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my fourth album, i hope you enjoy

Calm Among Chaos

See me flying in the air
Give to me a glaring stare
Gliding off without a care
Reborn, I’m feeling so aware

Cannot take anymore, demons walked me out the door
Acted with valor, sped yourself towards further implore
Nothing ever ends, non-stop ‘til it begins
I find I’m haunted by my sins, realize the lesson lies within

The days I think I’m closer are farther away
I just cannot wait, I don’t want life today
So I throw it away, yeah, I throw it away
As I empty my consciousness into the gray

I’m living and learning, and never forgetting
The truth is facading, I find it upsetting
They say all the things that they end up regretting
Spreading the hate til they end up resetting

You’ll see me on the tv,
I know then you’ll believe me
I’m gone and you can’t see me
You fucked it all up really

See me flying in the air
Give to me a glaring stare
Gliding off without a care
Reborn, I’m feeling so aware

Cannot take anymore, demons walked me out the door
Acted with valor, sped yourself towards further implore
Nothing ever ends, non-stop ‘til it begins
I find I’m haunted by my sins, realize the lesson lies within

follow fiftysix

live and learn (prod. fiftysix)

Two paths diverge
I take the less traveled
My life’s submerged
It’s coming unraveled

Baby why you look so blue
No changing all the parts of you
Hearts broken? I’ll buy one new
Nothing for you I wouldn’t do

You ain’t gotta feel so blue
I can make you feel brand new
Make love all night with you
Without you


Don’t want to breathe
Without you
Don’t want to see
Without you
Do you feel 
The same as me?


The bad path I chose
Left me stranded alone
But I never answer
When you hit my phone


Oh yeah, fight through it
All, all that I do is
Not enough for you
It’s not enough

Two paths diverge
I take the less traveled
My life’s submerged
It’s coming unraveled

Baby why you look so blue
No changing all the parts of you
Hearts broken? I’ll buy one new
Nothing for you I wouldn’t do

unraveled - ft. guccihighwaters (prod. fiftysix)

@softhert

Mind always racing
I’m always chasing
The dreams that I’m making
Are mine for the taking
Mind always racing
My mind always racing

Cracks and crumbles, falling down
If no ones there, does it make sound?
I try to flip and turn my frown
I’m killed by chemical compounds

Weight of an empty room
Keeps me inside a tomb
Dust my thoughts off with a broom
A flower in the dark may bloom

Wake me up in another reality
Help me find a piece of vitality
Do my best to protect my morality
Escape the thought that this is the finality

Creep through the night like a monster
I’ve broken her heart, I know it haunts her
Maintaining sight, but I still wander

Mind always racing
I’m always chasing
The dreams that I’m making
Are mine for the taking
Mind always racing
My mind always racing

i waited for you all night long 
just to get let down
just to get led on
do it for the days i was skating
tryna build a park in the backyard
now im smoking on the lawn
and im smoking dank
trust me you can smell the stink
when you walk up in my place
catch me rolling up a big ass jibbah
imma face it then dip
i got i big weed dependance
in a daze how i'm living

i can hear em talking telling lies 
like it aint shit
prolly somewhere looking at the sky
like an ancient
theres a cherry in my joint
but i'm smoking on grape bitch
yeah i'm smoking good 
but i'm tryna be great bitch
everybody wanna try doubting me
got me all up in my head im drowing
nothing without me
no i didn't find the music it found me

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racing - ft. softheart (prod. syndrome)

Lungs collapsing, you stole my breath
Ripped up my heart, I fear what’s next
I watch the blood run down my arm
I love the way you make it scar
For love of life we mean no harm
Shine so bright, my guiding star

My body is sinking into the water
Deeper than ever, yet no one bothers
Drowning myself, I pray for the slaughter
Hate in my heart, my love sent in martyr

It makes me wanna die
When you talk to other guys
Feel the knife sticking inside
Kill me now, I can’t survive

No I don’t think I’ll survive
Without my light at night
Now my chest pulling so tight
Need you here to say goodnight

Lungs collapsing, you stole my breath
Ripped up my heart, I fear what’s next
I watch the blood run down my arm
I love the way you make it scar
For love of life we mean no harm
Shine so bright, my guiding star

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collapsing (prod. martensite)

@sorrow_bringer

Everyday I wake up, look out the window
Climbing to the top, but I’m spinning all the way through
Fading in the dust, nowhere left for me to run to
Yeah, nowhere left to run to

We aren’t our mistakes
We may bend or break
But no ones too late
To fix what they ain’t

Whatever it takes
To fix my mistakes
Through shattered earthquakes
There’s blue in the lakes

There’s no way I can blame her
I’ve always been a stranger
I cannot breathe
Please, someone help me

Twin size mattress on the floor
Fuck drunk love that life's a chore
I built this house off the liquor store
I'd rather be a slave for the child support
Count my bread with a loaded gun
My only friend is the 211
See my son so the case was won
And I'm counting days till it's time to run
My hair's gone white I'm getting old
Keep your head you lost control
Old friends still search for a pot of gold
Held my hand but it's time to fold
Their up all night to the crack of dawn
Bank accounts are overdrawn
Won't go to bed till the bag is gone
Or end up passed out on the lawn

Ain't been the same since you went away

Its a price to pay and it's hard to say

You left me out here like a stray
I've lost all hope in yesterday
And I'm counting days til it's time to go

MUSIC VID

nowhere - ft. gxxdbi (prod. sorrow bringer)

@lilheartbreaker
@fiftysix000

You are my forever
Hold me ‘til it’s better
I’d write a thousand letters
To prove it when I say that

