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lyrics:

(cyzun)
You broke me 
no point of return
 no coping
 put my body in a urn
 just smoke me
nobody was there to hold me 
but you were just there to fold me
I trusted everything you told me
wish that the voices in my head could stop talking
you left me in the cold with nothing

I’m so alone I guess it’s better
Don't call my phone I wish I never met her
She heart ripped out
blood on my neck 
I can’t get out 
the words in my chest 
I wanna shout
I wanna be dead 
I can’t figure out
What’s the reason
Fuck life cause nothing goes right 
Pissed of cause I wasted my time
All black fit at my funeral
that’s what I wear on the usual
black nail polish stuck in my cuticles 
don’t cry cause I feel better dead and cold

(unknxwn.)
Soul dead and cold, I been lost, where to go now?
My life getting old, what to do? I don't know now
I might lose it if I don't make music
If I ain't do this, I'd truly be clueless

All I got in life is me, that's all I need
Fuck her, ran away, went to hiding
Came back in my life just to hurt me
I don't know why, I think she really cursed me

Can't let go, don't want to
You're bad for me but I want you
I'm an addict for your love, I get so sick
When I cannot call you, I hope that you know it

Been so hard to make songs as of lately
I been praying to god to come take me
All this pain is a lot, why you hate me?
Gave you everything I got oh baby

dead and cold w/ unknxwn. (hxrxkiller)

Lyrics

Never good enough, everyone gives up
Death beggin' trash, my life fucking sucks
Or maybe it doesn't and I am just searching for attention
Cause I just want my name to be mentioned
I'm missing everyone that I ever had
I saw the future, now I'm in the past
I tried to be careful, I still fucking crashed
I would hit em up but the deadline has passed
Friendship has flatlined, remember that time
You said you cared and would be right by my side
Too bad that life isn't a fairy tale
You said you'd be here now I'm like, where? Oh well
I can't get over this shit, I just want this shit to be over with
I can't get over this, I can't get over this shit
I just want this shit to be over with
I can't get over this shit, I just want this shit to be over with
I can't get over this, I can't get over this shit
I just want this shit to be over with
I can't get over this shit, I just want this shit to be over with
I can't get over this, I can't get over this shit
I just want this shit to be over with, oh well

i can't get over this.

Lyrics

Winter's here now I feel at home
If you're not here then I don't have one
I feel fear when I don't feel you 
How could I not fall apart when you
Left here but didn't take me there with you
I guess what you are to me I'm not that for you
Every thing that I said bad for you
I tried my fucking best to be there for you

winter. | Produced by nowhere valley

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Where'd you go? I been on my own now
You don't wanna know about the feelings that I hold now
You don't know just what you did, don't tell me to calm down
Cause if you do now, then I'm gone burn down

Every inch of every thing, in my vicinity
I don't wanna hear a thing bitch, you were not a friend to me
You said you loved me, you we're just pretending
I'm gone make you hate me in a second, not even a minute

Fuck him, fuck you & fuck yo daughter
I thought I'd appreciate that moment that I called her
Every time I spoke to you, just made me colder
I thought I needed her but I don't even know her

Quote on quote, "hey are you okay?"
I swear to god when I read that shit, I ain't know what the fuck to say
Do I let out all this anger, let out all this pain?
On the person that I know is the whole reason I'm this way

I been sad, it's a fact, if you not in my life, not into that
Fuck the glass half full, ain't even no water done entered that
I don't know where to go, who to call? I don't know
Who's at fault? Who's the reason I be waking up and thinking

Where'd you go? I been on my own now
You don't wanna know about the feelings that I hold now
You don't know just what you did, don't tell me to calm down
Cause if you do now, then I'm gone burn down

Every inch of every thing, in my vicinity
I don't wanna hear a thing bitch, you were not a friend to me
You said you loved me, you we're just pretending
I'm gone make you hate me in a second, not even a minute

seconds, minutes.

Produced by R3DQX & discent

Lyrics

A while ago, I said I was gone be better
That was years ago, I still ain't no fucking better
I just learned to hide it in places you won't find it
You just can't get close enough to me to see behind this

Mask that I put on, really think that I'm gone die with it
Cause I just won't take it off cause I get frightened
When you can see me for what I really am inside
I don't like myself so loving me why would you even try?

