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Songs I have on repeat

Song Title - By My Side
Production & Vocals By Lund.

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By My Side

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//いいんだよ//

sample is be kind by alex g

no amount of words could ever express my love for you guys. thank you so fucking much for every single comment, like, conversation, etc. i live for this music & to know i've got that much support behind me is insane. you blow my mind. i love you guys.

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https://genius.com/guardin-take-away-the-pain-lyrics

lyrics

take away the pain

V1
Its been like
3 months of no talking
Walking by myself
No more eyes to get lost In
Keep on looking back all the time 
Ill be honest
I hate being alone
at least I got my conscience
Since u left me here
locked up in my room
writing all these songs
Wake up evey morning 
and turn my computer on
Because how else do I deal 
With these thoughts of u and me
I was on the clouds
Now im spiralling into sea
I wrote a message for u
But I couldn’t send it
I regret it
Yuh
Im sorry I’m pathetic
Whats this caught a sickness
and won’t be getting better
The sun might be shining
But it feels like rainy weather


Pre chorus
I trynna keep it on the low
I trynna get u off my mind
I trynna keep my feelings inside
But its hard sometimes


Chorus
I thought with u it might work out
But I guess I was wrong again
Im not sure what it is with me
I’ve never been good with friends
I thought with u it might work out
But I guess I was wrong again
it doesnt matter who u are
Soon we’ll come to the end


V2
Its been about a year
Since we last spoke
Trynna stay clean but need more soap
letting out pain with these words I wrote
Dried up tears and a bit of soar throat
feelings that had were beginning to rot
Starts off good then it suddenly stops
Ya but ill leave it in the past
Now the futures all I got


Bridge
All of these girls, they got me picking sides
Falling in love is like my kryptonite
Don’t know what to do 
No I can’t decide 

Am I meant to be alone?

SPOTIFY

i could never be loved (Prod. Seany OWE)

Track thirteen from Make It Through Fall

All production, lyrics and vocals by Lil Xtra

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She says with eyes of stone
The wine is not for drinking 
I thought I’d found my home 
Don’t know what I was thinking 
Summer came and went now 
I made it through the fall... 
You were everything I wanted 
Now I want nothing all

And now winter sits upon me 
And I can’t wait till spring 
The pain will not subside,
But oh, the joy the sun might bring 
And perhaps I will see you 
I really hope I don’t 
Cause you said you’d always be there 
But we both know that you won’t

Cut my hair and change my name 
And tell me “now you look the part” 
Won't you do just as I tell you until 
I can’t tell you apart, 
Why can’t you just be perfect?
Can’t you just fix what’s inside?
Yeah You said you won’t forget me 
I can see how hard..
See how hard you've tried...

Make It Through Fall

Winter

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lyrics
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oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

oh why does it always feel like i’m a ghost
i’m floating in & out of all these homes
i don’t even have one to call my own 
i’ve been on tour for such a fucking long time
can’t remember what my bedroom looks like
cause hotel rooms and bnbs are all i
see when i’m away & i don’t know why
i signed up for this until i go live
talk me out of fighting with myself 
right now i could use some fucking help 
i scribble words until i feel myself 
homesick has never felt so fucking swell

oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

follow jody

at least i try (prod. jody)

youtu.be/-HaeMbV5UQU
Idleglance video <3

I’m fucked up 
In my room
All Alone
Where are you?
Guess you found out
They Always find out
That I’m fucked 
In the head
Think I’m better off dead
Nothing improves
Not even my mood
And this world 
Hates my guts
Always down on my luck
Maybe one day
I’ll find my way
But for now
I’ll just pout
Guess I’ll see you around
When the spring comes
I hope that spring comes

Da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da dum
Da da da dum

I’m fucked up
All alone
Broken heart
Broken home
Can you feel it
I want you to feel this
When I say you were loved
I know it’s not enough 
But I mean it
Just know that you’re missed
And i hate 
Everything
This life doesn’t mean a thing 
Far as i know
Just let me go
Cause the spring
Never comes
Frozen bones
Blackened lungs
Cause i can’t hide
From cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Da da da, da da dum, no the spring never comes
Cause i can’t hide, cold on the inside

Spring Never Comes

Song Title - Fiction
Production & Vocals By Lund.

