yeah

unknxwn.

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lyrics:
I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Call me a fuck up
My whole life's been a suck-up
Can't do anything right
Laying here every night

Thinking about it
But don't wanna talk
And my thoughts keep on screaming
They never shut up

And I don't want the help
I will never know why
Something's blocking the feelings
'Cause I think that's right

Oh, you know it all
Tell me how I feel
Since you love judging me
Oh, you don't know
'Bout what I'm dealing with
You don't know at all

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am,
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Walking out and
I feel like everybody is staring at me
Reminiscence bout the days
When I felt ok

Maybe I need meds
To numb me out
I don't wanna take them
But I'm already fucked up

Can't just feel all right
I just can't feel ok
That's why I can't sleep at night
I won't tell no one a thing

I don't know why
Voices tell me what do
Bottle up my pain, so you
Can look at me falling through

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel
x2

3 am

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lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

i'm not okay

i'm not okay (feat. Lil Xtra & nothing,nowhere.)

lyrics
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fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

Lyrics

I just wanna blow a piece of my mind out of my head
I don't really know if I'm alive or if I'm dead
I don't wanna know bout the things that you said
Behind my back, I won't like that

I just wanna blow a piece of my mind out of my head
I don't really know if I'm alive or if I'm dead
I don't wanna know bout the things that you said
Behind my back, I won't like that

What is the meaning of learning the meaning of things?
When I learn them, I don't even need it
Am I succeeding or am I retreating
From what's in the world? Don't know what to believe in

I'm a lost cause, I'm a loser
I'm a fuck up, I'ma lose her
I'm a bad seed, I'm a waste of life
I hope you don't see what's inside my mind

I'm not alright but I know how to work
With the things in my mind
Do my best when I'm worse

I never try
Either do or I don't
How the fuck did my life
Go from bad to worse?

Rock bottom to top
It's all bout perspective
If I never stop
Then I won't stop progressing

If I never walk
I won't ever fall
So I guess if I fall
I can accomplish it all

*auditory agony*

I just wanna blow a piece of my mind out of my head
I don't really know if I'm alive or if I'm dead
I don't wanna know bout the things that you said
Behind my back, I won't like that

I just wanna blow a piece of my mind out of my head
I don't really know if I'm alive or if I'm dead
I don't wanna know bout the things that you said
Behind my back, I won't like that

I won't lie back
Gotta fight back
Gotta move on
Gotta keep on

I might lose some
But I'll win too
I see blue suns
I see red moons

piece of mind. | Produced by saint mike

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

Stuck looking at the wall
No one ever calls me
Yeah you never gave a fuck
Thats why you forgot me
Weird kid left out 
Yeah thats never not me
Speeding destination death
You can never stop me
Pop a pill in bed
Turn myself into a zombie
All these thoughts inside my head
Shoot it with a tommy
Full blunt wrap
Yeah I'm smokin' on that mummy
Brain cells dead but I like the way
It numbs me

I'm still breathing
But I died a long time ago
Wanna overcome it 
But I cant complete this obstacle
My lifes stuck in a circle
I keep walking thru revolving doors
Dont tell me that you care 
Cause if you did i wouldent be ignored

I been meeting same people 
Different variations 
She left me alone
I'm lost without her navigation
Lifes a journey 
And the grave's our final destination
Say whats on my mind
Dont care about how people take it

Stuck looking at the wall

No one ever calls me

Yeah you never gave a fuck

Thats why you forgot me

Weird kid left out

Yeah thats never not me

Speeding destination death

You can never stop me

unknxwn. - dead

I'm already dead.

i'm already dead. | Produced by VELES

Art by: @grimapparition

Lyrics

I don't understand why I feel the way I feel
Just to not be sad I be taking fucking pills
Soundin' like a bum but the shit I say too real
Flowin' with emotion you don't know cause I conceal
I do it too well, and honestly its sad
Coming off as golden when I feel like fucking trash
Every bridge I had is now nothing but the ash
Fuck I'm holding back too much I'm about to fucking crash

Sit back I'm about to make you fucking wish that
You never gave me all the fucking pain I'm bouta give back
Kick back smokin' on some shit that make you trip back
Slip back into the abyss I made with this track
Flick that lighter back up on the blunt I kiss that
I don't even rap, I just steady fucking spit facts
Tic tac toe I X you out you needa get back
Everything in every line just make em wanna skip back

Write fast you try keeping up then you just write trash
I fuck up a type beat you just it make it type bad
Might add, do this on my own I got no right hand
I stopped wishing that I could, now I fucking know I can
Slow down, you cant catch the flow now
Wrote down, turn it into dope sound
Hope now, I cant fucking slow down
Broke now, not for long no doubt

I don't understand why I feel the way I feel
Just to not be sad I be taking fucking pills
Soundin' like a bum but the shit I say too real
Flowin' with emotion you don't know cause I conceal
I do it too well, and honestly its sad
Coming off as golden when I feel like fucking trash
Every bridge I had now is nothing but the ash
Fuck I'm holding back too much I'm about to fucking crash

Sit back I'm about to make you fucking wish that
You never gave me all the fucking pain I'm bouta give back
Kick back smokin' on some shit that make you trip back
Slip back into the abyss I made with this track
Flick that lighter back up on the blunt I kiss that
I don't even rap, I just steady fucking spit facts
Tic tac toe I X you out you needa get back
Everything in every line just make em wanna skip back

unknxwn. - ashes

ashes.

spotify.

ashes. | Produced by Zølenya

@hatefulbeats

Lyrics

How in the fuck did I manage to lose every person I spent all my time with
Tryna create a connection thats stronger than time and that could be considered as timeless
It hurts even more cause I'm still tryna figure out where in the hell it went wrong
I don't wanna talk about how much it hurts to a person so I take it out on a song

I take it out on myself, I take it out on my physical and mental health
I fucking hate what I felt, I'm getting worse and I don't even think you can tell
I make myself wanna quit, filling my mind with a person I need to forget
Honestly I'm fucking pissed, I can't see the future but I never thought it'd be this

I don't really wanna try meeting new friends
I don't wanna waste my time on something that'll end
What the fuck is happy? I can only pretend
Leaving it to God in itself is a sin
You're the only person with the power in your life
That can change for the better with the state that you're in
You're the only person that can give your life a purpose on this earth
And make it all worth it again

I don't wanna feel this pain
I don't wanna play this game
I don't wanna keep writing songs that're sad
I just want my life to change
I just don't wanna let life slip away, and die with a void of regret
I don't wanna keep waking up and not get out of bed because I'm too upset

unknxwn. - i still feel it all

i still feel it all.

i still feel it all. | Produced by hateful

Lyrics

Life is hittin' me hard
I'm all out of cards
I might take a bar
I need a cigar
Take me to the stars
Where I can be far away
I don't wanna deal with my mind today
God what the fuck is the price to pay
My ceiling has even got sick of my face
My body is sick of this place, too many games and I don't wanna play
I still got time but I don't wanna stay
All of the colors I knew are now grey
All I can do at this point, is pray
No focus, I point and spray
I wanna skip to the end of may
I don't wanna ever leave june
I don't wanna ever leave you
I hope that you never leave me, the end of us I hope that I never see
I hope we become everything that we think and we know in our hearts we can be
There's only one person in life that can put all the pain that you have to an ease
It isn't your lover, it isn't your mother, and it sure as hell isn't me

unknxwn. - june.

june.

june. | Produced by white cherry

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault