forlorn fable

Prodcued by legos
Art by: @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I clawed my way out, hand over hand
Digging into walls just so I could fucking stand
Breathing in the dirt like like I thought it was the sky
Thinking that I’m climbing but it’s all a lie

Each escape just made it worse
Wind in the wound, deepened my curse
Caught my breath but I ain't catch peace
Rested long enough just so I could fucking sink

Never built a bridge, I just carved a ledge
Told myself I’d change but I stayed right on the edge
It ain’t healing when you’re just surviving
Calling it a life but inside you're dying

Auditory agony, please can you be sad with me?
I know I won't ever get my after ever happily
Everything is backwards, everything inverted
Yin Yang, Buster's Mal Heart, I been hurting
Perpetual machine of fucking pain is what I'm turning into

You're the only one that I been into
Please don't try to end us, I'ma end you
I don't really think that I'm the issue
Baby, I just miss you

I don't think that's bad, I don't think that's crazy
I just want back my sweet baby

after ever happily.

Produced by sh1t_happens

Lyrics

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong
I ain't even have to write this down cause my boy lux said "speak up"
Late night when I feel so down, I just wish that you'd pick up

Why the fuck would you tell me you care?
Why the fuck would you lead me on?
Why the fuck did you leave me here?
I know you knew you were all that I want

I guess I don't matter
I guess that I never did
You were just playing a game
You were the reason I lived

You'll never call me yours
I'll never see you again
No one will ever mean more to me
Than what you meant to me way back then

I know I'm fucking pathetic
Cause I ain't even know your name
I never held your hand
And I never saw your face

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong

I know that I fucking suck, I know that I'm fucking pitiful
I know I only exist just so that they can have someone to ridicule
All that I wanted was love but that don't exist for me, I'm fucking miserable
Happiness always been minuscule, I should of been dead in middle school

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong
I ain't even have to write this down cause my boy lux said "speak up"
Late night when I feel so down, I just wish that you'd pick up

Why the fuck would you tell me you care?
Why the fuck would you lead me on?
Why the fuck did you leave me here?
I know you knew you were all that I want

I guess I don't matter
I guess that I never did
You were just playing a game
You were the reason I lived

the mask i stapled on my face just to convince myself it was real.

Produced by NewWhiteBoy, zestymain, mollyred
Art by: @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

This is the end, all I do is fuck up, I'll make sure I don't again
I don't give a fuck about you, I don't wanna be your friend
No one gave a fuck about me, all I wanted was a friend

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

I can't heal the void inside my soul
You ain't gotta check on me cause I'm already gone
Give me one more night, I don't want you to go
I got something in my mind, I don't wanna let you know

It gets to a point and I don't see it anymore
Sometime real soon you won't see me anymore
Got a soul parasite, I won't feed it anymore
What's the point in tryna fight if I won't be here anymore?

Don't feel bad when something happens
I should of never even made it this far, it was all an accident
Speeding down the highway, hope I have an accident
There too much on my plate and I can't stomach half of it

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

it gets to a point and i don't see it anymore.

Produced by clk

Lyrics

You don't know how I feel, don't tell me that you understand
Most of these people ain't real, just a machine that look like a man
Most of these people don't think, most of these people programmed
Most of these people ain't woke, they just sound good when they get on that 'gram

You heard that voice in the back of yo head
Why the fuck didn't you turn around?
And it hurts cause you know that they heard what you said but they care about how it sound
And you know they gone call you crazy, know they gone call you weird
Some people ain't worth saving, you can scream but they won't hear

cold crescendo.

