Lyrics

Leave me here to bleed out
I'm not what you need now
Don't like who I see now
Don't know who I should be now

Can't get out of my bed
Can't forget what you said
Stuck inside of my head
I'll be okay when I'm dead

I don't like the way I am
But I don't think that I can change
Stuck inside my thoughts again
Don't know if I can get away

I'm running from everything
That makes me all that's in my way
I don't know if anything
Will ever seem to be the same

I'm not okay
I got in my own way
I lost all faith
I stopped all my old ways

Still I feel like
Shit inside my own mind
Realized one day I'll die
So I'll only do what I feel's right

Pain is painless
Change is changeless
Made my mind up
I won't change it

Don't tell me
That I'm amazing
You don't know what I felt
Just to make this

Hide who I am
You can't see what's inside me
I think if you did
Then you'd prolly not like me

Feelings are damned
I put all those behind me
Since I was a kid
I knew nobody liked me

Do I care? I do
But I'm gone act like that I don't
All I ever knew
Was people gonna treat me wrong

All the shit I do for you
But you act like I don't
Now you see I'm through with you
And you think that I'm wrong

I'm not holding back no more
I'm going the fuck off
I don't think you care no more
I swear you can fuck off

I won't be around the day you need me once again
I don't wanna survive, I wanna fucking live

Leave me here to bleed out
I'm not what you need now
Don't like who I see now
Don't know who I should be now

Can't get out of my bed
Can't forget what you said
Stuck inside of my head
I'll be okay when I'm dead

I don't like the way I am
But I don't think that I can change
Stuck inside my thoughts again
Don't know if I can get away

I'm running from everything
That makes me all that's in my way
I don't know if anything
Will ever seem to be the same

I'm not okay
I got in my own way
I lost all faith
I stopped all my old ways

Still I feel like
Shit inside my own mind
Realized one day I'll die
So I'll only do what I feel's right

choose life. | Produced by saint mike

deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

Lyrics

I can do a lot with this microphone and my thoughts
For 5 whole years I only took a couple nights off
And every time I did I met a new demon to fight off
Safe to say I learned my lesson, all I see now is progression

I don't focus on the path ahead
I been making my own sometimes don't know where to step
So sometimes I fall through, don't know where to run to
Relapse or rewind that's what I'm never gone do

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Neither would I, I'm scared of what's inside
Of this head full of thoughts that I always will hide
I barely cry cause I wasted so many tears
With the time that I did could of moved on from it

I'm a wizard, I spell out these words
Spit a verse like it's magic but some are a curse
Turn something tragic to something that's worse
Now I watch what I say cause these vibrations lurk

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Find my mind when I'm losing it, havoc I'm fluent in
Told me don't do it, I'm doing it
This beat is a drug, I'm abusing it
I don't like talking to people, I'm threw with it

I sit in front a screen just screaming
Sat in the back of class just dreaming
'Member you laughin at what I believed in
Don't come to me actin like I was believed in

truthfully.

Lyrics

I can't get away from all the shit that I'm on
I went farther than where I was, I should of stopped
I let all of the loops in my head to go on
I met death and I think I'm the one that he wants

OD, that's what I tried when I wanted to die
I see everything I believed then was a lie
Where I breathe, you out of breath when I don't even try
What I see, I would see still even if I was blind

God please send me a sign, I been losing my mind
I need something to show me I'm not out of time
My greed sent me down a path where I couldn't survive
So I fleed but I'll never get away from whats inside

I can't tell if I should give in or fight back now
What's this talent I was given? I got all these mask now
detmer, garrett, unknxwn., qayin, ken is of the past now
Too far to reach back now, can't get back what I had now

addiction.

Lyrics

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

I know some people like what I do
I know some people couldn't care less
I know part of me like what I do
I know part of me wanna progress

I don't know how much fight I got left
I don't wanna keep chasing a check
And that's not what I doing it for
But I'm just a human, I gotta pay rent

It was cool, I was only a kid
I was living with mom back then
I was making a couple of g's
Buying beats for my songs back then

That was all I was worried about
But I ain't a kid no more
I ain't saying I'm giving it up
I just can't put it all in no more

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

ain't a kid no more. | Produced by metlast

Too Soon

@alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I don't why life so hard
I can't figure out why every thought so dark
I don't taste the love my heart so parched
I know I'll be okay but right now I'm not

I don't wanna see my face
I'm all the things I hate
I'm the crack that makes me break
Don't come back, you're far too late

