bit cool as fck... and I love your lyrics, Im touched by them you know/ thx u for the songs u make

mv: https://youtu.be/qqQnSx04Rp8

@ccottrill
lil sc-only ting

feb 9 2022

between the gaps, i was swimming laps, got close to some epiphany. i'll convince a friend to join deep ends, have your toes touch the lack of cement... gather to one corner of the woods, echo chambers inside a neighborhood. in centerfold, humility shown, you're not as good as what your mama's sewn.

aren't you glad that you reside in a hell and in disguise? nobody yet everything, a pool to shed your memory. could you say you even tried? you haven't called your family twice! i can hope tonight goes differently; but i show up to the party just to-
.
.
leave...

https://soundcloud.com/ccottrill/amoeba

amoeba

@saiwai
@1spoder
@rywrrd
@redhxrse

@1spoder:
i don't want to fight so put your hands down
i just hit a cab, did the dash, like where i'm at now
way above the surface so i cant drown
if you got me then i got you there's no need to frown
i've been running round
i think i've got to bounce
you've been talkin out your neck
but i cant hear a sound
never thought the silence would be so loud
you live up in my mind and i can't get you out

@rywrrd:
we just walked in
yea pulled up to the party and we sparkin
i got no options
i told that bitch i'm pullin up but that is not it
bitch i'm posted up w roah and spoder
when i'm down feel like sosa cuz i hate bein sober
fucked it up when we talked like over and over 
bet u wanna talk now cause i skrt in tha rover
got me fucked up 
tried to hmu last week
but idgaf i'm not ur bestie
left me
in the dirt like last year
but idgaf cause this is my year!

@redhxrse:
ooh
yea i'm going thru the works
can’t believe it's getting worse
when i'm with u it's like a curse
ooh
problems that u need to fix
and u keep venting about shit
like i'm a fucking therapist
all them fucking parties where i'm standing in the corner
minding my own business but u couldn't be more forward
yuh this broken man is tryna give out all these hints
but u give no shits with u there ain't no subtlety
subtlety subtlety like look at all these bands on me
money ain't a problem when ur clinginess is all i see
put another k on the dash but ur still here
try n make it make sense cos i don't want u anywhere near

@1spoder:
i don't want to fight so put your hands down
i just hit a cab, did the dash, like where i'm at now
way above the surface so i can't drown
if you got me then i got you theres no need to frown
i've been running round
i think i've got to bounce
you've been talkin out your neck
but i cant hear a sound
never thought the silence would be so loud
you live up in my mind and i can't get you out

fight

wintry synth-pop

go stream the album: ffm.to/limina
my ig: instagram.com/redhxrse

'in medias res'

introooo

.

the news dropped, and i’m blocked from the inside.
sitting in pitch black just waiting for myself to cry-
why does it feel too easy putting on a smile?
it ain’t like the movies - no sad music, just pure silence now.

it’s like i split in two and they see one of me!
how selfish i am to share the load...
gone too soon, an utmost tragedy.
it’s better if nobody knows, i’ll deal the fatal blow.
don’t let them see or i’ll weep the whole world over,
cos maybe then they’ll let me fucking breathe.

i need to see what’s wrong with me.
my hearts slow, but i’m breathing too fast
the world’s in the wrong place, feeling no type of way
can't help but keep losing my trust, and i’ll leave myself in the dust
yeah, we’ll put it all down to fate - surely i’ll see better days...

call myself an actor, they say it’s nothing to cry about.
now i seem way more mild-mannered, the smile is lost but not yet found.
it’s like i skip two steps then go back three, normal emotions aren’t my thing, you see :(
anything i’d do to get out! get me out!
it’s a fucking ghost town, the busiest around...
these thoughts that run past meeee, can’t help but let them keep me down.
 
it’s like i split in two and they see one of me!
how selfish i am to share the load...
gone too soon, an utmost tragedy.
it’s better if nobody knows, i’ll deal the fatal blow.
don’t let them see or i’ll weep the whole world over,
cos maybe then they’ll let me FUCKING BREATHE AHHHH-

dwell in the silence and it's crippling
dwell in the silence and it's crippling
dwell in the silence and it's crippling

i need to see what’s wrong with me.
my hearts slow, but i’m breathing too fast
the world’s in the wrong place, feeling no type of way
can't help but keep losing my trust, and i’ll leave myself in the dust
yeah, we’ll put it all down to fate - surely i’ll see better days...

written a while ago, but it hits harder now.

limina

silence

stream the mf song

@redhxrse

these stones in me they build
replace the breaths that i take now my lungs are filled
i see but i don't see
separation of senses everything is surreal
was playing games of catch up
now I'm horrifyingly ahead
it was alright to be alive
but-
(don't you fucking finish that line)

ooh
it's a jolly good day to see the reindeers go by
ooh
it's so much more I’d like to see you try

these stones in me they're sharp
nerves are struck, every thought is coated with mental tar
whole worlds keeping me down
lazybones got lazier, what’s up with the frown
you know me us men of few words
never popped up first but out the seams i burst
it’s better with me on a 1 to 1
hate multitasking shit ain't no fun
paid my dues but it fall on deaf ears
tear ducts are dry ain't cried for ten years
always wonder how i even get here
cos the real fear of failures never not near

ooh
it’s a jolly good day to see the reindeers go by
ooh
it's so much more I’d like to see you try

reindeers

@prodjerry
@0helper
prod @koukitsu

https://open.spotify.com/track/74B14WknyzHk2WVigAUMpY?si=2ad4e7d4e8e54cd2

Spotify

issues (ft. jerry, helper)