Produced by sockedbeatz

Lyrics

I know that I went off of the path, I don't know just really how far though
I think that I picked something up on my way back, I feel like that I been being followed
Feelings I repressed deep inside way from way back killing me inside, I'm feeling hollow
Every friend I had, every bridge, I just burned that, I ain't never really feel no sorrow

Ever since the day it went black, I ain't came back
Everything I love at some point learn to hate that
Everything I touch, why the fuck I gotta break that?
YOU THINK I'M OKAY? I LEARNED TO FAKE THAT

THEY ASK WHERE I BEEN, THEY JUST WANT A SONG
HONESTLY SOMETIMES I JUST CAN'T MAKE THAT
I JUST NEED TO WIN JUST THIS FUCKING ONCE
CAN'T FUCK AGAIN NO I CAN'T TAKE THAT

WHY YOU GIVE ME WHAT I WANTED JUST TO TAKE BACK?
God can you please just give my fucking face back?
Don't call me a genius and ask me how I make that
Cause when it come to open up for some reason can't say that

"Ken, I love you" shut the fuck up, you can save that
Be smart, don't give me your heart, I'ma break that
I'm broken, you won't ever fix me
Up won't ever open cause you won't ever get me

You won't ever call
The treasure I found is now lost
And I won't ever come upon it ever again
Talk to myself, I don't need any friends
I went to hell and I'll be there again
God I swear that I tried my best
I don't know how much more I got left
Probably enough to make my last breath somewhat worth it
Cause I know I'm not worth it
I'm not worth it
I'm not worth it
I'm not worth it
I'm always worthless
I'm always worthless

*auditory agony*

emotional earworm.

Produced by abysswa1ker

Lyrics

You don't know what you meant to me
I don't think I meant shit to you cause you hurt me so simply
I said you were meant for me and you said that's so dumb of me
You're my missing puzzle piece, don't waste yo time tryna run from me

You told me to be myself, now you say I'm scaring you
You lied through your teeth with every breath
Said "Ken, I'll be there for you"
You lied, I called, you didn't pick up, I hope that you hear this

You don't know what you meant to me
I don't think I meant shit to you cause you hurt me so simply
Look at what you did to us, look at what you did to me
I would take a bullet for you, you wouldn't take a hit for me

I don't wanna make plans, I want my history
I thought you were the best I had but you were just a bitch to me
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO US, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME

LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME

Look at what you did to us, look at what you did to me, look at what you did to us

You don't know what you meant to me
I don't think I meant shit to you cause you hurt me so simply
I said you were meant for me and you said that's so dumb of me
You're my missing puzzle piece, don't waste yo time tryna run from me

You don't know what you meant to me
I don't think I meant shit to you cause you hurt me so simply
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO US, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME
LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME, LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME

pessimistic playlist.

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

I know you don't care about me at all
Still ain't learn to let go, thought by now that I'd be better off
I lost her but I ain't lose that feeling, still ain't got it off
They say life's a game, I wish it was so I could log off

Dealing with insomnia, I wish I could nod off
I gave so much love to her but she don't want me at all
Every thought I think is wrong, wish I could turn my head off
You're not here so I'm not better

I'm so fed up with myself
I'm weak, every week I just weep
Why'd I let her in my heart? Let her in my soul?
I can't stop, I can't let her go

I got love around me but not in my soul
Please, don't ever ask me why I feel so cold
Romeo and Juliet but you ain't want that role
Where'd you go? I been on my own

This is not a trend or a genre or a style
This is who I am, I been like this since a child
Always in my head, always had a heavy heart
Always holding it in, always falling apart

And I'm tired of it, I don't wanna do it no more
Break down in tears then end up on my floor
All of these years...what the fuck were they for?
I'll never know

I know you don't care about me at all
Still ain't learn to let go, thought by now that I'd be better off
I lost her but I ain't lose that feeling, still ain't got it off
They say life's a game, I wish it was so I could log off

Dealing with insomnia, I wish I could nod off
I gave so much love to her but she don't want me at all
Every thought I think is wrong, wish I could turn my head off
You're not here so I'm not better

inconsolable interlude.

Produced by diemadeway x krovarxiv

Lyrics

Pills, weed, alcohol and cigarettes
Took too much now my heart beating fast and I don't know what's next
Even if I did OD, nobody would notice me, nobody except my fucking mom
I'm a fucking bum, I live like a slob

I just met this bitch and I don't even care about her, I just wanna get some top
I'ma do her wrong, woke up with her next me, I asked her could she leave so I could make a fucking song
What the fuck is going on? She said I'm a piece of shit and I can't prove her wrong
So I'ma prove her right, hope she cry at night, hope that I can make this hoe rethink her fucking life

I can't be the best she ever had but I can be the worst
I can't show her love but I can break that bitch heart first
I don't care if I'm your enemy aslong as you remember me
I know all I'll ever be is just a fucking memory

pitiful performance.

