Lyrics

If you got a problem then I swear I'm not the one to call
I can't even solve my own, I feel like I have lost it all
But if I hit rock bottom, the only way is up
I'm doing what I need to but to you it seems like giving up

I don't care for your talk, you do not know whats best for me
I'm the only one that's capable of taking care of me
So I'm turning a leaf, about to see what I can be
When I give this life my all, I'm sick of turning in my sheets

I'm sick of living off of beats, sick of always feeling beat
Sick of being sick of shit that I can't even fucking see
Sick of saying that I'm sick of this, I live this life for me
I'm only now just getting hip to this

Like what the fuck was I thinking way before
That I need to make you happy?
That I need to go make sure you're not the one that's feeling crappy
That I need to use my time on other people just to feel
Like I'm doing something worth, man that shit just makes me ill

rock bottom.

(unknxwn.) 
Don't know where I went wrong
Been tryna figure it out all night long
What do I do? How do I leave?
What hurts me the most is the fact that it's me

I'm what I hate, I know I'm fake
Been trying my best to learn a new way
Evil is rooted down deep in my core
If I lose it, I'd lose it, don't know what to do when

All is okay when I wake with no pain
I been hurt for so long when I'm not, I'm just grey
Look to the sky, don't know why I'm alive
Spill my heart on my art cause I can't even cry

I just wanna go away, I don't even wanna try now
I don't wanna see a face, think I might just rip my fucking eyes out
I don't wanna hear your words, they won't ever really work
They don't ever fucking heal me, shut the fuck up you don't feel me

Shut the fuck up, you don't know
All the bad stuff that I hold
In a part of my brain I won't show
To another other than me

I wish that I could though
But I know that I can't
Don't tell me that I can

(cuts)

i know im a mess and im far from the best
but i cannot change cos i feel so deranged
i know that you hate when i say im no good
i promise that i try but i wish that i could

be the person that you miss the most
that persons dead, now im just a damn ghost
you want one thats happy, not fucking depressed
but im just a human, mediocre at best

i wish i was perfect you see its impossible 
ive been so broken you cant feel responsible 

i did all of the things you would ask me to
i ask for one thing now it’s all about you
im always the bad guy that’s just how it seems
but you were projecting your mistakes onto me

you say that you hate me and you want me dead
you have no remorse and i don’t think you’ll dread
im crying and pleading while it points at my head
i didnt think it was grave but the guns in your hand

i just wanna go away w/ unknxwn. (itb)

Produced by IOF

@cuts

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Spent so long runnin'
Where am I going?
Don't think I'll find out
Cause I think that I'm foldin'

Spent so long wishing
That things were different
So much time wasted
On things I'm never changing

God I been callin'
But you ain't answer
So if and when I fall in
Don't say there was an answer

To all my agonizing pain
Don't think that I'm the one to blame
Is my sole purpose feeling shame?
Cause my souls worthless, I can't change

| cuts |

No I can't change and I can't breathe
I tried my best, you'd dig your teeth
I was above, you stay beneath
But that's the one you won't believe

You ain't worth the agony
You did it so happily
Fuck me up like I'm to blame
But you are losing your own game

I've been fucked up way before you
Never knew me, didn't try to
Tried to make it work, I did
Try? for u, “may god forbid”

Don't know what that's about
But not everything works out

| cuts & unknxwn. |

Spent so long runnin'
Where am I going?
Don't think I'll find out
Cause I think that I'm foldin'

Spent so long wishing
That things were different
So much time wasted
On things I'm never changing

God I been callin'
But you ain't answer
So if and when I fall in
Don't say there was an answer

cuts & unknxwn. - not everything works out.

Produced by flower x luffysome

This song vividly captures a deep emotional struggle, showcasing themes of unrequited love, toxic cycles, self-doubt, and the internal conflict between seeking healing and clinging to pain. At its core, it reflects a longing for purpose and worth, yet it’s tied to someone else’s love and approval—a perspective that can leave one feeling perpetually empty.

Healing Through Truth, Not Cycles:

“I tell myself that these songs make me heal but this music the reason I’m toxic.”

This lyric reflects the tension between using music as a release and feeling trapped by it. True healing comes from Christ, who transforms pain into purpose.

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” (Psalm 147:3)

Misplaced Purpose and Worth:

“Girl loving you is my purpose / If I ain’t with you, I’m worthless.”

