Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Met her, fell hard, broke up, was alive but I died and I'm dead again
I'm not sure if I can heal my heart and I lied if you ever heard me say I did
There's no cure for the hate inside my veins, all I'll really ever know is pain
I woke up day after day tryna find her, I ain't even know her name

Then I did and I realized she lied about every thing that she said
All those tears that I fucking shed, I don't want your love no more, I want you dead
I can't take this, I don't wanna face it
When you see what I've become, remember that you made this

Can't hold on, I don't wanna go on
I think my soul's gone cause I don't care bout no one
Look what you did bitch, there's no way to fix this
Don't look at me different, you're the reason that I slipped to this

If you think you love me, please don't mention it
Don't think I'm meant for it, if it's anything good I don't fit in it
Fit I'm pitching it, your love I'm missing it
But you fucked me over, I wish it was over

Met her, fell hard, broke up, was alive but I died and I'm dead again
I'm not sure if I can heal my heart and I lied if you ever heard me say I did
There's no cure for the hate inside my veins, all I'll really ever know is pain
I woke up day after day tryna find her, I ain't even know her name

Then I did and I realized she lied about every thing that she said
All those tears that I fucking shed, I don't want your love no more, I want you dead
I can't take this, I don't wanna face it
When you see what I've become, remember that you made this

another song, same shit.

Produced by fowni x luffysome

This song is another deeply personal reflection, revealing themes of betrayal, regret, loneliness, and a longing for love. It carries an intense emotional weight and expresses the pain of broken relationships, self-inflicted wounds, and a desire for redemption. From a faith-based perspective, this song can serve as a powerful testimony of transformation, showing the contrast between living for oneself and finding hope and healing in God.

Trusting Others vs. Trusting God:

“Putting my trust into someone and thinking they’ll help me but really get stabbed in the back.”

This reflects the pain of misplaced trust in people who I allowed to let me down. The Bible reminds us to place our ultimate trust in God, who never fails.

“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.” (Psalm 118:8)

This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t trust others but rather that your foundation should be built on God, who provides security and hope even when others fail.

Self-Destruction and Redemption:

“Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love.”

This line acknowledges the fleeting comfort of substances and the deeper void they leave behind. True peace and love can only be found in a relationship with Christ.

“Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.” (Ephesians 5:18)

Regret and Ownership of the Past:

“I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn’t care, that’s a fact.”

This honest acknowledgment of past selfishness and wrongdoing is a critical step toward healing and growth. The Bible calls this repentance, and it’s the path to God’s forgiveness.

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

Lyrics

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love
I was broke so I ran up some bands, why the fuck do I still feel alone?
And I'm sorry to all of my friends that I made wanna leave me alone
I just wish I could tell you thank you, helped me more than you ever could know

What I lost I won't ever get back, it's my fault so I'll leave it at that
I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn't care, that's a fact
I ain't care about nobody else, all I cared about then was myself
And I'm honestly still a bit selfish but I'm only like that for my health

I ain't finna go break my back for a bitch that won't ever care about that
I ain't finna go reach my hand out tryna save someone that wouldn't reach back
I ain't finna go waste my time opening up and getting attached
Putting my trust into someone and thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back

Bitch, don't text me, don't wanna chat
Bitch, don't test me, I'll fucking snap
Where my heart should be there is a gap
Cause I gave it to her and she didn't give it back

Okay, she did but that shit turned to ash
So what if she did? Man, that shit wouldn't last
Cause she's all that I need
So I can't let her leave

No, I can't let her go, wish you'd call but I know you won't
I just wish I could let you know when I say "I hate you" just know I don't
I don't even know who I am, am I detmer or garrett or ken?
But I know who I need and they'll never come back again

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

put my trust into someone thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back.

