thank you to anyone listening

my fourth album, i hope you enjoy

Calm Among Chaos

vvv

movin at light speed ive been glowing honestly
think i couldnt be doing better pain is hard to see
taking red n blue up inside my odyssey 
dont hit me up im out of reach
im in my own world
im in my own zone
conspired this all inside my dome
now its all right here and i finally found my home
its you 
its me 
im starting to believe and talk to my inner child  and not ignore her
im so sorry i know that i treated u like shit for months
youre still my baby angel and i never meant to hurt u, love
it wasnt my intentions it was the man with the red hair
if im bein honest w u i dont think he ever cared
id tell you it was a facade but u prolly do not know that word
i know how he hurt you and i hate em bout much as you loved him
but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.
I been 
Blowin toxins
in my  room
i been doin fine
w out u 
yeah i loved him but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.

inner_child (jabarionthebeat x jelly x dreamboyy)

i'm a casualty of life...
prod. @gonetoofar x @memoryroseishere
cover photo taken my by girlfriend :)
hope u all enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh how i dream of the west coast
or maybe somewhere thats not here
i’ve been all cooped up inside
need a place to reside
where the water can run clear

i hate to wait for my chances
but i’m a casualty of life
my brain cannot wait
for the day i can say
everything’s gonna be fine

don’t want to be here tomorrow
but in the sense i don’t exist
i’m sick of basic routine
need a change in my scene
i don’t know how to fix this

i think i'm tumbling backward
i need a hand to life me up
or maybe air i can breathe
maybe eyes that could see
why the water has dried up

freshwater [toofargone x memoryrose]

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production practice #1

[Chorus] I could be wrong
But you still think about me when you hear our favorite songs 
Is it true that you wish you were still here all along? 
That’s cute cause I’ll come pick you up
If that’s what you want
For you I’ll do anything I could be wrong 
I could be wrong
I could be aaaaa 
I could be huuuuh
I could be wrong
I could be wrong
I could be
I could be
I could be wrong

[Onlykell] I could be
I could be wrong
Brand new jeans you can’t buy this on your own
I feel like a beast
She play with me 
Than boy you gone 
I know she want me 
You can’t get me bae leave me alone 
That’s true 
If you like me and I like you then we’re on
With you, she don’t like me, but she still trying to call my phone 
Come through on Roxy I’m on oxy bitch I’m gone
That’s true uhaa

[Chorus] I could be wrong
But you still think about me when you hear our favorite songs 
Is it true that you wish you were still here all along? 
That’s cute cause I’ll come pick you up
If that’s what you want
For you I’ll do anything I could be wrong 
I could be wrong
I could be aaaaa 
I could be huuuuh
I could be wrong
I could be wrong
I could be
I could be
I could be wrong

I Could Be Wrong! ft Onlykell

Goin ft Yotti (Shiro x SouljaSpirits)

Two paths diverge
I take the less traveled
My life’s submerged
It’s coming unraveled

Baby why you look so blue
No changing all the parts of you
Hearts broken? I’ll buy one new
Nothing for you I wouldn’t do

You ain’t gotta feel so blue
I can make you feel brand new
Make love all night with you
Without you


Don’t want to breathe
Without you
Don’t want to see
Without you
Do you feel 
The same as me?


The bad path I chose
Left me stranded alone
But I never answer
When you hit my phone


Oh yeah, fight through it
All, all that I do is
Not enough for you
It’s not enough

Two paths diverge
I take the less traveled
My life’s submerged
It’s coming unraveled

Baby why you look so blue
No changing all the parts of you
Hearts broken? I’ll buy one new
Nothing for you I wouldn’t do

follow fiftysix

unraveled - ft. guccihighwaters (prod. fiftysix)

Lungs collapsing, you stole my breath
Ripped up my heart, I fear what’s next
I watch the blood run down my arm
I love the way you make it scar
For love of life we mean no harm
Shine so bright, my guiding star

My body is sinking into the water
Deeper than ever, yet no one bothers
Drowning myself, I pray for the slaughter
Hate in my heart, my love sent in martyr

It makes me wanna die
When you talk to other guys
Feel the knife sticking inside
Kill me now, I can’t survive

No I don’t think I’ll survive
Without my light at night
Now my chest pulling so tight
Need you here to say goodnight

Lungs collapsing, you stole my breath
Ripped up my heart, I fear what’s next
I watch the blood run down my arm
I love the way you make it scar
For love of life we mean no harm
Shine so bright, my guiding star

follow martensite

collapsing (prod. martensite)

@lilheartbreaker
@fiftysix000

You are my forever
Hold me ‘til it’s better
I’d write a thousand letters
To prove it when I say that

You are my forever
Hold me ‘til I’m better
I’d write a thousand letters
To prove we’ll stay together

Coasting off control
I don’t know where to go
I’m gonna die alone
I can feel it in my bones

I draw my last breath
As god takes me next
Embracing my death
It’s all too complex

Friends will turn
No respect to earn
Don’t let it concern
Don’t let it return

Expect the worst
And know the best
I’ll lift the curse
And feed detest, ‘cause

You are my forever
Hold me ‘til it’s better
I’d write a thousand letters
To prove it when I say that

You are my forever
Hold me ‘til I’m better
I’d write a thousand letters
To prove we’ll stay together

forever (prod. fiftysix x lil heartbreak)

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

youtube

solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

@avageaspandungique

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

The creation of a star
No one sees from the start
An explosion from afar
Hard to see what’s in your heart

Imagine what we’ll see
Another reality
With their personalities
Switched showing who they’ll be