This sentiment highlights a misplaced dependency on others for worth. God offers a love that is unwavering and defines your true identity.

“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Breaking Toxic Cycles:

“Stuck in a cycle, I love it.”

This acknowledgment of being caught in a harmful loop mirrors the human struggle with sin and destructive patterns. Freedom comes through surrendering those cycles to God.

“So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” (John 8:36)

Burden and Redemption:

“Sorry, I know I’m a burden.”

Though it feels isolating, Jesus invites us to cast our burdens on Him. You are not a burden to God; you are loved and valued.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

Lyrics

What I don't, need to do more, what I do, need to do less
I guess I'm just clueless, I'm just stupid, love like cupid, I never had it, I won't get through this
I'll never heal, don't deserve it, I seem alright on the surface
Wait till you see what I surface from all of this pain, I'm hurting

I don't care what you do, you're perfect, girl loving you is my purpose
If I ain't with you, I'm worthless, I can't change my mind, I'm certain
Sorry, I know I'm a burden, flew too close to the sun, I'm burning
And I lost that girl but I'm searching, this ain't a page that I'm turning

This ain't a lesson I'm learning, stuck in a cycle, I love it
Said I was healing, I wasn't, they say time heals wounds but it doesn't
It only makes you forget and honestly that ain't worth shit
Cause I still feel all the effects, I just forgot what caused it

Don't have a heart anymore, gave it to her but she lost it
I tell myself that these songs make me heal but this music the reason I'm toxic
I'm in pain, need to stop it and I don't see any options
What I'm sleeping in bed for? Wanna sleep in a coffin

What I don't, need to do more, what I do, need to do less
I guess I'm just clueless, I'm just stupid, love like cupid, I never had it, I won't get through this
I'll never heal, don't deserve it, I seem alright on the surface
Wait till you see what I surface from all of this pain, I'm hurting

I don't care what you do, you're perfect, girl loving you is my purpose
If I ain't with you, I'm worthless, I can't change my mind, I'm certain
Sorry, I know I'm a burden, flew too close to the sun, I'm burning
And I lost that girl but I'm searching, this ain't a page that I'm turning

i tell myself that these songs make me heal but this music the reason I'm toxic.

Produced by luffy x sorrow bringer

Lyrics

I said I was done, yet I'm right back here again
I think that I’m fucked, I think I gave into that fear again
Stood up, fell back, let you go, came back, I don't know where you're at
I got a problem, you're the only one that can solve that
All of these goddamn years, everything that I did, but you can't call back
She a bitch, she a female dog, gave her my heart, she mauled that
I just sent you a text, that shit turned green, I guess you blocked that
Swear this shit just pissed me off, finna throw my fist where the wall at
Don't wanna hear you talk, I do not care at all, don't wanna hear all that
Why you wasting my time? Why you wanna mess with my mind?
Why you wanna reach back out now? You ain’t reach out all that time
I know I said I was done, I don't need to hear you tell me
‘Cause everything I do, don't help nobody else except me
I can't tell the truth 'cause if I do, you won't accept me
Thoughts go back and forth like air hockey, this shit ain’t healthy
Love ain’t got no price tag, even if I was rich, couldn't buy that
‘Cause I gave you all I had and loved you for what you are
And you still did me so bad, left me for a niggah that live in a car
But no matter where you live, you'll live inside my heart
And you always know what to say to get me to start falling apart
Don't go in my mind, I’m telling you now, you better off swimming with sharks
If it was between you loving me and putting a needle inside of the eye of the other
I’m better off taking that shot in the dark

needle in the haystack.

prod by icantsleeplol & hvci
mixed and mastered by icantsleeplol & hvci

thank u @hvci for helping me with some of the layers to help my vocals more impactful ♡ 

and ofc w/ @xav0id

(i’m experimenting with my vocals and my voice in general to see what it’s capable of. i don’t wanna be limited to one genre. i wanna push past my comfort zone and explore different sounds with my voice)

enjoy:)

lyrics:

@icantsleeplol -
they asked me to smile
so i did
now i can’t tell when i actually mean it

i learned to read the room too well
picked up their moods, and forgot myself
said the lines they’d rather hear
kept my truth in second gear

they liked me better watered down
so i kept my head and voice low-bound
never asked them what they meant
just played the part and paid the rent

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
they never wanted all of me
just the version they could keep clean
so i edited my every thought
to fit inside the mold they bought

