the winter.

unknxwn

@rxdlxst

Lyrics

Why do I beg for your love when I'm feelin' depressed when I know that it's only a lie
Why do I fight to keep livin' this world is a mess and I think that it's better to die
Why do I keep writing songs that are so hard to finish that reflect the pain that I try
To hide from the people that care for me most, I know when I pass they're the ones that'll cry

I cannot cope with the fact that I'll never be good enough for anyone to be pleased
I'm always left in the past and they don't even hesitate, I am forgotten with ease
Autumn has fallen and so has my heart, the spark that I had is now dead like the leaves
Don't waste your time on unknxwn. cause he'll never amount to the one that you want him to be

All black, bucket hat, white shoes, heart bruised
Hopes up, nevermind, bummed out, defuse
All black, bucket hat, white shoes, heart bruised
Hopes up, nevermind, bummed out, defuse

I'm the emboiment of all the problems that ruin your life when it's too hard to solve em
I am the reason you break down in tears when the one that you love hits decline when you call em
I am the small little push that'll get you to fall when you're already stuck on the edge
I am the shovel that's already dug out your grave and just waiting for you to be dead

unknxwn. - defuse

defuse.

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defuse. | Produced by rxdlxst

Lyrics

Don't waste yo time on a hoe, fuck then ghost
If yo heart do get involved, don't let her know
If you think she is the one, it's just a show
Pull up, slide in, pull out, then I gotta go

I got no time for a bitch to open up
Stop wasting mine, if you not gone open up
I can't hold you down, I'm too busy goin' up
You I do not need, move around or open up

I ain't tryna' play, I'ma keep it real
I'm just tryna' pop you just like a pill
No emotion but I wanna see how you would feel
Why you trippin'? I'ma block you if you don't chill

Don't waste yo time on a hoe, fuck then ghost
If yo heart do get involved, don't let her know
If you think she is the one, it's just a show
Pull up, slide in, pull out, then I gotta go

When you fucked me over, I got so lost
That put me in the process, I almost gave up
But I found myself again, I don't wanna see you no more
But I'm still callin' your phone, girl don't hurt me no more

You were the reason I turned to a fuckboy
I gave you everything, you left me no choice
I'd still give anything if you would ask me
I let you drive my world but you just crashed me

Now I'm stuck here, broken from a cliff fall
Screaming but you don't hear, I know you see my missed call
I can't even walk now, guess I gotta just crawl
I should let you go, this shit so hard but it's so simple

Your makeup on my face
Everything that I loved turned to what I hate
That feeling that you gave me, I can't shake
It used to be your lips, now your blood I wanna taste

Don't waste yo time on a hoe, fuck then ghost
If yo heart do get involved, don't let her know
If you think she is the one, it's just a show
Pull up, slide in, pull out, then I gotta go

don't let her know! | Produced by HXRXKILLER

sweetkid - see you later

From an idea of Alex
Written & produced by LÆ

“choices” lyrics

[intro]
You got a friend in me
Maybe it's time to leave
Leaving your family

[verse]
I don't really know if you care about me
Feel it on this blood that I poured on my tee aye
Supreme tees on my skin
It doesn't even matter I don't wanna live

[pre]
I don't even know I'm lying on the floor
Pain to the head that it feels like coke
I tried some but I can't count all that

[chorus]
Time that I've been losing
Choices I've been chosen no
Oh oh Oh oh
Choices that I've been chosen

[verse]
All that I do is tryna complain
About every mistake that I made
I'm out of the door
Cause I don't wanna see you no more

[verse]
I don't wanna play this game
The way that I feel that I fake
The day that you told me to stay aye aye

[verse]
And I've been watching you go away alone
And I've been falling on the floor while you called my name

[verse]
I don't really know if you care about me
Feel it on this blood that I poured on my tee aye
Supreme tees on my skin
It doesn't even matter I don't wanna live

[pre]
I don't even know I'm lying on the floor
Pain to the head that it feels like coke
I tried some but I can't count all that

[chorus]
Time that I've been losing
Choices I've been chosen no
Oh oh Oh oh
Choices that I've been chosen

