Produced by Yago

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up it's a bad time
Nic it up my heart rate, I won't flat line
If I do don't even matter, fuck my life I'll trash mine
I am not a good guy, you just haven't seen my bad side

Wanna grab a gun, cock it, put it at my brain
I know that ain't right but I am tired of the pain
Every time I meet a bitch they make me insane
Fuck all this shit, I been stuck in the rain

I don't want no friends but I do
I am just so fucked up don't know what to do
All I do is smoke nicotine in my room
Making all these songs over beats, making tunes

I just wanna love, I don't think I can
Even if I told you, you won't understand
That bitch had me fucked up, left me in a trance
I'ma get my bucks up, watch me do my dance

Tried to give you my heart, you wanna give me hate
Lil bitch I'm on my grind, you gonna watch me skate
I'ma get cash, I'ma get bands, lil bitch I broke that bank
Promise you the day I can, hop on a plane get out of state

fkdupfreestyle! | Produced by Yago

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

im jus speaking with my chest
i wanna runaway from this music
and one day go start fresh
cuz i think im starting 2 lose it
and my mind starts to forget
and idk if this music 
will make it any better

everyday im feeling less
got zero time and so much stress
i wonder when this all gon end
i hope that its soon idk tho
idk tho
hopefully my life gon change
where the lights go?

and im feeling so cold
and idk where 2 go
slowly losing home
so i got no hope

all them years have passed 
counting cash
im on the high road
i wish love would last
falling flat
girl im so done
ill have a heart attack
karmas back, give it to me
and ive been waiting for the day
but the days seem the same 2 me

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

enemy [under the maple tree]

Produced by luffy x sorrow bringer

Lyrics

I said I was done, yet I'm right back here again
I think that I’m fucked, I think I gave into that fear again
Stood up, fell back, let you go, came back, I don't know where you're at
I got a problem, you're the only one that can solve that
All of these goddamn years, everything that I did, but you can't call back
She a bitch, she a female dog, gave her my heart, she mauled that
I just sent you a text, that shit turned green, I guess you blocked that
Swear this shit just pissed me off, finna throw my fist where the wall at
Don't wanna hear you talk, I do not care at all, don't wanna hear all that
Why you wasting my time? Why you wanna mess with my mind?
Why you wanna reach back out now? You ain’t reach out all that time
I know I said I was done, I don't need to hear you tell me
‘Cause everything I do, don't help nobody else except me
I can't tell the truth 'cause if I do, you won't accept me
Thoughts go back and forth like air hockey, this shit ain’t healthy
Love ain’t got no price tag, even if I was rich, couldn't buy that
‘Cause I gave you all I had and loved you for what you are
And you still did me so bad, left me for a niggah that live in a car
But no matter where you live, you'll live inside my heart
And you always know what to say to get me to start falling apart
Don't go in my mind, I’m telling you now, you better off swimming with sharks
If it was between you loving me and putting a needle inside of the eye of the other
I’m better off taking that shot in the dark

needle in the haystack.

Produced by luffy

Lyrics

No one ever told me it could get this dark down here
I don't get it, I don't understand, I don't know why I'm here
I learn all these things about what it means to be alive but I don't ever feel alive

I got colors on the palette for some reason I can't paint it
I lost what I had then, what it was I can't explain it
I'm not what you want but I need what you are
I got all these thoughts but I can't see what they are

I'm a corpse of who I was, I'm just a ghost, I'm a nobody
Waking up feel forced, I'm fucking stuck, this ain't a hobby
Tried to let it go but they told me that they own me
Wrong is where I go, I'm not alive, I'm just a zombie

I got something in my soul that I can't get out anymore
I used to be sure but I'm not so sure anymore
I miss who I was but I can't be him anymore
I don't wanna do this, not again, not anymore

Because no one ever told me it could get this dark down here
I don't get it, I don't understand, I don't know why I'm here
I learn all these things about what it means to be alive but I don't ever feel alive

Told her I would follow her through any door
Then she said, "I don't love you anymore"
She ain't stab me in my back with a knife, she used a sword
Everything I feel is black, I don't see color anymore

I think I'm drowning, can somebody help me?
I don't think I meant for the dreams I'm always having
They'll always be dreams and I'll always have to wake up
Always have to clock in and always wear this make up

Make you think I'm okay cause you could never save me anyway
Reminisce on old days cause I won't ever feel happy any day

trauma tempo.