Lyrics: 

Feelings come and go
Time to hit the road 
Can’t afford
To watch this 
time move past
Im never going back 
Moving forward 

Lying to yourself 
You don’t really need me 
Fiction in your head
That you keep on believing

People come and go
Everybody knows
Love is potent
Let you go
Had to let you go
Now I’m hoping 
You get closure
Cause I’m feeling 
so much better 
now were over

With you
It ain’t right 
To many missed calls 
And long nights 
I heard your voicemail 
to many times
And I aint wasting no more love on you
X2

Open up my chest
Deep into my heart
Do you see it
A shard of glass 
I can feel it slice  
as I’m breathing 
it cut my strings 
Now my fucking 
heart isn’t beating 
And from my brain 
is where I’m bleeding 

Deep inside my mind
Scared of what I’ll find
Our memories linger
hurt confined 
Love the way you’d lie
With a smile
I’m saving me
There’s no wrong or right
This is survival
Put me down
You'd put me 
in the ground
No revival

No revival 
No survival
Im 51:50
Suicidal
there’s no way out 
As far as I see   
I’m going through hell
Can you find me

Boy you left me down
Broken on the ground
Im so sad 
cause your always gone
Out there on the road 
I’m not mad 
I just wish that you would
Call me sometime
I just wish that
We could fucking rewind

But 

Girl you let me down
You been running round 
Im not dumb
Got me staring down 
The barrel of a loaded gun
You burned our bridge
And we can’t turn back time
I got to go 
Before I lose my mind

Feelings come and go
Time to hit the road 
Can’t afford
To watch this 
time move past
Im never going back 
Moving forward 

Lying to yourself 
You don’t really need me 
Fiction in your head
That you keep on believing

People come and go
Everybody knows
Love is potent
Let you go
Had to let you go
Now I’m hoping 
You get closure
Cause I’m feeling 
so much better 
now were over

Going going’ gone
I think my soul is moving on
Hate me while I’m here
Then love while I’m lost
Do we fight to feel the pain
Or Do we bleed to feel the same
Why’s the world so fucking cold 
Why do I often feel alone

Fiction

Song title - Reflection
Production & Vocals by Lund.

Lyrics: 
I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

(X2)

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

I couldn't help myself 
you smiled and I was lost
in a lovesick world endorphins 
they can be toxic 
you played me for a fool
cause love was never an option

I want to wake up 
and feel like 
this life is a blessing 
instead I'm drinking whiskey 
loading bullets in my F-N
leave everything I own
to my family and best friends
and I know it aint your fault
I just can't keep on pretending 
that I love my life and 
everything is fine around me 
while I feel like I'm drowning 
demons they surround me 
talking very loudly
all inside my head
I know its all inside my head
cause

I look in the mirror
and I hate my reflection
watch hands move on the clock
till my head spin
now all I can do is 
pick apart my imperfections 
don't give me fate love
just give me fake love

shouldn't put me down 
your words can be ever painful
say you hold me down
but attack from every angle
I always hold u down 
but you never come around

Reflection

lyrics
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why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

record a bunch of nonsense when i'm feelin' nauseous 
gotta play it cautious if she tryna hang
mirror mirror on this wall inside my heart
does falling out of love make a human go insane
i've tried three times, back it up & rewind
look into your green eyes, tell me if i change
baby you a goddess, you so fuckin' flawless
imma fuck him up if he speaks your name in vain

why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x3)

redemption of a lost mess speedin' up the process
by the time that august comes you'll know my name
g-u-a-r guardin yeah i beg your pardon
right to all involvement writing through the day
got my castle in the yard it's kinda fuckin' hard
to stand like i'm on guard when the clouds are seeing rain
so my bedrooms more appealing, suffer through the feeling
cause i know you're leaving gotta act like i'm okay 
 
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

stupid

@qawikamri
@guardinmusic

FIRST SONG OF "A Diary Of You"

a song that i'll play on a rainy day (feat. guardin)

