Lyrics

I can't stop this fucking bullshit
My life is some fucking bullshit
My past was some fucking bullshit
My future some fucking bullshit

My songs are so fucking morbid
Breathing I am fucking bored with
My life might be fucking shortened
I don't think that I'm important

You could never hurt me because I'm my biggest enemy
Everyone deserts me and you don't know what that did to me
You don't wanna know about the shit that I got hid in me
They're dark and they're bad, put my body in a bag

Demons all around, it don't matter where I go
I find solace in the sound and I feel hopeless when I don't
Got fans all over the world but I'm stuck in this fucking room
I can't stop feeling this pain and I don't know what else to do

Am I stuck? Am I fucked? Am I shit out of luck?
Will I burn when I die? Have I lost my fucking mind?
I'ma waste, I'ma burden, I won't ever stop this hurtin'
I can't take what I been holdin', I'm so sick of feelin' hopeless

I can't stop this fucking bullshit
My life is some fucking bullshit
My past was some fucking bullshit
My future some fucking bullshit

My songs are so fucking morbid
Breathing I am fucking bored with
My life might be fucking shortened
Don't think that I'm important

enemy.

delusional. (freestyle/unmixed) | Produced by emma

Produced by flower

Lyrics

Wait right here, I'll be back in the morning
Don't know why I still call, I know you'll ignore it
Don't know why I care at all, I'm not important
Told me that you needed space but you just needed more him

Less me, you won't help me
Think about you all the time, I know that this ain't healthy
So sad, you're the best I ever had
And I gotta cope with the fact that you wish you never met me

Never learned to let go, all I know is hold on
Baby hold on, you're all that I know
I'm incapable of moving on, so I can't go on
You left me for him but babygirl I don't got no one

Don't got no one, babygirl I'm broken
Don't try to save me cause I know it's hopeless
Why you hate me? Never did you no wrong
Should've known that you were faking when you said you'll come

Pick me up, save me from my doom
They think that I'm great, I just scream inside a room
All I know is pain so I turn it to a tune
By the time that I'm done, don't know what I turned into

Don't know what I turned into, I don't know what I should do
I been talking to myself cause I cannot talk to you
Mean I can but I know that you won't care
Where you at? Told me that you'd always be here
Fuck this, I don't wanna be here
You said be right back but you went to see him
I won't ever see you again, I won't ever see you again

i'll be back in the morning.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

Produced by flower x luffysome

Lyrics

She was my queen, I thought I was her king but she jacked up my heart, I got played like some cards
I don't know why you left, I don't know why you ran, girl you know that I'll find you wherever you are
Did you think we were done? Girl, I'm sam I am, I can have you near, I can have you far
Girl my life won't be better, my life won't be okay
Until the day that I have your heart

She was my queen, I thought I was her king so I trusted her but she fucked me over
I got a void in my chest, it won't be put to rest until her life is fucking over
Girl I'm just playing, I need you alive if you're dead then there isn't a purpose in mine
Either I'm tryna get you or I'm the one with you

Yeah you might feel what I'm sayin', you do not know what I been through
Hold up this wasn't the plan, I don't know what I got myself into
Bitch, why in the fuck is you playin'? You can't get rid of me that simple
Acting like I ain't ever did shit when you know damn well that I did though

Why you gotta be like that? Beat me down, make me so sad
You ain't gotta do all that, can you keep me around? You're all that I have
Baby can you please come back? Who I was before you, I can't go back
They say that hearts don't have bones...how the fuck she broke that?

*auditory agony*

until the day i have your heart.

Produced by septefree

Lyrics

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mask some more

And I wear it so proudly I don’t want nobody else around me
When I’m like this because I already know
They’ll tell me thеy care even though that thеy don’t
Don’t understand but they say that they do
You don’t feel me and I don’t feel you
I close my eyes and pretend that it’s you when she talking to me if I’m telling the truth
I don’t know what I want, if I can’t have you, I don’t want no one
‘Cause you’re all I want but you don’t want me
I don’t know what I did that would make you leave
Can you tell me why you left what we had to be with that guy?
You’ll always be perfect inside my eyes, I built a home for you in my mind

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is that you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mess some more

if i can't have you.

Depressed

..........for when the music stops

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The Mirror

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run

Unknxwn. - GOD

Just wanna go back to the days when I wasnt depressed and my life wasnt shit
Cause now all I do is just cry in my bed cause I think about shit that I need to forget
When I wake up I reach straight for the shovel I'm diggin' myself deeper into the pit
Life is a puzzle but the way that we live our life puts you in a place that you dont fit

I'm seeing shit that I wish that I couldent
And I'm doing things that I wish that I wouldent
My feelings are fucked idk how to put it
I keep giving up and I know that I shouldn't
But as of recently I have no care
Don't waste my time I aint got none to spare
Said that you'd be there but now I'm like where
I dont play by the rules because life isnt fair
Used to want friends
Now I just want it to end
No longer wanna pretend
Thought I was making my way out the void
But the whole time I been falling back in
This shit is fucked
Why am I never enough
I can never call the bluff
Summer was straight 
My depression was left
But school came right
And now I feel stuck

Always inside of my bed
Sleeping on positive thoughts that are inside my head
Fighting with feelings that tear me apart that are deep inside my heart insted
You feel alive while throwing out lies but I speak the truth and I feel like I'm dead
I'll say my goodbyes and cut off my ties then open the bottle OD on the meds

Why open up? I don't see why I should
Why try to be happy when I never could
I rather fake my smile and say that I'm good
Than sayin' I'm fuckin' depressed
Sick of the shit I been givin' 
I bouta give up because
Honestly I'm fuckin' pressed
I'm gonna snap if you treat me the same as everyone else
And leave just like the rest
Warning you now not to fuck with the last of my feelings
Cause I'll do some shit I'll regret
Tell me you care whenever you can
Because if don't I'll just sit and forget
The way that I'm livin' my life
I'd honestly be better off playing russian roulette
I dont feel like I should try
I'm down in the dumps and I'm fucking upset