Replaced/Losing me

everything by me

thank you for being here.
take care; as well as you can, as you are

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you liar

cups rest beside the bed that keeps the body tied
a slow end, he'll try again yet something isn't right
it's pouring, as water runs the lungs of flooded eyes
the morning has led the wren to question it's own life

doesn't mean it don't exist if you don't feel it
the bat got me taking flight purging all villians
my whole life all i've known is a cold feeling
gripping vices alike, become the known illest
soul-stealing homes appeal him most
taken of his own and made a host
supplement contrived of what he knows
jeopardized, but it don't seem to show

cycling roads end, dividing unknown land
i'd rather be scarred than left deep in the heartless
those cursed of sight find contentment in low strides
somehow he's been alright, yeah right, what a bold lie

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you liar

halving days, another broken ballad
dissonance within of what is valid
turn your back against it when you hear it,
cowardice convincing you it's fearless
staring down the mirror will suck you in
i do it just to feel it all again
sensitized of strife yet still indifferent
reconnaissance of his creating distance

(4x)
i know it's gonna hurt but i let it,
i know it's gonna hurt, but i let it as i've been, yeah

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you lia-

thornmade

don't want this to end

Produced by kinderyessir & viannoo

Lyrics

*auditory agony*

Please come back, can you hold my hand?
I don't know where I'm at, I don't know where I am
I'm on a plane that's all out of gas and I'm over an ocean, don't know where to land
I wanna change, I don't know if I can
I ain't got nothing left, you were all that I had
I'm out of breath, gave it all I had
Wish I could care but I know I can't

Don't say you care when you can't tell me
Know I'm fucked but you can't help me
Don't waste yo time, you might as well leave
I ain't been fine since you ain't been with me

Already know how this go
So you just might as well go
You ain't gotta waste my time
And I don't really need to waste yours

Say that I don't but I need her
She say she love me but I don't believe her
I'm not a man, I'm a creature
I wear your skin but you shouldn't look deeper

You might see something you shouldn't
Gave it my all and I'm done
I don't make music for fun
And I don't make music for funds 

Please come back, can you hold my hand?
I don't really know where I am
I'm on a plane that's all out of gas
I don't really even know where to land
I wanna change, I don't know if I can
Nothing left, you were all that I had
I'm out of breath, gave it all I had
Wish I could care but I know I can't

I'm in a body but I'm not alive, I'm just tryna survive, I don't even know how to breathe
She don't care about me so don't even try
Even if you did, it wouldn't mean shit to me
Don't try to bring me back, I don't wanna
I'm fine where I'm at, I don't wanna go farther
I don't wanna get better, don't bother
I be telling myself don't call her

When I open my eyes, no color
You were supposed to be mine, no other
I got stuck in a loop, can’t recover
Heart full of scars that I never can cover

*auditory agony*

i stopped pretending this was music.

lyrics:
well there's no saving me
if you think that i be trippin it's the same for me
when i die don't want no fame on me
i'm such a wreck that i feel guilty if you pray for me

i put the blame on me
and i think its necessary when i hate on me
cause myself is still the bane of me
the only enemy i have is all the pain in me

i gotta stop when i talk like that
i cannot break it in my mind and then it get right back
a ghost inside me that i cant fight back
i cannot change it any more than i can change my past

i'm everything i hate
i cant escape i hit the cart until i'm MIA
i know i sealed my fate
when i finally came to terms but now i'm not okay

like, who let me get this way
you don't know me i'm a bomb boutta go off
blue poison in my veins
left for dead i need a map now im so lost

