Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

stfu.

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

You think I'm okay but
I won't be okay cause
I know you're not with me
And I just keep pretending

That one day you'll come back
But that won't ever happen
Why the fuck this happen?
I wish I could go back in

I don't know what I need but I want you
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm not
Dude what the fuck did I ever do to deserve this?
All I ever needed was you but I'm worthless

I said I don't know what I need but I...
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm...
Dude what the fuck did I ever do...
All I ever needed was just you

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

i don't wanna run.

@xweepings

Produced by p4ra

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Wish I ain't wake up, don't like what I see in this world
When I'm sleep I can be with that girl
Pulling my strings til I unfurl
Get in my bed and I just curl up in ball

And I look at the sky and I ask god why in the fuck can't I cry?
Is it because I'm numb? Is it cause I'm fucked?
Is it cause I ain't even enough for the tears in my body
To not even want me? god what in the fuck do you even want from me?

I don't feel love from no damn body
I ain't got trust for no damn body
I wish I was just some damn body
To some damn body, I'm no damn body

When I'm dead don't no damn body
Come acting like they just lost somebody

Cause I swear to god that they didn't
I had a life and they never was in it
If anyone cries that that isn't my mom or my girl
They fucking pretending

And if they isn't
Why in the fuck they ain't listen?
To all of my cries for help in all of my songs
I know they heard one

| weepings |

I wake up each day and I dream of escape
I'm done pretending I'm okay
I can't trust another, not even my brothers
Stay isolated in my cave
Sure I'm just another case
Just a number on a page
What is the point if one day I'll just be a name upon a grave
Still I try so hard to keep my head on straight
There's still some things I love
But even more I hate
I know I drink too much
So much time I waste
Swear these past few months can't recognize my face

| unknxwn. |

Wish I ain't wake up, don't like what I see in this world
When I'm sleep I can be with that girl
Pulling my strings til I unfurl
Get in my bed and I just curl up in ball

And I look at the sky and I ask god why in the fuck can't I cry?
Is it because I'm numb? Is it cause I'm fucked?
Is it cause I ain't even enough for the tears in my body
To not even want me? god what in the fuck do you even want from me?

I don't feel love from no damn body
I ain't got trust for no damn body
I wish I was just some damn body
To some damn body, I'm no damn body

When I'm dead don't no damn body
Come acting like they just lost somebody

weepings & unknxwn. - nobody.

@xweepings

Produced by R3DQX x luffy

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

I told you I wouldn't leave, you told me, you wanna go
All those flags that I would see, didn't wanna believe, I didn't know
I was so caught up in my own pathetic lil world didn't care bout yours
Or maybe I did and you just told me how I was shit till that was the only

Way that I could see myself, I don't think I can be helped now
All that I wanted was death, I'm tryna get back my breathe now
I know I say some things that could be taken the wrong way
If you could see in my brain, prolly would take it the wrong way

Cause I know that I'm different, most people wouldn't get it
I don't care bout an image, I care bout what I'm feeling
Even if I say I don't, even if I make myself believe
That death is what I really want cause I'm still here tryna live my dream

But I'm stuck in a nightmare and I don't really like it
I don't wanna go fight fear so I just fucking hide it
Nothing but this music really gets me excited
I'll choose this over you and I don't care if you don't like it

Cause this is all I had when I was on the brink back then
With everything that happened, my music was my bandage
My music was my savior whenever there was danger
There ain't nothing safer, not even my maker

| weepings |

I would choose music over her in a second
I'm scared of my dreams but each day they still beckon
I got a voice that I use as a weapon
I take all my pain and turn that to a record
Got many addictions I'd rather not mention
I struggle each day just to pick up the pencil
I don't wanna run from my own potential
At war with myself I constantly wrestle

Look up in the mirror; I don't know that face no more
Clear liquor gone burn my fate, still pour
Got a pain in my gut but I still ignore
Sure it's clear as day but at night need more
When I lost you, lost a piece of myself
Never thought you was the type to bring hell
Now I'm going back to school
Feels like a white flag but does not conclude this shit

weepings & unknxwn. - not even.

@xweepings

Produced by flower x luffy

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Fucked up how we ended but I'm grateful that it happened with you
I ain't ever felt the feelings that I'm having with you
I ain't ever felt as happy than when laughing with you
I can't tell you the truth, unless I'm in the booth

We're connected, if you hurtin' then I'm feelin' it too
Can't connect with all these other fucking versions of you
You the only fucking human on this planet
I would ever even take a moment just to make a plan with

I was so upset the day you left, ain't understand it
Dealing with a broken heart you left, I couldn't stand it
I would lay in bed all day, thinking about those days
When I ain't think that we would ever meet the end of it

Us apart? Can't deal with it, tryna find some new I'm finished with
I wake up just wishing it was all a dream this living shit
I can't do this no more, honestly my soul sore
Don't look in that closed door, why the fuck you think it's closed for?