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

lyrics:

i'd be lyin if i said it didn't hurt
every girl i loved had left me lyin in the dirt
i'm face down in my own mistakes
it's like i like them being dumped all over the place

i'm a mess, and i know it,
no i can't get a grip i'm never copin
and you're so bad and you know this
why do all the good girls seem to keep me out of focus

and you don't know how much i care,
for loving people that were never there
and you don't know how bad it feels
your words cut deep, goodbyes don't heal

if you love me let me go, that's what i say
as i'm taking 205 right to her driveway
i'm a mess so depressed its no surprise though
and fuck my ex she's a wreck, she's a psycho

i'm a loaded gun, yeah my lyrics ammunition
but i get tongue tied when i get her in my system
i can't ever sleep unless she's sleepin on my chest
and when i'm home i'm in my zone but i don't eat i'm fuckin stressed

what's the point of movin on if you can't smile when you wake up
make your coffee, start the car and chase the pay stub
i don't work a job and if i did i'd fuckin hate it
rather pay my rent from writing songs down in my basement

and you don't know how much i care,
for loving people that were never there
and you don't know how bad it feels
your words cut deep, goodbyes don't heal

mess (prod. ryini)

Just Like You Do (ft. Thomas Reid)

prod yusei  & me

lyrics:

i had a friend reach out and tell me
i've got allot up on my plate
i told her don't you ever worry
you got me when times are grey

she said nathan i feel ugly
no one understands my pain
and my parents never listen
i'd rather die than feel this way

don't cry, don't die
give it two years it'll only take time
and you're never ever ugly with a smile that bright
no your parents don't listen but i swear they wanna try

know your stressed, and depressed, and your hair is a mess
but you're cute when you lose or you're mad at your friends
and i hate when you'd cry every time that i said
oh i love when you're here, i don't want this to end

can we not talk school for once, it makes me nauseous
everyone in class is either mean or real obnoxious
and i'm sorry that i said it, but i felt so fuckin lost
it's like my life is just a token either spent it or you lost it

here i'm sittin, eye inside the storm issuing
waiting being patient for the rain to ruin
everything i've ever loved or ever touched, 
or ever gave a fuck about, i'm sorry that i hurt you friend i'm sorry that i let you down

and i, don't care, i'll always be there
no i won't give up on you

and i, don't care, i'll always be there
no i won't give up on you

 had a friend reach out and tell me
i've got allot up on my plate
i told her don't you ever worry
you got me when times are grey

she said nathan i feel ugly
no one understands my pain
and my parents never listen
i'd rather die than feel this way

don't cry

lyrics
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got some money in my pocket
but that doesn't make a difference at all
this isn't fame i'm fucking lame
i'm just boy whose tryna figure it out
well maybe this is fucking it
the audience has turned against
they wanna justify the creepin' and leak my mom's home address
the paranoia rises best when your words sit inside my chest
i'm fucking human don't forget that when you're making your requests

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

got some whiskey in my cup
but i don't think that it's enough at all
this isn't me i tell myself
i constantly worry about my health
well maybe i should fucking try
cause death is creepin' right behind
i see him sitting in the corner lookin' oh so fucking sly
anxiety is on the rise when he's constantly on my mind
i fear the day is finally coming where i meet my own demise

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

spotify

backup

lyrics
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go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

hey
what something you dream bout?
babe
i've been tryna figure things out
blame
myself when i come down
hate
you more when the suns down 
fake
love is all i see around
lately
you've been tryna scheme around
make
me feel like imma be around
wasted
time is all i'm seeing now
and your freckles make me stare & cry
connect the dots inside your mind
thought we complete each other
why does this shit happen every time
i think you're seeing other guys
cause you don't talk about the lies
with me lately i'm going blind
to what's happened with you & i 

and we probably could've worked out
that's not how it turned out tho
heard you're back with him again
but you say he's just a friend uhm no
lost the love i thought i had back
but it always backtracks so
guess i'm alone in the end
with a bottle and this pencil

go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

follow dj khaled's son

again (prod. dj khaled's son)

lyrics
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this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

keep me alive
counting the time on the clock till it's five
minutes until this disaster arrives
lie down on the floor you'll be fine
cold surfaces wake up my eyes
blindsided by love bold and bright  
my hearts in your hands till i die
i'd fly to japan for the night
if tour didn't have my hands tied

why did i sign up for this?
ask yourself the question every time you light the spliff
is there something that i missed?
i can feel their eyes, they're watching me with every line i spit
can you back it up a bit?
it's a little hard to breathe when privacy does not exist
codependency is never seen as such a risk
and the artists that we love are trying hard to not get pissed