Blame

for the cloud
enjoy; thank you for listening.
thank you for being here.
take care🖤

prodby @wraithontheporch & @solofttt 
<3

it's stormin',
copper threads up on my chest;
electrified, got not time, i need no breath;
i'm still a wreck and savor every sip i can,
berry juice and cardi, but i really need a friend
okay, weathered down and soaking wet
hear that? death ain't want me over yet
fear glands washing through a sober land
makeshift oasis in cold hands

out of luck, sippin' nothing but the water in my cup
only after what i touch;
sorry, should've clarified, i'm getting fucked up
but that's my lunch, skip the hunch, pressing trust
parasites on the screen, double tapped just to feed
i ain't human, i'm a fiend, from the flower to a seed
pardon me, the only love i know recedes, then repeats

but someday i'll be okay,
somehow, in some way
i think i lost mine, yea

got sick shit like patients, cuss him out lacking patience 
boy's aimless, ain't the greatest,
but i'm wine, bitch, when i'm aging
stay whining and frustrated, son, i'm sowing this fermentation
even six feet, feeling rays hit
if ion like it, i'm erasing

lighting up like i'm goku, a straight super saiyan when the clouds move
like it's circuitry, y'all made soft, get my rocks off and electrocute
penning this like riolu, got a force palm, get the flow smooth
got my chest spinning from these palpitations, but i'll grind you up like it's jamba juice

baring heavy haze through a midday
feelings strong, but the words stay
said "he's too calm to be worsening"
guess i'm better off being two-faced
two liter for the throat pains
burning out like i'm propane and she's melting down when the weather change,
but i'm just tryna hear the birds sing

feel like i'm losing, is it that i'm useless?
give it all to the music, only time that he's fusing
indefinite bruising, steady rebuking
fuck it, i'm cruisin', contentment is ruin

got sick shit like patients, cuss him out lacking patience 
boy's aimless, ain't the greatest,
but i'm wine bitch, when i'm aging
stay whining and frustrated, son, i'm sowing this fermentation
even six feet, feeling rays hit
if ion like it, i'm erasing

vermin/virtues (wraithontheporch x soloft)

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Tracklist:

	1.	00:00 – 00:18 – Till the Sun Comes Up
	2.	00:18 – 00:41 – Break of Dawn
	3.	00:41 – 00:59 – Fly
	4.	00:59 – 01:14 – Drop it Like a Bomb I
	5.	01:14 – 01:30 – Drop it Like a Bomb II
	6.	01:30 – 01:49 – Bittersweet
	7.	01:49 – 02:09 – Aggression
	8.	02:09 – 02:25 – Electric Fire
	9.	02:25 – 02:45 – Get Wild
	10.	02:45 – 03:00 – Everybody Dance I
	11.	03:00 – 03:15 – Everybody Dance II
	12.	03:15 – 03:39 – Everybody Dance III
	13.	03:39 – 04:00 – Null I
	14.	04:00 – 04:23 – Overloaded
	15.	04:23 – 04:46 – The song on the Radio I
	16.	04:46 – 05:06 – The song on the Radio II
	17.	05:06 – 05:26 – The Battle of the Ages
	18.	05:26 – 05:41 – Rebel I
	19.	05:41 – 06:00 – Rebel II
	20.	06:00 – 06:14 – Repeat
	21.	06:14 – 06:27 – Burn it Down I
	22.	06:27 – 06:49 – Burn it Down II
	23.	06:49 – 07:10 – Burn it Down III
	24.	07:10 – 07:34 – The seagull Got Away
	25.	07:34 – 07:49 – I’m the One
	26.	07:49 – 08:09 – Habibi
	27.	08:09 – 08:31 – Get Down I
	28.	08:31 – 08:44 – Get Down II
	29.	08:44 – 08:57 – Get Down III
	30.	08:57 – 09:09 – Get Down IIII
	31.	09:09 – 09:26 – Null II
	32.	09:26 – 09:35 – Round and Round
	33.	09:35 – 09:48 – Breath, Girl
	34.	09:48 – 09:58 – Raw and Unfiltered I
	35.	09:58 – 09:59 – Raw and Unfiltered II


i stopped pretending this was music.

unknxwn.