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I remember how it felt to fall
Ever since you left my ass ain't felt at all
Bitch, I went through hell and back, my ass done felt it all
And don't waste yo fucking time, I can't be helped at all

I post what I want, fuck a spotify placement
I don't wanna go outside, butterflies in the basement
Bitch, don't talk to me about royalties, I don't care about no label
Music all I got when I don't feel stable

You wanna perform, I wanna be okay
You just making songs, I'm just letting out my heartache
I got me some numbers, don't they love to see it?
But behind this screen all that bullshit doesn't mean shit

When I still wanna kill myself
One day I'ma kill myself
I don't need fresh air, I need my last breath
Don't cry, I know you don't care

I remember how it felt to fall
Ever since you left my ass ain't felt at all
Bitch, I went through hell and back, my ass done felt it all
And don't waste yo fucking time, I can't be helped at all

I post what I want, fuck a spotify placement
I don't wanna go outside, butterflies in the basement
Bitch, don't talk to me about royalties, I don't care about no label
Music all I got when I don't feel stable

tragic tone.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

I ain't been okay in like a while though
I can't turn it off, all of my thoughts are suicidal
I get so depressed but it's ironic I don't cry though
Don't say you love me, I know that you lying hoe

I call this "music", all I do is whine though
Everything I do is stupid, no point in trying so
I give in, gave you everything I had
You're with him, I just wish I had you back

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I KNOW
NOT OKAY BUT I'LL SAY I'M FINE THOUGH
I'M AFRAID THAT WE'RE PAST OUR FINAL HOUR
I SHOULD LEARN TO LET GO BUT I'M HONESTLY A COWARD
I DON'T WANNA FEEL THE LOVE UNLESS THE LOVE IS OURS
LAYING IN MY BED BEEN UP FOR 24 HOURS
COME BACK BABY, WON'T YOU SAVE ME?

I ain't been okay in like a while though
I can't turn it off, all of my thoughts are suicidal
I get so depressed but it's ironic I don't cry though
Don't say you love me, I know that you lying hoe

I call this "music", all I do is whine though
Everything I do is stupid, no point in trying so
I give in, gave you everything I had
You're with him, I just wish I had you back

sorrow serenade.

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

What I feel I don't know why
Feel like I been killed but I won't die
All I feel is pain but I won't cry
Told me that you'll change but it's all lies

Woke up, I ain't want to
I know that I'm fucked, why I want you?
Giving me a chance what you won't do
I don't understand why you're playing, why you so rude?

Where you going? Can you hold on?
I'ma hold onto the pain cause I got no one
And I know that I can change but I don't want
This is all I've ever known, I can't go on

I don't know why I'm like this
I'm getting tired of fighting
I'm getting tired of trying
I'm getting tired of hiding

You don't wanna know the real me
You won't ever understand, you don't feel me
I ain't dead right now but I will be
You should give up now, I ain't healing

You don't need me, you should leave me alone
Fuck how I feel, I don't need you to know
If I don't exist then I can't feel alone
Don't say that you cared when I'm long gone

They think I'm off cause it's all on
What they think is right I think all wrong
The shit that I know I can't talk on
Cause I'm in a place you can't walk on

*auditory agony*

Woke up, I ain't want to
I know that I'm fucked, why I want you?
Giving me a chance what you won't do
I don't understand why you're playing, why you so rude?

Where you going? Can you hold on?
I'ma hold onto the pain cause I got no one
And I know that I can change but I don't want
This is all I've ever known, I can't go on

I don't know why I'm like this
I'm getting tired of fighting
I'm getting tired of trying
I'm getting tired of hiding

agonys allegory.

