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Lyrics

I don't know how to feel at all
No emotions, I killed 'em all
I don't wanna go back to where I dread
I don't like some of the things that I said

I'm not a bad guy but I've done some bad things
Build it so high / turn it into nothing
I don't understand, I don't like where I am

In this room all alone, I'm just staring at my phone
and I really wanna call but you do not care at all so why would I?

Why would I?
Why should I?
How could I?
How could I?
How could I?

Love her so much when she don't give a fuck at all
I fall again, building up a wall again
I know it's not right but I don't like these times
Where I lay in bed all night and cry about my fucked up life

I don't get this and I don't want to
I'm so afflicted, why do I want you?

bitter. (unwritten) | Produced by alicks

Lyrics

I'm stuck inside of my thoughts again
Faded away and I lost a friend
I crossed a line and I'll cross again
Heart full of hate and a lot of sin

Don't say you love me, don't know what that means
"No one above me", so why did you leave?
I know that I'm not a person you need
That's all that I ever wanted to be

I'll never be good enough for your love
I can't go on
All that I wanted was us but that's gone
I got no one

Hurts that you're happy without me
I still think 'bout you, do you think about me?

Don't go, stay close, I can't let go
Oh no I'm so cold, I don't wanna ever feel my soul

"Ken, how you been?" Downbad
Years that I spent tryna' mend, I can't
Music is only as good as I'm sad
Happy is good and I would but I can't

I think maybe I needa grow up
I don't think my time gone show up
I'm sick of life, I just might throw up
Rain pour down, I pour up

Headphones, mic on, I make sad songs
I'm no angel, I ain't ever seen no fuckin' halo

Stuck in all of my fuckin' feelings of nothing
Wanna feel something new
What is all of this loving? I don't feel nothing
I don't know what to do
Rusted on what's still pumping shouldn't of trusted
On what I thought of you
You showed me all your colors
I'll never fall for another

Your eyes pitch black, give my heart back
I fell so fast, you left as fast

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rxsecxlxr. | Produced by Fantom

Lyrics

Winter's here now I feel at home
If you're not here then I don't have one
I feel fear when I don't feel you 
How could I not fall apart when you
Left here but didn't take me there with you
I guess what you are to me I'm not that for you
Every thing that I said bad for you
I tried my fucking best to be there for you

winter. | Produced by nowhere valley

Lyrics

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist when I'm sleep

I wanna feel your love, you wanna watch me die
I wanna build up trust, you wanna make me cry
I would of gave it all up just to give us a try
You were just out getting fucked when I wasn't by your side

Why in the fuck did I think I could make you mine?
Everything you say lies
I'ma make songs about you until I make bank
You gonna watch me rise
Thought what we had was something real but it was so fake
You were just in disguise
I used to feel so much love for you, now it's all hate
All of my feelings collide

I don't feel like myself no more
Are you safe for my health? Not sure
I don't like the way I'm not yours
I don't get what this is all for

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist when I'm sleep

If I fell would you catch me?
I want love, you won't let me
Why do I still fight for dreams?
You only exist in my sleep

Why in the fuck did I think I could make you mine?
Everything you say lies
I'ma make songs about you until I make bank
You gonna watch me rise
Thought what we had was something real but it was so fake
You were just in disguise
I used to feel so much love for you, now it's all hate
All of my feelings collide

I don't feel like myself no more
Are you safe for my health? Not sure
I don't like the way I'm not yours
I don't get what this is all for

disguise. | Produced by yeezo x slaying ibis

Lyrics

Write these songs like I got some to say but
When in person ain't got none to say cause
I'm a stupid, broken, anxious
Shell of a man, I don't think that I can

Reach every goal that I had in the plan
I took a turn on the path that I had
So close yet so damn far
How can I feel love with a broken heart?

Coming this far kinda blows my mind
Still sometimes I just wanna hole in mine
Carrying weight with a broken spine
I get so full of hope in a hopeless time

Cause thats all I got to rely on
Where was god when I needed the light on?
I was stuck in lightless place
When he took who I loved to a lifeless space

That was fucking forever ago
But the feeling I felt it won't ever just go
And sometimes I don't think that it's better to cope
I do better at this when I'm hurting the most

I bled for this, I shed for this
Went to heaven and jumped into hell for this
I'm bred for this, was fed for this
Burned every bridge just to care for this

But you won't understand don't even care if you can
I'm so full of myself, I be foolin' myself tryna act like it's cool when I'm crying for help
When I know that it's not but I won't ever admit that
I still feel like I'm lost but I'ma still just pretend that

Everything is a okay, even when I hate everyday
Every waking moment is a moment closer to the day
I'll really find out if all this agony was worth the wait
Or if it didn't even matter at fucking all

I get this urge I should just splatter this fucking wall
With every piece of me that hold these secrets deep beneath
The surface that you see in me these curtains here conceal a beast
That I don't wanna show nobody

stupid. | Produced by raspo

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

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LYRICS
hook:
ive been sleeping with the reaper by my side,
cold sweat drippin, think im barely alive,
ya love cuts deep, left a hole inside,
you the reason that i wanna die tonight,

girl i cant seem to get you off my mind,
hate that i think bout u all the time,
voices in my head and i tell you im fine,
wanna make it work butcha always lyin,

verse:
why you lie to me? this aint fantasy,
this pain is drivin me straight to insanity,
but bitch u only want me financially
would u change for me, would you die for me,
done with your games, girl, i’ve had enough,
love has turned cold, yeah, now its gettin rough,
poppin these pills just so i can live it up,
you broke my trust, now i don’t give a fuck.