Devil on my shoulder
Feel my heart grow colder
I wish I could hold her
But it's too bad that I'll never know her

She's in my dreams, she won't leave
Only in my sleep I'll find peace
But I stay up all night, just wasting time
I can't get out my mind

I built the cage I'm stuck in
Lost in a void of nothing
I'm just searching for something
Better yet someone that won't hurt me

I hurt myself though, what do I expect?
My life's a mess so I wanna be dead
I try so hard to not think that
But no matter where I run it just comes back

It just comes back
It just comes back
Always comes back
Over and over, again and again

spotify.

back again. | Produced by Alex Seibel

Lyrics

I put my heart into this music tryna make it out of where I am
All the words in the world couldn't even make you understand
How much it would mean to me to make enough with ends to meet
From talking bout the shit that I don't talk about as easily

Cause I'm afraid of judgement, I'm afraid of being vulnerable
It isn't honorable when I'm put down for being true
Took so long to be myself when all I tried was being you
Cause I don't think I'm liked enough when I show leaves that I have grew

I'm kinda weird and not because it started being cool to be
But because when I was still in school they made a fool of me
Not because I did dumb shit or acted stupidly
But because I was myself when most people just couldn't be

I like who I am, don't make me second guess
Don't try make me turn into you just because you're like the rest
That shit isn't my fault that you hate yourself enough to change
For people that just want you for a moment but would never stay

And I promise that I could, I swear to God I can
But you just keep on knocking me back down till I can't even stand
So know that when I do again I'm only gonna walk away
I can say truly tried, you're the one that chose to waste

I don't regret shit, I flex on those who make me want to
Don't think you know shit when you don't know the lengths I've gone to
I'll prolly live a thousand lives by the time I die
When one thing doesn't work, I think of new shit I could try

I don't know why I feel alone when there's people all around me
I'll surprise you, don't you doubt me
I've been growing cold with the things I know, I've been floating need some grounding
Love? I try to, you won't allow me

Or won't I allow myself cause I'm scared of help
I'm afraid of a touch that I never felt
Is it my fault that I'm like this?
I don't think it is in the very slightest

I didn't break my own damn heart
I didn't write pain in my stars
I never told anyone to hate me
I'm kinda fragile, don't you break me

I'll snap at any moment I feel it in me
Had enough fake, show me something real please
I want a feeling real enough that it could kill me
Don't make me want to, just fucking end me

fragile. | Produced by INFELIX

Just wanna go back to the days when I wasnt depressed and my life wasnt shit
Cause now all I do is just cry in my bed cause I think about shit that I need to forget
When I wake up I reach straight for the shovel I'm diggin' myself deeper into the pit
Life is a puzzle but the way that we live our life puts you in a place that you dont fit

I'm seeing shit that I wish that I couldent
And I'm doing things that I wish that I wouldent
My feelings are fucked idk how to put it
I keep giving up and I know that I shouldn't
But as of recently I have no care
Don't waste my time I aint got none to spare
Said that you'd be there but now I'm like where
I dont play by the rules because life isnt fair
Used to want friends
Now I just want it to end
No longer wanna pretend
Thought I was making my way out the void
But the whole time I been falling back in
This shit is fucked
Why am I never enough
I can never call the bluff
Summer was straight 
My depression was left
But school came right
And now I feel stuck

Always inside of my bed
Sleeping on positive thoughts that are inside my head
Fighting with feelings that tear me apart that are deep inside my heart insted
You feel alive while throwing out lies but I speak the truth and I feel like I'm dead
I'll say my goodbyes and cut off my ties then open the bottle OD on the meds

Why open up? I don't see why I should
Why try to be happy when I never could
I rather fake my smile and say that I'm good
Than sayin' I'm fuckin' depressed
Sick of the shit I been givin' 
I bouta give up because
Honestly I'm fuckin' pressed
I'm gonna snap if you treat me the same as everyone else
And leave just like the rest
Warning you now not to fuck with the last of my feelings
Cause I'll do some shit I'll regret
Tell me you care whenever you can
Because if don't I'll just sit and forget
The way that I'm livin' my life
I'd honestly be better off playing russian roulette
I dont feel like I should try
I'm down in the dumps and I'm fucking upset

Unknxwn - Reject | Prod.Almight

Ice in my veins
Knives in my heart
How did I die I dont know where to start

I start to fade
Everything grey
Other than death I dont see any way

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

Bodies everywhere, and I watch em all burn
Thinkin' to myself, "did I take the wrong turn"
I make mistakes and I will never learn
Once I depart I will never return