[out]
I don't really know if you care about me
Feel it on this blood that I poured on my tee
Supreme tees on my skin
It doesn't even matter I don't wanna live

Choices

@paineko

Lyrics

My soul is burning from fires that I set
You said you loved me, that's not what your eyes said
You think I'm breathing, I promise I'm not yet
You know those people that suck? Yeah I'm that

On planet depression till drugs take me off it
The hope that I had slipped away and I lost it
The only bed that I need is a coffin
I'm stuck in a nightmare, won't end till I stop it

And that can mean two things, growing up and facing life
Or my blood from blew brains
Knife inside my back, it's marked with a few names
All are alterations of mine, I'm what I hate

"Damn, that's some deep shit"
Nah, it's just real
But real is buried underneath
It's locked away and it's sealed
So I guess deep could justify the fuckin' way that I feel
All the pain's in my head but I swear it could kill

Kill a motherfucker quick, pop one shot and I'm dead
I swear that I tried, I want to but I can't
All I say is TIDE! but can't get the stains out
If I don't die soon, I might blow my brains out

Mama I'm sorry, I know soon enough you'll hear this
But sometimes all of the pain's too much to deal with
I don't even wanna get better, just want to quit
I'm sorry if the day that I die, it seems too quick

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I don't even really wanna...oh my god
I forgot what I wanted to say, I'm so off
I might really like go away, so long
I been dealing with my pain so long

I'm sorry if I die too soon
I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too
I'm sorry if I die like tonight

I don't really wanna take this
I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up
I don't even really wanna sleep

I might of took too much
Fuck it, i'll just take one more
I still ain't gone enough
Fuck it, I'll just take two more

How much more will it take?
Till I can't take it no more
Till I can't stop that shake
Till I die on my own floor

collapse. | Produced by paineko

Lyrics

I don't wanna be alone I have been so long
I'm afraid I'll die with the comfort of no one
People do me wrong, I really don't wanna go on
Why'd you have to lie? I just started to grow on you

Guess that's fine, my heart's used to being broken
Girl I broke my back for you, I'll guess you'll never know it
I wanna come back to you, I'm trying not to show it
Cause then I'll get my heart abused and trashed and then you'll throw it

I don't wanna connect anymore
There's not a lot of people that I really care for
But the one's that I do, I try to give it my all
And there still ain't nobody there to catch me when I fall

Thoughts that I don't like to think about, I'm feelin' anxious now
Locked inside my room, I'll make a song to let the hatred out
Don't know what to do, say that a lot, but fuck I'm lost a lot
I wish it was through, I need a drug cause I can't make it stop

I don't wanna be alone I have been so long
I'm afraid I'll die with the comfort of no one
People do me wrong, I really don't wanna go on
Why'd you have to lie? I just started to grow on you

Guess that's fine, my heart's used to being broken
Girl I broke my back for you, I'll guess you'll never know it
I wanna come back to you, I'm trying not to show it
Cause then I'll get my heart abused and trashed and then you'll throw it

broken. | Produced by paineko

Lyrics

I don't smoke for fun bitch, bitch I smoke because it helps
You think I'm the one bitch? Sorry but you're dead as hell
Livin' life with me is like livin' life in fuckin hell
Can't you fuckin' tell I'm unstable and bitch there's more under the table

Purposely pushin' away, I do not want you to stay (no)
All of my feelin's are grey, why is you callin' me bae, hoe?
Hop the fuck off my line, I'll only waste your time
Yeah we're both here but I promise the reason you are isn't the same as mine

Sorry I sound like an ass, honestly I really am
Yeah, you can come to the crib but you ain't meetin' my fam
Yeah, you prolly know why, I'ma hang up if you cry
I did not come here for feels, after we fuck, it's fuckin' goodbye

I lost all my feelin's on my way back from depression
Life is fuckin' Hell & when I die I'll go to Heaven
unknxwn. but fuck the "o", her favorite number was a 7
I spent 7 months alone so nobody gets the credit

For why I'm still alive, why I didn't choose to die
No comfort when I cried, all alone every night
In the dark where I reside, so I don't need you as a light
I'm the reason I'm still here, and I'm the reason I'm alive