Produced by 6astard

Lyrics

I been up all night long, you're in my mind but I'm on my own
Get off of work and I go back home, sit in my driveway way too long
Close my eyes and I pray everyday but a part of me thinks that we're all alone
Part of me knows that that part is wrong, part of me knows that I'm more than bone
Part of me knows that this body is part of me, pardon me if I may come off strong

I'm not the person you think that I am
I'm not even a person to begin with
I know that most of you won't understand
But if everybody has diamonds then what are they worth anyway in the end?

Where'd you go? Why you ain't think that you could of took me?
I'm so cold, if I got cut then I wouldn't even bleed
I'm so cold, I went to hell and I ain't even leave
Where's my soul? I know I got one but it ain't with me

I'm not yours anymore, don't give me love I don't know what it's for
I learned to live off pain, something is wrong in my brain
Already tried won't change, damage is my only aim
This is the part where it gets hard to leave my bed like a graveyardwraith

melancholy melody.

Produced by diemadeway x krovarxiv

Lyrics

Said every word that I possibly can
Guess that I won't ever heal and I tried to be good but I really don't think that I can

"ken, i fucking hate you"

I don't care about shit, they don't care about ken
She told me she got a man but I'm still in her pants, like bitch I don't care about him

Honestly I don't even care about her
Made up my mind but I'm still not sure
My only opp myself, might off myself
Fuck around put myself on a shirt

Can't get better but I can get worse
I done tried everything, still ain't work
I ain't even hurting no more, just god damn numb
I don't know what I've become

I don't what I am, I don't know what I should do
It don't matter which way I go, I'ma be wrong with whatever I choose
I guess somebody's gotta fail and I guess that it's gonna be me
I never even felt real, I don't really care if I leave

You ain't gotta act like you care about me, I ain't gone act like I care about you
This ain't an act, I don't care about streams
This where I go when I don't know what to do
Not a performer, I do not care what you think about me cause I am what I am

I watched a movie and tattooed "detmer, garrett" on my arm

There ain't shit you could say that could cause me harm
I made a halo out of my horns
Already told you it's darker than black
I ain't stuck in the rain, bitch I'm stuck in a storm

Every line, no lie
I'm not alive, I'm just waiting to die
Death is the ticket I'm waiting to buy
Don't even ask, I ain't telling you why

Heartbroken harmony, why she ain't calling me?
My love life kinda like the economy, I need a lot but I ain't got enough
Tried to move on but I think I'm stuck
You is not her, I don't want your love
Told me you cared but I called your bluff
I wasn't worth it, I'm not enough

Clock keep spinnin' but I'm stuck in place
Wish I could vanish and leave no trace
Hurting inside but a smile on my face
No one knows what I hold inside
I don't like my head, want a hole in mine
I need a hand, can you hold mine?
You been the problem the whole time

heartbroken harmony.

Produced by vipex x centrlx

Lyrics

You really think I need you? I don't even know what I want
Girl, I'll never believe you, you can say "I love you" all you want
She wanna get to know "real me", I don't even know who I am
You could never get under my skin cause I really just don't give a damn

Don't care, I do not give a fuck
I don't care how much your life sucks
I don't care how much pain you in
I don't care about being your friend

I don't care how much you need help
I only care about my damn self
I don't care about what you felt
I'll never care about no one else

I turned myself into the villain, she ain't let me be her hero
I had a heart that was so full of love but I don't anymore it's on zero
I could take all of the medicine, try every therapist, won't ever heal though
Empathy, happiness, confidence, calmness
I know that I'll never feel those

You really think I need you? I don't even know what I want
Girl, I'll never believe you, you can say "I love you" all you want
She wanna get to know "real me", I don't even know who I am
You could never get under my skin cause I really just don't give a damn

Don't care, I do not give a fuck
I don't care how much your life sucks
I don't care how much pain you in
I don't care about being your friend

I don't care how much you need help
I only care about my damn self
I don't care about what you felt
I'll never care about no one else

You really think I need you? I don't even know what I want
Girl, I'll never believe you, you can say "I love you" all you want
She wanna get to know "real me", I don't even know who I am
You could never get under my skin cause I really just don't give a damn

ominus overture.