prod me ofc

i get caught up in the past tense all the time
and i, get stuck in a web of lies
i, dont have any tears thats left to cry
and i, wish the best for me myself and i

tired of hoping for love i got selfish
bad luck messes me up like all of the time
i get tired of crying tired of fighting
im still dumb enough to try

i dont wanna be stuck and left helpless
tired of falling victim being careless
i thought what we had was so divine
but you never cared, you crossed the line

love is a dangerous feeling we all know the thrill of it
but the consequences of actions come and kill me

fake friends fake bitches tryna get ahold of me
i can see right thru the smoke and mirrors, get ahead of me
i just wish for some peace in my life for once
always swallowed my pride, never had my fun

and im thinking
is there another way to help it
think i lost it
only one thing left and it’s obvious

forever, and always

new age
prod. tsuyunoshi

im tired of trying to figure me out
it comes around, tired of feelings things are useless for now
pent up aggression, from the lack of self expression
and a speck of love is heaven to me

running in circles to think for urself
and im panicking to keep u compelled
i could waste my time tryna think of lies
actions have their karma, and im digging out my prize

why cant you speak for yourself
you’re always begging for help
ur issues make u fall like a house of cards
i never speak for myself
i’m always begging for help
my issues make me fall like a house of cards

lately it’s so overwhelming
eyes been bleeding, tearing up
feeling held back, my hands been cuffed
in a rut, i’ve just been stuck

ran out of fallbacks and escape plans
my pride slips away from my frail hands

house of cards

ok im back

https://www.gate.fm/eP9CVu3IT

prod tsuyunoshi
mixed, mastered by tsuyunoshi + @mijaru
all performances by tsuyunoshi

the air is different when i been standing next to you
when the heels click down, we take a dance, and we go let loose
i’m not too used to the feeling of infatuation
back of my head’s been telling that i’m really craving it

and then i said

stay tonight
a kiss goodnight
in the spur of the moment
wont you come hold me?
all the lights make me feel alive

its the first time that you ever felt like this
its the first time that im ever held like this
the party’s over, but we’ve been waiting for a chance to live

tryna head back but i dont wanna leave you behind
i see the tears in your eyes when you said goodbye
can i keep you close for this moment in time

can i ask you again?

spur of the moment

PROD @saiwai

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/2STm4tGHWq0tqvbuhqBNzo?si=q86Xs-hrR_-_woNFBFvKHQ

lyrics 

Ill do almost anything 
for u to say how u feel bout me
Tellin me that im the one
But im sure ive heard eveything 
Gotta stop my heart or smt
When u leave ill feel like nthn 
when its all up to u
U promise ull come thru
So tell me and ill think about it
Ill find my way around it
So tell me and ill think about it
Ill find my way around it 
So tell me and ill think about it 
ill find my way around it
When its all up to u
U promise ull come thru

@scrufff
you gon' play that card, play that card
you could prolly see the fainted heart, fainted heart
wanna laugh at me but ain't it hard, ain't it hard
go right back
its the reoccurrence in my head
I need reassurance in my dread
hop out with a 45
muhfucka I'm here if you gon cry
one soft tear, in your eye
don't come near, my side
wanna drive to the crib with a flat tire
got a knife in his ribs it wont backfire
mf took my heart with a flat iron
3 drinks to my side been a bad night

Ill do almost anything 
for u to say how u feel bout me
Tellin me that im the one
But im sure ive heard eveything 
Gotta stop my heart or smt
When u leave ill feel like nthn 
when its all up to u
U promise ull come thru
Cmon boy u decide
Idc what u choose tonight
When its all up to u
And what u wanna do
Boy ill go for the ride
Gotta stop my heart or smt
When u leave ill feel like nthn
When its all up to u
U promise ull come thru

you gon' play that card, play that card
you could prolly see the fainted heart, fainted heart
wanna laugh at me but ain't it hard, ain't it hard
when its all up to u
u promise ull come thru

up to u + scruff (sai)

//produced by sai, irusu, and meeee

art on cover drawn by irusu

Featuring nicopatty

Lyrics

(scruff) (me)
im so, in
dont know my name anymore
im going
pour my pain in a four
no its not snowin, the rain wont pour (like its cold enough for the rain to turn into snow but it wont come down, referring to opportunities we dont take) (poetic)
imma never stop growing till pain runs course
awooh, lookin for an answer
awooh, trippin over damn words
awooh, I just wanna run away, run away
the same sh*t, the same sh*t is underway n you dont even care
lookin for an answer
awooh, trippin over damn words
awooh, I just wanna run away, run away
the same sh*t, the same sh*t is underway n you dont even care
butterflies when you look around me
no more lies, it surrounds me
this is not how I want it
im so scared, scared of these assumptions

(nicopatty)
assumptions
it's never gonna stop
what's the point in it, fuck it
just tell me what u want
i know u want it, want it
ur breaking ur own heart
i don't give a shi, anymore anymore

awooh, always wanna talk like ur special
ooh, i don't need a lot
dont need much, no
ooh, always wanna talk like ur special
ooh, like ur special
ya im fckn mental 
(x2)

(scruff)
awooh, lookin for an answer
awooh, trippin over damn words
awooh, I just wanna run away, run away
the same sh*t, the same sh*t is underway n you dont even care
lookin for an answer
awooh, trippin over damn words
awooh, I just wanna run away, run away
the same sh*t, the same sh*t is underway n you dont even care
dont know my name anymore
pour my pain in a 4
no its not snowin the rain wont pour
imma.. stop trippin over words
imma
imma..... stop trippin over words...

house of cards

tsuyunoshi

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