im going up. no1 is gonna stop me now.

verse 1:
play this game way too much
trade some lies from our tongues
shoot my heart with your gun
put your lips on my blunt 
your mama say you selfish 'cause you get what you want
like "baby, how you bring home birkin? you not making enough"
you don't like your life, you're taking ketamine just for fun
that's cool, but girl, don't talk to me if i'm not the one
a fool i was to think that you'd want me off them drugs
that's cool, but i don't want you 'round my crew just because

hook:
i'm zenned out, i'm feeling so hazy 
i don't give a fuck about my friends cause they can't save me
i don't need no shawties, i don't need no babies
i know that i'm popular with all the fucking ladies
don't be mad that your favorite label wants me
i just know that i should put on for my city
i just know whatever happens, imma get green
i just know that you better fucking come clean

verse 2: 
sticks and stones used to break
you say you go to clubs like every weekend just to shake
i don't know your mama but i bet that she's ashamed
i don't think that molly's doing good things to your brain
i don't think that i'm the one for you
i don't really wanna see this through
i've been wasting all my time on you
i'm really just another drug you use

hook x2

Zen (ria)

uk garage my drilla

*yo run up ig pls thank u ily*
https://www.instagram.com/redhxrse

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/headphones-2

idk what all this lyrical personal shit means go ask an english teacher or something-

verse 1
i just wanna have a talk
about how selfish i am
about how little of a man i’ve become
and you say there’s no rules
tell that to my mum and dad
cos their answers won’t be just for fun

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

verse 2
now i see myself decaying
why am i relishing in it though
i guess routines have their way around me
i feel these emotions fading
cut ties with everyone i know
can’t keep a convo cos noone feels real

verse 3
((rappity raprap))
eyes on my back i keep watching
they all wanna see me lose but i keep winning
do this shit solo don’t need nobody’s help
if u ain’t fuck w me i can only wish u well
say i ain’t normal when they wish they were weirdos
why i needa follow rules i ain’t got nothing to fear for
maybe this ego’s why i’m here tho

prechorus
why can't i care about the big things in life
the words just drift all over my mind
a bubble i can't burst
could this ever get any worse
i tell them i’m fine

chorus
i put my headphones in
drown out all the bad shit
the fear of rejections getting ever so big
when the culture runs deep
claustrophobia kicks in
and i’m left tryna break this fucking ceiling

postchorus
i wanna tell them i care
but this pain i can’t bear
already tearing up as i write this song
i guess i’ll just man up for once
i’ve had more than enough for too long

outro

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headphones

stream the mf song

if you see this song please don't hit me back up 
@prodbyjoshwa

yuh, im back, where the hell i been?
running out of things to say, losing oxygen
got stuff that i’m dealing wit, i know that its feeling grim
my mental went down, don’t know how to live

you so two faced baby
need attention lately?
and you asking why i’m mad? tell me how you've been
and you wonder why i wanna leave you down in a ditch?

can you shut your mouth just for once?
cuz you never seem to hear me out

and you’re curious as to why i hate you
letting everybody go and fuckin play you
and i’m tired of giving u breaks
when all these second chances never have been shit

and you fail to see the problem
cuz you’re so fucking stupid
how many times can you get so clueless?
can you be real, before i fucking lose it

i’m tired of making songs about you
you’re never sorry, was i ever really wrong about you?

twofaced (joshwa)

fun lil song brought to you by #goreset :)
@vaeo-music @4cfear @prodbyjoshwa @goreset

i been thru hell with the mood shifts
killing shit with my bros, with a new clique
living good and im chillin wit a new bitch
went to the mall n gotta new fit :)

vaeo:
and everytime i'm good you gotta fuck it up, 
going insane it's all i feel, it's hard to feel the love. 
i solve my issues with drugs, addict to turning up, 
and every nigh is the same, i'm face down throwing up. 
this adderall got me tweaking i need a prozac, 
rolling up some blunts taking every shot i can throw back, 
coulda bought you anything you wanted fuck a price tag, 
my existence got me so mad

can u run it back, let it go again?
and its fuck you too you a fake ass bitch
and u getting mad that we gettin rich
seeing us on top, can u learn to live?

4cf and me:
Keep up bae, uh, like what it yo problem like?
Used to have love but now that shit distant
You not sounding right 
taking up all my time and now you’re tryna take my mind tonight 
u be acting up so why u tryna hit my line tonight?
Ok you wylin you super childish
All you gon get from me is dry texts and awkward silence
I hope you like it
and it’s different now from when we talking from the back ends
and u werent shit u was a bitch u is a has been
You is not shit to be baby I hope you know that
Hey yuh
and i never been better from cutting off like its severed
From all my love straight to nothing I’m treating this like whatever baby
from all the times that we shared regretting it til forever again
No this ain’t my bad you switching up positions 
Getting sidetracked 
hate to break up your heart but i put that shit on a platter
So long as shits getting better I guess that it’s alright
i learned to stop acting up on shit that never mattered

STREAM

run it back w/ vaeo + 4cf (joshwa)

i still wonder if you're okay
@prodbyjoshwa

staying in the backseat of the car
chained up tied up, baby where do i start
heh, where do i start? when it fell apart?
when u said i was nothing, nothing

i saw it all, and it’s all my fault cuz i fucked it up tonight
all the times i hold, in my mind and i know, that i cant get back tonight

baby i know the truth
whats gotten into u?
in a snap all our love
turned down to memories

whats gotten into u?
whats gotten into u?
switching up like that for what? for what?

