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Eastgate

Show Me (Bonus Track)

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I saw the look behind your eyes
And knew you knew (It seems you're gonna die)
I guess I could've saw it coming
But it's still new (I guess it's now your time)

It's hard imagining
That we'll be by ourselves, but it's alright
Dad's not quite looking right
I think he's gonna blow up if you die

And now you're gone
Just like that
So much for all
The fun we had

It's been like three years anyways
How come you're still not acting right
I smelled the beer before you left
I guess it fucking serves you right (I'm sorry that you died)

Oh what the martyr meant to me
It's such a shame (You people act insane)
The father can't help tragedy
I guess we're all the same

The thought of you keeps me awake at night
I thought I knew but I was walking blind
I guess I grew since we could fake the spite
Repressed and cruel but out of sight of mind

Gone just like that
So much for
All the fun we had

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Martyr

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Hey (Hey!)
I hope you don't mind
A little company (Wouldn't mind a little company)
But I saw the world
Inside of your eyes
And tell me how I knew you were the one
For me
It's meant
To be
I've never seen nobody else like you
Like you (Like you)
Like you (Like you)
Like

You
I guess I knew that you'd
Tell me you love me and
I'd tell you too
Oh you forgot
To mention by the way
That you're meant for me
It's clear as day, it's true

Right off the bat, you caught my eyes
I locked with yours, yours locked with mine
Forget the past, now's not the time (Oh)
You right my wrongs, I love your rights
We're so in love, we couldn't fight
You feel the same though right?

I saw the way you looked at me
But for all I saw in

You
I guess I knew that you'd
Tell me somebody's not
Telling the truth
Oh you forgot
To mention by the way
That your intention never was to stay, oh no

I'm moving on (I used to love you)
I'm moving on (But maybe I still do)
I'm moving on (I'm moving on)
I'm moving on (I'm moving on)

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Icarus

Playgrounds (Interlude)

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Lately things are moving kinda fast now
I wish I'd taken more time
But now I'm crashed out
I kept moving on and on
Despite the shit
You put me through
I

Guess I've gotta let go of the past now
You took it so well, I've gotta ask how
When all the world
Comes crashing down

I need you to (Need you to)
Need you to (Need you to)
Need you to (Need you to)
Need you to (Need you to)
Need you to

Talk to me like I got problems
And baby only you can solve em
I keep going crazy
I think that I maybe
Could use an escape from the drama
Yeah, I got some feelings I've bottled
Don't fuck with no demons you're model
I'm 95 speeding not feeling
The weight of the world I'm on top of (Yuh)

Maybe it's time to
Acknowledge the truth
Lately it's fucked
I think I should've knew
Now I can feel the walls
Closing in around me

I need you to (Need you to)
Need you to (Need you to)
Need you to (Need you to)
Need you to (Need you to)
Need you to

Talk to me like I got problems
And baby only you can solve em
I keep going crazy
I think that I maybe
Could use an escape from the drama
Yeah, I got some feelings I've bottled
Don't fuck with no demons you're model
I'm 95 speeding not feeling
The weight of the world I'm on top of (Yuh)

Oh god I think I've fucked this up (Oh god I think I've fucked this up)
Oh god I think I've made a mistake (Oh god I think I've made a mistake)
It seems for all the time I gave to you
You shot right through my heart
I should have known
Right from the start (I should have known right from the start)

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Blur

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Oh, you know I want it all back
You keep telling me to go
I'll have a heart attack
Slow the damage 'fore we all crash
You're talking kinda fucking crazy
And on top of that

I hope you've got a plan to throw me out
Now son please come and let me in the house

Mother I'm sorry that you know
Oh brother, I guess I gotta go
You took me for a better man than I was all along
But lately I got problems that I ain't really solved

Oh fuck this shit
I gotta find another bag
You'd love it if I left and wasn't coming back
I know I never meant anything at all
To you all along

I hope you've got a plan to slow me down
'Cause you're gonna have to put me in the ground

Mother I'm sorry that you know
Oh brother, I guess I gotta go
You took me for a better man than I was all along
Lately I got some problems that I ain't really solved

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Crash Out

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I'm moving on to bigger things
I see money trees all in my dreams, yeah
Maybe imma be okay today
But sorry if I take a little longer
Cause the more you're brought along for
Makes you stronger, but this cargo getting heavy
And maybe I need drugs to keep a calm demeanor
'Cause you know I don't mean to be so snappy, but
It's hard when all my flower turned to ashes
In the backseat getting blasted off some Maui
And a vibe

That's how it goes
Heaven knows
I've tried
But, that's how it goes
Heaven knows
Where I'm going, save my soul

