Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

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Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

lyrics

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

unknxwn. - Faults.

unknxwn. - faults.

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Hold me close, don't let go
I love you, don't think you know
'Cause if you did, wouldn't treat me like this
Wouldn't treat me like shit, wouldn't be such a...
Won't call you that, cause you're all I have
Can't push you away, if I did, that'd be bad
Cause then who would I have? I know you treat me bad
I know I deserve better, I don't wanna make you mad
So I won't tell you that, I'll keep it all inside
I'll let it eat at me till maggots crawling out my eyes
Spiders crawling up my spine

itsy bitsy spider.

Letzter Funkspruch an meinen Sohn  (Remastered)

Lyrics

So cold, no soul, oh baby
I don't really do this but I miss you on the daily
We not even close but fuck I'm trying so don't break me
I don't even know why I'm upset, I know you're fading

Just like everyone else
Fuck my heart, don't like what I felt
I know you need space but I do too
So how could I help?
Maybe I'm not a person you need
Maybe I'm just here cause I can, don't you agree?

Baby prove me wrong, baby prove me right now
Please don't me wrong, I might really flip out
Vent over a song, no one hears me out
Been alive too long, I might take me out

Ashamed of the shit that I feel
So if I really talk to you know that it's real
Cause I don't really like to fuck with people
They just fuckin' evil, had enough of people but I'm still

Tryna connect with a person that don't leave me stressed
Someone that doesn't leave me like the rest
I don't think this for the best but I'm lonely
You want me to stay? Well then fuck it, I guess

So cold, no soul, oh baby
I don't really do this but I miss you on the daily
We not even close but fuck I'm trying so don't break me
I don't even know why I'm upset, I know you're fading

spotify.

fuck it, i guess. | Produced by capsctrl

Produced by Rayan

Lyrics

Walking laps around my mind
I write these raps to try and find
A way to a place I can confide
And if I don't I guess I'll die
With all the things I try to hide
But I have hope that I will rise
To see the day I free myself
From all the hurt and pain and lies

Getting close to home
The seed inside my soul
I'm 20 but I feel so old
See a thing I've never seen but I already know

Realize what I really am
Not this fucking body that I cannot fucking stand
I'm an energy inside a vessel, not a man
A God inside a human, I don't think you understand

Lately I been really losing touch
Yet I feel connected even more than I once was
The world is getting old, I think that I should give it up
I'm breaking out the mold, I've really had e-fucking-nough

This isn't a song about being sad
It's me letting go of the past
I just really learned that I can let go
And turn into more than I am

I don't know where this will go
I don't how I will change
But I know one thing for sure
I cannot remain the same

confide.

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

Don't call me if I'm just your scapegoat
To ignore the pain that you hate most
I know that you're lonely cause so am I
But don't come around me with that damn disguise

Acting like you really might want me
I'm not a toy, don't try me, don't taunt me
Cause I've got impulses that haunt me
Do you really wanna end up as a trunk piece?

That's Detmer talking to Qayin
I'm Ken, I really don't like them
Don't hurt me, that's what excites them
Then it gets really hard for me to try and hide them

They been tryna get out, make something happen
Holes they wanna dig out, fill 'em with some tragic
They don't like to talk, they just really be on action
Once ounce of pain, all it take for them to tap in

Bitch stay away cause I promise you don't want this
You might let 'em in if you even choose to bump this
Burning embers, you can't even stomp it
My light getting thinner, turning into something

Ken stfu, we don't wanna hear you
They making yo blood rush, we gone make 'em feel you
If they wanna touch us, we gone make 'em fear you
Let 'em know they fucked up, then show them the real you

Tryna pull some fuck shit, we gone fuck 'em up now
Throw that body in a ditch, we ain't had enough now
Tellin' us they last wish but they out of luck now
Who left on that damn list? Let's see if they tough now

last wish.

Produced by khail

Lyrics

And I don't even know if I'm progressing or forgetting
Cause every now and then I turn up stones that I have hidden
And then I recall some things I tried to keep off
Even if you're deaf I hope you know the tree can still fall

Cause I break down and no one notices until I make a song
Your timings kind of off, you only look when I'm already gone
You only try to touch me when my sense of it is going numb
I seem a bit out of it, I don't know what is going on

Autumn inside of my soul
I'm dying, it's all getting cold
Drop all the things that're old
Make room for all the things I'll grow

I wanna hold on but I can't
How can I go on if I don't let go?
All I really wanted was to be your man
Thought you were the one but you're not, I know

It seems to be a problem when I get real with
The people in my life that I have chosen I will deal with
I'm learning not to stress out cause what's it even all worth
When every single one of us will die and lie upon dirt

Why don't all of you just fuck off?
I don't need you if you won't give all
I want every drop of what you have
You just want what seems good but it's not all

So you leave when it's not easy
I want you to love me, not need me
I don't think anyone has seen me
With the eye that's never blinking

it's not all.

Produced by Zane98

Lyrics

You don't know how I feel but I wish that you could
Even if the shit I feel most times ain't good
I know I'm hard to connect with, if I could change, oh I would
Cause all I really wish to be is loved & understood

Cause what feel like now is not enough
For you & every other person that I trust
I don't wanna leave and I don't wanna stay
I really wish it was black and white but it's all really grey

I don't wanna be alone
It's so hard for me to show
What I feel inside my soul
Hold on baby, don't you go

Wait for me
I just need a moment
I love you, I showed you
But I don't think you know it

Your heart, I just wanna hold it
My chance, did I really blow it?
So far, distance can we close it?
My hand, I want you to hold it

Frozen and hopeless, I don't know where to go with
Everything I need to ask about all my emotions
I might go where I can't be noticed
No one wanted to know my soul, so I sold it

I'll tell you that I'm good but I feel fucking lonely
I'm misunderstood, I just wish you would know me
Not because you think I need it, because you want to
When you feel what I feel, just know I'll be gone too

I don't wanna feel like this no more
I hope that you don't let me go
Don't make me think, just let me know
If you don't love me anymore

Cause I need you until I know that you don't
I could never leave you and I think that you know
You only come back to me when you feel that you want
We've made a mess of things, I think it's time to move on

misunderstood.

Lyrics

Hard to know what I feel when I'm out my mind now
I can't tell if it's real, I might just be blind now
Broken heart, cold as steel, life don't feel like mine now
I don't even wanna live, runnin out of time now

I don't know what did so bad to deserve this
I wish I could let you in but I get so nervous
Turned into a mess again, I wish I was perfect
Scrollin' through our messages when my life was perfect

God show me what to do now
Please hold me, I have stooped down
Lower than I ever even knew how
Failed so many times, now I just loose count

Screaming at my laptop, stupid fucking backdrop
I'm a fucking dropout, should of never slacked off
My teacher told me I would be nothing
But a statistic, honestly fuck this

That didn't help me, you didn't scare me
On to the right path, I just grew weary
Now I'm exactly what you said I'd be
I never got why people don't like me

I don't how to get out of my head
Pain is all I know now, I'll be good when I'm dead
Feel it getting close now, breathing down on my neck
Hands around my throat now, suffocating

You can't make me feel what I don't
Don't say that you'll save me, I know that you won't
Fuck up on the daily, you already know
They be tryna take me for my fucking soul