@icantsleeplol -
empty tent, the lights still burn
but no one waits for my return
they loved the laugh, not the cost
they clapped so loud, i got lost

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
empty tent, applause fades quick
left alone with what won't fix
i give and give, then disappear
while no one even shifts their ear

@icantsleeplol -
i swallowed pride and played polite
convinced myself it felt alright
but every nod, every demand
left another thing i couldn't stand

i tried to slow the spinning down
but silence just became more loud
i gave too much and asked too little
and broke apart right down the middle

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci
they smiled, so i assumed it worked
but underneath, it always hurt
and though i tried to keep it smooth
the pressure cracked the parts i moved
 
@xav0id -
empty tent, still looks the same
but i don’t walk out how i came
they called it charm, called it grace
but missed the tremble in my face

empty tent, the echo's mean
i’m still stuck on what they’ve seen
if this was love, or just a guess
why did i fall apart to impress?

@icantsleeplol w/ @xav0id
i’ve memorized what pleases them
but not what brings me back again
i dance around their fragile moods
and call it kindness as i lose

they say i’m calm, they say i’m nice
but only when i pay the price
and every time i try to breathe
i wonder what they’d let me keep

@xav0id - 
empty tent, lights flicker slow
no one left to tell me “go”
but i still bow, still play it cool
still scared of not fitting the rule

empty tent, just me and air
i gave too much, and no one cared
the quiet hits a little late...
but louder than the love they faked

i’m still here
they just forgot
and that’s the part
that hurts the most

empty tent w/ xav0id & hvci

Lyrics ⬇️ 

hey dont remind me of this
hey dont remind me of that
it don’t surprise me that i had it all and then it kicked the can
i wish i aint care if you laugh
i care about their view too much
and idk where i stand
but im tryna be in the palm of ur hands

baby thats way too much
& i couldnt hold it if both of my hands held out
and i dont mean to say too much
i couldnt think why you want me to be around
you told me i did enough
but it really don’t compare to all that you done
and maybe if i was in love then i woulda chose you over drugs

you dont know what it means to be addicted
i was conflicted i was so broke
i think you sense it i was inflicting all of the
damage in all my bones
but that was my mission you wouldn’t get it
that was the only thing up in my home
other than dishes i had been washin just to get out of their face be alone

(halfhearted)

yeah i’m not alone when im up in the night 
voice in my brain said im crossing the line
coulda been worse but im barely alive, put down my weapon you sharpen your knife 
didn’t know any better,pull me apart by the holes in my sweater 
put a stamp on my letter, wait seven months but you still won’t answer 

lost and was found in the town i was raised in
praying on my downfall give em entertainment 
right hook to the jaw leave him right on the pavement 
for the last few months i been feeling like im vacant

i get racks and they know
family upset when i walk in the room
stuck on the times i was passing the bowl
but look at me now i found peace in my soul

(brecken)
you got a peice of my soul
i want it back like asap
you wanted me to go home
left you right there ima walk back 

told me that id get evicted if i ever got a place of my own

but i been here 4 months cuz i dont listen
honestly dont think you think i could grow

month four w/ halfhearted (dash)

STILLNESS

Fall to the flow

TomBrady

all credit to:
@unknxwn7
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Broken and can’t fix up again
Pushy personally I don’t want no friends
Everything starts somewhere, everything ends
How could you be mine when he says that your his?
Stuck in my bed, with my thoughts
Always in my feelings can’t think out the box
Look both ways before you decide to cross, my mind you’ll find that I’m empty inside.
In the morning I got hopes of what to do
But all my hopes are dead by the afternoon
Invite me out
I’ll stay in my room
The only fate of mind I have is doom
Everytime I see your face
I just break down
It’s ok if you
Hate me now
Ima die soon and I will see you
In hell cause that’s where you belong to

Broken and can’t fix up again pushy personality I don’t want no friends
Everything starts somewhere everything ends
How could you be mine when he says that your his
Think before you speak don’t make an assumption,
And the back luck just keeps on coming and coming
Problems catching up I’ll keep on running and running
Hoping that my heart is solid and pumping is pumping
Eating poison out of paper all I can’t afford
Everyone is hated
Everyone’s adored
Every dogs got a day gotta find yours
Otherwise what the fuck was all the pain for

Broken and can’t fix up again
Pushy personality I don’t want no friends
Everything starts somewhere everything ends
How could you be mine when he says that your his