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I know I'm alone but I learn how to cope with it
I won't ever know how it feels to be close with them
I know what I am and I know that they won't like it
I know I won't go but it'd be cool to be invited

Something evil in my soul and I don't wanna fight
I reside in shadows, I don't like it where the light hit
You just think it's darkness, I can see it's vibrance
I gave her my heart, she ran away and I can't find it

I'm a fucking joke, I ain't nothing but a loser
They tell me choose life but they don't know that that mean choose her
Don't call me an angel, I am not a savior
Look at my behavior, I think that I'm the danger

I know I'm alone, I learn how to cope though
I know you won't call, I'm still staring at my phone though
Standing in my yard, wanna smash my phone on the rocks I'm standing on
Fuck this cliff I'm standing on

*auditory agony*

Something evil in my soul and I don't wanna fight
I reside in shadows, I don't like it where the light hit
You just think it's darkness, I can see it's vibrance
I gave her my heart, she ran away and I can't find it

I'm a fucking joke, I ain't nothing but a loser
They tell me choose life but they don't know that that mean choose her
Don't call me an angel, I am not a savior
Look at my behavior, I think that I'm the danger

cheerless composer.

Produced by vertigo x centrlx

Lyrics

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

All I feel is anguish, feel like I'm corroding
Nothing could extinguish all the flames when I'm exploding
I'm on a new level, I think you're still loading
Im not saying that I'm better, I'm already where you're going

I can't let you stop me, I cannot let you delay me
Please don't waste yo time, I'm out my mind & you can't change me
Girl, I appreciate the fact you tried but you can't save me
I never wanted to leave june in july but now you hate me

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

bitter ballad.

Produced by luffy

Lyrics

No one ever told me it could get this dark down here
I don't get it, I don't understand, I don't know why I'm here
I learn all these things about what it means to be alive but I don't ever feel alive

I got colors on the palette for some reason I can't paint it
I lost what I had then, what it was I can't explain it
I'm not what you want but I need what you are
I got all these thoughts but I can't see what they are

I'm a corpse of who I was, I'm just a ghost, I'm a nobody
Waking up feel forced, I'm fucking stuck, this ain't a hobby
Tried to let it go but they told me that they own me
Wrong is where I go, I'm not alive, I'm just a zombie

I got something in my soul that I can't get out anymore
I used to be sure but I'm not so sure anymore
I miss who I was but I can't be him anymore
I don't wanna do this, not again, not anymore

Because no one ever told me it could get this dark down here
I don't get it, I don't understand, I don't know why I'm here
I learn all these things about what it means to be alive but I don't ever feel alive

Told her I would follow her through any door
Then she said, "I don't love you anymore"
She ain't stab me in my back with a knife, she used a sword
Everything I feel is black, I don't see color anymore

I think I'm drowning, can somebody help me?
I don't think I meant for the dreams I'm always having
They'll always be dreams and I'll always have to wake up
Always have to clock in and always wear this make up

Make you think I'm okay cause you could never save me anyway
Reminisce on old days cause I won't ever feel happy any day

trauma tempo.

Produced by vertigo

Lyrics

I miss where I was but I can't go back anymore
You were all I had but you don't love me anymore
One of these days somebody gone find me on the floor
I tried for so long but I don't want to anymore

Thought you were an angel, you ain't nothing but a whore
Fuck you bitch, I don't care if you leave me, I'll walk you to that door
Ran out of drink, I'm drunk as fuck, I need some more
So many voices inside of my mind, my whole life been a war

Think I'm playing? Did you forget what I said?
Where the fuck you think you going?
Bitch, you can't leave me till you dead
Wanna leave my ass on read? I'ma leave yo body red with blood because you fucked me up

I miss where I was but I can't go back anymore
You were all I had but you don't love me anymore
One of these days somebody gone find me on the floor
I tried for so long but I don't want to anymore

I miss where I was but I can't go back anymore
You were all I had but you don't love me anymore
One of these days somebody gone find me on the floor
I tried for so long but I don't want to anymore

forlorn fable

unknxwn.