I think I lost my mind
Somewhere no one can find
We’re all one of a kind
Some brighter with their shine

She’ll never love what I want her to
Her stare goes through away to you

Guide me on my way
Seeking out a happy day
Forever floating away
In my life, no one will stay

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

And I feel the cold girl I’m frostbit
I can feel the flow of your soul from your soft lips 
And maybe me and you could be us 
Lately you ain’t really even there like a beat cut 
And I can see the visions in me dreams of a love that I been missing I been wishin' you to be 
Cut myself to ribbons you can see
Hard to keep myself together when splitting at the seams
Getting tougher as the years pass 
Bullet for my valentine I can feel your tears crash 
And I know that you can feel that 
Maybe we can make it to the point where you can heal back 
Put me back together like you namine 
Memories fading from my mind into the common space 
And I just hate this place 
I just want to die and escape this fate 
I need my mind erased 
I’ll give you the stars never mind some space 
Am I replaced 
A sea of damned, a tidal wave

I can’t take this one more time
I fell upon a knife
Searching for you and I

twitter

tidal wave - ft. savagegasp (prod. yondo)

Your vibe is so contagious
Shining constellation
Everywhere I’m going you’ll be lighting up and waiting

Shaking, breaking,
Falling on the pavement
RIP to Mac, you gave me music inspiration

Creation, latence
Stopping what I’m making
Life’s a simulation, but I know I’m gonna break it

Full imagination
Knowing what I’m taking
Facing what is racing through my head until its spacious

Please never walk out the door
You gave me a piece, but I’m wanting more
Together on the top floor
You’re the one I’ll always adore

So when it’s all said and done
I’ll meet you at the bottom of a setting sun
You’re my only one, my only one

‘Cause I
Wanna be the one to make you smile
No other face I can see down that aisle
Oh girl, please just stay awhile, stay awhile

So if you wanna let me go, don’t follow me, and give your woe
You’ll hear me on, the radio, and pray for me, to say hello
I’m sailing through the stars, bounded up by all these scars
Our vibrations stick together like the strings of my guitar

‘Cause I
Wanna be the one to make you smile
No other face I can see down that aisle
Oh girl, please just stay awhile, stay awhile

your smile (prod. fiftysix)

take care of yourselves

You leave marks on your porcelain skin 
Down a few bottles numbing the state you’re in
You say is this how its always been? 
Replying back “you cannot let your mind win” 

I gotta say 
Its emotionally exhausting 
day in day out
I’m canvasing the green 
Show me the blue dream 
 cant get it out my head
I’d be better off dead 

Show me what you mean
Get me out this dream 
I'm constantly crying
Over your faults stop lying

I won’t say I miss you
Cause we're always fighting
My heart beats out my chest 
It skips fast like lightning 

And I 
Wouldn’t have it any other way

Since we lost meaning
I’ve been oversleeping
Lost track of my dreams since they turned to nightmares 

You were the best the world has known
The lights of are on but no one's home 
I feel it in my skin and bones
In my skin and bones

Just know I meant it 
the moment I said it
Tormenting my head
I should be in your bed 

I thought I would love this life
Different city every night
I miss you by my side 
cause love like this is hard to find

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porcelain [prod. irby & brody]

for granted

I guess I'm stuck in the past,
and life's been moving too fast,
they told me I should grow up,
but I still feel like a brat,

another pill to the head,
another night til' I'm dead,
and we've been moving so fast,
that's how I know this'll last.

they tell me that I'm just a mess,
and I'm so depressed, yah I get it..
yah i get it..

she love me til my heart cant beat no more,
and I don't get it.. I don't get it..

I guess I'm stuck in the past,
and life's been moving too fast,
they told me I should grow up,
but I still feel like a brat,

another pill to the head,
another night til' I'm dead,
and we've been moving so fast,
that's how I know this'll last.

brat (prod. rohff)

Nightmares and Daydreams produced by Matthew May!

Hope y'all enjoy :)

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Cover Art By: https://soundcloud.com/whosmerci

Thanks to everyone involved, new music soon!

Lyrics:

It's a new dawn baby
I'm a new man lately
Yeah pressure so strong it could crush my spine
As the lights dim down these thoughts unwind
I'm a little lost now but I'll be just fine
As I freeze I feel so alive
Don't make me scream as I fall behind
Those eyes seem to burn right through
Those cuts may bleed but they're not that deep
It's okay it's just a flesh wound

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

My time has come to pass
This life kinda feels like ass

The weather here is so harmless but I feel a storm begin to brew
I'm waiting here in this garden hope the rain brings me back to you
The song of the night's supposed to numb the pain
But nothing seems to help with these migraines
I finally get to bed but it doesn't feel true
All I dream about is you

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

THAT NIGHT ON THE COAST YOU HELD ME CLOSE AND WHISPERED IN MY EAR
SAID YOU LOVED ME THE MOST AND EVERYBODY KNOWS BUT YOU THINK I'M INSINCERE 
YOU KNOW I CARE I REALLY DO
WANNA SPEND TIME JUST ME AND YOU
WE WERE JUST DUMB KIDS DIDN'T HAVE A CLUE
WHAT WE MEANT BY I LOVE YOU

It's the nights like these with our toes in the sand my heart beat feels so strong
I know I said for you I would cross those seas but they seem to go on and on
As the waves increase with a kiss on the cheek I start to feel so calm
I sail out east don't know what's beneath but I'm sure I'll know before long

tidal wave - ft. savagegasp (prod. yondo)

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