Produced by flower x 5head

Lyrics

Might be older, still not over all the chips that were on my shoulder
Everyday I grow colder but it all goes away when I hold her
Baby, you're all I need, Baby, you're all I wanted
I think I got a disease, I say I'm off but I'm on it

Why would you tell me you want this when you believe that I'm worthless?
Don't even ask how I wrote this, I just spoke up if I'm honest
Something is on my conscious, everyday I feel haunted
This is always what I run to when I feel like I'm out of options

Everything I touch, I kill
Waited for years and this feeling is still eating inside of me
Fucking anxiety, can't get away from it, why would you lie to me?
Why would you tell me you care but you don't?
Why would you tell me you'll call but you won't?
I'm fucking lonely, I feel so alone
I just wish you would tell me that you're coming home
But you won't cause your home is with him
And I thought this was real, you were playing pretend
Ain't no amount on how much you could hurt me
That would change the fact I would trust you again
So lie to me however much you please, however much you need
I'll accept anything keeping us tethered
'Cause I didn't lie when I said that I would never leave

"A lot of the things that I say aren't really what I'm trying to say, and as deep as you can relate to the things that I do say, I want you know that they're still fucking a thousand miles away from what I actually mean, so, do with that what you will."

Might be older, still not over all the chips that were on my shoulder
Everyday I grow colder but it all goes away when I hold her
Baby, you're all I need, Baby, you're all I wanted
I think I got a disease, I say I'm off but I'm on it

Why would you tell me you want this when you believe that I'm worthless?
Don't even ask how I wrote this, I just spoke up if I'm honest
Something is on my conscious, everyday I feel haunted
This is always what I run to when I feel like I'm out of options

as a dog returns to its vomit.

Produced by 2late!

Lyrics

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is that I'm always so sad
And I do not want to talk about that
Ask my mom, always been like that
Every time she wanted me to talk, I would close up
Now I'm an adult and my heart still froze up
For a moment it wasn't, for a moment I felt all the love
For a moment I felt so alive, for a moment I felt like enough
But that's all that it was, was a moment
'Cause that's all gone now and it won't come back
One day I'll be gone and I won't come back
Can you tell me that you love me before it comes to that?

I know that you won't though, baby girl, please don't go
Now I'm just so cold, I don't wanna do this no more
I'm all on my own, please don't tell me you know
What I'm feeling in my chest, I swear to God that you don't

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is ten times much worse than that
All these things I put in the open, I got so much more that's closed in
I got so much more you don't know and so much more you won't know

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Even though I tell you all this, I won't ever tell you that
I won't ever tell a soul, I tried once but not no more
All they could do was fucking hold me while I cried, that was pitiful

I won't ever let nobody see that again, felt love once, I won't feel it again
Guess it's time to accept that fact cause I tried so hard and it still ain't back
I gave her time and she still ain't back
Act like I'm fine but I'm not intact
Wish I could cry but I can't do that
'Cause I did for so long and I can't go back

Please don't ask me why all my songs are so sad
Because honestly the answer is that I just want you back

please don't ask me why all my songs are sad.

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

I could tell you a million words and it still wouldn't make you pick me first
You could tell me a million lies and it still wouldn't change how I look in your eyes
I could write like a million lines and it still wouldn't say what I feel inside
You could leave me a million times but the moment you come back I'll be alright

Baby you're my drug and I been sober too long
I still hit you up cause I don't wanna move on
She don't want no memory of me, I keep her memory in these songs
Don't say you'll be here, I don't need you to be cause she's all I need but it's all gone

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

*auditory agony*

I'm worthless, I know this, you don't need to remind me
Girl, I just wanted to say that you're perfect, just in case you need reminding
Just in case he don't remind you, I lost her but I'ma find you
And I can't let you go, cause your heart, my heart's tied to

You told me that you cared, it turns out I was lied to
And you just left me there, I was alone with no one to cry to
I guess our love was a lie too, found out that your name was a lie too
I don't even know what to call you but I still wanna call you

I've said it a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I've said it a million times, I've cried over you like a million times
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines

I tried so hard for you and I failed every time

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

I've said it a million times, I'm broken, I'm hopeless, I'm losing my mind
I've called you a million times, I've written a million lines
I'm sad for a million reasons, she broke my heart to a million pieces
I'll wait for you for a million seasons, won't learn my lesson with millions of teaching

you're my drug and i've been sober for too long.