You are my forever
Hold me ‘til I’m better
I’d write a thousand letters
To prove we’ll stay together

Coasting off control
I don’t know where to go
I’m gonna die alone
I can feel it in my bones

I draw my last breath
As god takes me next
Embracing my death
It’s all too complex

Friends will turn
No respect to earn
Don’t let it concern
Don’t let it return

Expect the worst
And know the best
I’ll lift the curse
And feed detest, ‘cause

You are my forever
Hold me ‘til it’s better
I’d write a thousand letters
To prove it when I say that

You are my forever
Hold me ‘til I’m better
I’d write a thousand letters
To prove we’ll stay together

forever (prod. fiftysix x lil heartbreak)

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

@avageaspandungique

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

The creation of a star
No one sees from the start
An explosion from afar
Hard to see what’s in your heart

Imagine what we’ll see
Another reality
With their personalities
Switched showing who they’ll be

I think I lost my mind
Somewhere no one can find
We’re all one of a kind
Some brighter with their shine

She’ll never love what I want her to
Her stare goes through away to you

Guide me on my way
Seeking out a happy day
Forever floating away
In my life, no one will stay

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

And I feel the cold girl I’m frostbit
I can feel the flow of your soul from your soft lips 
And maybe me and you could be us 
Lately you ain’t really even there like a beat cut 
And I can see the visions in me dreams of a love that I been missing I been wishin' you to be 
Cut myself to ribbons you can see
Hard to keep myself together when splitting at the seams
Getting tougher as the years pass 
Bullet for my valentine I can feel your tears crash 
And I know that you can feel that 
Maybe we can make it to the point where you can heal back 
Put me back together like you namine 
Memories fading from my mind into the common space 
And I just hate this place 
I just want to die and escape this fate 
I need my mind erased 
I’ll give you the stars never mind some space 
Am I replaced 
A sea of damned, a tidal wave

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

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tidal wave - ft. savagegasp (prod. yondo)

my new album will be releasing on halloween!

@sorrow_bringer

I don’t know
Where to find my soul
How can I be whole?

You’re not alone 
When you call my phone
Nowhere I will go

Blackness of night
Is all that I fight
Giving most a fright
I take on delight

There’s no way to heal
I’m colder than steel
My body can’t feel
I need something real

Guide through depths of dark
Remain in my heart
Light the only spark
From falling apart

We’re all bound in place
Holding our own space
Keep me on the chase
From what I cannot face

I don’t know
Where to find my soul
How can I be whole?

You’re not alone 
When you call my phone
Nowhere I will go

remain in my heart (prod. sorrow bringer)

Your vibe is so contagious
Shining constellation
Everywhere I’m going you’ll be lighting up and waiting

Shaking, breaking,
Falling on the pavement
RIP to Mac, you gave me music inspiration

Creation, latence
Stopping what I’m making
Life’s a simulation, but I know I’m gonna break it

Full imagination
Knowing what I’m taking
Facing what is racing through my head until its spacious

Please never walk out the door
You gave me a piece, but I’m wanting more
Together on the top floor
You’re the one I’ll always adore

So when it’s all said and done
I’ll meet you at the bottom of a setting sun
You’re my only one, my only one

‘Cause I
Wanna be the one to make you smile
No other face I can see down that aisle
Oh girl, please just stay awhile, stay awhile

So if you wanna let me go, don’t follow me, and give your woe
You’ll hear me on, the radio, and pray for me, to say hello
I’m sailing through the stars, bounded up by all these scars
Our vibrations stick together like the strings of my guitar

‘Cause I
Wanna be the one to make you smile
No other face I can see down that aisle
Oh girl, please just stay awhile, stay awhile

your smile (prod. fiftysix)

@boyfifty

Coming in last
Erasing the past
Every second of the day, my bad thoughts are amassed

They’re racing so fast
The dark void is vast
The feel of fear within my broken thoughts unsurpassed

I’ve worked and worked
Given my soul
If there’s a sequel
Take control

Don’t take no more
It’s what you want
Open the door
And take the spot

As sun goes down
The darkness crowds
Diamonds in your crown
Glisten in the clouds

Tears run black
It’s hard to see
Insomniac
Take you with me

I’ll see you in the night time
I don’t know when I might shine
In fear of what might unwind
I’ll see you in the night time

Heart is defective
Play the detective
People, deceptive
Hide their incentive

Drugs ineffective
Pain is receptive
Lost my objective
Gain some perspective

Nothing left, but thoughts of death
Committed theft, you took my breath
Face appearing unimpressed
Staring in a treasure chest

I’ve lost what to say
I smoked it away
A sickening gray
It wanders to stay

Tears run black
It’s hard to see
Insomniac
Take you with me

I’ll see you in the night time
I don’t know when I might shine
In fear of what might unwind
I’ll see you in the night time

nighttime (prod. boyfifty)

@kaiyko

Please stay away
I just can’t take the pain
Outside, a castaway
Reaping in my own disdain

Stuff of the past that sticks in the future
Lying to me, I thought that I knew her
Band aid my heart and pretend that it’s fine
Nothing else matters when I know you’re mine

Hold me tighter than when you held him
My smiles coming, soon it fell grim
Taking part of me, losing a limb
Embers were burning, slowly they dim

I’m stuck in the time
You weren’t mine
Can’t take the crime
I saw the sign

Breaking down I’m crying
There’s no point in trying
Away, I am flying
I hope that I’ll be dying

Calm Among Chaos

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