verse/breakdown:
woke up lost, feelin’ half alive,
same old pain that I can’t disguise,
smoke in the air, tears in my eyes,
wish I could care, but I’m dead inside.
stuck in the past, can’t rewind the pain,
these nights feel cold yh it’s all the same,
if love’s a sin, then i’ll take the blame,
requiem plays while they chant my name.

hook x2:
ive been sleeping with the reaper by my side,
cold sweat drippin, think im barely alive,
ya love cut deep, left a hole inside,
you the reason that i wanna die tonight,

girl i cant seem to get you off my mind,
hate that i think bout u all the time,
voices in my head and i tell you im fine,
wanna make it work butcha always lyin,

requiem of a sinner (prod. the ushanka boy)

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Lyrics
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Baby what's the point of being alive?
If every single second I'm just wasting my time
You keep looking to me waiting for my broken smile
Nowadays you should know I haven't lied in a while

Nowadays I don't get the point of anything at all
I've been looking down the chasm for some hope but I just fall
I've been looking for some friends to talk to, they ignore my calls
You'd swear they'd think I'd never make it that I just don't got the gall

Yeah, Say they care but then they say I'm doing just fine
Call me on my phone, why the fuck would I pick up the line?
I could'a killed myself some years ago but then where's all the thrill?
In the future stacking bills, in my will, write that everybody's pockets who doubted me should be filled
And the hole where their heart should be let it be filled with guilt, they'll only understand what they've lost, on the day I'm killed

Baby what's the point of being alive?
If every single second I'm just wasting my time
You keep looking to me waiting for my broken smile
Nowadays you should know I haven't lied in a while 

Yeah, yeah, nowadays you should know I haven't lied in a while
Yeah, yeah, yeah, nowadays you should know I haven't lied in a while  

Baby what's the point of being alive?
If every single second I'm just wasting my time
You keep looking to me waiting for my broken smile
Nowadays you should know I haven't lied in a while

What's The Point?

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What's The Point? [Prod. Born Hero]

Lyrics

Hard to know what I feel when I'm out my mind now
I can't tell if it's real, I might just be blind now
Broken heart, cold as steel, life don't feel like mine now
I don't even wanna live, runnin out of time now

I don't know what did so bad to deserve this
I wish I could let you in but I get so nervous
Turned into a mess again, I wish I was perfect
Scrollin' through our messages when my life was perfect

God show me what to do now
Please hold me, I have stooped down
Lower than I ever even knew how
Failed so many times, now I just loose count

Screaming at my laptop, stupid fucking backdrop
I'm a fucking dropout, should of never slacked off
My teacher told me I would be nothing
But a statistic, honestly fuck this

That didn't help me, you didn't scare me
On to the right path, I just grew weary
Now I'm exactly what you said I'd be
I never got why people don't like me

I don't how to get out of my head
Pain is all I know now, I'll be good when I'm dead
Feel it getting close now, breathing down on my neck
Hands around my throat now, suffocating

You can't make me feel what I don't
Don't say that you'll save me, I know that you won't
Fuck up on the daily, you already know
They be tryna take me for my fucking soul

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dropout! | Produced by IOF

@xweepings

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

I tried to trust, tried to love, all for us
It ain't work, now I'm hurt and I hate that hoe
Heart turned to dust, had enough
Got crushed, used to care about it all now I can't no more
I got a rush from the words not heard
Now I'm worse, god damn this can't be so
But I guess it must, now I can't cope
If you hold me close don't let me go

I don't wanna bond just to break
Let me know what you think
Why the fuck would you lead me on?
I don't wanna shine just to fade
Now my minds in a maze
You don't ever fucking treat me good
How I fall in love just hate
On the one that I think
Was the one that would keep me warm
I don't like pills but I need me one
Don't like how I feel when I see me gone

Sadness addict, fell the weight of the planet
Fucking erratic, don't know how I manage
I seem okay when we get face to face
But behind all the skin, I have honestly had it

One day I'm just gonna lose it
Don't know what the fuck I been doing
All my life I been wasting my time
You don't know who I am and neither do I

I don't wanna bond just to break
Let me know what you think
Why the fuck would you lead me on?
I don't wanna shine just to fade
Now my minds in a maze
You don't ever fucking treat me good
How I fall in love just hate
On the one that I think
Was the one that would keep me warm
I don't like pills but I need me one
Don't like how I feel when I see me gone

| weepings |

Fighting every night
hate the silence so I write out
all of these songs everyday
my own headspace is a maze
I think I'm falling out of
love, it was good while it lasted
tilt back the bottle, get blasted 
you was fake, made outta plastic
eating through my heart like acid

but I don't know what I'd do without you
the world is so dark but you lighten my hue
ain't nobody gonna press up on me the way that you do, seeing right thru that
show me just a sign
a single pleading line
so I don't turn my back on you

fucked in the head I might repeat the cycle like
walk home alone with a bottle I trifle like
ain't feeling well you should check on my vitals write
thoughts from the past, they got me suicidal, white
walk in the snowfall
after the leaves fall down
I cannot recall
my life a freefall now
decline all these calls
walking down these halls, frown
I'm not at peace, brawl, my head is leaking out