder what its like
i been holding onto nothing i just wanna feel alive
screaming at myself he wont answer when i cry
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
i know what u want, i know what u
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

i dont need a reason bitch i been moving reckless
everyday i wake up with a target on my chest
they tell me its just a phase they tell me that ill regret this
i dont need a reason move like i got a deathwish
i look in the mirror i see a stranger
if i lost control of myself would it even change ya
eyes blacked out i got too used to the danger
if i tap out would they just write off my anger

when the bands all back together i wanna see them 1 more time
i got problems with attention always reading past the signs
i keep telling myself everythings alright but its a lie
if u hate urself so much why dont u end it all tonight
fucking up my body cause im never satisfied
im a psychopath when i walk in im carrying a knife
dont get influenced they told me but i never even tried
if u hate urself so much why dont u end ur fucking life

deathwish /​fun mix​\

Beéle - La Plena (Soares Remix)

Hasta el amanecer

@alwaysalasttime

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