Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

lyrics:
i don’t wanna die got no friends im
in a fight with my mind slit my wrists ten times
fight fire with fire i’ll burn my eyes out
drowning in the lies who the turned the lights out
hearts been broke, now i’m all alone
i could never trust again, no i hate that hoe
leave me lost in the dark, but her eyes they glow
if you ever want me back just let me know

stab me in the back you let me down
turn my smile upside down
the voice inside my head don’t bother me
but its so fucking loud
brain so numb put a bullet in it i know
leave me in the rain, while i bleed, it’s a cycle
break me down now i’m nothing, suicidal
i ain’t never felt the same since i wrote the suicide note

i don’t see the point of going on in a life
that i don’t even like
i don’t even wanna fight
i don’t see why i still try
when i know that i’ll meet demise
ain’t no one cared when i was close to doing what would make me die
doing what would make you cry 
if i went through with thoughts of mine
everyday i wake up in a cycle
i don’t think it spots the trigger i pull
i can see the bitch with my eyes closed
i don’t wanna talk anymore just let me go
you made me sick of myself
made me hate me cause what i felt
girl you played me for the last time
this the last time

i don’t wanna die got no friends im
in a fight with my mind slit my wrists ten times
fight fire with fire i’ll burn my eyes out
drowning in the lies who the turned the lights out
hearts been broke, now i’m all alone
i could never trust again, no i hate that hoe
leave me lost in the dark, but her eyes they glow
if you ever want me back just let me know

suicide note II w/ unknxwn (TXNSHI)

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

wired.

Lyrics

dear me,
love,
you

Lost in thought, I'm lost a lot
But if you ask I'll say I'm not
I never cared for fucking help
Cause no one really fucking cares

I'm not excused, I do it too
Cause what the fuck we supposed to do
When all we learned at every turn
Was people just like using you?

I know the feeling that you get when you just wanna scream
But you don't cause you don't want the ones around you to believe
That what you need is mental help when that's not what you fucking need
What you need is fucking love but all you have is fucking drugs

I don't wanna talk so I just sing behind a fucking screen
Yeah we both speak English but you can't distinguish what I mean
There's a barrier thats heavier than Earth that's in between
You and me and it just fucking hurts that you ain't hearing me

If not for music, I would not be where I am today
I'm still not where I wanna be but where I was I'm far away
I met this girl, I'm thankful she stuck by my side along the way
This line right here don't fit the song, it's just to say I love you babe

Now can y'all stop sayin' that I only talk about the bad?
I can talk about the good but that's not where my talent's at
I turn broken pieces into art for broken people
So they know that there's some good inside when all they feel is evil

detmer, garrett

spotify.

dearmeloveyou. | Produced by miercoles

KELLEN DE VOS - GRAND SLAM

JYAZZZ!!

unknxwn. - I think the worst of myself

I think the worst of myself. | Produced by Yung Vro.

leave the other box with me

Lyrics

Lately I been fucking
Up my life for nothing
I need a smoke or something
Put a pill inside my stomach
I can't do this alone no more
Don't wanna go home so
Mom goodnight and I love you
I hate the stress that I cause you
I could write about my life and no one would ever get me
People put me down but there's no one here to life me
I could save your life, in the end you'd still forget me
No one by my side so I keep lots of drugs within reach
Devil where you at? My soul's up for grabs
Right now I wouldn't mind your Hell for some cash
So write up a contract, let's get it over
I need a blunt wrap, don't wanna be sober

"For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay."

hellbent. | Produced by capsctrl

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I'm a lost lonely soul, I do not like this
I been hurt for so long, why should I fight this?
Was a lie all along, you're the reason I'm pissed
And it's sad I would take you right back so quick

Why would I do that? You might ask
I ain't ever had another feeling like that
I call it love but it's more like a drug
Cause I keep running back, I just ain't had enough

You're my twin flame
I miss your face
Can't say your name
It makes me break

I miss everything that we ever did
Talking bout our life and what we would name our kid
I ain't ever think I could love someone like this
I'll always be here for you, don't care what you did

I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love I'll make sure no one can
That's just how I feel, that's not what I am
But without you here, don't know who I am

Lost my mind when you said bye
Who's that guy? Please don't tell me another one of your lies

You're my twin flame
I miss your face
Can't say your name
It makes me break (x2)

twin flame.

Lyrics

I'm stressed out, I'm hopeless
Can't black out on no shit
Been sober for too long
I almost just broke it

I wanna sip on a cup of some potion
I wanna smoke till I feel like I'm floatin'

This fucking probation got me all the fucked up
Too bad that I fucked up
Need motivation because I feel like giving up
Hope I'm not shit out of luck

Can't take it I might just go meet satan
Not faking, I think I might need saving
Life I hate it, not what I meant to create it
I'm so sick of fucking waiting like when the fuck will I make it?

I don't feel amazing, I feel like I'm fucking hated
I been tryna take it but I don't think I can take it
If I don't get drunk soon, I'ma end up wasted
I miss what the drugs do, I need medication

I don't feel like myself

I don't feel like myself at all
I miss the nights when you would call
You made me take down all my walls
Just to make me build more walls

I'm tired singing the same song about the same bitch
It's like taking pics of pain just to frame it
I made an album shit I might as well of hanged it
Every tear that I drop I should paint with

The way I'm going, I might as well live to be hurt
Cause I make songs about pain just to be heard
I'm not right in my brain, I'm a loose screw
Hate me or love me whichever one suits you

I can't feel neither, I'm numb anesthesia
Hate that I need her, I'm dumb, I'm no teacher
I spent my time when in school on a bleacher
Thoughts in my mind really making me weaker

I need a...
I don't know what I need in my life to believe
That I'm all that I need in this life to be pleased
I hate this place, I just wish I could leave

I'm stressed out, I'm hopeless
Can't black out on no shit
Been sober for too long
I almost just broke it

I wanna sip on a cup of some potion
I wanna smoke till I feel like I'm floatin'

This fucking probation got me all the fucked up
Too bad that I fucked up
Need motivation because I feel like giving up
Hope I'm not shit out of luck

I don't feel amazing, I feel like I'm fucking hated
I been tryna take it but I don't think I can take it
If I don't get drunk soon, I'ma end up wasted
I miss what the drugs do, I need medication

SOBER! | Produced by ERLAX

unknxwn.