Produced by sockedrock x jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I can’t describe what I feel, I don’t think there’s a word for that
Need to define what I feel so I made up a word for that
Nuloria, nuloria, nuloria, nuloria

Nuloria, nuloria, nuloria, nuloria
Nuloria, nuloria, nuloria, nuloria

I scream into silence but nothing whispers back
Tried praying through pain but all I could hear was lack
Eyes open wide but my soul’s in collapse
And it’s not that I’m broken, I’m just not intact

I touched every scar like a page in a book
But the words fade away everytime that I look
Is this healing or hurting or both in disguise?
I keep running in circles inside of my mind

Nuloria — it ain’t peace, it ain’t pain
Nuloria — like I’m drowning in rain
Nuloria — I can't lose, I can't win
So I sit in the dark and feel nothing again

Nuloria — it’s a whisper, a scream
Nuloria — somewhere lost in between
Nuloria — not a nightmare or dream
Just a world where I vanished without being seen

Now I miss the days when I could feel too much
Now I flinch whenever they try to show love
I smile like I’m fine just to kill the concern
But there’s frost in my chest and my heart doesn’t burn

I can’t describe what I feel, I don’t think there’s a word for that
Need to define what I feel so I made up a word for that
Nuloria, nuloria, nuloria, nuloria

Nuloria, nuloria, nuloria, nuloria
Nuloria, nuloria, nuloria, nuloria

NULORIA.

Produced by septefree

Lyrics

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mask some more

And I wear it so proudly I don’t want nobody else around me
When I’m like this because I already know
They’ll tell me thеy care even though that thеy don’t
Don’t understand but they say that they do
You don’t feel me and I don’t feel you
I close my eyes and pretend that it’s you when she talking to me if I’m telling the truth
I don’t know what I want, if I can’t have you, I don’t want no one
‘Cause you’re all I want but you don’t want me
I don’t know what I did that would make you leave
Can you tell me why you left what we had to be with that guy?
You’ll always be perfect inside my eyes, I built a home for you in my mind

It’s hard to cope with it all when all you believe is that you’re not worth anything
It’s hard to go through it all tryna be alright but all you can feel is pain
And I don’t know what he told you, I don’t know why you don’t want me to hold you anymore
I’m not yours anymore
I’m not okay no more, woke up on my floor
Last night, took a couple of pills but that turned into 13 more
And I don’t know why I’m still here, thought by now that I’d be a damn corpse
Every couple months I end up in tears and I clean up that mess some more

if i can't have you.

Produced by flower

Lyrics

Complete the plan tonight, you don’t have to be a better man tonight
Everybody left so you should crash it right?
You’re not good enough, don’t why you still fight
You think you’re worthless, yeah?
25 and still don’t have a purpose, yeah?
When you die, it’ll probably be on purpose, yeah?
She don’t want you, and it’s simple, you’re not worth the effort
You will never become better, you will always keep on letting her worm her way into your mind even though you shouldn’t
One day you’ll be out of timе and all because you couldn’t get a fucking grip

You’rе so full of fucking shit
You won’t ever fucking win, you’ll end up back here again
You make progress sometimes but you’ll always fall back
Don’t you even try to lie and say you won’t do that
You won’t ever be fixed, you’ll be broken til the end
She don’t care about you now and she ain't care about you then
So can you shut the fuck up and quit that whining ass shit?
We don’t wanna hear you cry 'cause we don’t care about you Ken
No one ever really did, get that through your head
Once you accept that fact, then it won’t be so bad
Look at what you did, look at what you had
All that burned to ash and all that by your hand

Complete the plan tonight, you don’t have to be a better man tonight
Everybody left so you should crash it right?
You’re not good enough, don’t why you still fight
You think you’re worthless, yeah?
25 and still don’t have a purpose, yeah?
When you die, it’ll probably be on purpose, yeah?
She don’t want you, and it’s simple, you’re not worth the effort
You will never become better, you will always keep on letting her worm her way into your mind even though you shouldn’t
One day you’ll be out of timе and all because you couldn’t...

all to ash by your hand.

WITCH PT 2

Tabrae_Iran

Lyric: Tabrae
Composer: Salar Khosrojerdi
Cover art: Solar Khosrojerdi