I'm the only one I'll ever need in this world
My dick is the only thing I'll ever give a girl
I'm sick in the head, I don't like shit, shout out to Earl
Sippin' slow on some merlot in a solo until I twirl

I lost myself when I found you, I guess it had to end
I wouldn't snap till I found proof that it was all pretend
I hoped to come a dead end so I could be with you
But I found more than I wanted, so now with you I'm through

With all your lies, I can't believe that every time
That you said that you were mine, it was all just a disguise
For you to throw on and off when needed someone to call
I hope you play this song while driving by a cliff and slip right off

I'm not the bad guy unless make me
But you did me so fucked up that I been thinking lately
That every person that I meet I'll do 'em wrong before it's me
Cause every single time I don't it just leaves me more incomplete

But how could that work if I'm just passing my hurt
Around like it's not important that someone else has the curse?
Cause it won't seize to exist just because it's not in my grip
Around the world it goes until it's back to me when I'm picked

And then I'm back to my shit talking, explosive, I'm poppin'
Detmer's what I call my demon, I can hear it knockin'
He won't leave till I agree, if I don't cave it ain't stoppin'
Smoking weed is the only way that I know I can stop him

merlot. | Produced by khail

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

Lyrics

I don't like the way I feel when I'm alone without you here
All I do is scream for help but I don't think you ever hear
Hate inside my veins everyday that you're away 
And I don't feel the same, I just wanna see your face

I wanna get so fucked up right now but I'm really trying not to go that route
I can't even lie I really miss your touch now, I really wish you'd come back now
I don't see the point of going on without you
I get so annoyed when I wake up without you here

I feel like ice
My skin so cold
I miss those nights
You'd hold me close

My voice breaks and cracks when I talk to you now 
I don't think we'll get back when you were still around 
I hate that fucking song where I sampled your laugh
Because it really shows you laugh at me when I'm down

I have so much more love than I would ever show 
And I did so damn much that you will never know
And it was all for you but you're a fucking ghost 
I'm glad we're fucking through but I don't really know

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agony. (unwritten) | Produced by nicasso

Lyrics

I'm stressed out, I'm hopeless
Can't black out on no shit
Been sober for too long
I almost just broke it

I wanna sip on a cup of some potion
I wanna smoke till I feel like I'm floatin'

This fucking probation got me all the fucked up
Too bad that I fucked up
Need motivation because I feel like giving up
Hope I'm not shit out of luck

Can't take it I might just go meet satan
Not faking, I think I might need saving
Life I hate it, not what I meant to create it
I'm so sick of fucking waiting like when the fuck will I make it?

I don't feel amazing, I feel like I'm fucking hated
I been tryna take it but I don't think I can take it
If I don't get drunk soon, I'ma end up wasted
I miss what the drugs do, I need medication

I don't feel like myself

I don't feel like myself at all
I miss the nights when you would call
You made me take down all my walls
Just to make me build more walls

I'm tired singing the same song about the same bitch
It's like taking pics of pain just to frame it
I made an album shit I might as well of hanged it
Every tear that I drop I should paint with

The way I'm going, I might as well live to be hurt
Cause I make songs about pain just to be heard
I'm not right in my brain, I'm a loose screw
Hate me or love me whichever one suits you

I can't feel neither, I'm numb anesthesia
Hate that I need her, I'm dumb, I'm no teacher
I spent my time when in school on a bleacher
Thoughts in my mind really making me weaker

I need a...
I don't know what I need in my life to believe
That I'm all that I need in this life to be pleased
I hate this place, I just wish I could leave

I'm stressed out, I'm hopeless
Can't black out on no shit
Been sober for too long
I almost just broke it

I wanna sip on a cup of some potion
I wanna smoke till I feel like I'm floatin'

This fucking probation got me all the fucked up
Too bad that I fucked up
Need motivation because I feel like giving up
Hope I'm not shit out of luck

I don't feel amazing, I feel like I'm fucking hated
I been tryna take it but I don't think I can take it
If I don't get drunk soon, I'ma end up wasted
I miss what the drugs do, I need medication

SOBER! | Produced by ERLAX

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