🥺🥰omg sooo... just my mood rn idk but posted this now owww omg

Lyrics

I'm conflicted, I can't make shit
I don't feel the love I fake it
Got this feeling I can't shake it
Got this feeling I might break shit

I'm losing fucking patience
I'm finna be a patient
I got drugs all this room
And I been trying not to take it

But I can't hold on
I been doing that for fucking so long
I'm so done, I can't open up for fucking no one
I been trying, it ain't working
And I know nobody perfect
I know you don't see the anger
But I'm not a peaceful person

All that I wanted to do was be in love with you
But I fucked up like I always do
And I can't figure it out, I'm bouta start flippin' out
Let me rot all alone in a forest

Fucking up everything, yeah I'm for it
If she call me again, I'll ignore it
Got a lot of the pain where my core is
I got too much shit to say that's why I don't do chorus

It's a never ending cycle
I should not be anybody's idol
I make music singing bout the fucked up shit
That I went through and about the shit that I did

Back to sounding fucking angry at the world and at myself
If you can't find me when you die, then you did not get sent to hell
Everything's a fucking lie and everybody's up for sale
Success is not what you would think, if you knew that then you would fail

If that's the case then I'm the most successful person in this place
If that's the case then I feel love forever and I never hate
That's the toll that it takes, I believe some backwards shit
I'm phony and I'm fucking fake, I'm more than just a piece of shit

So if you talking down on me you better do it right
Tell me I'm the fucking worst person you met in all ya life
Open up the flood gates of hate and let me drown slow
I'm a sad piece of trash, I'm so down low

I'ma fuck it all up again
I'm going back where I been
But fuck it is what it is
So I'm not gonna pretend

I know I'm not who I could be now
But I don't know if that's any good right now

Leave me alone, I know I'm a burden
I just wanna go under where the dirt is
I don't wanna know what I did to deserve this
I'ma give myself a reason for it

eeyorish. | Produced by ERLAX

Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

I can't get away from all the shit that I'm on
I went farther than where I was, I should of stopped
I let all of the loops in my head to go on
I met death and I think I'm the one that he wants

OD, that's what I tried when I wanted to die
I see everything I believed then was a lie
Where I breathe, you out of breath when I don't even try
What I see, I would see still even if I was blind

God please send me a sign, I been losing my mind
I need something to show me I'm not out of time
My greed sent me down a path where I couldn't survive
So I fleed but I'll never get away from whats inside

I can't tell if I should give in or fight back now
What's this talent I was given? I got all these mask now
detmer, garrett, unknxwn., qayin, ken is of the past now
Too far to reach back now, can't get back what I had now

addiction.

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

Cos'è "camminare"? In questo gesto, così semplice e naturale, quale speciale forma di condivisione, quale emozione superindividuale si manifesta? Questo brano espone una mistica transpersonale del camminare, tra suggestioni letterarie -da Rebecca Solnit, Gary Snyder, Arlo Guthrie - e dalle tradizioni spirituali della montagna: Shin-to, Shugen-do, Prakrtilaya

CAMMINARE

This is quite a sad song written from the perspective of a person who has lost someone through suicide.

lonely days lonely nights

@alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I don't why life so hard
I can't figure out why every thought so dark
I don't taste the love my heart so parched
I know I'll be okay but right now I'm not

I don't wanna see my face
I'm all the things I hate
I'm the crack that makes me break
Don't come back, you're far too late

Devil on my shoulder
Feel my heart grow colder
I wish I could hold her
But it's too bad that I'll never know her

She's in my dreams, she won't leave
Only in my sleep I'll find peace
But I stay up all night, just wasting time
I can't get out my mind

I built the cage I'm stuck in
Lost in a void of nothing
I'm just searching for something
Better yet someone that won't hurt me

I hurt myself though, what do I expect?
My life's a mess so I wanna be dead
I try so hard to not think that
But no matter where I run it just comes back

It just comes back
It just comes back
Always comes back
Over and over, again and again

spotify.

back again. | Produced by Alex Seibel

Produced by khail

Lyrics

And I don't even know if I'm progressing or forgetting
Cause every now and then I turn up stones that I have hidden
And then I recall some things I tried to keep off
Even if you're deaf I hope you know the tree can still fall

Cause I break down and no one notices until I make a song
Your timings kind of off, you only look when I'm already gone
You only try to touch me when my sense of it is going numb
I seem a bit out of it, I don't know what is going on

Autumn inside of my soul
I'm dying, it's all getting cold
Drop all the things that're old
Make room for all the things I'll grow

I wanna hold on but I can't
How can I go on if I don't let go?
All I really wanted was to be your man
Thought you were the one but you're not, I know

It seems to be a problem when I get real with
The people in my life that I have chosen I will deal with
I'm learning not to stress out cause what's it even all worth
When every single one of us will die and lie upon dirt

Why don't all of you just fuck off?
I don't need you if you won't give all
I want every drop of what you have
You just want what seems good but it's not all

So you leave when it's not easy
I want you to love me, not need me
I don't think anyone has seen me
With the eye that's never blinking

it's not all.

Lyrics

I might swing fist at all of this
I'm stuck, it's fuck my monument
I'm sick as shit of all of it
I wanna make you feel just how I get

When I'm stuck in the back of my mind
Where no one even looks just to see if it's fine
I feel like a book that ain't got any spine
So when I turn a page, I don't know if it's mine

Love is a drug and I'm fiending
I fucking mean it
Thought she was who I should be with
But that ain't even close to attaining
I don't like this shit, wanna be faded

The fuck is this shit?
I'm not amazing
So fucking pissed
It's fucking amazing
How I could hold all this pain
Until I find the words that can take it away

I'm not a goat, I'm not a legend
I'm nothing special, I'm not eleven
I'm just a ghost, sending a message
This where my head go when I get stressin'

I'm on a road headed to nowhere
Stay out my head, ain't nobody should go there
My body soaked with all the toxic shit
I don't get how anyone could like this

Numbers don't help, I'm stuck in hell
I don't like the shit that I felt
I'm a lost cause, blow my top off
I'm on the edge, think I'ma walk off

I made an album to let go but it ain't work out
I can still feel all the hurt now
I know that I am a mess so no need to point out
All expectations I won't mount

Tell me please, am I really helping?
By talking bout all the pain that I dealt with
I can't see, who I'm affecting
So I appreciate when I get messaged

I'm just a human going through it
I got some thoughts I don't know what to do with
Other than turning it all into music
I don't what I would do if I lose it

This ain't a song, this an attempt
To show myself that I can get a grip if I really try
Because sometimes I feel like
Life ain't worth the time

Thoughts in my mind
That I don't like
I feel like I'm
Running out of time
I can't take another night

endeavor. | Produced by killedmyself

She thought I needed her
I'm leaving her
What I wanted wasnt even her
She tell me that she love me but I don't believe in her
She so full of shit with all the lies that I been feedin' her
She open like a book for me but I don't bother reading her
Man I'm such a mess
I need to invest
Time into myself
So I can heal the hole inside my chest
Bitch you playing fuckin' games 
Well I'm bouta hit reset
When I do 
Don't come crawling back I'll show no love and thats a bet

Everyone I cared about 
I feel like they leaving me
To them I am dead
But I don't think that they greiving me
Fuck it I aint gonna waste my time
I'll be fine
Soon enough 
I'll be far ahead
They'll be far behind
In my mind
They will still reside
Feelings for them I will hide
All conncetion that I had
Honestly has fucking died
I kept losing care for them
With everytime I fucking cried
Used to feel important
Till you kicked me to the fucking side

back again. | Produced by Alex Seibel

unknxwn.

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