and everything we had is gone
time to say goodbye, so long, so long, so long,
now we solo, now we solo
cuz i fell in love but it’s done

and i guess it was dumb
feelings wrapped round a thumb
shouldve been thinking twice, but i wasnt strong
and i wasnt strong, i wasnt a soldier
never kept my composure

what's gotten into you? (joshwa)

it's for the best, i’m sorry
@prodbyjoshwa
mixed, mastered, recorded and engineered by me, production (and lovely beet) by joshwa 

SHOUTOUT @ericdoa U BEAUTIFUL MF THANK U SM

yeah, with the bag i got my groove in
life been different cuz everything been movin
lookin back at myself cuz ive been stupid
thinking about the things that were useless

yuh, and its all ur fault, tear your pictures from your wall
and you’re wasting all your texts and calls
but ur the one who fucked up 
cuz u know i tried to duck but u never listened :(

and i know baby u dont wanna end it tonight
but u always tryna fuck it up, u picking a fight >:(
u getting desperate, defensive, like, u wasting ur life
but im telling u, we dont need it
u getting poisonous and toxic, its blowing my mind
i assure u, i dont need it, cant u just see the signs?
always wished for the best, thought we would be fine 
so im tellin u, we dont need it

we dont need it
so im tellin u

its getting ridiculous, u getting so meticulous
tryna break it down, but what u got was dissonance
sick and vigilant but u aint used to getting shit
out of ur head, up and stuck im feeling villainous

words of innocence, u drinking ur so bibulous uh
swift and nimble with ur thoughts that u jus race out ur tongue
twisted vigilance ur thoughts brought out from synthesis
tired of getting fucked up think im getting sick of it

thats how the story goes
cant do anything about it
i just doubt it

we don't need it (joshwa)

i see right thru ur disguise
@prodbyjoshwa 

mixed by tsuyunoshi + joshwa
mastered by tsuyunoshi
engineered by tsuyunoshi + joshwa
produced by joshwa

may 15 - https://ffm.to/showandtell

shoutouts to @starfallxo big ups twin

lyrics:
and my mama said stay true to urself
leave the fake ones in the dust, all by theirselves 
got like all my friends, u dont need anyone else
baby u dont need to go thru hell

think about it for a minute again
gotta feel those words that’s been stuck in ur head
and i leave unread when i see ur texts
i got better things to do than that

u just want attention for urself
and ur playing all ur games like its show and tell
lying to me like bitch, think i couldnt tell?
back n forth that we been thru hell, aint been doin well, so im feelin like

fuck that, i don’t like u like that
tired of getting sidetracked, like u? i denied that 
baby i said

tryna get myself out this place
cuz im steady thinkin feelin im out of place
and im puzzled in the head stuck in a maze
and i need to get my bread, i dont wanna stay here

on god babe i know whats up
and i know it sucks
feeling like ur always stuck

baby i dont wanna hear ur friends tryna chatter about me
i dont rly care if ur mad at me

show and tell (joshwa)

vocals by https://soundcloud.com/reefuh and https://soundcloud.com/scrufff yay

prod me obviously :D

milktea 초콜렛군 오렌지양

reef + scruff - sweet tea (sai)

fatale (broke my car radio remix) [2022]

Produced by sai

// lyrics

What it, what it, what it was, what it is, what you on bout, oh, I'm breaking in
It's like you don't want me to let go
You got big problems, only I know
You're the only one I want, it's a side note
Thought I wont need you, but what do I know
I didn't see you coming from above
Get butterflies interlocking with my arm
I don't need a name, fuckin' saying who we are
Claiming that I've changed, fuckin' say it with your heart
I'll endure the pain just to lay here in the dark with you

I missed the mark with you
Where to start, don't even know where to stop with you
No I'm not in love, but it's where it's going
I do what I want in like any moment
I'm barely conscious, I'm a target for all the pain
Nonsense, I'll bring up thoughts just from yesterday's progress
How could I want you if you don't wanna try, this time

I don't wanna let go
You got big problems, only I know
You're the only one I want, it's a side note
Thought I won't need you, but what do I know
I didn't see you coming from above
Get butterflies interlocking with my arm
I don't need a name, fuckin' saying who we are
Claiming that I've changed, fuckin' say it with your heart
I'll endure the pain just to lay here in the dark with you

I missed the mark with you
Where to start, don't even know where to stop with you
No I'm not in love, but it's where it's going
I do what I want in like any moment
I'm barely conscious, I'm a target for all the pain
Nonsense, I'll bring up thoughts just from yesterday's progress
How could I want you if you don't wanna try, this time

I don't wanna let go
You got big problems, only I know
You're the only one I want, it's a side note
Thought I won't need you, but what do I know
I didn't see you coming from above
Get butterflies interlocking with my arm
I don't need a name, fuckin' saying who we are
Claiming that I've changed, fuckin' say it with your heart
I'll endure the pain just to lay here in the dark with you

say it with ur heart [p. sai]

//Lyrics
Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
you're like a shell of your former self, bae
And you wont tell off nobody else, yet
I dont think id ever
make you feel welcome
this just cant happen
but, you keep sticking in my mind
You're like a shell of your former self bae
You just wont tell off nobody else, yet

Well you know too well
that it cant be helped
take, one look at your body and im falling down
through the depths of hell
Where i wont be found
Im a mess and you can tell cus its just part of your spell

Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
you're like a shell of your former self, bae
And you wont tell off nobody else, yet
I dont think id ever
make you feel welcome
this just cant happen
but, you keep sticking in my mind