I know you don't care so you ain't gotta fucking lie
Tread on me careful cause I don't care about my life
I'll take you with me if I choose to end it
You should think twice about fucking with my feelings

Cause I ain't got too many left at all
Can't seem to catch my fucking breath at all
So if you choose to involve yourself at all with me
You should really try to see what I don't want you to see

Girl I ain't really even that great
And I don't wanna ruin your day
So if you choose to stay
I want you to know that the blame won't be on me

Don't want you to say no stupid shit like:
"Should of told me what you were in it for before you fucking broke me"
Cause I know that I did, who I want can't find her
I might be an asshole but I'm not a liar

A while ago, I said I was gone be better
That was years ago, I still ain't no fucking better
I just learned to hide it in places you won't find it
You just can't get close enough to me to see behind this

Mask that I put on, really think that I'm gone die with it
Cause I just won't take it off cause I get frightened
When you can see me for what I really am inside
I don't like myself so loving me why would you even try?

years ago, a while ago.

@xweepings

Produced by R3DQX x luffy

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

I told you I wouldn't leave, you told me, you wanna go
All those flags that I would see, didn't wanna believe, I didn't know
I was so caught up in my own pathetic lil world didn't care bout yours
Or maybe I did and you just told me how I was shit till that was the only

Way that I could see myself, I don't think I can be helped now
All that I wanted was death, I'm tryna get back my breathe now
I know I say some things that could be taken the wrong way
If you could see in my brain, prolly would take it the wrong way

Cause I know that I'm different, most people wouldn't get it
I don't care bout an image, I care bout what I'm feeling
Even if I say I don't, even if I make myself believe
That death is what I really want cause I'm still here tryna live my dream

But I'm stuck in a nightmare and I don't really like it
I don't wanna go fight fear so I just fucking hide it
Nothing but this music really gets me excited
I'll choose this over you and I don't care if you don't like it

Cause this is all I had when I was on the brink back then
With everything that happened, my music was my bandage
My music was my savior whenever there was danger
There ain't nothing safer, not even my maker

| weepings |

I would choose music over her in a second
I'm scared of my dreams but each day they still beckon
I got a voice that I use as a weapon
I take all my pain and turn that to a record
Got many addictions I'd rather not mention
I struggle each day just to pick up the pencil
I don't wanna run from my own potential
At war with myself I constantly wrestle

Look up in the mirror; I don't know that face no more
Clear liquor gone burn my fate, still pour
Got a pain in my gut but I still ignore
Sure it's clear as day but at night need more
When I lost you, lost a piece of myself
Never thought you was the type to bring hell
Now I'm going back to school
Feels like a white flag but does not conclude this shit

weepings & unknxwn. - not even.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

Produced by kledyy

Lyrics

I opened up my chest, laid it bare for you
I pulled out my heart, something I never do
I scraped out the pain, every secret, every scar
I was hoping that you’d see me but you always stayed so far

I gave you the pieces, every single one with care
I was hoping that you’d hold them but you just left them there
I poured out my soul, let you see it all
But you never even caught me when I began to fall

I scraped it clean, down to the core
Gave you the love I’d never shown before
But you turned away, left me bleeding out
Now I’m hollow inside and I'm filled with doubt
I gave you my heart, every piece that I could
But you never would love me in the way that I thought that you would

You were the light I reached for in the dark
The warmth that I chased to mend my broken heart
I showed you all of the places I hide
The ghost of my past that I kept deep inside

Now there's nothing left but an empty space
Echoes of a love that time itself won't ever erase

i've scraped my heart clean to give you everything i possibly could.

Lyrics

I wish I had back my friends, I just wanna turn the time back
Losing another I love, I don't know if I can take that
I replace pain with a drug, mom ask about it, I fake that
One day I'll stop doing pills but until then let me take that

I stay up late watching movies 'cause I just see sleep as a skip to the next day
And every time that I wake up I'm just hoping that I don't succeed to the next day
It's so fucking bad, I'm always angry but I'm never mad
Fucking depressed, I'm not just feeling sad, I wish that my body was inside a bag

I wish that I wasn't awake, I wish it was all just a dream, I wish it was all fucking clear
There's always a read in-between, and I fucking hate it, it sucks
Always asking why I'm not enough
I'd end it all if I could, put a knife into my fucking gut

unknxwn. - If I could.

i'd end it all if i could. (2017)

I Didn't See It Coming (with sorrow bringer)

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run