I can feel my fingers slipping, missing holds
And don't you know I told em that I'm
Feeling like it's overblown
Man I'm sorry I got monochrome
But colors still evade me lately
When I fade away and take a couple hits and
Maybe smoke a J a day to blow the pain away
And maybe I ain't thinking straight
But man I'd have to hate to keep my demons safe
And catch me neutral at the pearly gates
'Cause I already wrote my (Fate)

That's how it goes (That's how it goes when there's demons that you know)
Heaven knows (Heaven knows I know)
I've tried (I got problems but I gotta float)
But, that's how it goes (I been living what I wrote)
Heaven knows (Heaven knows when you gotta go)
Where I'm going, save my soul

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Heaven Knows

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Dependency keeping me in a mess
I can't take all of this shit to my head
You fucked me up and
I can't forget
But I can't deny all the shit that you did
You fucked me up no
I can't pretend
That I'm gonna be alright in the end
I'll take it out on
You and my friends

You're out of control (You're out of control)
You're out of control (I'm running out of time)
I'm running out of time (I'm running out of time)
I'm running out of running out of

Oh, no
I think I'm bout to implode
And I guess that I never really let it get to my head
Because I already said"I love you"
But maybe I don't
I'm better on my own
And I gave you my heart ('Cause I hoped that it might spark)
But I never imagined we'd be separating the shards

(Separating the shards)
Wish I never would've met you at the time
But that's alright
I guess I found a way
To see the light

You say that you love me
I tell you I love you
But something inside of me's
Breaking because of you
I can't get through to you
Even when others do (Now I'm uncomfortable)
You play with me daily
I swear that you hate me
But something inside keeps on telling me maybe
Oh maybe I'm crazy but I can't tell lately

I'm out of control (You're out of control)
I'm out of time (You're out of control)
I'm out of time (You're out of control)
I'm out of time (You're out of control)
I'm out of time (I'm out of time)
I'm out of time (I'm out of time)
I'm out of time (I'm out of time)

Oh, no
I think I'm bout to implode
And I guess that I never really let it get to my head
Because I already said"I love you"
But maybe I don't
I'm better on my own
And I gave you my heart ('Cause I hoped that it might spark)
But I never imagined we'd be separating the shards

I (Separating the shards)
Wish I never would've met you at the time (Wish I never met you)
But that's alright
I guess I found a way
I guess I found a way

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Dichotomy

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Lost touch
Fading from memory
Come back to me
Time froze over
I sacrificed the past
To save the present

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One Thing For Another

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Don't forget to breathe
Oh I, believe
We're crossed to be
And don't forget to breathe
I can't believe
It's true
Oh my god I can't believe my luck (I can't believe my luck)
Who's to blame for all these different cuts?

I guess it all
Makes sense again
The way you move without me's kind of menacing
But I think I've been through worse
For better, or worse
I'm falling to earth

I've been coming down coming down coming down coming to earth
And I know and I know and I know and I know that it hurts
To say what you want in the moment but you're scared of the words
Ain't it absurd?

Don't forget to breathe
Oh I, believe
We're crossed to be
And don't forget to breathe
I can't believe
It's true
Oh my god I can't believe my luck (I can't believe my luck)
Who's to blame for always getting stuck?

Oh well
I guess some things are better left unsaid (Unsaid)
Oh well
I guess some things are better left on read

Oh well
I guess you're better off with someone else instead
I guess I'm better off without another debt
I'm paranoid can't get outside my head (My head)

(Oh well)
If you love me then trust me
Don't push me away
I don't think I can get through
All the outbursts and the hate
Say what I mean, don't mean what you say
You can't be straight with me, I can't relate
To the fuck shit, how you function
Now it's coming

Oh well
I guess some things are better left unsaid (Oh no)
Oh well
I guess some things are better left on read (No, no, no)

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Laissez

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You take from me
Whatever you want
I'll sell my soul
Whatever the cost (I swear I'll find a way to fuck this up)

Why can't God save me from myself
And why, God, is it always people that I lent myself to
For reasons that I knew were never good enough
But man, I'd hate to pull the plug on you
At least I knew I gave it all when times were tough
But how you never gave a fuck, I gotta say
Managed to cut through

I'm sorry for being so sorry for you
I'm sorry for the times I thought you gave a fuck
But now I know the truth (I'm sorry that I do)
I know I'm such a fuck up
But I think I know too much
It's hard to find a purpose
When the purpose of my life
Was you, but

Why can't God save me from myself
And why, God, is it always people that I lent myself to
For reasons that I knew were never good enough
But man, I'd hate to pull the plug on you
At least I knew I gave it all when times were tough
But how you never gave a fuck, I gotta say
Managed to cut through

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Apologies

~2002~

Eastgate ~ September 1st

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