this shits a lie
go back inside
cry bout the future she'll leave you behind
i'm staying still while the seasons arrive
this ain't the place for me why do i try
get up & drive
go sixty five
no destination inside of my mind
i've taken pills in the past i'll be fine
losing my head just to keep me alive

these eyes saw a lot of sights
but these guys start a lot of conflict
i'm conflicted how my life just
breezed by lost as soon as night hits

follow caspr

alive (prod. caspr)

lyrics
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(you said i could be anything that i aspire to be
but no one in this world could ever want to be me)

this is the last time
this is the last time i'll write about you
this is the last time
this is the last time you rip me in two
i ain't got no time
all of the time i had wasted on you
took me a long time
took me a year just to get over you
this is the last time
this is the last time i'll write about you
this is the last time
this is the last time you rip me in two
i ain't got no time
all of the time i had wasted on you
took me a long time
took me a year just to get over you

bet he drives down all the same roads we did
it's okay i just hope they're still scenic
i can't help but feel like the world is ending
why did we waste time together just pretending

stolen

Song title - Skin & Bones
Production & Vocals by Lund.

Lyrics:

You don’t know the pain that I feel
Wasting time on love that wasn’t real
leave me alone 
I’m just skin and bones now 
I think I’m 
turning into ash 
You call my phone 
But I’m never home now 
you couldn’t save me 
from myself 

Lies they left me with 
A broken heart 
Wounds leave scars
When their always 
Torn apart
write me a eulogy
all you can do for me 
This is the 
story of my life 
So let me lay here 
There’s nothing to save here
Cause I’m already dead

Baby I just think that you
Need someone to be 
true to you
I know how to heal your heart 
Let me spend some time with you 
And maybe change your point of view
You could have a brand new start 

I know that you 
feel so damn alone 
But some things
you can’t heal
on your own
When scared to try
You miss out on life 
But darlin now 
I’ll show you the way
Its not your fault
So baby don’t cry 
Do be afraid 
Cause I’m not him

You so beautiful 
It brings me to my knees 
Your eyes are hazel green
shade of autumn leaves 
I don’t look at you 
I look into you 
I’m Lost in a moment
when your with me
I’ll give you trust to
Build up this love 
Cause honey
I know what 
we could be 

Baby I just think that you
Need someone to be 
true to you
I know how to heal your heart 
Let me spend some time with you 
And maybe change your point of view
You could have a brand new start

Skin & Bones

Produced by ENRA

LYRICS:

Dont fall asleep yet
I'm wide awake still
I wonder if u think about me when u lay still
Don't fall asleep yet
Promise me you’ll stay here
Are my pictures on you wall still like last year

Don't fall asleep yet
I'm wide awake still
I wonder if u think about me when u lay still
Its been a long time
Miss u around me
When I dream about u r u dreaming bout me


Verse

Dont fall asleep
Im wide awake
I hope that we
Have brighter days
U still have my heart
So don’t let it break
I want u all mine forever
I’ll put my heart on a projector
I wish we settled all the struggles we got into
The best part of my life was with you

Rap

Think about u too much
Trynna fall asleep 
But my eyes won’t shut
Said u need a break
And thats ok
But when u feel alone
Always got my place
Life throws curves
Sorry for your loss
Praying for your peace
When the night feels long
Writing songs for you with my guitar
Leave if u want but please don’t go far

don't fall asleep yet

prod me <3

lyrics:
she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

this is not a tik tok hit, or a mainstream slap
its the hook verse hook on how my heart collapsed
this is not a dance real slow, if you love me don't go
i've been tryna find some peace down every road we go

why do we fight every evenin
i'm sorry i woke you from sleepin
i'm spillin my guts, so my head don't combust
you're the girl of my dreams you're the one i believe in

i went from holdin you close
to someone you used to know
i remember gettin fucked up
i remember lettin go

she said, 3 facts i, still cry too
i'm losin' faith in my ability to like you
i'm losin' touch with who i was and now i fight you
to be honest we should probably say goodbye soon

and now i'm drunk and i'm peekin at your homescreen
makin sure i'm still there, hopin you'll still hold me
and now you're drunk and you're thinkin bout the old me
where did all the time go, why do i feel lonely?

and now we're drunk and were listenin to cars pass
thinkin bout the good days, will they ever come back
and now we sulk, while we listen for the rain drops
listen for the thunderstorms and hope the fuckin pain stops

homescreen

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