I keep all my skeletons in there with this feeling that I'm in
I thought I was better than when I was in my past
I can't ever get over this wall, it'd be better to jump off and fall
Your life's better when I'm not involved, if you're not in mine I don't have one at all

Fucked up how we ended but I'm grateful that it happened with you
I ain't ever felt the feelings that I'm having with you
I ain't ever felt as happy than when laughing with you
I can't tell you the truth, unless I'm in the booth

We're connected, if you hurtin' then I'm feelin' it too
Can't connect with all these other fucking versions of you
You the only fucking human on this planet
I would ever even take a moment just to make a plan with

| weepings |

You were so perfect so how could this be anything but my fault?
Claim that I'm fine but behind the curtains I wake up on asphalt
I need you now more than ever; I still got your lipstick stains on top my sweater

Only one I want is you I don't want anybody else
Words they cut and actions bruise, I'm just her puppet on the shelf
Hate I'm caught up in her spell, I can't function by myself
Just a shadow of who I once was in this self created hell

Time keeps moving and I keep on proving that I'm stuck inside the past
Girl you still run through my head at times, I'm 6 deep in these cans
In this pain I'm fluent, girl I miss you and I wanna feel your hand
But you took a fucking torch and scorched up all our fucking plans

Only one I want is you I don't want anybody else
Words they cut and actions bruise, I'm just her puppet on the shelf
Hate I'm caught up in her spell, I can't function by myself
Just a shadow of who I once was in this self created hell

weepings & unknxwn. - disaster.

Produced by soprettyanxiety, Nuxe & Coward

This song is an intense and raw reflection of my internal struggle, creative frustrations, and the pressure to meet external expectations. It reveals the depth of my pain, the ways I’ve used music as a coping mechanism, and the realization that something essential was missing throughout it all. From a faith-based perspective, this song represents a moment of reckoning—a realization that no amount of external validation or creative expression can fill the void that only God can complete.

The Missing Piece:

“This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I’m missing a piece.”

This line beautifully conveys the feeling of incompleteness. In the Bible, this missing piece is often identified as the absence of a relationship with God. No matter how complete the “image” appears, the soul longs for something more—God’s presence.

Scripture reminder:

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." (John 15:5)

The Frustration with External Expectations:

“They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don’t know that he hated that shit.”

This reflects the weight of being misunderstood by not only my audience but in the world. I've carried the burden of creating art that resonated with others but didn’t align with your inner truth. 

Scripture reminder:

“Am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” (Galatians 1:10)

Questioning Your Path:

“Oh my God, which of my turns were wrong? I can’t find out, I been here way too long.”

This moment of desperation acknowledges the need for guidance. The Bible encourages us to seek wisdom and trust God’s direction in our lives.

Scripture reminder:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Lyrics

They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don't know that he hated that shit
They don't know that he needed to scream, that he needed to sing to get out that ditch
Yeah the lyrics were deep but the shit he was saying did not feel complete
This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I'm missing a piece

I might swing fist at all of this
I'm stuck, it's fuck my monument
I'm sick as shit of all of it
I wanna make you feel just how I get

When I'm stuck in the back of my mind
Where no one even looks just to see if it's fine
I feel like a book that ain't got any spine
So when I turn a page, I don't know if it's mine

Resonate with that song so much I can't make a part 2 and say one single line
Sick of these comments coming from people that don't got a life tryna comment on mine
"Hey, unknxwn. you fell off with rock" "Hey, unknxwn. I'm missing the old shit"
"Hey, unknxwn. I fuck with you a lot" I DON'T CARE! CAN YOU GET OFF OF MY DICK?

SAY YOU LOVE ME, YOU THINK THAT I CARE BITCH?
ALL I CARE ABOUT ME, NO ONE ELSE BITCH
WHAT I SAY AT THE START ABOUT SCREAMING?
IF I DON'T THEN I CAN'T GET UP OUT THIS

I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'D BE IF WITHOUT THIS
REALLY AM BUT I ACT LIKE I'M NOT PISSED
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, OUT OF OPTIONS
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, I CAN'T STOP IT

They miss unknxwn. when he rapped like this, they don't know that he hated that shit
They don't know that he needed to scream, that he needed to sing to get out that ditch
Yeah the lyrics were deep but the shit he was saying did not feel complete
This is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that I'm missing a piece

Oh my God, which of my turns were wrong?
I can't find out, I been here way too long

this is my puzzle so you see the image but you cannot tell that i'm missing a piece.

Wasting My Time Freestyle

all credit to:
https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

lyrics : 
i feel not alive
fighting my mind trying not to die
dont know how to deal with the pain inside
so i make a song put the pain inside
every time i feel alone i got nowhere to go
they dont see the pain i got no one to show
this graph of mine goes lower and lower
one day i hope that its over
fuck my life
will i go to sleep no not tonight
i just wanna see that fucking light
i dont wanna live another night
when the moon comes up so do my problems
like algebra i cant solve em
fuck one cup
i need the bottle
i dont cut but im self harming
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today

weepings & unknxwn. - not even.

unknxwn.

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