prod raspo
mixed/mastered by getbetter

Lyrics:

rend it apart, i guess we'll move on now
i feel psychosis taking root in the scars you left
open hearts bleed courtesy of the knife 
i see my angel's wings shedding feathers in the moonlit night, okay i'm not alright

i want you to hold me tight

cause the life that i breathe through these chapped lips of mine, 
won't ever be cause enough for me to not lie 
oh and god saw you break my heart again
and i swear to him you wont get away with it
oh i was there when nobody else was, and i saw the darkness in those stale bones

oh it's clear to me, that you'll discard our history
throwing up blood as my esophagus wears down
oh the pills they saved me but the pills they hate me
twice i've met the reaper why wont he take me

you were perfect to me in everything that you do
well then i took the medicine, and i know what you did
baby you twisted my words so you could carve upon my skin
and i hate to admit it but on this liquor i depend
your soul i would defend if you were ever in need

inaction forms these complacent thoughts of mine
vertebrae collapse when i try to carry the weight
my love for you predates the day we met

i relapsed i was jus tryna see you
i ruined my life while tryna wait for you
i wish i could torch the feelings and demolish the view

fuck the excuse its always somethin new
i'm so tired i could go comatose
honestly preferable to tying the noose

cause i just wanna slip away
please don't hear this and tell me i'll be okay

tenseiga_ (raspo)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

stfu.

(unknxwn.) 
Don't know where I went wrong
Been tryna figure it out all night long
What do I do? How do I leave?
What hurts me the most is the fact that it's me

I'm what I hate, I know I'm fake
Been trying my best to learn a new way
Evil is rooted down deep in my core
If I lose it, I'd lose it, don't know what to do when

All is okay when I wake with no pain
I been hurt for so long when I'm not, I'm just grey
Look to the sky, don't know why I'm alive
Spill my heart on my art cause I can't even cry

I just wanna go away, I don't even wanna try now
I don't wanna see a face, think I might just rip my fucking eyes out
I don't wanna hear your words, they won't ever really work
They don't ever fucking heal me, shut the fuck up you don't feel me

Shut the fuck up, you don't know
All the bad stuff that I hold
In a part of my brain I won't show
To another other than me

I wish that I could though
But I know that I can't
Don't tell me that I can

(cuts)

i know im a mess and im far from the best
but i cannot change cos i feel so deranged
i know that you hate when i say im no good
i promise that i try but i wish that i could

be the person that you miss the most
that persons dead, now im just a damn ghost
you want one thats happy, not fucking depressed
but im just a human, mediocre at best

i wish i was perfect you see its impossible 
ive been so broken you cant feel responsible 

i did all of the things you would ask me to
i ask for one thing now it’s all about you
im always the bad guy that’s just how it seems
but you were projecting your mistakes onto me

you say that you hate me and you want me dead
you have no remorse and i don’t think you’ll dread
im crying and pleading while it points at my head
i didnt think it was grave but the guns in your hand

i just wanna go away w/ unknxwn. (itb)

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Where'd you go? I been on my own now
You don't wanna know about the feelings that I hold now
You don't know just what you did, don't tell me to calm down
Cause if you do now, then I'm gone burn down

Every inch of every thing, in my vicinity
I don't wanna hear a thing bitch, you were not a friend to me
You said you loved me, you we're just pretending
I'm gone make you hate me in a second, not even a minute

Fuck him, fuck you & fuck yo daughter
I thought I'd appreciate that moment that I called her
Every time I spoke to you, just made me colder
I thought I needed her but I don't even know her

Quote on quote, "hey are you okay?"
I swear to god when I read that shit, I ain't know what the fuck to say
Do I let out all this anger, let out all this pain?
On the person that I know is the whole reason I'm this way

I been sad, it's a fact, if you not in my life, not into that
Fuck the glass half full, ain't even no water done entered that
I don't know where to go, who to call? I don't know
Who's at fault? Who's the reason I be waking up and thinking

Where'd you go? I been on my own now
You don't wanna know about the feelings that I hold now
You don't know just what you did, don't tell me to calm down
Cause if you do now, then I'm gone burn down

Every inch of every thing, in my vicinity
I don't wanna hear a thing bitch, you were not a friend to me
You said you loved me, you we're just pretending
I'm gone make you hate me in a second, not even a minute

seconds, minutes.

Produced by nowhere valley

Lyrics

Winter's here now I feel at home
If you're not here then I don't have one
I feel fear when I don't feel you
How could I not fall apart when you
Left here but didn't take me there with you
I guess what you are to me I'm not that for you
Every thing that I said bad for you
I tried my fucking best to be there for you

winter.

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

Lyrics

I'm fucking up again, so God, forgive my sins
I'm losing all my friends, how did I come back to this?
I ran away till it caught up, fuck all these games tear the card's up
Don't know what this is but it's not love
My heart's put away and it's locked up
You can't save me, not like you'd give it a try though
I'm still breaking down but I sing on the high note
It's okay if you hate me, I know you used to have high hopes
Please don't chase me, if yes really meant no, I would be right
How far could I get if I really tried? Don't care about shit, if I do, then I lied
I found a genie stuck in a bottle, I wished for death, and I still havеn't died
Why can't I get out of my head? I think I'd bе better off dead
Lies making me say that again, life took me back to the bottom again

sins. (2019)

Cage Of Skin

safe and sound

safe and sound prod. cristalbeach

Lyrics

Off it to stop it, I lost it
You wanna save me but I want a coffin
You should approach me with caution
We've all got a line but I like to cross it

That door is bad but I knock it
The world's in my hands, I'ma drop it
This pill in my hand I'ma pop it
This pain that I feel I can't stop it

Heart's in a cage, need a locksmith
There ain't a second I go that I'm not pissed
If I give a fuck there's a plot twist
Cause so many fucks I do not give

There's so much to life I do not get
I'm in love with a girl that I'm not with
Life is a puzzle and I do not fit
I need a miracale, I'm out of options

Feels like I don't have a purpose, I'm worthless
If you could see through the curtains, I'm hurting
Songs are not fun, I mean every line I'm wording
I'm sorry mom, I didn't mean to be a burden

spotify.

burden. | Produced by sketchmyname x vaegud

Produced by rizi

Lyrics

Why couldn't I hold on?
Now I'm left alone with no one
I pulled it oh so far
Then it snapped and our love is gone

You saved me and in return
I sent you to Hell with a slow burn
Don't hate me, please don't turn
Into the people I've known for far too long

I think my hearts gone bad with the hate I've trapped
Don't remind of myself baby, I know that
I know you deserve what's better
I'll say I let you go but just know that I'll never

The door is always open for you
Until I die I'll be waiting for you to come through
I never lied and I guess that's just why I hurt you
You're not by my side and I just wish that I could hold you

I'll try to move on but I know that I won't
I'll find a new one and try to heal what I broke
Could we have worked out? I guess that I'll never know
Not what I set out but another heart that broke

Another innocent soul that I just taught to not trust
We built up a lot, I missed a screw now it's all dust
Sorry about that, I never thought that
If I stopped for a minute you'd be gone when I come back