Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

God I don't know where to go now
I been here too long, it's old now
Write these songs to get my hopes out
I know I sound negative but that's not what it really is

I just never learned a language
That was not within the anguish
Even in the times of happiness, whatever that is
It was only just distraction from whatever this is

I can feel it building up now
I don't know when it'll come out
But I know that when it does though
You don't wanna be within scope

I'll hurt everyone around me
When I can't please the one's around me
When I can't take them up the mountain
At least I know that I can show them where the ground is

anguish. | Produced by HELL$HOT

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

Produced by nowhere valley

Lyrics

Winter's here now I feel at home
If you're not here then I don't have one
I feel fear when I don't feel you
How could I not fall apart when you
Left here but didn't take me there with you
I guess what you are to me I'm not that for you
Every thing that I said bad for you
I tried my fucking best to be there for you

winter.

slumber.

Produced by gaxillc

Lyrics

Fuck what I did cause I hate what I'm doing
Is life really worth it? I feel like it's stupid
Detmer told Garrett "Shut the fuck up and do it"
Ken is so useless, unknxwn. just wants music

I found a fire but I been so cold for so long
Something tells to put this bitch out
Lost my desire, I don't wanna hold anyone
If the songs that I made ain't about

Misery loves company, why am I lonely?
If my life has only been miserable
My life will only be memorable
When I no longer belong to the side that is physical

I really thought I'd be better by now but I guess that I won't ever be
Thought I could leave behind what's keeping me behind but I guess Detmer just won't ever leave
Don't look at me like I'm crazy, I'm exactly what she turned me into
We're still both breathing, I'm hurting, I guess the answer is simple

I don't need a phone if your numbers not inside it
I don't need a home if it's not where you're residing
I wish I was gone, I don't wanna be alive
Need a bullet in my dome, shouldn't come as a surprise, shit

I wanted her, she wanted you
You'll never love her the way that I do
I wasn't sure, didn't know what to do
I give up trying, I guess I'll just lose

I'll never win back her love
I'll never be who she wants again
I think I've dealt with enough
I won't ever feel that love again

Fuck what I did cause I hate what I'm doing
Is life really worth it? I feel like it's stupid
Detmer told Garrett "Shut the fuck up and do it"
Ken is so useless, unknxwn. just wants music

I found a fire but I been so cold for so long
Something tells to put this bitch out
Lost my desire, I don't wanna hold anyone
If the songs that I made ain't about

Misery loves company, why am I lonely?
If my life has only been miserable
My life will only be memorable
When I no longer belong to the side that is physical

miserable.

Produced by velvet

Lyrics

I don't wanna go home
There I feel much more alone
I'll stay out all night with friends
I know they ain't even friends for real, at least I can pretend

My bed's gonna be a grave
If the thoughts inside my head don't soon regress and go away
I keep fighting for the day that I can say that I'm okay
But I keep waking up and breaking down, don't know if that day is gone come around

We been doing this a while
You don't wanna see me smile
I think I'll just go and leave
Put headphones on and walk for miles

Till my feet
Can't carry me

My legs gonna be in pain
Till the blood from in my feet leaves the soles in my shoe stained
I'll keep walking till the day that I can say that I'm okay
I'm gonna be walking till the day I'm in a grave

I won't ever understand how the fuck I ended up right here
This shit was not the plan
I guess that's what I get, I'm so sick of this shit
They say home is where the heart is but I don't know where that is either

my bed's gonna be a grave.

I don’t think we got off on the right foot 
have you met my dad and mom, how could that be good? 
you’re telling me to overcome all my past and history 
telling me to just become better than I’m supposed to be  
I don’t think I know how

so don’t look down, I’m falling 
and I don’t how I wound up like this 
I’ll figure this out, hard to fix 
baby don’t look now, I’m broken 

I would have been better off on my own 
instead I was taught to trust no one 
you’re telling me I’m too angry  
that I should act a certain way 
but you don’t know the things I’ve seen 
and I don’t know what else to say 
I’ll try everything I can to be a better man 

so don’t look down, I’m falling 
and I don’t how I wound up like this 
I’ll figure this out, hard to fix 
baby don’t look now, I’m broken 

so don’t look down, I’m falling 
and I don’t how I wound up like this 
I’ll figure this out, hard to fix 
baby don’t look now, I’m broken 

yeah don’t look down, I’m falling 
and I don’t how I wound up like this 
I’ll figure this out, hard to fix 
baby don’t look now, I’m broken

Broken

Keep it in mind

Song written by Sir ;0 Paul McCartney
Performed & Mastered By Lewis Addison Rudd

Heart of the country

all credit to:
https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

lyrics : 
i feel not alive
fighting my mind trying not to die
dont know how to deal with the pain inside
so i make a song put the pain inside
every time i feel alone i got nowhere to go
they dont see the pain i got no one to show
this graph of mine goes lower and lower
one day i hope that its over
fuck my life
will i go to sleep no not tonight
i just wanna see that fucking light
i dont wanna live another night
when the moon comes up so do my problems
like algebra i cant solve em
fuck one cup
i need the bottle
i dont cut but im self harming
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today